Hmm July is here. And the shopping season’s coming to an end. There are still things that I need to get but darn… NO DISCOUNT! How sucky is that?! What I don’t need, they’re having it on sale. What I want, it’s not on sale.
And now I’m afraid to go out; cos when I do, I will keep on spending. And I can’t stop. I can’t control myself. There are times when I go out, I don’t spend but that’s like 1 out of 5 outings? I need someone to curb me from impulse shopping..
I got a new laptop. My pc went bonkers again so I can’t go online. My laptop is getting slower and yesterday, the screen went from colorful to colorless. Scared the shit out of me. My wireless connection sucks too.
I need to have internet connection; not just a computer. I don’t know why. Even though most nights, I’m bored out of my wits cos no one is online and I’m out of sites to surf. Maybe I should remind myself that I have a BLOG to update.. I keep forgetting that.
Oh do pass me interesting blogs or sites for me to visit to keep me company at night!!
On another note, I’m pissed. Can’t believe that SOME people got married without telling me.. And to think that we were close once .I don’t believe that I just happened to vanish into thin air or that no one can get to me. I’m NOT that inaccessible. And the worse part is,
I met her few weeks before her wedding. *Slaps forehead* I just do not know what to say. Oh I do know what to say. I’m DISAPPOINTED! But being the nice person I am, I’m truly happy for them as they found each other and can make one another happy. Bless them.
Hmm maybe when I’ve given birth to my 10th child, I might invite everyone that had crossed my path for my baby bash thingy. That would be nice..
Hmm did I mention before.. that once upon a time I had a dream.
In it, there was this bald guy.. (ok I know it sounds bad..) I mean if I recall it correctly, I was walking around this building and I think somehow this child fell, so there I was walking conveniently and whoops, I saved the poor little kid. Then, lo and behold, the kid’s older
brother (I think) came running looking worried sick. So there he came running down, with some other little kids (maybe he’s an older cousin who’s babysitting the kids), and checked on the little kid (who fell), and was grateful that the little boy was ok. He was very grateful to
me and the next thing I know, I was walking around with him.. (can’t remember what happened to the kids though, they seem to vanish).
And then the next scene is that I was in his house!! I do remember that from his window or door, I can see a playground on the ground floor. This dream happened so long ago that I cannot remember what I felt for him. I mean yea I do like him and all (like those lost at first sight crap),
but I don’t know if the feeling of “You’re the one for me” was there. Maybe I was too young to notice that feeling. I don’t know but I do think feelings do exists in dreams. So yea, I was woken up after that scene so I don’t really know what happened next. I was really hoping that the dream
would continue as there was once that my dreams happened consecutively for 3 days, so I was expecting this dream to continue but alas it didn’t.
Sigh.. I’m sure u must be wondering why the hell am I writing about this stupid dream that happened years ago right? Oh anyways, the guy was faceless.. Apparently, I never face him full faced. It’s always either the back of his head or the sides. It wld be soooo much easier if I could see his face am I right?
Well today, someone tried to match make me with this guy whom I know and kept forgetting his name. Well I did find him attractive when I first saw him. But I assumed he was attached, so I didn’t really think much about it and me being me, build a wall around me. I mean him being strangers (at first) and all..
Then this February, I started taking to him, just casual talk cos we were working and well break time and all. So again I assumed he is attached so I didn’t really asked a lot of questions. Just simple short talks. Hmm maybe that is why people find me so unapproachable. Is it because I don’t open up and talk much?
So well anyways.. yea after that, we just smile and said our Hellos when we pass by..
(to think of it, its always me who said hi to him…) So yea.. until today..
Someone close to me was working with him few weeks back and well they talked to pass the time. So as usual, normal chat will become relationship talk.. I don’t really know what were the topic or how it went but what I was told today was that, he told my friend that he was single and asked her to help him find someone.
So my friend was like.. Eh what abt Moon, she’s single u know.. And he was shocked. He was like “Are u kidding me? She has a boyfriend right?” and my friend went “No la.. she’s not.” And I think he went on to say.. I thought she has a boyfriend.. etc. My friend didn’t really tell the whole story from A-Z but those were the main
points that she wanted to tell me.
Well, for me I don’t know how to react to that situation. I mean yea I know it meant nothing. But for me it’s disturbing that people assume that I’m attached and what’s with the surprise act? Again, I should not look too much into this. That’s the thing about being a girl. We look too much into things and what is being said and we
get worked up over it.
I should freeze my heart. But.. I don’t know why I can’t..
Oh.. I didn’t mention this.. but both guys are bald.. HAHAHAHA.. Yea.. I’m thinking tooo much into this. Someone please tell me to get a life.
Why the hell am I typing this boring and useless entry?
:: Oh what day is it tomorrow? ::
Wey hey… it’s the 17th of June.. and its 30 mins more to my BIRTHDAY!! Weeeeee.
So a truck load of things happened to me while I was errm “away”. Good, bad, shocking, sad, happy things.. Sigh.. I wish I could relieve some of the things you know..
It just makes me not think of anything and just be; well HAPPY. Currently, I’m just trying not to think of anything. I’m supposed to go to his BBQ thingy people actually planned for my birthday..
hahaha but here I am still at home. I guess I really need to spend time by myself, alone, think about what had happened so far to me, what had I done, the choices I made. Well another girl’s
whose birthday is like 11 days before me, she’s there, so it’s not a wasted effort yea? I’m sure they are having a swell of a time there without me. J
Been reading Anna’s bloggie, I’m so glad she’s happy with her “puppy” over there down under. At least she’s not bored to her wits end. Hopefully she’s been doing some serious studying and not partying her ass off there.
OK maybe I need to subscribe to blogspot. Updating in geocities is becoming a pain in the ass.. My IE’s giving me shit these days. I can’t even receive files from ppl in MSN. How sucky is that!! And it takes bloody ages to just upload a freaking page.
I don’t even know if there would be people who would visit my site anymore. I mean seeesh I thought the owner was lost in the Bermuda triangle or something..
Pssst... Look whos back for the moment?