Date: December 29, Weight 62.2/137.1
Heading for the new year with a very happy feeling. I want to wish
you all a happy new year and I hope you will all have success with
your dieting. I'm slowing down with my diet program now, but still
have the goal of 60 kg / 132 pounds for my 35'th birthday in march. 
After that, it's a matter of maintaining the weight, and trying
to get a bit more fit. I do need to shape up more. 
I bought four dresses on clearance sale yesterday, a shop is moving
and had 70% off their pricetags. All dresses were size (euro) 36 or
Small. I haven't been able to get into that size since I was 25 years old.
It's a funny feeling. I never thought I'd be here already! Well
I am enjoying it and I wish you all the same! If I can do it, you can
do it too!



Date: December 27, Weight 62.6/138
Yihaaaa! What a week! 
Even though I have been eating A LOT of food, I have kept away from the eating 
between meals and as I returned tonight after my week of FUN i almost didn't 
dare to look at the scales - I was afraid I was facing 2-3 kg gained but
instead I HAD LOST WEIGHT!!!!!!
It must be the exercise, the swimming, the dancing and the FUN!
Because I had the most wonderful time with my husband and family.
Only "problem" was... this sounds so silly... all the guys... 
I haven't had so many cute guys hanging after me since I was 24..
My husband just laughed and said "from now on I'll have to
lock you up" ;-)
But he also said something that made my heart overflow....
"I was sitting in the restaurant seeing this gorgeous blonde
coming across the floor, holding her head up high, looking almost
like a princess, and it took me a while to realize that beautiful
woman was my wife" <<<- I know! christmas.. yes, he said it to be
nice, but I haven't heard words like that coming from him for ages!
Anyway my friends, christmas came and went. For the new year I have
one goal: Age 35 (march 18) I want to weigh 60 kg. I am sure I
will get there, only 2.6 kg left! I'll keep you posted.


Date: December 20, Weight 63.2/139.3
Quick update in the middle of the Christmas rush. Had one christmas-
party on top of the other and gained apprx one kg. Lost it now but
you know.. this christmas thing will probably leave it's mark...
Anyway, I'm in a hurry, packing to go skiing in Åre, leaving on
the night train. (No burglars, the house won't be empty, my brother
is still living here, remember?) 
I wish you all a very merry cristmas, and I'll get back to you 
after the weekends. I'm happy the hotel has a pool, I'll try to
swim some of the excess eating off...

*hugs*


Date: December 11, Weight 63.2/139.3
Wow.... another lowest weight!!
I went shopping on my lunch hour yesterday and picked up some nice
underwear and a black short dress, euro size 38. I didn't have 
time to try it on but I figured if it was too small I'd soon get into
it... But it wasn't!! It was too large!! Well... I can still wear
it but I was shocked! It looked so tiny on the hanger!
Hubby was extremely pleased as I started to throw all ugly large
cottontail undies out of my drawers, exchanging them with tiny
lacy and silky thingies... You should have seen the status of some
of the undies and bras I had there!! Greyish and flimsy with holes.... Yech!
My only sorrow now is my tummy... It's not really flabby, but the
skin on the lower abdomen is full of stretchmarks... The tummy
looks wrinkled and rough... If I pinch it, it won't return to it's normal state
immediately. Skin almost feel a bit dead...
Well.. It's not a pretty sight. I will never have a flat
tummy again for sure, unless I surgically remove some of the skin.


Date: December 9, Weight 63.8/140.6
Busy busy busy. Drowning in work. Just a quick update to tell you
I am feeling great. Almost "back" after the weekend when I gained
about one kg. (2.2 pounds).
Have been working a lot with the Bowling business and also have my
full time work.... There is an upcoming meeting on friday and
 board meeting on monday and lots of reports due, so I'd better 
just dig in here...
(but one joy is that I only have 7 working days left before my
christmas holiday!!!)


