Thespian inductions were alright last night. 24 inductees. Holy shit. That's more than the current thespian number. Miki and I couldn't believe they reserved only 2 hours for thespian inductions with such a big number. Good job, guys. Had fun screaming "Shakespeare!" at the new thespians today.

Went to SRM presentations. It was hardcore.

Trying to work on Contemporary Fiction paper for A Perfect Peace by Amos Oz. It was due a month ago. I forgot about it. I'm realy sleep though. I might just work on it in the morning. Yeah, that sounds really good right now.

But, I'm busting it to Ozomatli.

Got the Jimmy Eat World cd. I like it a lot. Well, 1/3 of the songs. I can tolerate the rest, which is pretty good. I kinda want to see them in concert, but they open up for Greenday. Blegh.

(do you remember? I used to go to concerts with you a lot. We went to Evanescence, Linkin Park, and the Aquabats. I thought about that when I tried to think of who to bring to the Jimmy Eat World/Greenday concert, and I automatically thought of you because I often went to concerts with you. Do you remember last year when I cried over the thespian thing and you were there? Do you remember when I cried in bed about the piano and you tried to encourage me? Do you remember when Bombchu fell asleep in your crotch? Do you remember the waterfront and the geeses? Do you even remember anything? You told me you wouldn't forget, but I think you have. I remember sleeping in your lap, laughing at your animal noises, flugtag, making lists of movies, lists of where we'd travel together, and remembering more than I wish.)

Stupid loaded prompts. A Perfect Peace is not a frickin coming of age novel. It's a midlife crisis novel. Get it right, Contemporary Fiction.

I need to buy Kite Runner.

Yeah
Friday, May 20th, 5:50 pm
father tearing paper

Sarah and I went driving on Tuesday night to Kinko's. She pointed out how I liked songs with distortion. It's true. If you listen to the mix of my top favorite songs (but only Butto and Rob have a copy right now,) almost all of the songs have distortion. Almost. We also drove around the campus of her future college, Lewis & Clark. Well, drove around where I could actually drive.

In AP English on Wednesday, I gave my presentation on Henrik Ibsen: the Individual against Society. It went really well. Everyone thought my handouts kicked ass. I used this image of the Fool Card for the cover. Mrs. H liked it a lot because she thought it fit Henrik Ibsen really well, not to mention it kicks ass.

On Wednesday, I also received a package from my unky containing the jawesomest birthday present- Y's for PS2, American McGee's Alice for PC, Katamari Damashi for PS2, and a bunch of episodes of Initial D (>>). It was awesome. So...with Y's...my unky used to play the SNES version when I was little, and I would spend hours watching him. It was the first video game that transfixed me. We can't find it anymore, and it makes me sad cuz I wanted to play it. But he got me the PS2 version cuz he says it doesn't look that bad, but I haven't started it yet. It remains unopend.

I hate Katamari cuz I suck at it. And I hated the music. But now I'm getting better. And I'm getting used to the music. Actually, I have that song that says "do your best" stuck in my head.

HOLY SHIT ALICE!!! She is so frickin hott. She has an irish accent, though it sounds british at times (looks for trailer.) Grah, can't find any that work. And the opening is so frickin good. It is equivalent to Himiko-den in my opinion. Oh man, you have no idea. And the Cheshire cat sounds sexy.

Ben gave me Pokemon Emerald. I looked for Andrew (my gameboy SP,) but I couldn't find him. I got really angry because he used to sit on top of my gaming guides in my room until my mom made me move it out when I was painting. So, I would have known where it was if I hadn't fricking MOVED IT. But mom sent me driving to pick up some Hawaiian food, and I blasted angry music.

I am still angry, but I will take out my anger on Katamari. I would take it out in Alice, but I'm vending in RO.

Double Piercings
Saturday, May 14th, 3:04 pm
some asian techno song by Mina

Woke up at 6:30 and drove mom to work so I could drive to get my ears double pierced. She wanted me to take someone with me, but a lot of people were at the Mother-Daughter beach day thing. I took Ryuu. It was exciting. I picked her up at Lincoln HS where she was taking an art class. We went to Straight to the Point Piercing. The guy was awesome. We talked and made fun of the piercers at Claire's. We were informed that the pierce guns they use are really for animals, and that their piercing solution was mostly alcohol, so it really messed up the skin and de-healed it. It didn't hurt that much when I got it pierced. It just burned when he stuck the needle through. Now it just feels like someone pinched that area real hard. I'm paranoid it'll get infected cuz he's all "keep your phones clean, change your pillow case every night, put your hairback because it's a net of doom" etc etc. Okay, so he didn't say of doom. He said something along the lines of catching earings and infections.

