Ay Nako
Tuesday, February 2, 9:52 pm
"Billy Jean" by Michael Jackson

Found the freshman harpist. Maggie and I ran through Freshmen hall, yelling out "hey! who knows the harpist?" Found out her name was Laurel. Hopped to another group and figured out she was in the computer lab. Ran to the computer lab. "Laurel the harpist! Show yourself!" There fell a hush and a little voice piped up. "I-I-I'm Laurel..." Ha, it was great. But later that night, I found out we don't need her. She plays the celtic harp. Damnit, I told her the rehearsals and everything. Ah well.

Worked out after school. My quadriceps are gonna burn. I haven't lifted weights in almost a year. Was spiff nonetheless. There were a lot of people. Apparently, there was only one person yesterday.

Went out to dinner with Mom. Good stuff. She pointed out how skinny I was and how worried she was that I wasn't eating.. People have been doing that a lot lately. Am I really getting that skinny? Dude, I eat. Just not a lot at home and stuff. I'm not that bad, am I?

Talked to the conducter again. Now I get to do the dirty work, as in being the messenger to the people who didn't get accepted into the orchestra. Great. I honestly don't know how to break it to them. I also get to copy a guitar song! Omg! Mark the date, kids- It's Jade's first copy job. *cries* It's for Zach, who I guess is playing the guitar instead of the sax.

Shiznit.

Blah, AP
Tuesday, February 2, 12:14 pm
"Just One" by Hoobastank

In AP History, working on a newspaper project with Kelilah, Magpie and Alex. Shyeah, late 1800's. Wahoo~! Hmmm...Chinese Exclusion Act.

Anyhow, being the assistant conducter is blah. Sat with our maestro through some auditions. He wants me to, eventually, make a copy of a bunch of sheet music 3 inches high, front and back, and wants them all 3-hole punched. I swear my eyes must've grown friggin big. But he didn't hand it to me in the end. I'm pretty much his contact to the rest of the school, including Pat. Damn you, Pat. So, got Zach's number from Jessica and asked him to play the alto sax. Called Magpie for her violin skillz and Rich tried to persuade her to play. I think she agreed, but she told me that her mom's gonna hunt me down and murder me. The things I do for theatre. I also have to track down the harpist at the school, who I honestly don't know. Have to take inventory of all the music stands and chairs for our huge ass orchestra. I'm really scared, but I'm sure it'd be fun. Ha.

After a short and very direct talk with Mrs. Powell, decided not to read the poem at Open Mic. Sorry to all the people who sent the letters and stuff that wanted me to. Here it is, Lindsay.

Deep breath.

"Tribute to Sappho"

A brush of lips, a secret shared between us,
A gentle caress, some think this is forbidden
which I don't understand. I love her
and isn't that all that matters?

I care for her more deeply than any other,
in every perfection and imperfection she harbors
and with the ways her green eyes smile at me-
I admit my love.

The world would see us as shameful,
and we can only hide in the pitiful shadows
that personality disguises can provide;
only confessing in the dark.

They say it's a disease of the mind,
but they forget to include the heart,
for the passionate caring heart
is what we love with.

Does God really condemn inter-gender love?
People preach that God doesn't have a gender.
Creation was made with the everlasting agape,
so why should the Lord care?

Many years ago, in the days of ancient Greeks,
brave poet Sappho ignored all the disdain
and fought the people's prejudiced demeanor
with courageous eloquence.

Nevertheless, the feeling I contain
is held only for my beloved.
I will hold her, defend her from
the box of society.

So shyeah, anyone wanna come to Open Mic? It's this Saturday from 7-10 at SMA. We need to kick Central's ass.

Time for a New Layout
Monday, February 1, 6:23 pm
"Wonderwall" by Oasis

Good song. Kinda old, but it's still good.

Okay, Junior Encounter was mostly fun. Can't reveal much cuz of the SMA Sophomore *coughmiyazakicough* But I'll just say that the card games with Risa, Rimsha and other score people during break kicked. I love Herb's parents. Group discussions are always enlightening. Making up weird, funky dances at 2:30 am with Helen and Sarah was messed in a spiffdiggitytacular way. And, really, learning from Camerina that I remind her of fire. "Jade, each time I see fire, I think of you. Each time I see you, I think of fire. When I page thrugh my yearbook, I see the burning stick figures." Booyaka. Oh, and faking sleep in my Honors English teacher's arms. That was nice.

Got home, I was pretty content with myself and the whole world. But then I could feel my parents were agitated about something. When I got home, my mother revealed to me that my GPA dropped .05! *gasps in fake horror* That's not even half a friggin point! Argh. They can't fucking see that I worked so fucking hard to raise that AP History grade and that I raised my chem grade by a few percent, even though it's still a B, but was raised nonetheless. It's that damn new GPA system. Instead of an A- counting as a 4.00, it's a 3.99. It makes me really mad, cuz I scrape by in a lot of challenging classes with an A-.