Date: December 5, Weight 63.6/140
It's been snowing all night here and all day too. Everything is 
white and it's rather nice. I prefer the snow before the cold rain.
We are very busy with our new project. The Bowling center had a busy
night yesterday and I went there after work. Tomorrow we will have
a crew meeting with the employees. I am going to change the menus 
in the restaurant and have a long chat with the female cook. 
Anyway, diet goes well. I stick to weight watcher meals but I have
learned exactly what else I can eat. When we go to the Bowling 
Restaurant there are always lots of vegetables so I can fix a salad.
At home I often make salads or soups. The family eat their food and
I eat mine. It has to be like that for a while since I just can't 
eat what they eat. 
I went to a christmas lunch, smorgasbord-style, friday, but I was
a good girl. I only ate what I found most tempting. Pickled herring,
smoked salmon, paté of salmon, red cabbage-slaw, kipper... no 
meat, no sausages or meatballs, no ribs... I didn't even touch 
the huge table with candy and pastry. Funniest part was when I 
arrived to the lunch, it was arranged by one of our suppliers and
my sales contact, who is the son of the manager, was giving me the eye
as I went through the door. He then realised I was walking towards
him, not towards the public restaurant and he frowned.
I went over to him and said "hi, how are you. Busy as usual?" and
he blushed. Then he tried to find something so say, I noticed he
just didn't know who I was, (and I had been talking to him just the)
other day... A bit later he came to my table, apologising, saying
he didn't recognise me, so he had asked his father who I was...
And his father had no idea... then they had asked their support
guy, whom I had met last week and he told them who I was... 
LOL... He said I looked very different from last year, when we met 
on the same occasion.
Anyway, I'm being vain now, I know. But I do feel so attractive again. 
Not like I believe all men look at me or I look great, but I feel so 
much sexier and I do get a lot of attention all of a sudden.
It's not all bad, my husband is very very happy.. ;)



Date: December 3, Weight 63.8/140.6
Ohmy! 
Didn't believe my eyes this morning! Almost 20 kg gone since my 
heaviest!
Today I had soup for lunch and rice with curry and shrimps
(weight watcher meal) for dinner. Have been taking vitamins too
lately. Drink lots of water. 
Gave clothes away last weekend. Baggy baggy dresses.... My belt
is too long now. No more holes. I have moved five holes into that
belt! This is almost uncanny. I used the tapemeasure today and
I have lost many centimeters since last! 

I sometimes surf the diet webrings pages and check on the other 
people and how they are doing. Sometimes I get so... frustrated..
I want to reach out to the people and say! Look, it's hard, but 
not that hard!! Stop telling yourselves it is! Stop giving
yourself reasons for not dealing with it!!
Then I think of my mother and I just feel like I want to cry... 
She's worse off than anyone I know and she won't even try to lose
weight. Of course you might say, if she is happy, why bug her about
it... But she is 60 years old. She weighs apprx 130 kg/287 pounds 
and she will probably die of a heart attack or something.
And she is in total denial. 
She claims she is fat because she has low metabolism,
she claims she doesn't eat so she can't diet.
My dad on the other hand tells me about her binges... How she
gobbles up every little thing he puts in the fridge... And if 
he cooks to freeze... she eats it all before it gets to the freezer... 
She can't move, her knees are finished, she just sits
all day... And when I try to talk to her about her weight she
tells me "I wait for a good medicine the doctor promised me would help"
*sigh* What she needs is someone who would help her get out of 
that denial... Since she is convinced she is not eating... 
Anyway, I can't do anything about it, we only end up fighting. 
She's like an alcoholic, only, her addiction is food... What might
explain why I was brought up in a home where everything revolved
around food.. eating and cooking... I was huge as a kid and I had
to learn how to eat normally after I moved away from home.
I remeber how my parents used to only visit restaurants with 
"eat all you want-buffés" or where they served extra large portions...
 
Which reminds me...
I'm off to a christmas dinner at work tomorrow so I'll probably
gain some. That's ok. I don't think I'm in any danger. I had my
aim set on 63 kg by christmas time and it's three weeks left...
But only 0,8 kg! Wohooo!!!


Date: November 27, Weight 64.8/142.85
Woooohoooo!!! Reached ad passed my first goal! 65 kg!
This is a very big day for me!
My new goal is 60 kg/132.3 pounds but I will take it slow. 
Looking back at these months from that sad day in mid july when the scales
showed 83 kg/183 pounds, I must again say what I have said many times
before: Losing 40 pounds was not hard!!!
The thing that puzzles me is that this diet effort was successful when I
have "tried" (not very hard though) so many times before... 
I think the difference this time is the internet diary, the spotlight,
the concern and support from all the wonderful strangers, and the fact that
I have visualized my effort in the charts and pics.

