Making my way to the church and passing through neighborhoods whose houses were decorated for Christmas with lights trailing from one end of the roof to the other along with beautiful hand made nativities of Santa Claus and his reindeer held in their front yard. I smiled to myself as to how much more beautiful they would look at night. Focusing on what I saw and not what I had to do drove to nearly running a stop sign. As many times as I have passed through this neighborhood, I always seem to forget the stop sign being there. Habits are habits and usually always stay a habit. The sight of the church glistened in my eyes as to how beautiful it was made as I pulled into a nearby parking spot. I grabbed my photography bag along with my camera that hung safely around my neck and my journey inside the church. Everyone inside was so well dressed with a smile upon their faces, greeting each and everyone that sat around them. I quickly found a seat and prepared my camera for when it would be time take the first picture. Although doing it here was something that I was suppose to be done hours ago. What can I say, people makes mistake and if you’re a girl then you have tons of them. There will always be the case of being late because you’re not fully made up yet which usually leads that person to forgetting what was most important to do. Just as I finished setting everything that needed to be set on my camera, the music began to play as the doors opened and the lovely bridesmaids walked arm in arm with the groomsmen down the aisle. I quickly took my place in the church and began to snap away all the pictures within an instant. I made sure take three pictures of each walking pair that made they’re way down the aisle in case one picture didn’t come out looking likable. With both the bridesmaids and groomsmen taking there place at the front of the church, the doors once again opened to reveal the beautiful bride arm in arm with her father. Along with every smile she made and step she took, all could be seen from her eyes that she was so happy. I looked at her as she did he same to me with the biggest smile I’ve ever seen. Without wasting any time, I quickly took a picture of the moment and smiled back at her while she made her next step life. Watching what was being said from both the bride and groom as I sat and took a picture that of every well remember moment this day would turn out to be, I looked at the bride who seemed to be in her mid 20’s, who stood before us all wearing the most beautiful white dress I’ve ever seen and looking as happy as can be. With one blink of an eye, I saw myself in her place being as happy as she could although with a man that I wish I knew was. I quickly disregarding the thought and keep to my business and sat through the wedding waiting for it to all be over and done with so that we could all move on the reception and I could go home. As the vows where made and the final statement reached to conclusion, I looked over to the right as I saw what I thought to have been a guy around the same age as I staring at me. Not knowing if he was looking at me or the person next to me, I looked away and finished the remaining film I had left as the groom kissed his bride and welcomed her to their world that they would spend together. Seeing and hearing all the tears and cheers, I couldn’t help but to feel happy for the two of them. Along with everyone leaving after the newly wedded couple escaped out of the sanctuary , I stayed behind waiting for them to dismiss everyone to meet them at the reception while they would stay behind and finish the group picture of all that were a part in this wedding. Looking at my watch and hoping for it to tick faster, I was then greeted by the married couple who announced to me that they were now ready to take the group picture. Something about them made my job a whole lot easier for me to do. They were just the most kindest people that I’ve ever meet. The whole world would be a whole lot easier to live if everyone were like them. Taking a couple of pictures of the bride and groom together, then moving on to taking all who was a part of the wedding along with families, my work was now done. One last hour to go and my day is over.
Making my way to the reception that was being held at a private location that only I and the rest of the people that attended the wedding had access to, it made me think where my life stands. Being 22 and not having that special someone along with me caused me to wonder if having this career was really a good idea. Sure it’s always been a dream of mine to do and now I am, but is it taking up too much of my time to recognized the reality around me? For the past two years, I’ve done nothing but work as hard as possible to make my career as worth it as I can. Never had I ever even thought about what love or finding someone for myself till now. Perhaps what I do now needs to be slowed down a bit so I can actually live in the reality of this world. As for me having friends, I really don’t even have time for them. It’s been total chaos for me without me knowing that I was in chaos for the past two years till now. |
