I was sitting in my car today, waiting for the light to change.
And I starting thinking, which made me want to start writing, but that's pretty dangerous to do if you're trying to drive at the same time, so I just hoped I would remember and then I could write about it here.

There are a few differences between Megan and me. When we go driving or running, she always looks at people driving by in their cars.
I look at their cars, sure.
But I always avoid looking in, unless I recognize the car.
I didn't know why I do this.
At first I thought it might have something to do with the fact that I'm afraid of strangers. (Kindergarten taught me well)
You know, I don't look at them, they won't bother me?
So I tend to avoid looking at people when they are driving.

But for some reason I felt bold today, and for the first time in my life, I looked at the people driving by and turning left while I was waiting for the light. And it was then I realized why I didn't like looking in people's cars.

When I am in my car, it's very personal time for me. I think a lot, I'm all by myself and I just have these wonderful intimate thoughts with myself. And I listen (and sing) to my music, which I value very much. Driving, most of the time for me, is something very thereputic. I have my thinking time. I wouldn't like to be looked in on or realize people are watching me during this time.

So I think that is why I get weirded out by looking into people's cars. They can't tell that I'm doing it, they don't see that they're being watched. And while I'm watching, it's like I'm intruding on their thoughts.

Maybe they don't mind, maybe no one else uses driving time like this. Maybe they are thinking "did I unplug the curling iron" or "should I eat at Wendy's or Burger King" or "why did that *&^@! not use their turn signal" or "did I leave my wallet at home"?

But on the chance that they are thinking "what I am going to do with my life" or "why didn't she answer the phone" or "I am a mess, I'm a failure, I hate my life" or "violets are pretty", I'd rather just play it safe, not look at them, and keep thinking thoughts of my own.

:-)