So Miyazaki and I were talking in Sci-Fi club and we came up with a pure genius idea for Herb's sacrifice. We're gonna video tape a bunch of dolls (wouldn't barbies be funny?) portraying me, Chris, Miyazaki and Herb. Herb would be lying in bed as Miyazaki and Chris, dressed up in their ritual garb, jump him and force him into a pink dress and bonnet. Then they'll take him up to a mountain and maybe cut his throat (should we cut his throat, Chris? I don't know. Miyazaki wants to. I just like the fire.) Then I'll make fire (orange and red confetti) rain from the skies and singe barbie's, I mean Herb's, hair and body. And then my priest and priestess will dance a victory dance and everything will be good.

Yes, I am the assistant conducter for our play. Ack.

I'm Out
Friday, January 30, 8:32 am
"Ex-girlfriend" by No Doubt

Retreat time soon. I love you all.

Miyazaki, Chris...I want to make sure Herb is tied to the post on a high mountain in his pink frock, ready for sacrifice when I get back.

Green
Thursday, January 29,
"This Love" Maroon 5

Hullo there, this is Herb. Jade says she'd love to blog, but she's too busy packing for encounter. Ha. In any case, she babbled a bit about how Health 2 for long block is hell, so that should be mentioned. Anyway, then we went along our merry way to the movie theater, along with Mrs. xxxxxx, and watched ourselves a motion picture called The Butterfly Effect. Awesome movie, what with the way everything fit together.

Now then, tomorrow Jade gets on a bus and goes away to an undisclosed location, where she'll be for three days. She gets back at... what, 2 o'clock Sunday? Something like that. Why am I even blogging.

Subject is from Jade, because she's weird like that.

So Full
Wednesday, January 28, 8:37 pm
"Last Train" by LostProphets

Herb came over until about...now.

Our Social Justice teacher was talking about the "last cinnamon roll in the world," and I started really wanting one. So, Shannon and I walked over to Seattle's Best during break and there were none. I was all "biznatch!" So I had a white chocolate mocha and a chocolate donut. Then Herb walks me home and I eat some cottage cheese with rasberry jam. I can't believe he hates cottage cheese. It's so sad. We were going to watch Butterfly Effect with Mom (she's chaperoning this time instead of one of my friends,) but she didn't really feel like going. So, hahahaha, I did Herb's hair and Mom got blackmail pics. I'll post them here and on my LiveJournal when they develop. Made pansit and ate it. Yum. I still miss the thin thin noodles that the old ladies make and Mom always burns. Then finished off LoTR: Two Towers. Mom went out. Kicked it with Dad and watched the Sacramento vs Houston game. Then Herb's Dad picked him up.

Haha, Mom doesn't really wanna go. Dad just wanted her to cuz...well, you know my dad. So she's just gonna drop us off. "And if someone's there, just tell them I'm in the bathroom."

Ah, 5 months and a day, bunny.

Told my closet story to a majority of my friends (which happened on Monday.) It was great. After that ordeal, Herb and I went hopping downtown from the Ticketmaster office to the squizare to the mall for Linkin Park tickets. The woman at the desk was all "I don't think there are anymore floor tickets" and I was all sad. Then she's like "wait, I think the just opened some" and I started jumping up and down and stuff. Spifftacular. We're arriving at the concert 3 hours ahead of time. I hope that's good enough. AAAAHHH!!! HOOBASTANK!!! I LOVE YOU!!!

I have no homework. I've done everything that's due up to Monday. Everything. But I honestly gotta work on that HTML.

And change this layout.

I can't believe it's only 8:47.

=(
Monday, January 26, 10:19 am
"Last Train" by LostProphets

I was eating cottage cheese with peaches...and...and...A BIG JUICY SLICE OF PEACHY PEACH PEACH FELL ON THE FLOOR!!! *cries*

Tee Hee HEEEAAAAH
Monday, January 26, 10:04 am
"This Love" by Maroon 5

I am bumbling towards the kitchen.

Semi Breakdown
Sunday, January 25, 10:40 am
"Take Me Away" by Fefe Dobson

Man, each time I listen to this song, that wangless video pops up in my head.

Anyhow, winter semi-formal highlights! I put it on my livejournal, but I decided to put it here, too.

- slapping Herb and leaving a mark!
- red tablecloths as cloaks and togas!
- Devo!
- trying to teach Herb to dance!
- switching gender roles with him for a song!
- eating Emeril's brains with my hand!
- hitting people during a slow dance!
- kilt boy!
- kicking Jeff!
- Sarah's moonboots!
- crushed buttoneers and corsages!

