i asked God for something the other day...and he actually gave it to me the next day. but...i asked for it without really wanting it...so when i got it, i was really hurt. i wasn't bitter towards God, but i was just...really surprised that i got it..and so soon.

so you must be wondering what i'm talking about (that is, if n/e one's actually reading this, which not many ppl really do...). i'm talking about my emotions. i've been feeling a certain towards a certain somebody for a lil while. i've been trying to let go of these emotions, but it's been really hard. especially cuz i didn't know exactly how this person felt towards me. so i prayed about it and asked if it wasn't in HIS will, then could HE help me take away those feelings~ and sure enough...the very next day, i was told rather bluntly...that there was nothing--and would be nothing--there.

so i was really hurt at first--i joked about having my heart broken--but then i realized that i should be grateful cuz i got what i asked for so quickly~ wow. does that happen often?

i mean...this doesn't mean that i'll never feel n/e thing for this person ever again....but it just helped me realize that...i need to focus more energy on my life~