11.30.01 - 10:31 am

didn't go to class yesterday. i didn't really need to. instead i went to eat w/eugene. went home. didn't do much, but work on some new stuff for my homepage, which i think i'll put on all at once...for a dramatic change~

11.29.01 - 12:28 am

went to music of mexico class. failed that midterm. went to the oasis @ the library. met up w/eugene & steve. went to eat super nachos @ the tsu. went and failed calculus midterm. went to ccm. walked w/eugene & steve to lot b. got a ride to my car from eugene. came home.

what a fun-filled day, eh?

11.28.01 - 2:53 pm

drinking my orange juice. yumyum. i went to pick up lunch @ the korean market...so i looked for oj there, but alas...all they had were gallon sizes. wendy picked me up some oj @ sav-on, i guess...so now i'm drinking it. i feel a lil better already. i swear...whenever i get sick...it's all psychological. what am i...what's that word? hypochondriac? (sp?) iono. i'm so dumb...

11.28.01 - 10:13 am

this month is slowly coming to an end. i can't believe it's almost december already. i'm glad this semester's almost over--don't get me wrong--but i have so much catching up to do in school...with only a couple weeks left. i'm so screwed.

i planned to do lotsa studying yesterday...and that's why i didn't go to class. but alas...i procrastinated once again! errr...i really need to stop w/that. it's really bad, i know. i did study a lil...but that's about it.

i think i'm sick. after about a MONTH of avoiding eugene's cold, i got sick. GREAT. geez. i think i mention his name almost every entry since the day i met him. errr. but yeah...n/e wayz, i was feeling really yucky this morning...my stomach was hurting soooooooooo bad...so i ended up coming to work late. my stomach is still hurting really bad, but i guess not as badly as before.

eeni came over last night. it was really cool seeing her again! :) so...she's like...the 5th person to see the house in which i currently reside. my uncle's house. YES, i KNOW it's awesome, isn't it? hahaha..inee said something about how it's nice to live in a place like that...even with a 12 o'clock curfew, it's a nice place to spend my time...and she wouldn't mind coming home to that. yeah yeah...it's nice..and it's great cuz i get to see my CUTE lil cousins :) but...i feel like i need some independence...i CRAVE it.

11.27.01 - 10:14 am

i was sooooooooo bored in class yesterday. in my music of mexico class, i got bored & made this logo type thingy...i like it. steve loo said i should make it the logo for my homepage or background for windows or something. good idea, steve! too bad i don't have a scanner. i might just attempt to draw it on that paint program or whatevers. but that's gunna be hard. *shrug*

steve walked me to the library to meet up w/eugene...he was w/his friend. he was introducing us when the girl said she already knew me. he FREAKEd out cuz he freaks out whenever i know another person he knows. it's just happened too much. but yeah...iss ok cuz i met her thru eugene. dork. n/e wayz, there was this dood that was walking around...in these see-through white warm-ups. NASTY. he WAS wearing boxers...or shorts...so i only saw his legs~ so don't worry. but it still looked really nasty. i made steve look @ it. hahahhaha. we all separated...eugene and i went to his car to go to spoons. he didn't know exactly where he parked, though...so we were wandering through the lanes for a loooooooooooooong time. geez. ERRR. hahaha..but iss all good. another adventure. yay! hahaha. but yeah...we FINALLY found it after a WHILE....and went to spoons. yummy food. mmm...the chicken tortilla soup was yummy~!! :)

after i went back to school, i went to calculus class. SOOOOOOOOOOO boring. i got so bored that i started to list all the things inee & i need to get for union's valentine's banquet that we're planning. i drew pictures & everything! :) iss gunna be the BOMB. lol. it's been a long time since i've heard that phrase. "the BOMB."

i'm not going to class today. too much to do. errrrr...i hate my chicano studies class...forreals....

11.26.01 - 10:41 am

paul & daniel both went back to the east coast yesterday. they both called to tell me they got there safely. of course i made them promise that before they left, but still~ :) i'm glad they made it safely~ good good...

i had a very nice weekend. friday, i went to shawn & sam's cuz i was waiting for paul to come to my work by 3...i got off of work around 1:30. i got back to work around 2:45 or so, but paul was already waiting. we took off to our "mini-retreat" and had lotsa fun. got back on saturday...took him to la crescenta w/janet...ate @ subway...went w/janet to a body worship musical in la mirada & went back home.

yesterday, took the kids to union~ took the kids to watch harry potter then off to riverside for thanksgiving dinner. had lots of fun there...met wesley oppa for the first time~

i felt so popular! i got like...5 calls, at least, on my cell while i was at riverside. lol. from 3 different ppl~ not all the same person...hehe. but yeah...after i got home, i fell asleep pretty soon...and someone called me around 12ish...but i didn't pick up, cuz by the time i got the phone, the person had already hung up. wonder who it was. i usually can tell by caller id, but my at&t phone is screwed up. the vmail isn't set up...and the caller id isn't working. i should call to have that fixed. i should...i just keep forgetting. it's not like a lot of ppl call that phone n/e wayz...i just sometimes forward all my calls from cingular to that phone tho...

who WAS it last night?? geez...dunno~

i'm not excited to be back. err..it was really hard to get up this morning. i have all this crap to do this week...but i'm so lazy...and have so little time to do it all in~ if i wanna eat dinner and also wanna do my work, i won't have much time for sleep~ errrrrr...sacrifices, sacrifices~