Before the dance, Mom made me get my hair done. So, went to the salon. Herb met me there 30 minutes later. Apparently, Dad sent him there. Ate Chinese later when we got home. Herb brought flowers =) Such a sweetheart.

Hey Richard
Friday, January 23, 3:14 pm
"Last Train" by LostProphets

if you're still around. I think you'd like this song, but I wouldn't be surprised if you've already heard it. You'd like it, too, Chris.

Tech final today. Pat bashed everyone's sets. Well, not bashed, but pointed out things that weren't working. He pointed out the piano in mine and how tall it was. He called Justine's a Speghetti Factory because of the colors and stuff. Man, I'm gonna miss that crew.

I Need a Massage
Friday, January 23, 12:20 am
"The First Cut is the Deepest" by Sheryl Crowe

Saw The Merchant of Venice at PCS. Shyeah, that was interesting. Now, I am finishing up my tech project. Waiting for the piano legs and prostheneum to dry so I can glue them on. I also have to type up a scale chard and a 1 page explanation of my set concept and how I achieved it. Great stuff. I will probably try to clean my room in the meanwhile.

Busting It Again
Thursday, January 22, 1:24 pm
"Can't Stop" by the Red Hot Chili Peppers

Man, I'm gonna lose my groove Saturday if I keep on busting it like this.

Hey Megan, I see you, ya FREEEEEE-HEEEE-HEEEEE-ACK-KUUUUUHHHH.

Went to Starbucks with Miyazaki again, this time to the one on 6th cuz the other one was mondo-full. Not like this one wasn't, cuz it was. Huge ass line of SMA students, but they left promptly. It's purple, Miyazaki. Purple.

AP History final wasn't so bad. Got a lot right, but then again, got a lot wrong. Had to write two essays. One of the ones I chose was something about what the New England, Middle and Southern colonies had in common, experience wise and stuff. I talked about Native Americans, lack of women and scarcity of food which lead into cannabilism as the last sentence in the paper. Poor Mrs. Kelly. And the other one I chose was whether or not the Civil War was avoidable. Shyeah, I was burned out by then so that was bomb...as in "explode" and "schrapnel" flying ever. Not like "tight" or "sweet."

Honor's English final KICKED! Everyone probably aced the scantron. That is, if they made flashcards and studied, which most of them probably did. The essays weren't bad either. I'm very content with that one.

AAAAAAAAHHH TECH!

Cramming
Wednesday, January 21, 9:45 pm
"One is the Lonliest Number" by Three Dog Night

Finals haven't been too bad so far. The only real problems were the 3 friggin concepts from Ethics and amu shiznit on Chemistry, but I get to tackle the big trees of AP History and Honors English tommorow. Shyeah, Jade's gonna see how many chapters she can cram tommorow morning in the hall besides doing the history guidebook tonight.

Miyazaki kicked it with me during break. Went to Starbucks, and she helped me with my Chemistry card. Hey Chris, she wants to bring you to winter formal this Saturday. She says she'll pay for your airfare, but you'll have to find your own way to stay.

After school, went out with Liza, Hali and Megan for awhile. Then went to the Max and bid them farewell at Herb's high school. Sat in Sophomore hall and watched the same people walk back and forth until I almost went insane, so I turned to my flashcards for comfort. Met Kaylee. Wanted to make out with her locker but somebody kept blocking my way.

We met Peter to go shopping. Unfortunately, he's not flamboyantly gay, so he didn't have the kick shopping senses. Nevertheless, found a dress at Forever 21 and put it on hold. Some chick handed me some provocative club invitations. Pointed out that we should give them to Jennifer. Went to Nordstrom, nothing there. I bid Peter his leave. Went to Meier and Frank. Nothing there either. Wandered around a bit. Got tired. Went back to PP. Herb bought dinner of chicken yakisoba noodles. Bugged Jennifer and Mizuki. Gave them the papers. You know it was score. Ate. Jennifer is a garbage disposal. Bid them farewell. Went back to Forever 21 to buy the dress, however Herb and I found out it was not $19.80, but $26.50. Called Mom to go home. She meets us a Forever 21. Lends me $7. Buy the dress. Walk around the mall for another 30-45 mins. Drop Herb off at his house.

Get home. Work on tech project. Put up the first flat and omigod! the couches! I covered the foam core model with black towel and it looks KICK. I want one for myself.

Shyeah...guidebook.

Thanks
Tuesday, January 20, 10:03 am
"6 Underground" by the Sneaker Pimps

I do not fucking ask you to take responsibility for anything I have done, especially this. I just could use a little support from one of my closest friends, as are all the others. You know how my Mom is watching my expenses and you know I would pay you back. Frankly, I did not care if you had bought it or not, but I thought it selfish and insensitive that you would respond the way you did in the hall this morning.