Afterwards, we went to 23rd street to go find somewhere to eat. But it was crowded, and we looked around for 15 mins for a parking spot. So then we just went to Good Dog/Bad Dog downtown. Then I dropped her off at the Max.

This is How I Feel
Sunday, May 8rd, 1:45 pm
"Mr. Brightside" by the Killers

I just can’t look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside

This is how I essentially felt during prom. Don't get me wrong, I had a stupendous time, but I kept seeing him and it hurt. I guess I had my heart broken. It feels weird, because I wasn't in love with him. It was just like someone punched me. And then spit in my face.

But it was awesome because my friends were there and we were the most awesome people. We kept slipping dollars to each other. On the last dance, we formed an amoeba and ate the couples dancing. Sarah's Billy Idol song played. I hit Sarah and she hit me and then I chased her. Group picture. Shyeah. We skanked and did the DEVO thing. They played "Sandstorm." Jawesome. Oh yeah, we ate dinner beforehand at the Brasserie. And drew stuff. Shyeah.

Afterwards, we (Sarah, Helen, Sam, Holly, John, Kevlyn, Gary, Christianne, Ben and I) went back to my hizouse and watched SNL. Then we watched Wishing Stairs. Then the girls went upstairs to sleep and the guys stayed downstairs and fell asleep watching Van Hellsing. Then we woke up and watched Underworld while eating breakfast. Then people started leaving, and we went channel surfing. We (Helen, Sam, Sarah, Ben and I) ended up watching music videos and cleaning up. Now Sarah just got out of the shower and Ben is showering downstairs and I am blogging.

The New Play Festival went well. I was having an anxiety attack during my stage managed play because I was telling all the stage managers what to do and when to go. It was crazy. Sarah did a good job as Robert Frost in Writer's Block.

So, now we're (Ben, Sarah, me, and my parents) are going to go to dinner with my grandparents...or something. But at this moment, I dunno. Shower time. Hahaha, hammer time...shower time...I'm done.

Yes, I'm Getting Old
Tuesday, May 3rd, 9:10 pm
Mom typing

She made me turn off my music because she's trying to concentrate on writing a report for May 16. I turned on my music so I could stay awake in order to type an analysis that's two days late, read 15 pages of psych text, type up history homework, translate stuff into simple spanish, and find some criticisms or reviews for the author of Life of Pi. So...where's the competition?

Went to prom with Butto Saturday night. It was alright. I liked the OMSI lamps. There were some SMA girls there, too. There was some light talk floating around on Monday. Yay for ambiguity.

I totally broke down today. I was so fucking tired. I went to sleep last night around 10 and woke up at 3:30 to do homework, but I kept falling sleep. My mom started yelling at me today for being forgetful and that I needed to find a job. Hello mom! Your fucking daughter is at school until 9 pm and she would just like everyone to leave her alone ! >< So that wasn't cool.

Oh, and my birthday's tommorow. 2:04 am. The funny thing is that I'll probably be up around that time, doing homework.

Today Was Amazing
Thursday, April 28th, 7:56 pm
"Pretty Girl (the Way)" by Sugarcult

Yesterday, Pat/Fate worked on helping Mike (played by Grace) getting into character when s/he threw a fit. She was so mundane, and then Pat got her going. After her monologue she started crying because it was so intense and she truly "wanted" it. Hannah (the director) and I were crying because it was so good. Pat can have a stick up his ass, but he really is a good director.

Today we were practicing again, and Ali (played by Kathryne/Sapphire) wasn't intense enough when she was yelling at Mike. Her line is "what are you doing, Dad?!" and it wasn't reaching its peak. So Hannah did this exercise. I was playing Mike at the time because Grace was sick. Ali would keep asking "what are you doing?" and my only answer would be "what am I doing?" It would go on and on like that. Ali would do anything in her power to try to make me give an answer: yell at me, shake me, hit me, walk around in circles...and I would only give her an answer if she provoked me too. Ali started going insane. She was yelling at me as loud as she could, she knelt at my knees and shook them and started sobbing. I was afraid she was crying and afraid that I was going to tell her my answer, so I kept turning away. And then she just stood and front of me and just sobbed "what are you doing?" I finally looked up at her. She was red in the face and all puffy and crying. So then I started crying and said "I'm eating my house. My wife is dead and I love her more than anything else. And I miss her." Then Kathryne looked down and just kept crying. I gave her a hug. And everyone gave her a hug. But it was amazing.