11.23.01 - 9:52 am

wow. it's only been a couple days since my last update, but it seems like it's been forever. n/e wayz, wednesday, i went to sam/shawn's after work. we watched some really raw comedy stuff & ate chips & salsa. eugene came & ate a couple turkey & chips sandwiches. sam & shawn had to go to dinner w/their family so eugene & i went to eat @ v.i.p. i let eugene drive my car (he talked me into it) a lil @ his school parking lot & around residential areas. later we went to his house, where i talked to his sis & mom a lil. it was really confusing cuz eugene & i couldn't figure out who his mom was calling or talking to. lol.

on the way home, i was getting really sleepy. so sleepy, in fact, that i went on the wrong fwy--91 west instead of 91 east--and i didn't realize it for about 15 minutes. i tried calling eugene to keep me up (he told me to) but he was already sleeping. he fell asleep right after i left. GREAT. i called shawn, but he couldn't really talk. i called janet & we had a nice chat. right when i got home, tho, i was so dead tired that i was mumbling some crazy stuff. lol. so she let me go to sleep.

THANKSGIVING DAY:
i woke up late. called a whole buncha ppl that i hadn't talked to in a while...as well as my immediate family members. i decided to go to riverside to spend thanksgiving w/janet & her family...as well as will & his mom...and my grandma...and bob. the BIG familiy thing is gunna be a sunday.

had dinner...talked a lil bit...called christopher foster & went over to see him (he's sucha qt!)...called khoa & had him come over for a lil bit. (dep jai~) i'm so glad i got to see them...it had been a while since i saw them...

i woke up way late this morning. i forgot to set my alarm~ i packed all my stuff for the mini-retreat i'm going on today...and rushed out of the house, picking up some left-over turkey from last night. i thought i'd be at least 10-15 minutes late, but i was only a couple minutes late. i guess not a lot of people are working. even in this "la mirada commercenter," i think we're the only company that is open today. i see NO other cars other than ours. this SUX. it's not even like we're doing much. i sent out a fax...washed some dishes & my sajangnim's coffee pot...and that's about it. nothing else to do. i'll prolly pick up lunch & that'll be it. why can't i just LEAVE?!?!?

11.21.01 - 10:13 am

i'm sleepy. i haven't been getting much sleep lately.

went to irvine last night w/eugene. ate leftover turkey stuff & curry that adri made for us. we had rented x-men, which we later watched @ his friend mike's apt. i watched a little of it...i promised janet we would leave after i saw hugh jackman. :) went back to janet's & waited for hampster. took a nap cuz she wasn't coming...woke up around 11:20 cuz she wasn't coming...even tho she said she'd be back by 10:30!! errr. iss ok, hampster. i forgive u.

i think eugene was getting sorta...uhh..annoyed (???) with my motherlyness yesterday. i guess it was just a bit too much for him. o wells. i'm just trying to be a good friend...looking out for another friend. geez~! :)

11.20.01 - 2:03 pm

i can't believe how BORED i am at work. i even ASKED my eemo if there was n/e thing i could do. she just gave me a smile and replied that there's nothing.

i think i'm hanging out w/eugene after work. what to do tho? watch a movie? eh~

seriously...what did ppl do back before cars & movies & computers & internet? why is it that we get so bored so easily? we do the same things...over and over and over with our friends...and complain that there's nothing to do. what can we do to occupy our time...other than massages? hahaha...

speaking of massages...my shoulders are KILLING me now. but not cuz i NEED a massage..but cuz i got one. it was brutal, i tell ya. i'm bruised, i think. i was sore this morning. o dear...i want these knots to be gone tho. errr..

11.20.01 - 9:14 am

so paul's here now. wow. i can't believe it. actually...i guess i can believe it now. it took hours yesterday to finally register thru my head that paul was really here. i'm so excited he's here!!

unfortunately, we didn't spend all THAT much time together yesterday... i picked him up from the airport...and after we got his bags & went to my car, this lady was like, "are you sure you have enough room for me?" paul & i were both confused. eh?? "NO, we don't have enough room for you, strange lady" is what i wanted to say, but i didn't wanna be mean. i don't know exactly what she thought, but apparently, she followed us thinking we were her ride. strange.

so we went to huntington beach. we ate @ aloha grill (very yummy..and nice atmosphere) & went to the pier afterwards. it was very pleasant. at the pier, we talked a bit..then left to go to starbucks. after that, paul was tired so i took him to his grampa's house. i was a lil disappointed that he couldn't play longer, but i understood since normally it would have been nearly midnight @ that time. plus, he just got off the plane and yada yada.

i wasn't ready to go home quite then so i called eugene. i decided to go over cuz i had nothing else to do. & i'm not gunna spend my vacation @ home. shawn couldn't come cuz he was cleaning--still.

didn't really do much. i looked through a bunch of his pictures...and he played final fantasy tactics as he narrated. lol. i tried grand theft auto (the ps1 game) but it didn't really work out. i suck @ it, i guess. his mama wanted to watch korean shows so we had to get out of her room. lol.

n/e wayz, eugene tells me that he told his sis, michelle, she could keep up w/his life through my homepage. wow. how true. but then...that's kinda sad. i talk about him too much, i think. it's not even like he's been to my homepage very much. and yet he still knows that he ppl can keep up w/his life thru me. hmm..