I don't tell him because I want to be sure of myself first before anything else. Of course I'd tell him after I knew whether I was or not. But I don't, and I am taking it upon myself, and not him, because it was my action in the first place and it's me who's harboring the life. I don't tell him, because I am not ready.

But I guess that's already blown!

I would just like you to remember that you are not me. You are not under the same stress and you aren't going to have to experience what I am going through if it is true. You will not be sacrificing your studies. You will not be forfeiting your future profession. Your family will not have to bear the dishonor. I am not asking you, nor will you, carry the burden that I am carrying right now. So, at least a little sympathy would be nice.

Oh Yes
Monday, January 19, 6:47 am
"Androgyny" by Garbage

Herb came over today. Did work for finals. Showed him grade/middle school pics. Went to dim-sum with Dad and Uncle Dan at House of Louie. Mmm...baked shoupao. *cough* Excuse me, "pork buns."

He brought frozen chocolate chip cookie dough. Such a sweetheart. So shyeah, chocolate chip cookies!. Yummy.

Oooh! I just glued the first part of the tech stage together. It's the little thing that's going to hold up the rake...yeah. Androgyny.

Abby doesn't have Peter's cellphone number. *cries*

Eek!
Sunday, January 18, 10:24 pm
"Coffee and TV" by Blur

hahaha when do u want to go shopping =P call me! not home fone btw abby has my cell XD HEEY HUGGLES IS MINE! =P actually thats my nick name.... hahaha "Mr Hugglez"

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAIIII~~~~!!!! Peter Peter Peter! I love you! (in a strictly platonic way.) *busts her groove...again* Shopping shopping shopping with Peter-kuuuuuuuuun!!! *bounces off the walls* YAAAYNESSSZZESSS

...oh, yes. I love you, too, Herb.

Not My Day
Sunday, January 18, 1:20 pm
"Tourniquet" by Marilyn Manson

Here I am, all blah, laying on my bed staring at my blank, pink wall. I know! I'll make chocolate chip cookies! So, I perk up a bit and frolic to the kitchen. I open up the fridge and guess what- THERE'S ONE FRIGGIN PACKAGE OF PEANUT BUTTER COOKIES! I was all wtf? where are the chocolate chip ones?! Then I got all frustrated and stomped to my room. Maybe they're downstairs...

* there was no frollicking or stomping

#@%&^!
Sunday, January 18, 12:04 pm
"Hey Ya" by Outkast

So, I was thinking about another layout for this blog and decided I wanted to use that pic from Perfect Blue with the fake Mima smearing blood on her face. Then I was all "hmmm, I wonder if there's Perfect Blue fanlisting?" Then I went through and there was, but it wasn't finished! Then this premonition snuck upon me. I ran a search in my email account with "perfect blue" and guess what pops up- Approved: Perfect Blue, sent on October 25th. My jaw dropped. I was all "#@%&^!" Great...great...

Heh.

*busts her groove*

Arghers
Sunday, January 18, 11:26 am
"Bye Bye Boyfriend" by Fefe Dobson

I keep on forgetting to lengthen the cell. It's almost time for a new layout anyways. I'll work on it during finals week. Aw crap (256)...the tech stage. *cries*

Hmmm, angry chick music.

One more month until I can change my naval piercing. Oh shyeah. Gotta go back out to Beaverton. Whoo~ Beaverton!

I think I'll go out driving today...that is, if we go anywhere. Probably grandma's tonight. I'll probably drag along my studies. *glances at her 160 word root cards* Ummm...yeah. I measured their height. 1.75 inches. It doesn't seem like that much in this blog, but it's pretty menacing irl.

So...I'm gonna do stuff now.

.....
Saturday, January 17, 11:23 pm
"Think Twice" by Eve 6

Meow?

I Am Actually Screaming
Saturday, January 17, 10:39 pm
"Break Me Shake Me" by Savage Garden

Yes, I feel very frustrated and angry right now. Don't ask why. It's a girl thing. So Chris and Herb, I don't think you can relate. Sorry.

Don't really hate the world. Just am harboring some dislike. There are some trivial things that are getting to me. Stupid, little annoyances that are popping up in my life indirectly from my loved ones. Have I mentioned guys are really stupid? Probably not enough.

Don't really know what got into me tonight.

Oh Man
Saturday, January 17, 10:02 pm
"Can't Stop" by the Red Hot Chili Peppers

I really wanna go to a dance. Right now. I feel like bustin' it. Maybe I will. *dances for 5 minutes* Well, that was fun. My hair gets in the way.

