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Love is the most wonderful feeling its beats anything else that can happen I your life ...its makes you feel at ease with life , as if nothing can harm you . To feel your loved ones arms around you holding you tight is the most comforting feeling one can get .
I know in my heart that I can survive this feeling of not being loved .
Today sitting in my garden looking upwards a warm breeze blows through the garden , above me to my left is blue sky and to my right dark clouds . In between fingers of white dart from the dark clouds . A cool breeze blows occasionally and the clouds darken above me but I do not fear this as I feel it is a sign . The sun glistens on the windows ..all of the shadows become black and sharp.. The music blares from the stereo and the water splashes from the fountain into the pond . All senses are alive except fear as my mind is at peace ...nothing can disturb the tranquil feeling . The black clouds swirl above me appearing to be coming lower , but above them peeping through is the blue sky and fluffy friendly clouds .Paula is constantly on my mind ..I feel her all around me ..A gentle rolling of thunder can be heard in the distance , but unlike when I was a child the does not frighten me as I know my father is always with me his compassion my guide ..he is my mentor ..he has taught me well. I no longer fear death I actually court it . Around me are black clouds , but above me blue ..the clouds skirt me as if afraid to be above me ...I feel a power as never before ………..
Phil Mitchell 1998
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