There's this peak you hit when you're an actor. Sometimes you just don't hit it. It's when you feel what your purpose is, and the word I becomes both yourself and the character. It's the feeling that no matter what you did, you could be your character in any circumstance. Those two transformations were so amazing. I can't get over it.

Enough about crying and acting.

I ran errands for mom. Oh man, I was backing out of the parking spot in front of the dry cleaners and I hit my left-rear tail light on the bumper of the truck. So I found the guy who owned the truck at the mini-market close by and we exchanged info. He was really nice about it, and kinda cute. But he's like 20 years older than me. Haha. So, some of the plastic fell off my tail light. Mom didn't seem that angry about it.

At Fred Meyer, I bought cd cases, and I started talking to the clerk and his friend at the electronics section. Sarah, and I needed you, because I couldn't come up with anything clever to say to their combacks. His friend was calling the clerk a troublemaker and I said "yeah, I understand." And the clerk's all "are you a troublemaker too?" with that glint in your eye. So it took me awhile before I pointed at him and said "your mom." Egh. It was sad though.

Chris, songs by Vertical Horizon, Everclear, or Greenday remind me of you.

Yay for Subjects on Crying
Tuesday, April 26th, 9:29 pm
"Points of Authority" by Linkin Park

On Sunday night, I went to dinner at Ben's house with his family. It was awesome. I looked at an album of his baby pictures. Hehe.

My cast for one acts is doing pretty well. I especially love the ending scene. It makes me wanna cry. Yesterday, during mass, we sang "Cry of the Poor" and that made me want to cry, too. Ummm, there was a third one, but I forgot.

So shyeah, umm...nothing really to talk about. I have a headache.

En diez años
Tuesday, April 19th, 10:05 pm
"Rewrite" by Asian Kung Fu Generation

En diez años, estudiaré ser una psiquiatra por los criminales. Estaré una interna y aprenderé más sobre del mundo médico y psicología. Tal vez tendré un esposo. Planificaremos adoptar niños cuando tengo el doctorado de psiquiatra y tengo un trabajo estable. Mi esposo y yo viviremos in el condominio sin las ventanas con las vistas bonitas porque no necesitaremos ver las ventanas para experimentar belleza. Decoraré el condominio con las flores frescas porque me gustan y mi esposo no le molesta. Cada miércoles, mi esposo querrá dar una sorpresa y cocinará la cena. Cada miércoles, fingiré estar sorprendida. No necesitaremos decir "te amo" para saber nuestro amor.

Shyeah, en el classe de español, we just learned how to do the future tense. It's pretty easy, but I probably messed up on some things. Ah well.

So, yesterday, Mai pissed me off again. She dissed Beloit without even knowing anything about it. Typical. She was like "blah blah blah! No! I'll never visit Beloit because it's on the east coast!" Except that it's not on the east coast. Good job on the bias.

Went to Ben & Jerry's today with Hannah, Sai and Louisa. It was free cone day aka: free ice cream. There was a huge line, and we stood for 5 mins wondering if we should fall in line too. Then we realized it was moving pretty fast, and so we decided to fall in line. We hung out behind an old man that kept on telling red neck jokes. Helen, Sarah, Totoro, and Rebecca B turned up a few minutes later. I got Fossil Fuel, which is alright. The Last Straw (flavor) was better.

I gave my presentation in biology on Herpes Simplex. I was surprised the students grossed out more on the pics of type 1 (Cold Sores) than type 2 (Genital Herpes.) But then again, I chose the pics for genital herpes that did less harm to the eyes. Much less. There was one I found on the wired, and the vagina was all red and swollen and bleeding. It was gross. I told them the stories about the little boys having HSV-1 (cold sores) and not washing their hands and going to the bathroom so they spread them to their genitals x.X And I showed them the picture of the baby born with herpes. It's really sad. They're born with herpes cuz their mom had herpes (dormant or not.) It's called a C-section. Shyeah.

