MY CHILDREN



I have Michael, who is now 15 years old, then there should be Matthew Jacob ("MJ") who would be about 13 now, then came Jamie who is now 8, then Drew who is now 4, then there should be Christopher Daniel ("CD") who would be almost 2 years old now, if he had lived to be born on his due date. However, when I was 5 months pregnant the doctor could not find his heartbeat, and they had to induce labor and I had to deliver him, because he had died inside of me. This has been a very difficult thing for us to go through! I know that God is in control, and that there is a reason unknown to me why this had to happen! Possibly, when I see my Jesus face to face, then, and only then will I know!

However, we found out that we were expecing another baby! After "trying" for 4 1/2 months!! He was born on April 11, 2001, the day before my 35th b'day! His name is Cameron! He weighed 8 lbs. and 2 oz. He was due on April 15th, but, they induced labor on April 11. Thanks to all who prayed for us during this pregnancy!

Now, let me tell you about "MJ". This is the most difficult one for me to tell you about! See, I made a huge mistake when I was young and not walking with Jesus, I had an abortion. I have since asked God to forgive me, and have begun to walk the walk with God as my Lord and Savior. I know I am forgiven by God, though it is still sometimes hard for me to forgive myself and still want to go back and undo what I did! If there was any way that I could do that, I would!

There has not been one day, that I have not hurt inside for what I did!!! I know you are probably wondering how I could do something like that, especially since I already had a child. Well, without going into too much detail, the circumstances I was in at the time, I just seemed to have no other way out! I had no one (that I knew of) to turn to that would be helpful and not condemning. Someone that would tell me the truth about what was going on, and what real options I had, other than to abort!

If you are in this type of circumstance, and feel the same way I did, please know that there is someone that will listen to you and be helpful and not condemning! Number one, that person is Jesus Christ! You can call on God for anything and everything you are going through! He knows and can help! Number two, I now know of an organization that has volunteers that take on ANY and ALL problems you may feel lost in!!! That organization is Sav-A-Life!!! They do NOT do abortions, they educate you on abortions, how dangerous they are, and they also have different divisions to their organization that can give you ALL the help you need!! FREE OF CHARGE!!!! Also, I am here, you can e-mail me privately, and I will help you get in touch with the people that can help you! There are SO many other options out there than to take the life of your baby! That is what it is, from the moment of conception, a BABY! All that is needed is time to grow! Just like a seed that you would plant in your garden to give you flowers, or food! At conception, the seed has been planted!! I am saying all this because I wish I would have had Jesus and known about Sav-A-Life when I was so lost, afraid, confused and needed so much help! Please know that I am here for you, and praying for you!!!
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