Anyhow, watched Major Payne this afternoon. I found it very amusing. Hehe HA hehe. Then went shopping with Mom. Not very long though. Maybe 45 minutes. She got a birthday card for one of her friends. Got home, she left. Wrote up vocab flashcards for Hon English final, which I'm still working on. In the meantime, I talked with Butto. Watched and criticized the people on Real World with him. Shyeah, Bazooka Joe. Then his cellphone's batteries ran out.

There wasn't really anything on. So I just turned to the early 40 channels for some entertaining noises. Ran into Zoids Fusion but that was just no. So, turned to the Disney channel with That's So Raven. It was halfway finished, so I waited. Then I watched Pixel Perfect, which was meh.

Now I am blogging. I couldn't get a hold of Peter, his phone was busy all day.

Abby: I told Peter you wanted to go shopping with him.
Me: Haha, what'd he say?
Abby: "why does she wanna go with me?" Then there was a pause. "...when?!"

Can't wait. It'll be spiff. Haven't seen Peter for a year.

Score!
Friday, January 16, 6:07 pm
"Face To Face" by Daft Punk

Kicked it with Herb yesterday after school. Went to Gap and bought 2 pairs of spiff socks. Saw Jennifer and Mizuki. Went to Borders. Sandman VI wasn't there. Herb started reading poetry from a really bad poetry book while I made out with a Soul Calibur II player's guide. Yes, it was somewhat odd. Went to the music section. Couldn't find what Mom wanted. There wasn't really anything at Borders. Went outside. Called Mom. Went back in. Looked through a Wiggles coloring book. Popped into Forever 21. Went to Starbucks. Brought Herb home.

Dropped of Christmas presents. Got my stuff from Abby. By stuff, I mean Fatal Frame, Sandman V, my Starfox hat and my PS2 save card. Now I can finish Okage! Booyaka! She gave me a blue-ish scarf for Christmas. Talked about our boyfriends and how she kept tripping on her school's stairwell.

Kicked it at Nicole's. Got my robe back from her. Looked at Hawaiian photos. Drank some Dr. Pepper.

Went over to Melanie's. Her mom was on the news about how this one gas station in Gresham shizzed up her car cuz the snow got in one of their gas tanks. Melanie made a comment about how long my hair was. She has a cute haircut, even though it's kinda fried. She says it won't grow. Well, shyeah. Talked about our middle school posse.

Melanie: Remember James?
Me: Yeah...
Melanie: And how crazy you used to be over him?
Me: You were, too!
*laughter*
Melanie: Well, I saw him awhile ago.
Me: And?
Melanie: *shakes head* He's changed.
Me: How so?
Melanie: His hair's all curly and he wears a hat over it. It just looks bad.
Me: I heard about his car. It's yellow.
Melanie: Yeah, his sports car. It's bright.
Me: Shyeah, heard it was pretty ugly.
Melanie: He also smokes pot. Doesn't play basketball anymore.
Me: Oh really? He used to love basketball.
Melanie: Yeah I know. But he uses a heartwarmer now.
Mom: He's using a heartwarmer AND smoking pot?! How stupid can you be?! I'm gonna beat him over the head!

Shyeah, that boy's changed. If I saw him, I'd probably laugh- only cuz I'm cold hearted like that. There was some sarcasm.

Visited grandma. She's doing alright. Got home around midnight.

Today, had a Martin Luther King assembly. It was pretty kick. I got to bust it on the gourd kinda instrument. They made the teachers dance. The student body couldn't stop laughing. It was great. I think everyone left the auditorium in good spirits.

Was gonna shoot straight home after school, but Liza made me stay. So I put my legs up on the wall and lied(?) on the floor. Then she left to get something to eat with Hali. So I kinda drifted in and out of sleep while listening to the noises around me. Then she came back and I fell asleep. She played snake on my cellphone. I heard Lauren H say "OG- Original Gamer. Omigod! You guys gotta see this!" when looking at our thing we put up from Penny Arcade. Then Risa came over. Messed around with ringtones. Then I left.

Got home. Kitchen was a mess, so I cleaned it up. Don't know why my parents just don't start the dishwasher when it's already FULL.

Blah
Wednesday, January 14, 4:26 pm
"Same Direction" by Hoobastank (The Reason)

Maybe some HTML will make it better.

So Tired
Wednesday, January 14, 3:30 pm
"Just One" by Hoobastank (The Reason)

Okay, so last night seemed fine and dandy. Here I am, a dutiful little student and daughter, in a working mindframe and writing off concept cards left and right. Then Dad barges in. "So, are we going yet?" I cock my head, pen paused in the middle of a word. "Am I going? I have homework" Mom looks at Dad. "Honey, Jade has to be home by 9 for a documentary." Damn straight I do. Dad says we'll be home by 9. I figured I'd finish my concept cards at the hospital. So on the way there, we stop to eat dinner. Fast food, but we sat down. It's 7:15. We stayed there until about 7:45. Fuck, I could've finished half a chapter right now. So I was all "whatever."