Learned about Mad Cow disease. That was exciting. Not really.

Mom sent me to pick up her meds around dusk, and I was all "meeeeh" cuz I had/have a ton of homework to do. So then I blasted "Traval" by Utada Hikari really loud and fed my eyes by looking at handsome young men. So I got home and felt better.

Now I have to read a few chapters from A Perfect Peace by Amos Oz for contemporary fiction and 17 chapters of A Passage to India for AP English. Blah.

"That's been my whole life. I don't have any other. The one I have keeps rushing by, and right now I'm being paged to get up and go because who will give me back the time that I've lost and what if I arrive too late?" (24, A Perfect Peace)

Now I Am Busting It...Again
Tuesday, April 12th, 7:27 pm
"Loop and Loop" by Asian Kung Fu Generation

OMG I FOUND AN ASIAN KUNG FU GENERATION FANSITE!!! CLICK HERE DAMNIT. It has videos and everything. I (and Sarah) EXTREMELY recommend you download the music video of "Loop and Loop" because it's the best music video EVER! It makes us very happy. I listened to a bit more of their music from what I could get in the audio section, and I'm afraid I'm gonna have to put them in my top bands now >< I gotta get their cd T.T They're rivaling Rasputina. I don't know. They're very different types of music. This is now my favorite music band order.

1. Bad Credit
2. Rasputina or Asian Kung Fu Generation ><
3. Hoobastank
4. Franz Ferdinand

I had an allergic reaction yesterday T.T I ate a sandwich Julia gave me and it had a spread with nuts in it. So, I took a benadryl, and my throat was still closing up, so I had to resort to using my Epipen T.T It was rather interesting. First time I used it myself. Haha, I was lying on the floor of the senior hall bathroom with the attendance person watching as I shot it up my leg T.T So then I laid on Sister Linda's floor until mom picked me up. It kinda sucked, but at least I got to use it without any help <3 I haven't had to use my Epipen in years. Then I slept a lot >>

So, I have a B in most of my classes, an A in a couple, and a C in pre-calc. Ack for senioritis.

Now I Am Busting It
Monday, April 5th, 11:05 pm
"ZiPS" by TM Revolution

Yes, I finally have the song.

Haha, I haven't used that phrase for a long time. It means I am dancing. Hardcore. I can't help like dancing like the guy in the music video. It's kinda embaressing. It's also kinda sad that I'm quite attracted to him. I think it's the clothes. I am going to make myself a set of clothes like that before I go off to college.

I go through phases of listening to certain asian songs for months on end. This is my "ZiPs" by TM Revolution stage. Before, it was some song by To-ya...A long time ago, it was "Monochrome (Remix)" by Ayumi Hamasaki.

One acts went well. I was only their bitch for 1/3 of the time. Hehe. We casted. That took a good 1.5 hours. It was fun. Too bad I can't talk fully talk about my Stage Managerness cuz it would violate shiznit. It's fun and tiring. It also amuses me when I call people and tell them they're being guys, and they don't sound too enthused. Hehe.

*busts it more*

Haha, I can see myself breaking the speed limit with this song. But I won't, because I operate on Kohlberg's Level I Stage 1, and I don't want a ticket. But I want the singer from TM Revolution. It's the hips.

I'm Going Crazy Over This Song
Monday, April 4th, 11:00 pm
"Zips" by TM Revolution

It's only 30 seconds, but I'm going nuts. My body keeps pulsing to the beat. So, I figured out why there's a huge gundam in the music video- the song is in Gundam Seed. Anyhow, you can listen to the 30 seconds of lovin' here. Click on "Zips."

Spent most of the weekend hanging with Sarah. We played DDR. Baked cakes and decorated them. Begged Mitch to come to our graduation. Etc.

Auditions for the "New Play Festival" aka: One-Acts went well. I got to be the group's bitch for most of the time. Only because I was always standing and on my feet. Yay for making actors shut up in the hall. Haha, it was great when I said "Ladies, I shouldn't need to tell you to lower your voices more than once." That actually had a long term effect.

Oh yes, for those who don't know, I will be attending Beloit College in the fall.

HOT DAMN
Monday, March 28th, 4:02 pm
Devil May Cry bg effects

Woke up at 7 am and played RO. Mitch was on >< Apparently he stayed up all night. I lvled my archer a bunch. Whee. Yay for Double EXP.

