| My world is darkened I?m lost in my own confusion The pain is deeply tearing inside This must be a delusion I?m sick of trying Trying to discover what deep down I feel I deceive those who care Telling them it?s not a big deal So I?ll live with this depression Since it?s my own fault I didn?t talk to anyone sooner This pain is the result |
| My Fault |
| I try to care, I try to feel I try to endure the emotions I try to make them real But I can't feel a thing Because now I'm numb I try, I try, I try But all my feeling is gone |
| I Try |
| I hate myself I hate those around I hate silence I hate sound I hate fast I hate slow I hate what I think I hate what I know I hate being rich I hate being broke I hate when I breathe I hate when I choke I hate my enimies I hate my friends I hate the begining I hate the end |
| I Hate |
| I cry so silent No one hears me No one cares for me Because this pain cannot be seen I hide it all And put on my phony face So no one will recognize The truth I can't find a trace I'm so depressed But I hide all the pain I don't, I won't talk So I keep going with this strain Its too late now To show my real soul I let my spirit disappear Letting my contentment go |
| Silence |
| Everytime I'd stop the crying And all the tears not shed I crammed down to remain So now I feel oh so dead I'd just wipe the tears And bury my pain inside For no one to notice Instead of screaming a cry I don't tell anyone So every emotion causes a frown I can't deal with this pain no more Since this silence knocked me down |
| Knocked Down |
| My life may be bad But it could be more My heart is ripping All my sould tore I could be dying Unwillingly But all I am Is depressed as can be |
| Depressed |
| All this pain is too great The happiness cannot be real As I put on my fake smiles Waiting for this pain to heal I feel all my world Exploding from deep within And I feel all this pain Peircing down deep through my skin |
| Too Great |
| I feel all this sadness I feel all this madness Of my tension I feel the stabbing pain Of my deep, ripping depression All my world Is closing deeply in Making my joy smaller And feeling more pain within I cry a river I cry a flood I scream from my cutting I scream from my blood |
| I Scream |
| There is nothing wrong with me Just I feel this depression I know there's nothing wrong with me Just I feel this tension There is nothing wrong with me Just I feel this pain When I cry these tears They flow down my face like rain There is nothing wrong with me Just I sit in sorrow I want to be like them Their happy feelings I'd borrow There is nothing wrong with me I feel no emotion at all There is nothing wrong with me Just my joy is closed so small There is nothing wrong I'll be all I can be I feel all this distress There must be something wrong with me |
| Nothing Wrong With Me |
| I express my pain In tears, when no one's around But I never can express About why I feel so down Last night I cried I did this morning too But I can never feel better Unless I express my pain to you When I look depressed I say I need my space But I really need Is to talk face to face But I'll never find the courage To say what I need to say So now I'll sit in sorrow For happiness, I'll wish, I'll pray |
| Express |
| Everytime I try I always seem to fail Its not my fault I can't simply prevail I try to fake my happiness When the tears stream like rain I try to clear the hurt But I always feel such pain I try doing better I really do try I try to stop causing people's tears And stop making them cry I attempt to wipe tears Trying to do good I try with all my heart I would do it if only I could |
| I Try |
| I feel this pain I seek for someone to care I scream so softly My feelings being to tear I see the help To get rid of that pain within But I beg so softly There is no chance I can win I ask so softly No one can hear what I say But the stain on my shoulders Is starting to heavily weigh But I cope with the pain And deal with this throbbing sting I express so softly That I could break down from this thing |
| Softly |
| i feel im in black while everyones in white i feel like everyone is in peace while i feel i need 2 fight i feel so alone Alone in this space I feel so different And so out of place Everyone is happy As these tears roll down my face Everyone feels joy As this pain I embrace I feel Im so different And no one cares I?m so depressed This fake smile I need to wear |
| I Feel |
| I looked in the mirror Just this morning I did I never wanted to see that face again Because I knew my pain just hid I could see the hurt I could see the tears When I looked into my eyes I swore to that day It would be the end of my string of lies I didn?t want to be shameful When my face would appear Because I wanted that pain To forever disappear |
| Mirror |
| People just judge On how I look They think I?m so easy to read Judging by the cover of my book But no one can understand What I really do know They just brush me off When I come, they go But I?m sick of being rejected And always hurt inside I don?t care what they think And I?ll let my being hide |
| Judge |
| I see my friends Always having fun I?m longing for Wishing I could be one I?m too silent Which no one can comprehend So I?m wishing Longing for the silence to end |
| Wishing |
| I wish I could trade Trade this feeling I wish I could trade Let go this being This pain can?t go away To you, to them, I?ll trade Just please don?t let it stay |
| Trade |
| Everyone?s embarrassed Everyone?s ashamed Thinking of my many mistakes It?s hard for them to even mention my name But I?m not invincible These feelings are real The shame hurts me even more This pain I can feel They act like I?m immune When I hear the things they say about me Think I?m so bad Like the mistakes I cannot see I now the wrongs I did The pain they can?t comprehend I?m not inhuman Just try being my friend |
| Everyone's |
| I?ve tried so hard Giving it all I could But nothing came from the energy I always wish it would This strength is so insignificant I can?t take it anymore I don?t know why I try so hard When I?ve got nothing to aim for I?ll give up the work Forgetting the energy I put out Giving up the strength Forgetting what the work was about I?ve tried so hard To what those others took It fucked up my world And my life it shook All I feel is failure Nothing I do is right So I?ll forget that shit now My failure I?ll need to fight |
| Failure |
| I wish I was someone else Like the girl I used to be I wish I was her again I wish I was a better me I wish I had a smile Like I used to give I wish I had a life I controlled Like I used to live I wish I wasn?t always alone I wish I had some friends I wish I didn?t feel this I wish it wasn?t my end |
| I Wish |
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