Eternally Tired
published in "In-between Days)
I feel sorry for the Eternally Tired,
and all those with jobs before they were fired,
and all those with broken hearts,
and all those who want bigger parts,
and all those bit by the poisonous snake,
and all those who will never wake,
and all those struck with Cupid's Arrow,
and all those with minds that are narrow.
The reason I feel the way I do,
is because I feel like an unfitted shoe,
I know I am as weird as a drunk mule,
I also know I am a mumbling belligerent fool,
I always admire those not admired,
just like the others I am eternally tired.
To all those hearts that'll never mend,
I'm sorry to say this but it is The End!
I sit here and ask God why me?
Am I being worse then he or she?
Why do I endure so much pain?
Why does everything drive me insane?
Why can't I act like a normal guy?
Why can't I hurry up and die?
Why does my heart always get broken?
Why aren't there any good words I've spoken?
Why give me life when I want to be dead?
Why can't you get someone to shoot my head?
Why can't you kill me off on this day?
Why do you make me stay?
Why can no one understand my thoughts?
Why can't I be taking tequila shots?
Why am I depressed all of the time?
Why do I feel like a rotten slime?
Why is lonliness my true best friend?
Why can't my life just see The End?
WHY?
What's going on?
I sit here and wonder what's going on?
I'll probably stay up until the break of dawn,
I am thinking of breaking up with Lindsey real soon,
Her and I aren't on the same tune,
She wants to live, I want to die,
I am thinking of saying my final goodbye,
I will mix clorox and ammonia, and take a swig,
It's gas will kill me, and not one more cig,
My adopted mom, and brother Mike,
Have basically told me to take a hike,
I argued with my girlfriend on the phone,
Wishing I was out, some where getting blown,
We have only gotten in one small fight,
Will we break up soon? We just might,
My mom told me something that bothers me,
I wish I could say, but I can't, you see?
Lately I have thought of suicide too much,
It doesn't help me feeling lonely, depressed, and such,
At my other house, I still feel so very alone,
I think my heart has turned into stone,
Right now, I feel I have not a single friend,
Really soon, my life might just hit The End!