He promised he'd love me forever. He promised he'd always be by my side. He promised he'd never cheat on me. But he did.
I remember walking in the room, and I saw him on the couch making out with Nick. He was sitting on Nick's lap, his arms over Nick's neck, his body pressed against Nick's. They were so involved with each other that they didn't even see me come in. They didn't see me gape at the site of Nick's tongue going into my lover's mouth. I just couldn't believe it.
"JUSTIN!" I remember yelling so loud. And when we turned away from Nick to look into my heartbroken face, I couldn't believe I diverted his attention away from Nick. They were so involved with each other.
"JC...sorry...I--." He couldn't believe I had walked in on them.
"How can you do that?!" I stared at him, non-believing at the site that lay before me. He was still sitting on Nick's lap, his arm draped over Nick's shoulder. Nick was staring in shock at me.
"Justin...I...didn't know you were with him?" Nick confusedly scratched his head.
"Nick...I'm sorry." Justin dropped his head on the back of the couch, sighing.
Nick glared at Justin, annoyed, and jumped off the couch and headed towards the doorway.
"Don't leave...NICK!" Justin frowned as Nick left the room. He sat up and faced me. His blond curls were tousled over his face. He glared at me intensely.
"You don't even care that I just walked in. You don't care if you lose me. You just want Nick, don't you?"
He didn't answer me. He just stared at the floor, like something would come out of there and save him from this awkward moment. Like he'd be sucked into the floor, down to the bottom of the earth, never to be seen again.
"JC...I, uh, got to go." He finally said, and looked up to see the expression on my face.
"Justin. We're over," I looked him square in his baby blue eyes," You promised. Don't you remember?"
He hung his head in guilt, and nodded to the ground.
Flashback
"I don't think we should see each other anymore." Those words. Those awful words, which made me want to shrivel up and die. Bobbi said them. And that day, I was lieing in bed, despressed, when Justin came in and sat down on the bed beside me.
"What's wrong, Josh?"
"Bobbi dumped me." I tried hard not to cry.
"Why?"
"She said...she doesn't think we should see each other anymore. That's it. And she left."
"I'm sorry, Josh." Justin creased his eyebrows, like he was thinking deeply.
"Yeah, me too. Everyone's out to hurt me though...it's because there's something wrong with me, that's it right?" I closed my eyes, wishing to die " What's wrong with me, J?"
"Nothing, Josh. She must be crazy if she dumped you. I'd never do that, if I had you."
I studied his face. Did he mean that? He seemed serious though. Too serious.
Suddenly I felt lips on my lips. Full masculine lips. Justin lips. And then I felt his tongue part my lips and slide into my mouth, gliding over all of the inside of my mouth. I felt his arms on my waist, as he pulled his tongue out of my mouth and looked me directly in the eye.
"Josh, if I had you. I would never dump you. I'd love you forever. I would always be by your side. And I would never, ever, cheat on you. I promise."
"I'm leaving. You can stay here if you want." I ran out the door, and bumped into Lance, who was going into the room.
"JC? Are you okay?" His voice was so deep. It was the perfect voice for running a phone sex hotline. It could make any girl go crazy.
"No."
"What's wrong?"
"Justin cheated on me. With Nick."
"He cheated on you with a BACKSTREET BOY?" Lance was shocked.
"What's wrong with me Lance? Why can't anybody love me? Justin said he would love me when Bobbi dumped me, and he didn't. He promised he would always be by my side, and never cheat on me. He doesn't even want me at all, he wants Nick. Where did I go wrong, Lance?"
"I don't know, JC. He must had pretty bad taste though if he goes for a Backstreet Boy. So it's not your fault. And believe me, there'll be someone that's just for you. That'll be by your side always. Obviously that wasn't Justin. He didn't love you enough. True love never fades away."
"I'll never find that someone." I groaned and kicked the floor.
"You never know, JC. That someone could be right under your nose. And he'll love you through everything."
I looked up into Lance's big green eyes. They were so full of assurement and commitment. Maybe I could believe him. Maybe I could put my faith and confidence into him.
He kissed my lips, and I felt my knees get so weak, and I probably would of fell if his arms wouldn't of been there to hold me upward.
"I promise."