Anyway, gotta run now, work awaits. 
*hugs*


Date: November 25, Weight 65.4/144.2
Hi all :)
Quick update to tell you all we actually got the Bowling Center!
So, as of dec 1 we are owners of this little Bowling alley with a 
small restaurant. I am very happy, even if it will mean a lot of extra work for us. 
Diet is going very well and I have updated the
Diagrams today. 
Take care :)

Date: November 20, Weight 65.6/144.6
Yay! What a nice start of the weekend! On my way home from work
yesterday I called the radio station up and won two tickets to a
"Cosmonova" movie. It's located only 15 minutes drive from home and
I sent my brother and husband to see The blue planet". Then this
morning, the local radio station had tickets for a peek preview of
the new George Clooney movie "out of sight" and I took a shot, and
won two tickets!! LOL! 
So monday evening I will go with hubby to see that film.
Been a wonderful sunny, very cold day here in sweden. We have had
snow for a month soon and I don't like that, but I do like the 
sunny weather we had today. I feel extremely good, when I went to
pick the tickets up today, two guys flirted with me!! A truck 
driver honked his horn and waved his cap and I think it's the well-
known (here) "friday feeling". Guys get.. um.. well.. they look.
So what more then? Oh, yes, bank said OK to a big loan for me and
my husband. We are planning to buy a business and we are now awaiting
a board meeting on tuesday. Aparently it's between us and another
buyer, so we will see... It will be a nervous waiting... I'll keep
you posted. 
Apart from that, scales said "I love you" this morning!!
65.6 kg is my lowest ever and I'm sooooo proud and happy! 
Updated the Diagrams today.

Date: November 19, Weight 66.2/146
*Yawn* 
Kids kept me awake almost all night. One was crying and complaining
about pain in his legs, he's almost three years old and we call it
"Growing-pain" here in sweden, don't know what it's called in english.
Around 3 am he finally seemed to feel better, then the older kid
threw up all over himself and in his bed. Poor little one.
Consequently I am a bit pooped today. Think I only slept some 3-4 
hours last night. Anyway, lowest weight so far, today. I am very
pleased and I feel absolutely great. A dress I bought in october,
that was a bit tight (euro size 38) now fits perfectly and I am
wearing it to the office today. I can't remember when I last weighed
66 kg. I think it was just after I got married in 1992. 
I got pregnant two weeks after my marriage and immediately gained from 
58 kg on the wedding day to... God knows how much...
Well, are there any clouds on my sky then? Yeah, well. I had a real
good look at myself in the mirror yesterday and the state of the 
tummy is not very... nice. I'ts much smaller now, yes but it's... flabby.
Excess skin... loose flesh, yes, it can be tucked away into pants
but I want to be able to wear a bikini... I am a bit afraid this
diet might be a bit too late when it comes to the skin being able
to adjust.
But then again, I had kids in there, and I have seen worse cases
of stretch-marks. 
Ok.. ok.. I know. Situps, exercise... I've been a bit slack. I will
start with the swimming soon, maybe a couple of situps every night? 
*sigh* There is no such thing as a shortcut, is there?? ;-)
Apart from that, I think I need more vitamins. I am now taking them
every day since I have noticed my nails are in very bad shape. They
chip all the time and I just don't seem to be able to get them longer. 

Date: November 18, Weight 66.4/146.4
Hi all.
Been hovering over the same weight for a couple of days now but
I'm not very worried. I know "this time of month" I usually keep
water and I will lose it after the next period.
So, what happened since last time then, hmmm... Went with the kids
to Fyrishov - a huge indoor (and outdoor) adventure pool with water 
slides and fun stuff on sunday, had a great time and exercised
some too.
We had burgers for dinner that night, but I didn't stuff myself 
too badly. Work is busy as usual and I do look forward to the 
ski vacation over christmas. I will probably take a lot of time 
off, from dec 18 to jan 3 = 17 days!! Kids will love it and I will
too! Um.. and so will hubby. I wonder if I will have reached my 
"first" goal weight by then. Only 1.4 kg/3.1 pounds left! Of course
I will have reached it?!?!?! My husband is very... interested...
in... um.. touching... these days. But he says it's not he that
changed, it's me. He said yesterday as he walked into the bath-
room as I had showered "Hey, now I really notice you have
lost weight...." And I of course smiled, then he continued...
"Yeah, you usually hide behind a bath towel whenever I'm around 
but now you stand here completely naked and let me look at you"
I blushed, but he was right of course... Then he hugged me and
I had to remind him the kids were just outside the door... ;-)


Date: November 13, Weight 66.8/147.2
Just a quickie here, telling I actually updated the diagrams
and the images page.
Apart from that, all is great :) Having a nice broccoli soup for 
lunch right now and I am actually thinking of exercising tonight...
Maybe... ;-)
Cya soon!