and no, daniel...i'm NOT cheating on u. eugene & i aren't married, like i said. you and i are divorced n/e ways! hahaha. i know you want me back...i know i'm so DANG irresistable, right? HAH. HAH. HAH. (that was a eugene laugh) well, daniel...i love you and all, but u're just so far away. lol. o dear...i can't go into all this again. lol

11.19.01 - 11:42 am
countdown for paul's arrival: about 4 hours!!!!!!

wow. i can't believe he's gunna be here so soon. he said his arrival time is 4:08 pm. but i checked the flight tracker...and it said 3:20. (??) so i'm not sure what time to get there by. i mean..imma get there early, but i hope he doesn't get there way earlier than me and hafta wait long.

i'm hungry. i didn't eat n/e thing this morn. it's not quite lunch time yet so we haven't eaten lunch yet. soon, though i hope. i hope i can leave soon after lunch to go pick up paul. i don't wanna be late. i can't keep paul waiting!!

i'm cold. my hands are freezing. i can hardly type right. i slept about 4 hours last night. i woke up excited for paul's arrival. i can't wait i can't wait i can't wait!~!!

11.19.01 - 2:02 am
countdown for paul's arrival: about 14 hours!!

omg. paul's coming TODAY! that's kinda weird to say. and i can't go to sleep cuz i'm so excited. i still am not too sure where i should take him to dinner. i was thinking aloha grill, but i'm not sure how to get there.

so eugene's date w/*ahem* was very awkward. but it was interesting. they were both acting a lot more restrained than usual. and she had to leave a lil early. like...right after the movie. but eugene and i went to get some food @ buga.

since eugene was in uniform, our server started talking about her nephew & the army....and she ended up giving us free dwenjang, which i didn't even touch. i ordered 2 servings of joomoolluk galbi, 1 mool nengmyun...and he ate most of it. i ate some of the galbi and that was pretty much it. eugene GRUBBED.

saturday, i went to get my hair cut & coated. i hadn't cut it for 15 months before that. so it was pretty nappy, i guess. all uneven and stuffs. eugene offered to cut it for me, but i don't really like the idea of him touching my hair...let alone cutting it. but yeah...i went straight to this vball tourney @ bethel church in irvine. of course we didn't win, but i did leave w/a big ole bruise on my right knee. whoopdeedoo. but the weird thing was...i saw 3 ppls i hadn't seen for a long time. lisa, nami, and mark oppa. mark oppa - i hadn't seen since about the 8th grade. when he was a senior in h.s. he and my brother were good friends & that's how i knew him. he recognized me, which i was surprised of, & we exchanged phone numbers. he's going into service @ the end of this year. :(

sunday...i went to new song w/adri. we got boba afterwards...then i went grocery shopping for the dinner i was gunna cook for eugene, shawn, janet, adri, hampster, and myself. wow. it was a lot pricier than i thought it would be. it's cuz i used this cookbook called tacos y mas and it gave recipes for making everything from scratch. i made guacamole...and this citrus marinade for the chicken, which was for the tacos. very yummy, if i do say so myself. :) actually, everyone said it was yummy...especially the guacamole. i hope they didn't say that just to be nice...

we watched toy story 2. that was like my 10th time. dood. crazy. i got really mad @ eugene (actually, i was pretty much juss messing, for the most part) for implying that i'm fat & hideous. then i got angry @ shawn for pissing the crap out of me by quoting joker from batman, which i specifically told him numerous times that i had a really traumatizing experience from. he didn't know i was being forreal. i ended up forgiving him, of course.

now i'm at home. i just got out of the shower about 1/2 an hour ago. my hair's still wet..and i'm not really all that sleepy still. it's about 2:16 now...and i'm getting really hungry!! o no...that'll make me even MORE fat & hideous! help me, EUGENE!

11.16.01 - 10:14 am
countdown for paul's arrival: 3 days!!!

wow. i can't believe paul's coming in just 3 days!!!! i'm really excited. :) i had trouble falling asleep cuz i'm so excited. lame? o well. but yeah...that, and...well...today, eugene's going on his first date w/his new gf. keke. of course i'm going along, cuz i'm the one that introduced them. we're watching a movie together. nothing big. but yeah. we shall see how long this lasts. i think it's just a weekend thing, which makes it even more hilarious.

i don't really wanna go into the details about it, but yeah. it was funny cuz yesterday, at heroes, shawn was like, "so when are you gunna find ME a girlfriend?" something to that extent. it was soooooooo funny tho...cuz of his facial expression. he was so serious & innocent looking. as if he was forreals. but no...i know he has someone in mind. keke. and i don't know her, so i can't hook them up. sorry! but yeah...when shawn said this, eugene & i busted laughing so hard. and shawn couldn't understand. lol. u just had to be there, i guess...

after dinner, we went to starbucks to await eugene's blind date's call. he had to officially ask her out, but she wouldn't be back till around 9:30ish. we had coffee & hot chocolate. yummy. and talked & talked. finally, SHE called & he asked her, "will you be my girlfriend?" it was very cute, actually. hahahha. i guess mainly cuz he said it so innocently. not all, "hey, baby..." you know?

i went to sleep around 1:30ish...and was awakened by a called sometime after 2. it was jina. we talked for a WHILE. it was a nice talk. i went back to sleep around 3ish, but prolly later cuz i couldn't fall asleep right away. woke up around 7:20 & i've been trying to keep my eyes open since.

