| Well, I went ahead and wrote up a whole reunion page. It is the only reunion I will attend. I just hope the tradition goes on, because I want it too. Lately, I have had everything just building up, that I am about to break down. While I was at work June 4, I about broke down. I started sweating profusely, and had tears coming to my eyes. I about passed out. Everything is just getting to me, and I might just end my life, not that it would matter to any of my so called "friends," who don't give a rat's ass about me. Nobody cares about me, and I realize that now. I am just not cut out for life. I keep acting like everything is fine at work. I always get people laughing before work. Then we go to work, and I sink back into my own world. I just think I should kill myself and get it over with. I know that everyone thinks I should go ahead and do it, too. I mean it seems like everyone in this world hates me. If I don't kill myself, I will just get stabbed in the back many times over and over. I am so depressed and I can't go living like this. Well, this is going to be my last mind page. It isn't like it is helping any, like I thought it would.There is still so much that I haven't told, but I am going to take it to the grave with me. Well, I am concluding my mind as of right now. |