Picked up Sarah around noon and ran errands. Of course we got Frosties are Wendy's. Afterwards, we had nothing to do, and I was supposed to pick up mom at 3:30 and it was only 2:00. So we were driving around downtown, and I pointed to a guy in an old blue Ford car and said "that's you Sarah." The little window's by the windshield opened and we were all like "haha" cuz he was smoking and the window...shyeah. So then, she points out this guy with emo glasses and was like "that's you." He saw her pointing so he waved. And we waved back. That's when we decided...we would follow him D:

He circled the post office and stuff. Then he parked >< And there weren't any parking spots near him. So then we took 5 mins looking for a parking spot nearby. When we did, we paid for parking and walked over to the guy's car. We were like "faque, what are we gonna say?!" So we decided we'd interview him for The Management. Haha. He was all "I'm flattered that a couple of pretty girls followed me blah blah blah blah etc etc." He liked my earings ^^ But he didn't have his emo glasses on and that was sad. After the interview, we were walking away and I mentioned how he was more awesome with his emo glasses. And Sarah said we should go back. And I should ask him if he's a meth dealer >< So we did. It turned out 1) his emo glasses were SUN GLASSES (bleh) and 2) he was not a meth dealer. How interesting.

Now Sarah is playing Devil May Cry. Yay. Oh, the subject. We were getting off a bridge, and there was a women standing on the curb. Sarah says"HOT DAMN she looks angry!" It was funny, so I kept making fun of her saying "hot damn."

A Week's Glance
Sunday, March 27th, 2:20 pm
"Calma e Sanguefreddo" by Luca Dirisio

Alright, here goes. I'll try to remember. Sarah, tell me if I'm missing something.

Friday (19th)- Went to my job interview at the Chinese Garden's Tea House. Brought Bronwen with me. The interviewer and I talked about our asianality. Didn't get the job because they don't need weekenders >< Bronwen and I drank tea. Picked up mom from work, dropped Bronwen off at a bus stop. Went home. Later, went to see the Ring 2 with Helen-kun, Christian, Elizabeth, Emeril, and Sarah. We were sitting in a row of elitists (2 guys to the right where whack.) The row in front of us were filled with preteens who kept screaming. It was kinda funny. Ring 2 takes place in Astoria, Oregon. The Oregonians were amused. There are not that much deer in Oregon...combined...in the whole age of the earth. I was upset because it didn't follow the Japanese plotline. Duh. Thought I had Ring 2 in Japanese at home. Bring Sarah and Helen home with me. Didn't have Ring 2, so we watched Wishing Stairs. Sohee is hott. Dictated the whole movie to Mitch over RO. Hae is awesome.

Saturday- Helen leaves at 8 am. Sarah and I are still asleep. We do stuff. I don't remember. Dad is pissing me off. Then Ben pissed me off. Then Mom made the fatal move of teasing Ben and my relationship, and I got pissed off at her. In turn, she gets pissed off at me. She tells me and Sarah to go to a movie so I can cool down. Sarah and I didn't agree to any movies, so we went driving. Went to Mai's house. Mai is getting her hair cut by Caitlin. Bring Caitlin to a party in 23rd. Circle the raining block of 23rd to see if she's alright. Go to Wendy's and get frosties. Drop Mai off at her house. Return home with Sarah. Jenny is there. We make her watch Rayearth because we didn't have anything else. Sarah plays Free Cell, I play RO. Jenny leaves. Sarah spends the night.

Sunday-Sarah leaves early to go to a ski trip with Mai. I pack for college hopping. I don't remember anything else.

Monday- arrive in Chicago. Bus to Beloit. Get dropped off. Mom goes to check in. A young man named Kai picks me up. He is a Freshman. Also from Portland, OR. We talk about Portland and our high schools. There's another girl there, too. But she gets dropped off first because she is meeting her host somewhere specific. Kai is in a fraternity. Hehe. Get dropped off at security. My evening host is Julie. I meet her and her gay friend, Ken. He's really awesome. Eat at Common's. It was packed. Listened to some chick rant about her doomed relationships. Hung with the indi kids. It was amusing. Sat in Julie's dorm and talked about Beloit. I like their dorms a lot. Ken comes over. We hang more. Watch Center Stage in the lobby. Julie leaves for MUN. Ken takes me to my overnight host, Erin. Erin's really sweet. She gave me coffee. I sat and read Dreaming Water by Gail Tsukiyama while she wrote her paper on Aristotle. Her roommate, Whitney, is awesome. Haha. Their friend Sarah dropped by. She's so cute. Got ready for bed. Erin made sure I knew where to go in the morning. Slept.

