Oh wow, I didn't really like today. The good news is I hardly coughed at all, and my paper cut is healing. And I got to experiment with playing slide guitar at guitar lessons today.

Today was just not a good day. It was freezing out. It was windy as heck. And then yesterday I was sick so I went home from school and slept from noon to 3:30. So I couldn't sleep last night until around midnight, and then I woke up at 4:30 thinking it was time to get up. School was ok though. At lunch we had a real conversation which is an improvement I must say. I guess what was really bothering and made my day bad was that I just had this feeling in the pit of my stomach all day today; the nervous anxious scared feeling. For no reason. Nothing happened, but all the same today wasn't a good day. I did feel like an idiot a lot today.

Ok, enough of that.

My current obsession is working on a puzzle that I'm putting together for my mom for her birthday. I have over a month to work on it, but all I really want to do is work on the puzzle. It's so bad I'll be sitting in school just waiting to go home so I can work on the puzzle. So at first I was horrible at it, it took a whole night just to get the outline put together. Now it's just amazing, I can sit there and find pieces like that. Once you stop looking so hard you can see a lot clearer. I can't concentrate on what I think the piece I'm looking for looks like, because if I do than I won't find it. However, once I stopped scrutinizing surrounding pieces and imagining what I thought the piece I needed looks like, it's a lot easier to find it. I don't know, it just all sort of clicks. It reminds me of an Ani quote that my sister sent to me because she really liked it. "We try and keep our eye on the big picture and the picture keeps getting bigger."