u know...it's weird. after all the drama @ my last church, i didn't really have much motivation or desire to seek God anymore. until i spoke w/hyunsuck oppa. he's soooo awesome. i love talking to him. even thru aim. n/e wayz, speaking with him gave me the desire again...and the desire to pray sincerely again. so i did. last night, i did QT for the first time in a while. it was really moving. it was GREAT. :)

11.15.01 - 9:14 am
countdown for paul's arrival: 4 days

(read today's thought entry before reading this entry...

ok. so last night, después de mi clase de música de méxico, eugene came up to the 4th floor of the library. apparently, he had called, but my phone didn't ring, so he just came up. we planned for eugene to meet janet on saturday...and we spoke of this favor...so we discussed it. hehehe.

we went and got food...and talked for a while. we went to crossroads (ccm - this christian fellowship) and saw my friend steve. i met alex, and i saw brian, whom i had met at yoshinoya's thru eugene. i had to leave to go to class.

30 minutes into class, i decided i'd rather go to ccm and get something out of it than fall asleep in class and not learn n/e thing. that would be just a waste of time, rite? rite. so i went to ccm..and they were eating. eugene was eating again. he was eating a LOT. wow. he's always hungry. or...maybe not. maybe he can just always eat. i know many ppl like that (including girls...).

we had the Bible study. brian spoke from ephesians 6:10-20, i believe. it's the passage about the armor of God. 3 constants, he said: constant struggle, constant stand, and constant prayer. we're always in constant struggle. we need to take a constant stand w/God. and we need to be in constant prayer. that's what i got out of it. nice...nice...

paul had called me during the meeting so i called back. i'm surprised he was up so late last night. it was nearly 1:00 am over there. he needs his beauty sleep, he says. no, paul...u're beautiful enough. n/e wayz...we discussed the mini-retreat down to sd that i'm bringing him along to. inee's awesome cuz she's allowing us to hold our mini-retreat @ her apt. nice...nice... inee's the DOPEST. :)

eugene found his wallet (he thought he lost it..made me check all over my car for it, which is how i got this HUGE GASH--just kidding, it's a small scratch) in the place where he almost ALWAYS puts it. great. i dunno why we ever talk on the phone. we don't talk about n/e thing. HAHA. but iss all good...i kept him awake on his drive home. and he didn't know he had a weird laugh...till someone told him flat out, i guess. and then i explained that it sounds forced. literally. it's like..."hah. hah. hah." separated like that. and loud. see what i mean?

i watched some episodes of the family guy and then went to sleep. mmm...sleep. i could use some right now.

11.14.01 - 2:10 pm
countdown for paul's arrival: 5 days

11.13.01 - 11:56 pm
countdown for paul's (georgia paul) arrival: 6 days

haPpy biRthDay PaUL KiM!!!

went to sd today. saw inee, sam, janice, randy..and met some of inee's friends. inee took me around a bit...took me to the cliff...where it was kinda hard to see, but beautiful n/e ways. someone taped her cardoor handles. GAYNESS. we went to moo time (picked up randy on the way, met janice there...as well as inee's friends) and had a nice time eating coldstones-type (but better!) ice cream. we were sitting outside, right outside this one other group of people. randy and i were trying to force the other to eat the last bite, and the group inside was cheering us on & cracking up. we saw them and started cracking up too. we had a grand ol time.

11.12.01

hAPPy BirTHDay DadDy!!!

11.12.01 - 10:46 pm
countdown for paul's arrival: 7 days

i can't believe paul's coming in only a WEEK! wow. i'm REALLY excited. :D i'm ecstatic! i'm seriously sooooooooooooooooo excited. it's craziness.

i had kind of a lot of stuff to do at work today. i was sorta hoping (ok, i was really hoping with all my heart) we didn't have work today, on account of veterans' day, but fat chance, eh? grrrrrr. and.....i was hoping to get all of next week off from work since we have thursday off n/e ways....and wednesday is a half work-day....and i have the WHOLE week off from school that'd be so nice, eh? but OF COURSE not. OF COURSE i can't get the whole freaking week off. GRRRR.

sooooooooo...after music of mexico class, i went to the library to do a lil work. i decided to call eugene up...so maybe we could go eat. when he got to the library, he went to check his email and called to let me know that he'd be a lil while. i thought he meant like..20 min. but...45 FREAKING minutes later he comes up 2 the fourth floor. wow. n/e wayz, i only had an hour to eat so we left....but it was POURING outside. ACK!

i wore sandals to school (i changed into them, out of my DC's after work) so my feet and jeans were SOAKED. on the way to my car, eugene got this big BOARD...out of a trash can. GHETTO, eh? it wasn't dirty tho...or so it didn't seem. we used it as a shelter sorta until we got to my car. i let go of it earlier tho...cuz it was just too ghetto..and it was kinda hard to hold it, honestly. i was getting tired. i mean...i was already soaked n/e wayz...why fight it?

we went to spoons to eat..and we got the unlimited soup & salad....and chicken parmegan (spelling?) and split it, pretty much. but i think i might get sick..cuz he's been sick for a while. *SIGH* o wells. that's the price i pay for wanting hot tortilla soup.

eugene's trying to come up with a nickname for me. honestly, he's been coming up with the most random things. like...larma (from la armadillo), 'n basco (from *n sync & tabasco sauce), bullet (which led to boris--boris the bulletdodger, for those of u who haven't watched lock, stock & 2 smoking barrels), oscar (which led to "osca"), weene, etc. this is a strange boy.