Tuesday- Woke up at 7 or 8. Got ready. Gathered my stuff. Dropped it off at Admission's. Hung out and read because I was early. Went to a biology class. Yay for dinosaurs. It was awesome. Went back to Admissions and met up with my mom. Took the tour with other people. Bonded with the kid from Seattle (not really)

Me: So, you're from Seattle
Seattle: Yeah.
Me: Cool. (silence) So, U2 is going up to Seattle. That's cool.
Seattle: What?
Me: U2...the band.
Seattle: Oh, heh, yeah.

Amusing. There was another dude from Gastron (?), OR. He was cute. And a Sophomore. Hahahaha. Ate at Commons. Julie (yay) and Trevor were our guides. Went back to the hotel. Ate dinner. Slept.

Wednesday- Left for Austin, TX. Arrived in Austin, got on a connection flight to Houston. Drove to the hotel. Ate and slept.

Thursday- Mom and I take a tour around Rice University. Our tourguide, Sarah, was from Ashland, OR. Booyah Oregonians. Afterwards, Mom and I eat at a "mesquite"(?) restaurant. Go back to hotel. Sleep.

Friday- Wake up at 3 am. Drive to the airport. Fly to Austin, then fly to Portland. Get home. I play RO.

Saturday- Go to grandparents' cuz Unky is home from Cali. Pick up Ben. Eat at grandma's. Eat...a lot of food. Ben and I watch The Audition. That was interesting. Dad and I drop off Ben at his house because he has to go to Astoria. Haha. We go back to grandparents'. Mom and Dad leave with our cat (yeah, I know.) I stay. We go to Ringside to eat. Unky and I talk about making big katamaris. We leave around 10. Drop my greatgranduncle (he'll be 103 in July) off at his place. We go home.

Sunday/Today- Dad and I go to church. I see people I know. They see me. We say hi. Paul is hott. I go to Borders and pick up Henrik Ibsen's Four Major Plays for AP English. We go grab the soda pop sales at Albertson's in prep for graduation parteh. Blah. I am home now. Have to do chores.

Beloit vs Rice. Haven't heard from Rice University yet. I get to know on the 1st of April >< I love Rice's educationness. They also don't have a core curriculum. The campus is big and beautiful. Mom likes the building style (Moorish.) They have a program for med students. If one signs up for it their Senior year at Rice and get in, they have a spot saved for them a Baylor, which is a very prestigious med school. Their dorms are alright. There are 8 of them, and they call them "colleges." There are rivals, and it seems pretty fun. There's not enough housing for everyone, so everyone has to leave campus for a year while they are at Rice. It depends what college they're staying in. Their dorms themselves aren't that great. There's a "lobby"ish place and 2 rooms which hold 2 people each. They're big, but just aren't my style. Mom and I got lost trying to find the campus store, so we asked a young man. His name is Zach and he's in the architecture ness. He's a freshman. We asked him question and he tells us stuff. "I came to Rice because people would show me around, like I'm doing now, but when I arrived...it wasn't much so anymore...so it's different, but the same." He cracked us up. He said he didn't like any of his classes except architecture. "I mean, they're all important, but I just don't like them. Humanities, science...they're all important, but I would still be good at architecture without them." So Mom says "Well, can't you switch them around since there are no core classes?" And he replies "hehe, no, not really." I ask him about the professors and he says "all of the ones I've met are really good. I mean, there are probably really bad professors. I have yet to meet them. But I'm sure if I look hard enough, there are bad professors." Haha. But...everyone seemed the same. Mom and I only saw 1 person with an eyebrow piercing. There wasn't that much activity concerning the world around them. They were there for studying (which was good,) but no one seemed to pay mind to the harsher side of society.