Get to the hospital. Give my grandparents hellos and kisses. Sit in the waiting place and spread out my work. Ah, nice and quiet. No one to bother me. Parents and grandpa start to congregate in that same room half an hour later, huddling around Lolo's DVD player. Mom is kicking it with my grandma's neighbor's grandson. His name's Jordan. I didn't mind really. I could get used to some noise. A few minutes later, I glance at the clock. 8:26. "Uhm, Mom? When are we leaving?" "It's not 8:30 yet." "Okay." I continue to read. 8:35. I pack up my stuff and stand besides my Mom. "You ready to go, Bob?" Dad stops reading the newspaper. "Sure." Said bye to grandma and Jordan. My parents walk so frickin slow. Butto calls my cell. I don't really want to deal with FFTA at the moment. I satisfy his pleasure with some light Ninja/Assassin conversation. Get home at 9:05. I literally run up the stairs and turn on the tv. I didn't miss much. As I watch stuff on the Reconstruction, I realize I had 2 more chapters to go and that if I had stayed home, they would've been finished. I got kinda upset, at myself for not inquiring why I couldn't stay home and at my parents for not realizing how fucking hard I'm trying to keep track of history. At least they left me alone during the program.

Today was much better. Mai, Totoro, Emeril, Cameron, Miyazaki and I met with Joyce Simmons about the elective. She seemed pretty syked with it all. I honestly think she should teach it, along with Ms. Barr. That'd kick.

A lot of people are angry with the Ethics teacher over the test. At 10-13 point curve. Well shyeah, that says something.

Did nothing in chem. We had a sub. I finished up Chapter 24 of my concept cards.

Math was spiff, as usual. Worked on the review packet. Good stuff.

Passed a senior in the hallway that was kicking it with Sora. I heard her mutter "what are guys doing in our school?" Her emphasis on "our" was interesting. There were an interesting number in the main hall. One at a table, two by the doorway, another walking towards Junior hall.

The moment I stepped out of our school doors, I started hating the world. I don't know why. I've had this "hate the world" thing lately. You who kick it with the RagingFox know that. I blasted my headphones to to drown out all the noise, but I still could hear the splatter of rain on the pavement. I felt a bit better by the time I got home.

Maybe it's the rain. But I very much doubt that.

Btw Herb. Went through the rewrite. I made a bunch of notes.

Chem = Our High
Tuesday, January 13, 4:02 pm
"Out of My Mind" by Duran Duran (The Saint soundtrack)

Yesterday, gave Fluffy this soundtrack. She likes #2 ("6 Underground" by the Sneaker Pimps) which I knew she would cuz she likes Garbage. The Sneaker Pimps don't really sound like Garbage. Garbage is more upbeat. But Mom keeps on mixing them up. "Oh Garbage!" "No Mom, Sneaker Pimps." "They sound like Garbage." "Not really, but okay."

Herb walked me home. Gave him the Tomb Raider soundtrack, which is alright. I got a Smashmouth cd and Eve 6 in return. Haven't listened to them yet.

Watched a documentary about the Reconstruction Era after the Civil War on OPB. 9-10:30. Good stuff. Though I got kinda annoyed by Mom, who was on the phone with one of her friends and talking quite loudly. I shouldn't have been bothered, but I was trying really hard to concentrate for the good of my grade and understanding material.

Spread word of the new English elective yesterday and today. Posted it on my LiveJournal and Xanga. So shyeah, talked to Joyce Simmons today and she said lunch would be spiff. She's quite excited.

There wasn't any Spanish club today, so went to Starbucks with Miyazaki and Fluffy today during lunch. Fluffy kinda got dragged along, almost literally. Then I made Coyodle worship me so I could give spare change to the Earthquake fund.

Cuz I didn't really eat anything today except a Frapuccino and an espresso bar, I was all jittery in English. It was kinda hard to concentrate. But nevertheless, discussion was successful. Even made a point about that damn mocking-bird in The Awakening which the teacher had never thought of before and announced it valid.

*does the robot to Daft Punk*

Anyhow, continued to clean out the orchestra pit in tech, as we did yesterday. Yeah, getting cleaner.

AP History- more Reconstruction notes. Learned some interesting stuff about the origin of the KKK. I'll probably blog about it during a break later.

Concept cards are calling me cuz they're FRIGGIN DUE TOMMOROW!!!!

Christian and I swear that there's something about the chemistry room that gets everyone all nessed, including us.