he was being real slick, too. spilled his hot tea on his sweatshirt & the table. being all crazy-loud. he was sorta dancing too. HAHAHAHAHAHA. hold on. i think there's something else i was gunna mention. EUGENE...WHAT ELSE WAS THERE? I FORGET. o wells. after spoons, i took him all the way back to his car, even tho i was already late for class.

after class, i called eugene on the way home. u know...he's sort of a strange one. he'd rather ask me to hold for like...2-5 minutes than ask me to call back. but of course i don't really mind holding. it's much easier than ending the call, waiting a certain amount of minutes, finding the number again, then calling. so.....we were on the phone for a while, but most of the time we didn't really talk to each other. he kept getting all these booty calls. and when we did talk, it was about nothing. i guess we're around each other too much. nothing to talk about. i initially called him to see if he made it home safely...but then we were on the phone for a while.

o dear.....i don't know why i set myself up like this. shawn is going to say that eugene & i are dating. NO. FREAK. it's not my fault u're a slacker and u rarely come to school so we can kick it. i just have no other friends. and he's always hungry.

k....time to write about the weekend.

friday, i didn't do n/e thing.

saturday, i went w/shawn to an army surplus store. then we went to the army base @ los alamitos and i saw a few really COOL looking army doods who are prolly outranked by shawn, but look WAY COOLER. ok. here's the thing, shawn. it's not that they have serious attitudes. i mean..that does have to do with it, but it's not quite it. it's just that...the majority of the army doods i saw were very, very good-looking. so...dig this. attractive guys + uniform = eugenie DROOLING. and then....the not-so-attractive guys and the woman....well...i just said they looked cool to annoy you. ROFL. (and i can't say why i was there......cuz it's top secret! but i WAS very impressed with the fake helicopter & the fake tank)

after the army base, i went to inee's for a lil while. we went to eugene's caf?night. it was very cute. very cute indeed. VERY IMPRESSIVE. they put so much time & effort into it. really. it was awesome. i was very inspired. eugene performed for us, too...when i asked him too. or rather...told him too. hehehe.

inee & i went to the block to watch shallow hal, but that didn't work out, so we rented happy gilmore & watched it at her house. but i fell asleep....and had to leave before it ended anyway.

sunday, after church, i didn't really do n/e thing. for the majority of the night, i sat on my bed, thinking. about nothing, really. or....about everything.

eugene still has my jacket from thursday.

11.09.01 - 1:45 am
countdown for paul's arrival: 10 days

my day in 50 words:
work | school for picking up eugene | jamba juice for smoothies | border's for books | taco bell for tacos | tsu underground for billiards | the block with shawn for killing time | claim jumper's for dinner with sam, shawn, eugene | parking lot for finding movie showtimes | the block for k-pax | home to rest

during the movie, which i had seen once before, eugene nearly gave me a heart attack. it's during a corny part...where the woman says something along the lines of, "we never need any [fortunes in fortune cookies]. that night, i already knew my fortune. it was sitting right in front of me." something to that extent. right then, eugene SHOOK my chair (he was sitting right behind me. shawn was behind him. sam was next to me). nearly gave me a heart attack. sorta annoyed sam. lol. lame-o!

btw...i need to find another words as a replacement for "gay." PAUL! GEORGIA PAUL! i need ur help. paul is my thesaurus. :)

o...at claim jumper's, our waiter was very cute. only...sam, shawn, & eugene didn't agree with me. o well...i guess they wouldn't...the waiter was a guy. he was just so polite...and cute. lol. very very polite tho. and had cute lil jokes...and laughed at my corny ones. :) no, i wasn't trying to flirt. i was just being my retarded self. k...i just had to mention the waiter. :)

*growl* that's my stomach. i'm hungry since i'm up so late. it's almost 2 now...and my stomach feels very empty. *YaWN* i think i shall go to sleep now.

11.08.01 - 2:54 pm
congrats, JANE!! for early acceptance into CSUF teaching program...

11.08.01 - 2:01 pm
countdown for paul's arrival: 11 days

errr..i'm so pissed! i write a whole bunch for today, but it got lost. grrr. *SIGH* o wells. not much i can do about it now...

soooooo....this morning....at around 10:30 pm, i checked my email. i guess i had forgotten to go on aim as usual this morning. i received the following email from sung il:

subject: i'm not gay ok?

O Gni, Weenee! Wherefore art thou Gniweenee?
Deny thy work, and refuse thy boss;
Or, if thou wilt not, be but my sworn enemy,
And I'll no longer be slick rick.

Gni would, if she call'd
Retain that little perfection without AIM.

Mark my word:
Call me now, and I'll be awaken;
Henceforth I never will bored.

Farewell, farewell.
I M me, i beseech you.

wow. interesting. hmmm..o and his name isn't rick. he's just called slick rick cuz he's so dang SLICK~ :) he's sucha coolio foolio~ (he even made up that phrase "coolio foolio" in '93 or something like that...)

n/e wayz, i'm excited. i'm so lame. (look, eugene! i used the word LAME instead of GAY! aren't u proud? :D ) i get excited really easily, i guess. n/e wayz, i think i'm meeting up w/eugene & shawn tonight. for dinner, i guess. i asked if they wanted to do something and they said yea, but we couldn't figure out what to do...so..*shrug* what should we do? hmmmm...

all i know is...i wanna get out of this place. it's about 2:16 pm now...so about 44 minutes left till i get LEAVE! i'm debating whether or not i should go to class. i know i SHOULD, but i can miss 3 times before the end of the semester, and i haven't skipped this class ONCE. wow. i'm so proud of myself. this is the only class i haven't skipped. haha. i wonder why~

history used to be my most dreaded subject. now it's chicano studies.

