A wonderful retired preacher entered my life and I am now happily married. I get to be a full time wife, a chaplain in the Texas prison system and the proud mother of two wonderful young men. Jason graduated at the age of 16. He was 73rd out of a class of over 265. He is now happily married, works full time making excellent money as well as going to college. He is a honor roll student! He and his wife attend church now. Ken is working, he enjoys hunting, his dogs, and life in itself. Though he has not returned to church yet, he does pray and listens to God. He has begun to rebuild his relationship with Jesus. Yes, I hurt. I have memories that bring me into a state of why me? I do hate it when my mom, brother and I have to fight to keep Tony in prison. It hurts me for my wife to hear all of this. I chose to not go into drugs, alcohol or anything negative. I did fight alot, but even now, I know that it was wrong. People don't realize what they are saying sometimes. I chose to go back to church and trust God. Because I did, I have a great life. Memories can break you but if you choose they can make you a better man, husband and son. It won't be easy for you to come out of a situation like this. You can choose to make it! Don't feel ashamed, tell it like it is, and do what you can do. If your mom is anything like my mom, she will show you that God can and will open doors for you. Yes, I still have some hang ups ~ still have some rough times. I haven't returned to church on regular basis because of Tony. But I do pray and listen to God. I sometimes think that I still hate Tony, but I have learned to direct it in the right direction. Like Jay said, I choose not to dwell on the memories, but accept life and enjoy it. Life will only give you what you will let it. If it gives you something rotten, peel it, cook it, and feed it to Tony! Naw, really just toss it in the garbage where it belongs, and get on with the good stuff. God? Yes I will return and preach His word. After all, bring up a child in the right way, and when he is old, he shall not depart. None of this was His fault anyway. Man did this to us! All I know is no matter what happens to you, you choose to let it break you or make you. None of our recovery was overnight. It all took and still takes time. God worked miracles in our lives, but we had to choose to trust again. We had to choose to not let this destroy us. This is what you will have to do ~ Choose to forgive, and trust in God. "When life serves you lemons, make lemonaide! God will keep you supplied in plenty of sugar." THE CIRCUMSTANCES AND THE CRIMINAL DID NOT TAKE AWAY YOUR ABILITY TO CHOOSE WHAT YOU WILL DO! Please remember .... You don't have to suffer alone! If you are suffering, please email me, I would love to help. Click on my to email me. Home        Links & Credits        Awards        Webrings Background designed exclusively for: "There is a Path ...." Not for Public Domain, nor to be included in any Graphics Collections. "There is a Path ... " Site designed by: Cheralyn Maturi aka Rosebud This page hosted by   Get your own Free Home Page