#16
Sunday, January 11, 12:25 pm
Hybrid Theory (Linkin Park)

Linkin Park gives a nice start to the day.

I Love You
Sunday, January 11, 12:28 am
"Say the Words (Now)" by DC Talk

There, I said them. The song told me to.

It'd be so kick to see DC Talk in concert. *cries bitterly* Damnit, Richard! You make me crave concerts!

I think I'll go to school with pigtails on Monday. The last time I wore them was during the Goth Off. Ooooh, good times.

That's Hinky
Saturday, January 10, 11:56 pm
Totally Hits (cd)

Subject's from the movie, The Fugitive. I'm gonna try to incorporate it to my vocab. That was a spiffdiggity movie. I really like Harrison Ford in that one.

8. Savage Garden
9. A Night at the Roxbury Soundtrack
10. The Saint Soundtrack
11. Meteora (Linkin Park)
12. Lock, Stock and Two Smoking Barrels Soundtrack
13. A Day Without Rain (Enya)
14. B*Witched
15. Totally Hits

I went through some amusing music stages. Come on- B*Witched. I think Herb's scarred for life now. I forgot how good The Saint's soundtrack was. I wanted to listen to it again, but the stack of future-listening cds were glaring at me. So maybe after it's all done.

Santa mierda! It's "This Kiss" by Faith Hill. Wow, this is old.

I am reminding myself now that Herb and I will take ballroom dancing lessons.

...That, in itself, is hinky.

I'm Kinda Hungry
Saturday, January 10, 3:37 pm
Celtic Devotions (cd)

Yesh, hungry for your SOUL!!!

And here's cd #7. I was not lying when I said I'd go through each one.

Went to hospital again this morning. Grandma had a fever last night (101,) but it's better now (99.8) Shyeah, read The Awakening by Kate Chopin. Didn't finish yet though. I'm on chapter fifteen. Wahoo.

Saw Ben/Atomic at the hospital. He was looking for the bathroom.

Dedicated to Butto
Saturday, January 10, 10:35 am
"Say It Ain't So" by Weezer

Only cuz I said I would. I don't remember what I was gonna say, cuz that was this morning at 12:33 am. But yes, Christopher, you are my best internal friend ever. I hope you're satisfied.

Grandma has cancer. She doesn't know it yet cuz she's still on novacaine and morphine, ya know. It was quite disheartening seeing her lying there- my spunky, cheerful grandma all dreary and confined in a hospital bed. I almost cried, but I didn't. Well, yeah. So I spent most of my time in the hall outside listening to music. Dad got shizzed and I got shizzed. Then, of course, Mom got shizzed. Anyhow, Dad and I went home and had a yelling match in the car. As much as I love him, he can be a real jerk.

I'm Out
Friday, January 9, 4:28 pm
200 km/h in the Wrong Lane (t.A.t.U cd)

Going to kick it with grandparents in hospital. See ya.

1. Pokemon, the first movie soundtrack.
2. Fallen (Evanescence)
3. The Reason (Hoobastank)
4. No Strings Attached (N'Sync)
5. Mulan soundtrack

Oh, and changed the layout for the Wedding Dress Fanlisting. Doesn't look too good, but what'd you expect?

Or Not
Friday, January 9, 2:14 pm
The Reason (Hoobastank cd)

So shyeah, winter formal moved to the 24th. The people from the place called cuz I had left a message, then Rimsha hit me up. Meow. Mom says it's good because the dress still hasn't come in the mail, probably cuz of the snow. Damn you, Fedex. I was planning to save it for Prom anyways. But the 24th is also the date of the SAT test. Ay nako.

Today, I've decided to listen to all of my cds- even the shitty burned ones.

Yes Sarah, I'm frickin bored, too. But ya know, FFTA + HTML.

Hmmm
Friday, January 9, 11:37 am
Noir OST

Hey kids, SMA's winter formal is still canoodling tommorow night. At least, if the weather keeps on improving. They've been pretty benevolant. Bids and permission slips are gonna be at the door. Shyeah, you can just go to the page if you don't wanna hear it from me.

I could've done the programming for this layout better. I keep on forgetting to lengthen the cell of the white space for the text when I blog because the DIV layers don't touch. They're DIV layers, and oh so beautiful.

Did the first two things on my snow day list. I'm very proud. But I'm pretty sure that extra credit essay isn't gonna be finished tonight. Then again, are essays ever finished? That's what I thought.

Ack, I have to make a layout for that crazy Wedding Dress Fanlisting I volunteered to uphold. I didn't think I would be accepted...Anyhow, the window way too small, the member list is really messed, and there have been a lot of submissions. And we're taking out that "A Girl's Fantasy" at the top. Yes, most definitely. I hate making layouts though. Well, maybe not hate, but I certainly like programming them better. Hey Sarah, wanna make me a wedding dress layout? I bet her eyes just went wide in fear.