11.07.01 - 10:43 pm
countdown for paul's arrival: 12 days

so. today was sort of an interesting day.

i had my advisement session this morning. very early. 8 am. so i had to wake up way earlier than usual and rush my butt to school. i got to work like 12 minutes early. whoopee. work was arrite. no biggie.

i went BACK to school and it took me forever to find a parking space. GREAT. i got to class & it was pretty much like n/e other day. except that my group (mo, memo, lazaro, me) was supposed to meet today...to discuss our group project. so we met after class. big whoop. no biggie. so i leave out of the back door..and i go around to the front. don't ask why...i'm dumb. but by the time i get there...memo says that lazaro asked if i was single. i called him a big fat liar and asked for my syllabus that he took from me. but he insisted that he was telling the truth.

i said something about memo, and lazaro said, "more or less," in spanish. i thought he was answering me, but apparently, he was answering memo when asked if he was too embarassed or shy to ask me out. what the. so...memo said he would walk out w/me, since i didn't really wanna walk alone. we go to the library, and the whole way he insists he was telling the truth. i guess i believe him since he's a pretty blunt type of guy.

ok...how come a guy that i'm INTERESTED in can't be like that to me? haha...i guess it's cuz guys that i'm not interested in figure i'm in their league? and guys i'm interested in know they're out of mine? *shrug* either way....i don't think i've ever been asked out by a guy i was interested in. (hehehe...my daddy asked me today if i have a boyfriend. kekeke... my daddy's so funny) i mean...seriously. it sucks. o wells...gotta be patient, i suppose. paul said i need to find myself a boyfriend. haha.

n/e wayz....so memo & i go to the library. we went to the 4th floor of the north side...where i usually study. the 4th floor is a public service area...u can do group studying and stuff. so u can talk in a regular speaking volume. so i was saying rather loudly (actually, it was in a normal volume) that the book i'm reading, pocho, is about sex & masturbation (it does include a lot about it...really). i mean...it's not ABOUT it...but still...i wanted to get my point across. this gurl @ the next table starts bustin up laughing, so memo does the same. i turn around...shocked that she's laughing @ what i said...and ask if she's laughing @ what i said. the guy she's with is trying to nod his head while laughing so dang hard...and memo says yes...that i'm so LOUD.

so of course i hafta add in that it has so much about masturbation that the boy goes to confession @ his church and confesses to the father. he doesn't do it for 3 days, but on the third day, he does it 3 times to make up for the lost days. o dear. is this what most guys r like? eww.

n/e wayz....i read for a while.....went to the bathroom, and while i'm...err...doing my business, my bro calls. i didn't wanna pick up the phone in the bathroom so i finished. i got out of the bathroom & called him back. i spoke w/him for about 15 minutes before i started heading back to the table where i had been sitting w/memo. he prolly thought i took a dump (or left a dump, as some might say) since i was gone so long. o wells. but i was still on the phone, so maybe he figured i was speaking on the phone. who knows.

at that time, i got the message my brother had left...and a msg from eugene! i didn't know he called. apparently, he had called an hour earlier & i just got it then. he blaims it on my sorry service w/cingular. lol. he was in the mainframe (computer lab @ school) and told me to come, so we could go eat. after some arguing...i finally did meet him there. he wanted me to drive cuz he's sucha lazy bum (ok, maybe not...iono) and we went to yoshinoya.

i wanted to buy him a yoshinoya t-shirt, but i didn't have enough cash on me & they don't take credit there. too bad *snap* ~ maybe next time. eugene said we should exchange bday presents, even tho our bdays have passed...for a while now. he said he'd get me a yoshinoya t-shirt. i thought i was supposed to get that for u!

i was happy cuz my math class ended a lil early today. YAY! and the cutest thing...stephanie called me to ask when i was coming home. she said she missed me. that's why she called! so cute. :) awwwwwwww...

shawn's gay. and so is eugene. but...eugene can't use the word "gay" cuz he knows a gay guy. so he gets all pissy & gay when i say "gay." how gay, huh? haha...j/p. he has to use the word "lame" in its place. so i guess i'll try to. it's just that..."your gayness" flows better than "your lame-ness." iono. i'll figure something out...n/e ways...why are they gay? well.....that's for another day, i suppose......

11.06.01 - 10:29 am
countdown for paul's arrival: 13 days

i was soooooooooo annoyed yesterday. i was supposed to have this advisement session @ 3:30, but my advisor left at 3:15. o dear. he forgot. he called me this morning and told me he totally forgot to check his schedule book cuz he'd had a lot on his mind and both he & his wife were sick. ok...that's coolios. i rescheduled it for tomorrow morning at 8 AM. WHOA. that means i hafta wake up extra early. *SIGH* at least i'll get it done though. looks like i'll be sleeping extra early tonight.

so n/e wayz, i went to class...no big deal. it was ok, but mo kept baggin on me...and he forgot to bring my hershey's king size special dark chocolate bar! see...we made this little bet...to see who'd do better on this test in music of mexico class. he didn't study, but he said he was a natural genious. but yeah...i WON! gYeA~!! so he owes me a VERY LARGE special dark chocolate bar. kekeke.