I love Beloit's environment. Hehe, there's a lot of people from the Northwest. They're so open about everything. There's Alliance housing for gays, lesbians, and transexuals. The Women's Center for feminists. Everywhere, written in chalk, is "Sexual Assault Discussion Here at blah blah blah time." In the bathroom I was in when I spent the night, there was a board that people would write on in the stall. The topic was foreplay. Haha, awesome. When we were taking our tour, Snap (from Snap, Crackle and Pop) was hanging in the tree with a noose around his neck, holding a sign that said "I can't stand this shitty Common's food anymore." I really like the dorms. Yay for walkthrough doubles. If I go here, I will probably get a single room because they're quite nice. All the people are really nice and aren't afraid to be different. But...their psychology department isn't that strong. Only 3 professors. No Latin or Italian languages I wanted to take either. T.T

I don't know. We'll see where I get accepted. I still have to hear from Scripps as well.

Oh...for you, Mitch. According to our text book, proactive interference "occurs when material that was learned earlier disrupts the recall of material learned later" and retroactive intereference is vice versa. So learning things at different times, yet close together, can mush them all up and mess your memory. Well, I guess mess is a harsh word. Here's an example (taken from text book, hehe.)

I was baking cookies today. I baked cookies for the orchestra on Saturday. The very same type of cookies, too. Chocolate chip and chocolate chip caramel. I've learned from last year that the musicians have an affinity for cookies. I was going to get milk to go along with it, but then I remembered milk was bad for actors and musicians. It makes their mouths feel thick. Cookies are always huge hits with the percussionists, strings, and brass. My <3 trumpet player kept getting cookies. He said "these cookies are killing me" when he came back for his 4th one. Before the show started, I offered the last 3 to him because he really liked cookies. I swear he had one at every performance. Haha, he unwrapped a napkin holding 3 more of my cookies and put the other 3 in it. Crazy.

I still have to knit caps for Rich and two of the violinists. I'm visiting Dave this Wednesday.

I'm going to call Sarah. Hold on. No answer.

Anyhow, I got a mouse from the kids in SRM. They named her Daredevil >> I just call her DD.

It's cold. I have to study for a math and bio test. Actually, I don't think I will. Haha, I'm so great.

I Miss the Orchestra
Sunday, March 13th, 7:27 pm
"Flawless (Go to the City)" by George Michael

I love this orchestra. I would give my life for any of the musicians. I didn't bond as well with the orchestra last year for Kiss Me Kate probably because I was mostly sitting in the corner doing homework or working the curtains upstairs. But I really loved this one, thanks to the crazy brass and percussion sections.

Last night, I put on a mix and this song was in it. The tenor trombone player walked in and we were busting it. He said we should wear raver bracelets in the pit and play this song and make Fate angry. Hehe. He's a fun guy. I wish he was my older brother. I miss him already.

Okay, I'll admit it, I had a huge crush on the trumpet player. Suprisingly, not the hott one, but the musician who I kept drawing smilie faces on. I don't know why. I remember folding origami last night to keep my hands busy (Madeline took my knitting,) and when the brass players looked at my crane, he had his hand on his cheek and smiling with these huge bright eyes. It was different then his usual mundane look. T.T

Dave, the drummer, yeah, we were hardcore. We bonded more this year. Haha, we'd make faces at each other. I'd make bunny ears while the tenor trombone player was looking at Dave, then Dave would point at me. So I would stop while the trombone player turned around, then Dave would make moose ears. It was a nice cycle. He told me I should visit him at his work, which I eventually shall.

It was sad seeing Rich leave. I gave him a big hug and a kiss on the cheek. =(

Last night, after the show, we went to a Jamaican restaurant called Montego's Bay. There was live music, which was awesome. I had a caesar salad that I shared with Madeline. It was very good. I had sweet potato pudding for desert, which was even better. I had a pineapple-ginger drink. It was interesting because it'd be really sweet, and then the back of your throat would be burning. >< Only 14 of us went. My brass and percussion homies didn't go because it's dead week. Hehe.

Strike today was hell. That's all.

Booyah Long Entries
Friday, March 11th, 11:13 pm
"Jouhou/Information" from E's Otherwise

Hehe, sorry, shyeah, been really busy. Get ready for a hardcore long entry.