Sometimes I wonder if my mother would bail me out of jail.

Yeah. Okay.
Thursday, January 8, 11:05 pm
"Duvet" by BoA

No school. Biznatch. Ah well.

Herb came over at 3:02. Watched Pokemon. Good stuff. Ate vietnamese Dad brought home. Watched My Cousin Vinny. Oh yeah, you blend.

It's Melting
Thursday, January 8, 7:33 pm
"Explode" by the Cardigans

You know it's true. Part of me wants another snow day and another wants to go back to school.

Snow Day
- sleep in
- FFTA
- html love
- can finish AP History extra credit essay (due tommorow)
- perhaps hang with Libby

School Day
- turn in all the homework I've been doing for the past week
- have human contact other than my family and bf
- get out of the friggin house
- Escribe Maria
- find out wtf is with the SAT on Jan 24

They both weigh pretty well.

Kinda Tired
Wednesday, January 7, 10:14 pm
"Canta Per Me" from the Noir OST

Went to neighbor's for dinner with dad. Was very good. Ate a lot, cuz didn't eat anything all day. You know how it goes. Had lasagna, bread, salad, pear, gingerbread muffins with whipped cream. The choices of wine went well. Watched Libby play FFX2. It's very pretty.

Changed the layout of the Penny Arcade Fanlisting, given to me by Kimiko. Also uploaded the Trepanation Fanlisting. I really really really need a host for that site cuz I'm kinda smooching off of hfhost.net. I feel kinda guilty.

You should go download this song. But take care cuz there's a limit on your visits and downloads.

Well Hello
Wednesday, January 7, 3:54 pm
"Excuse Me Mr" by Ben Harper

Yes, I'm sure you noticed the new layout. Ha, back to blank, dominating backgrounds. The layout was a bitch to program, only because I had forgotten to do tables after so long, and I used a lot of DIV layers. I had to go to Lissa Explains It All to refresh a lot of basics. I also had forgotten the css code for italicizing links and I couldn't find it. So a simple strike was good enough for me. It seems pretty busy with the huge ass menu on the left. Blah.

Interesting conversation with Herb last night while watching Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone with my family. You know it's true.

Yes, another snow day. Mom confined me to the SAT book, granted to me by the great parents of Herb. I finished the Trepanation fanlisting, but the free server I'm using is taking forever to set it up, so I can't upload it yet. Psh. Banners are the bane of my existence. Geocities have small ones, but using negative DIV layers moves them so one is not able to close the damn ad.

Next project is to change the layout for the Penny Arcade fanlisting. Kimiko was gracious enough to send one. Booyaka! In the hall! That should only take a few minutes. After that, I plan to make another fanlisting for "Excuse Me Mr" by Ben Harper. Here are lyrics-

Oh - excuse me Mr.
Do you have the time,
Or are you so important that it stands still for you?
Excuse me Mr.
Won't you lend me your ear,
Or are you not only blind, but do you not hear?
Excuse me Mr., but isn't that your oil in the sea,
And the pollution in the air Mr.-
Whose could that be?

So, excuse me Mr.
But I'm a mister too.
And you're givin' Mr. a bad name,
Mr. like you.
And, I'm taking the Mr. from out in front of your name,
'cause it's a Mr. like you that puts the rest of us to shame.
It's a Mr. like you that puts the rest of us to shame.

And I've seen enough,
Oh - I've seen enough,
I've seen enough to know that I've seen too much.

Excuse me Mr.
Can't you see the children dying?
You say that you can't help them,
Mr.- you're not even trying.
Excuse me Mr.
Just take a look around.
Oh, Mr. just look up and you will,
You will see it's coming down.
Oh, excuse me Mr. but I'm, I'm a mister too.
And you're givin' Mr. a bad name,
Mr. like you.
So, I'm taking the Mr. from out in front of your name,
'cause it's a Mr. like you that puts the rest of us to shame.
it's a Mr. like you that puts the rest of us to shame.

And I've seen enough,
I've seen en..., I've seen en...,
I've seen enough to know that I've seen too much.
I've seen enough,
Oh - I've seen enough to know that I've seen too much.

'cause Mr. when you're rattling on heaven's gate.
By then it is too late.
'cause Mr. when you get there,
They don't ask what you saved.
All they'll want to know Mr. is what you gave.
So, excuse me Mr.
But I'm a mister too.
And you're givin' Mr. a bad name,
Mr. like you.

So, I'm taking the Mr. from out in front of your name,
'cause it's a Mr. like you puts the rest of us to shame.
it's Mr. like you that puts the rest of us to shame.

December 29 - January 6 2004
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