after class, my group was supposed to meet up for our group project, but stupid MO couldn't. he had to work or something. iono. so we postponed it till wednesday after class (i'll tell u why this is such a big deal to me in a minute). so i went to the library and read a book i'm supposed to have finished reading by today, entitled pocho for my chicano studies class.

as i was reading, i hear, "hi eugenie." i look up, and it's eugene w/this girl. they had come to study japanese. lol. he sat somewhat near me, but not right next to me. still, his voice was SO FREAKIN LOUD! hahah...j/p, eugene. but yeah..it was sorta hard for me to concentrate. o wells...i got some reading done, i suppose. after he was done, he asked if i wanted to go eat. he said i might be a lil late for class, but i had already decided to go by then.

we went to rigoberto's. yummy. i had carne asada. thanx, eugene, for dinner! he took me back to school, and made me wait for an email address of a friend of ours, but he realized it didn't show up on his phone. so he made me late for nothing. o dear.

i went to class, and i got my test back. GREAT. another bad grade. o dear...i need motivation to do well in that class. *SIGH* there's more to this day, but it keeps getting more and more boring so i'll skip till my conversation w/jenn!

i spoke w/jenn over the phone for a looooooooooooong time. hehe. we just talked about stuff. and she told me that my entry for yesterday was...uhh...iono. i guess she misinterpreted it cuz she thought i was saying one thing, when i was totally not. so i went online to check & fix it, but i totally forgot why i went online & started checking email...and chatted a bit until i got so freaking sleepy that i forgot to turn off the light. i just fell asleep (don't worry, i already had brushed my teeth, washed my face...i'm not THAT ghetto) until about 6 am. eek. i hate when i do that.

11.05.01 - 10:43 am
countdown for paul's arrival: 14 days

haha...can u tell i'm excited for paul to come? this is georgia paul i'm talking about. i haven't seen him for so long! it's been over 3 years since i met him, over 2 since i've last seen him. wow. i'm kinda nervous, to be honest. why? well...i mean...i haven't seen him for over 2 years! strange. i'm kinda still in denial. i don't wanna jinx it, but i feel like something bad's gunna happen before he gets here...to the airport or flight or whatevers...and i'm not gunna be able to see him. eek! hehehe...i'm so anxious. i think...he's one of 2 ppl that know me the very best.

the only thing is...i know that we get along over the phone. we joke around a lot and whatnot, but...what if it's different in person? it's easy to be comfortable with someone on the phone, but it's really different in person. i mean...not that i WANT it to be, but i don't think i'll be able to help it.

i think...for the most part...i'm pretty much the same in person as on the phone. i THINK. i might be totally off here. but yeah...and paul...well..he's sorta dorky over the phone. but he claims he's this totally serious person--a side of him i've never really seen before. so i don't know how he's gunna act when he gets here. *shrug*

ok...n/e wayz...it's been a few days since i've updated. so...what did i do this weekend? lemme see...

friday, the 2nd, i went home after work. i took my lil cousins to see monsters, inc. it was cute! :) so funny, too. (hehe...brian kang keeps going on about how cute it was. ok...it was cute...but iono about tHAT cute. lol.) *kiTtY~* but yeah...we were supposed to go watch the 9:15 pm show, but it was sold out by the time we got there so we decided to watch the 9:45. wow. late for the kids, huh? lol.

saturday, i went shopping @ south coast with adri. i bought everything i needed in about an hour. wow...i'm so good at shopping. lol. but yeah...afterwards, i took adri back to her apt. i went directly to inee's afterwards~

inee is SOOOOOOOOOOOO funny. i love inee. and she's motherly...but in a good way. like...she gave me food that she cooked....gave me some caramel apples...kept bringing me water when i drank it all. heehehe. :) and we talked about stuff. sorta. hehe.

i tried for the longest time to convince inee to go w/me to the revival-type thing, but she didn't really want to. and quite honestly, i didn't really wanna drive all the way to LA/glendale area so i wasn't really all that convincing, most likely. but then...after albert called...and pretty much begged me to come (hehehe) i decided i really should.

inee and i busted our butts to get there, since we were already pretty late. since albert was the last act, i wasn't really that worried i'd miss his act. but when we got there, some people were leaving. o DEAR! did we miss ALBERT?? oh no!! it was traffic, i swear!~ ok..so when we got in, some girls were singing. they were the THIRD act. of 13!! and it was already like...8 something. almost 9 pm. by intermission, inee and i decided we should go eat and come back, maybe. thing is...i still have this midnight curfew...so i had a feeling we wouldn't be able to catch alby's act. i told paul & alby to call me a couple acts before albert's and we'd come back if it wasn't too late.

inee & i went to islands. we had yummy food. i got china coast and she got nachos. YUMMY. we talked about lotsa stuff...i think most about me, since i talk so dam much. but yeah...it was very interesting...fun...i hadn't talked w/inee like that in a looooooong time. i remember how inee used to call me once in a while...back when i lived in la crescenta. we'd have these long chats...hehehe...good times~

by 10:30, we still hadn't gotten a call from paul or albert so we decided to leave. inee had made me a copy of the NEW BRITNEY SPEARS CD, which is to come out tomorrow, actually. so we were listening to it the whole drive...from her place to the "revival," from the "revival" to islands, then from islands back to her place. & of course i listened to it all the way home. i like track 6 the best...but i dunno what it's called. inee likes "bombastic love" :)

ok. lemme talk about this "revival" thing. actually, it's called a "festival of worship," or at least that's what the invitation said. the thing is...it was so much more of a social gathering...or a mini-concert type of deal. i mean...quite honestly, i couldn't really see their hearts in worship. usually, in a praise night or revival, the thing that moves me is...their HEARTS...the WAY they worship. but these ppl just seemed like they were doing it for their own glorification. could be just me...maybe i'm totally wrong here. and it sucks for me to judge them like that...but that's just what i saw.