Rose Festival was fun. I wore a light gold beaded halter dress. The picture of me in the newspaper is bad. Charlotte won. It was interesting because a lot of people went up to me and said "your speech and impromptu were really good!" I'd say thank you, then they'd reply "...but we voted for Charlotte because blah blah blah she's on my basketball team, etc." It was a bit heartbreaking because I'm popular in a different way than her. But the whole thing was quite an ego-booster. There were many girls who I saw in the halls or the computer lab, and they would lean over and whisper "I voted for you" with a huge grin. It was great. Haha, then Pat gathered us up before rehearsal and said I did a great job. It made me kinda embarassed, because Pat was my speech teacher and a huge elitest. Throughout the day, he'd keep encouraging me.

Sarah probably wants me to talk about my impromptu, so I will. The question asked was "what three qualities are important in a friendship?" I was like "faque!" I said honesty, humor, and understanding. I seperated them into a structure, as I was taught. I talked about Sarah's honesty, and told a story about how I was wearing a hat and thought it was jawesome, but Sarah essentially said it sucked and she never wanted to see it on my head again. Yay for audience laughter. For humor, I quoted the top right of one of the pages in our assignment book (tips, quotes) and it said "laughter is the closest space between two people." I talked about how inside jokes, even though they're aren't understandable to other people, are really the super-glue between friends because it's personal. And for understanding, I talked about different people's quirks and how they confused people.

Sis Lin gave me the DVD of the assembly and stuff, and I still haven't watched it yet. Haha, maybe I'll upload it. Not.

The musical has been keeping me on my feet. Wednesday was the pick-up rehearsal. There were about 12 musicians present (there are 24 in the orchestra.) There was only one trumpet player (not the really hott, "crotchety" one.) We kinda got cahootz aka: he was all "wtf?" I tried to make him dance, but he just wiggled a bit and that was all. Then I squeezed his left shoe and named it Albert. I also drew a smilie face on his right hand with a dry erase marker. I tried to knit bunny ears for his hat, but I didn't have enough yarn, so I made it into a bracelet instead. He wore it, but then took it off because it was cutting off the circulation in his hand. Then I got all sad, so he put on again and said he'd never take it off. Well, he did anyways ><

The next night, there were only 8 musicians. No brass players. Two wind instruments (clarinet & flute.) Two violins. Two cellos. Piano player. Drummer. So, Dave/Ben the drummer, and I were hanging out this time. Sai, Dave, and I took turns making fun of each other and the world in general. He wore the knitted bracelet and actually took it home. Yay.

Today was absolute hell. It was just Hope and I for the pit crew. Madeleine was skiing, and Sai had to stay home for blah. We did 3x as much work. It was especially bad tonight because two stand lights went out, so I had to go through the woodroom boxes in the dark to find a light. They musicians kept needing to get into the green room, so I had to run up and down at least 7 times to get the keys from the house manager. On top of that, there wasn't enough water. As you can guess, I was really frustrated. One of the flute players told me not to take it out on others (I wasn't that much though) and I just growled. The other flute player told her to simmer down. I told the tenor trombone player that I would rip out his throat when he teased me about the green room. The only thing that kept me somewhat sane was thinking about the hug that Hope gave me last night. I was talking to Rich, and I felt this small pair of arms reach from behind me. It was so sweet, and I remembered it on my 5th trip to the ticket booth for keys. <3

The trumpet player was telling us (Dave, Dan (the other percussionist,) and me) that the smilie face hadn't come off after awhile. He was at work (I think he works at Starbucks) and he felt kinda weird tearing receipts and making coffee with a smilie face hand. So I drew another one with a heart on it. He said he didn't have to work anytime soon.

So shyeah, it's alright besides that I guess. I was supposed to go to Sophomore Awakening today. But I have an F in AP English and a C in Pre-Calc, so I decided to stay at school today. Sorry Sophs.

Aaaah the tenor trombonist is so awesome! We make fun of the trumpet players all the time. Well, namely the one that sits by him (the guy that works at Starbucks.)

Oh yes! Today Ben and I were hanging out after school at the waterfront, and I noticed a young man sketching a bridge on the bench next to us. After an hour or so, he left, so I asked Ben to chase him and ask if he'd like to get ice cream with us. So he did and we got ice cream. Apparently, he's from Indiana and is looking around for a job as an architect. He was pretty awesome. Really nice. He had on a jade bead around a necklace he wore, which gives him 500x points in the Jade book. He's leaving tommorow T.T He likes Portland though. We talked about college, classes, Europe, and other stuff I don't really remember. It was awesome though. Highlight of my day. Booyah. He also said the word "hardcore" and I was like hellllz shyeah.