Book of Poetry In roughly chronological order . . . And the dawn of thought So it's here again, and And I know it's not hard I just wish you could see I never thought my heart You're ever in my heart Yet though I love you, and though you love me And I know that you lied I never truly dreamed Jealous-Heart yearns for more, though it should be quite content Breaking eternal truths it's never dreamt it would ever break And it seems from the past comes a hope abandoned long Love-lorn, heart-torn, forever searching for the one Has it found for what it's forever searched, but never truely dreamt Love-lorn, heart-torn, could this be the path Dancing in shadows Though you hide it low You cry for love Dancing in sunbeams You're not in love with me I'm not in love with you I once was- I am in love with you And today you For all our equality He has not commanded such What you want is what's the truth Can't you see you've been blinded? And you think you know what's true Can't you see you've been blinded? So you lie, but not to me Can't you see you've been blinded? Can't you see? You've been blinded . . . Three years seems so long from this young view Three years long ago I fell for you Three years have now passed since we once shared Out of the blue . . . Time, sometimes Out of the blue . . . Three years pass until you wish to share again Back to Bastian's Dreams
Chapter Three
- so full of darkness often first -
breaks upon me
and I realize that.
But it brings with it the sort of a bird of truth
and light that is so often unknown to me
Yes I think I'm sorry
'Cause I thought you and me
Were gonna be happy
Still it makes me worry
What I see so clearly
'Cause I know then we'd be
Truly happy
Would rejoice at the thought of new love
I never thought that I
Would again feel love before I die
Even when faced with my troubled past
You'll ever be a part
Of my soul, filling the barren hole
You'll never love me the way that I want
You're the one of my dreams,
And though it seems
You're here . . .
You're really not . . .
And tried to hide
That which you knew was true
But it seems we now agree
And you love me
As I too have loved you
I'd ever truly find love, it seemed
Yet you're more than my dreams
And meant to be with me eternally
And though selfish in its depth, seems fair in its intent
Craving more than care and more than fair
Of that that's sought, but is far too rare
Realizing that though in love it dwells, wandering wonder leads it wondering yonder
Never knowing there dwelt interest within this one's heart-song
Discovery, recovery
Awoke the love known meant to be
Love-lost, star-crossed, could this be the one, at long last
Who will touch this longing heart
It could ever find this fairytale from reality's contempt
Paradise dwells in the eyes, both sweet and strong and warm and wise
Pleading eternally for Fate's good grace, released from hate
Ensconsed in words to the truth that's known to love
I see your soul
Wraped around you
Like a ring
Wraped in silence
I seek your heart
Dancing in shadows
It softly sings
And far too well to find
I believe I know
Now what lies
In your heart and your mind
You love to cry
Pain is you
Embracing lover
In its comfort you lie
I see some dreams
I see your fantasy
Dancing 'round you and me
I know you say you are
And you may even believe
But you're not
If you were
You'd never want us to be apart
I know I say I am
And I may even wish
But I'm not
If I were-
But you've ruined that with your lies
Well, twice was
The one you knew
And another, too:
And olympic star,
Swimming its way to brightness
But it vanished
Leaving me in darkness
I know I said I'm not
And I may even wish
But I am
If I weren't
My heart wouldn't cry from the pain
look upon me
And today you
see my heart
And today the clouds
aren't crying
And today it feels
like a new start
differences remain
What is it that makes a man
want each of heaven's stars?
All beautiful
Yet all different
Why must he have them all
When his is oh so bright?
And try as he might
He cannot escape
The cirlcle of his plight
He never could, He never would
For He is love, and we're to love
And we are love
And what is true is inside you
And He's there, too
Waiting to tell you . . .
While the truth hides in your heart
Though your soul with surely find it
If you free yourself from thought
And yet the truth remains aloof
For what is true is inside you
And He's there, too
Ready to tell you . . .
While the truth hides in your heart
Though your soul will surely find it
If you free yourself from thought
You lie to them, you lie to Him
Yet you'll find if deep you seek
That He is love, and we're to love
And we are love
And we're in love
Or I am in love . . .
While the truth hides in you heart
Though your soul will surely find it
If you free yourself from thought
My heart still sings the song from this old view
When I first met you
and I thought that you
never knew my heart's truth
Then you prove me wrong
and showed that your heart's song
wasn't long from my truth
My heart still wants to know your heart's deep truth
When you showed your heart
I thought you knew my heart
from the start I loved you
But it fell to dust
When you showed that lust
Wasn't just love for you
My heart still holds on fast to when we shared
Flows like a circle
Ringing 'round
End to beginning
Deja vu
Ends anew
My heart still wonders will we ever share again
When I first met you
and I thought that you
never knew my heart's truth
Then you proved me wrong
and showed that your heart's song
wasn't long from my truth
When you showed your heart
I thought you knew my heart
from the start I loved you
But it fell to dust
when you showed that lust
wasn't just love for you
And now that I've known you
and I've known that you
always knew my heart's truth
But how long must I
wait 'til you and I
will realize our love's truth