if u're gunna put on a concert, just call it a concert~ geez. don't be misleading like that. if i knew it was gunna be a concert, i don't think i would have been so disappointed. i only went there for albert, though, and i didn't even get to see him. how sad. sucky. and there was a song that he wrote...that another group sang. i couldn't even HEAR the words tho...so i dunno if i liked the song. it COULD be my favorite song, but the singer's voice was drowned out. i don't think the sound team did that well that night. the harmony was always way too loud, i noticed. and a lot of the people didn't seem like they really practiced. i heard the sermon was whack, too, but i wasn't there for it, so i'm not really all that sure.

whatevers. if some ppl were blessed by it, i guess that's what matters. i just was NOT blessed by the whole thing. ALBERT...next time u invite me to something like that, TELL ME EXACTLY WHAT IT'S GUNNA BE. and tell me exactly what time to come so i can just see u. and don't be LAST~ errr...i have a curfew, u kno. make me drive that far for nothing...iss ok tho. don't be sorry. don't feel guilty. at least i got to see u and some other glendale ppls.

11.02.01 - 12:43 pm

*shiver* it's cold in here. i'm at work..and the door's open. what's wrong with this picture? it's COLD in here? it's already afternoon. *shrug* i guess it's getting colder these days. and i THANK my LUCKY STARS that i'm not sick. eugene thinks i wanted to catch his cold, cuz he thought i might feel left out. WRONG~ i'm fine being not sick.

ok...i KNOW i've been talking about eugene a lot. maybe have i talked about shawn a lot? well...u gotta understand. i just met this dood like..what...a week ago? maybe more? and i've seen him EVERYDAY since sunday. i saw him sunday, monday, tuesday, wednesday, thursday. now it's friday, and i doubt i'll see him today, but...isn't that kinda SICK? hahaha...it's like shawn & sam & eugene are my only friend, eh? no..i PROMISE. i have more friends. :)

(beginning again 11.02.01 - 8:10 pm)
n/e wayz, i'm at home now. i called ppls on my way home and no one freakin picked up! but yeah...they called me back like...10 min later. hehe. but yeah...shawn asked me where i was...cuz i asked him where he was. i think he was going to get boba..then gunna go eat. i said i was on my way home..and he said FINE. he accused me of..uhh..what was it? something like ditching them. or abandoning them. but...uhh...how could i be doing that when i was NEVER INVITED in the FIRST PLACE?? err. punk. make me out to be the bad friend. psh~ but yeah...i didn't really do much today. just go to work. came home. i'm doing some laundry. i think i'm taking my cousins to watch monsters, inc. or shallow hal. i dunno if they can go tho...since it's a later show. *shrug* their parents usually say ok.

omg...i hate modem connection. i'm so used to dsl cuz of work. i'm on my laptop...d/ling the newest version of aim (the version that was on here...o dear...was it OLD) and it's going at like...2.3 kb/s. WOW. that's SLOW. at work, it would take less than a minute. pathetic. SAD, really. o dear...imma die before this d/l finishes. *SIGH* i dunno how i used to d/l SONGS on this thing, with a modem connection. great...1/3 of it's done.

i want a boyfriend. *SIGH*. but then...i don't. and it's not like i have n/e one in mind. o dear. i'm pathetic. but then...ALL my guyfriends have a girl-interest right now. geez. i'm serious. it's quite funny, really. errr.

so...last night...what did i do? o yeah...after my history exam, i called shawn & sam..cuz we were supposed to have dinner. they weren't at school, though, like they were supposed to. can you say FLAKE? errr. (i called shawn a booger. in fact...i called him a BIG booger, and he has the audacity to say that he's just a LIL booger. geez. no, my friend. if u're a flake, that makes u a BIG booger.) so we decide--or rather, i decide--that i'd go over to their apt. eugene was there. haha...of course. :D so i go. we had pizza. we watched "raw" & just kicked back. and...much to sam's disgust, i gave eugene multiple back massages. haha. yeah...i can't believe it either. i really should become a masseuse (spelling?), shouldn't i? haha.

but it's bad cuz i'm weak now and get tired easily. i had to get a hand massage to go on. shawn started, but it wasn't doing n/e thing...so i showed him what to do. in attempt to mimic what i had done, he started seriously hurting my hand. eugene did it much better. *whew* i thought shawn had broken my hand. WOW. this entry is BORING. i bet all my entries are boring. but that's ok. it's sorta like my own diary, i suppose. except i exclude the juiciest stuff...like my emotions..my take on stuff....my attitude..my thoughts. i mean, sometimes i include some of it, but i leave a LOT out. i'm not gutsy enough to put it all in. maybe if i were to write a book...but then again, it'd be boring, so i'd hate doing that.

ok...n/e wayz...i left early cuz i DO have a curfew. yes i do. sad, isn't it? i think i did mention this somewhere else on this homepage, but yes. i'm a 19-year-old with a 12 o'clock curfew. *SIGH* ok...time to get off the phone line...