Date: November 12, Weight 66.8/147.2
I think the updates will not be as often now, as when I started this
diet some 3½ months ago. I suppose the writing was somewhat of a
therapy for me then, but now I don't have that urge anymore, but
I still want to keep this diary updated, since I still have some
6.5 kg/13.3 pounds to go.
Imagine, I'm only 1.6 kg/3.5 pounds from my "first" goal, 65 kg,
the weight I didn't think I'd reach... really, I doubted it when
I started the diet. Somewhere, deep inside, I was afraid I'd stop
at 70 kg/154 pounds, if I'd lose anything at all....
I know my weight mid july was about 83 kg/183 pounds but I didn't 
dare to "weigh in" before I had lost some of it. Since then I've
become 16 kg/35 pounds lighter. :)))
This has gone so fast, so easy and been such a positive experience
I wish everyone with a bit of overweight would just give it
a real try. I mean, what a kick! What a great ego-trip! What a blast
to finally be able to wear nice clothes again, to feel I can move
around easily, to be able to run up the stairs without getting short
of breath, to feel my husband's looks at my body, to have men
whistling after me when I pass them by... (I could go on here...)
I still have some weight to lose, and my goal is now to reach a
weight of 60 kg/132 pounds before my 35'th birthday, March 18, 1999.

What about this last week then?
Well, I've been a bit uphill, I suppose it's the medication. The
minute I stopped taking the penicillin, weight dropped again.
Today is actually my lowest weight so far, YAY!

I have found the Weight watcher meals, and the Lean Cuisine meals
(all with a calorie count between 200-375 per serving) is the best
for me. I have not much craving for sweets, it's food I sometimes
long for, and then it's good to be able to eat properly without 
any risk of gaining.
I find it very hard to cook myself, still. I am too fond of cream,
fatty stuff, butter, loads of yummy things and when I cook, I tend
to concentrate only on the taste, nothing on the calorie count.
I try to stuff a Weight Watcher meal into the oven while cooking 
for the family, then drink lots of water while cooking, thus being
far from hungry as I sit down to eat.
I also take vitamins. The pills from Herbalife are almost finished,
but I won't buy any more of those, regular vitamins and fiber tablets
are quite sufficent. 
What more then? Exercise, yes... *blush* It's scary... I haven't
been exercising for a while. I must get a grip here... Start swimming
or something. I've been thinking "I'll start exercising for real
when I have problems losing weight" but that hasn't happened yet.
Ok... I know... I should, really. I will.. Promise.
Cya soon friends.
Keep up your good work.

Date: November 6, Weight 67.6/149
Been a bad bad week. I should have revamped this website for the
november diary and progress, but I haven't had the energy yet. 
I cut myself rather badly on some cracked enamel in my old bath-
tub last sunday. A piece of the enamel got stuck in my foot and
monday I couldn't walk. Tuesday I woke up with pain in the foot 
and a very nasty wound. By 11 I decided to visit a district nurse
and at first she didn't say much, then when I turned my foot and
showed her the red-bluish lines up my ankle, she turned and went
for the doctor. I immediately got penicillin and I will be eating
those tablets for ten days.
I've been tired, puffy, hungry, irritated and in rather bad shape
to be honest. I haven't cared much about dieting, and go figure, the
scales are on the same weight, but I've been up to 68,6 during the
week. I feel a bit better now, friday. I can walk on my foot and
I could take a long hot shower without having to stand on one leg.
I'll try to get back onto the diet during the next week. I hope
I'll have my energy back by then.

Date: October 29, Weight 67.6/149
Been a busy week. I don't have much to report though, except for
the fact that I've reached another "lowest" weight.
I can't really see any difference when I look at the pictures but
I feel a difference on my clothes.
Have been sticking to the Weight Watchers and Lean cuisine food.
Drinking lots of water and coffee. No hunger, no cravings. I feel
great :))
I'll write more soon.

Date: October 24, Weight 68.2/151
Finally! Been hovering over the same 69.x mark on the scales for a week now 
and couldn't understand why I just didn't manage to get any further.
Then, mid week I got the most weird cravings, my fingers got so 
swollen I had to remove my rings... I felt depressed, tired and
rather sick. Hmmm... Spent wednesday evening in bed with a bag
of nachos and guacamole dip... So what is this?? 
Thursday, busy at work, leaving at 4.30 to meet a friend at the
movies... tummy - ouch! My last period started sept 26'th so this
was very early, but then again, it really explained the strange things
I have been experiencing. 
So.. now it's saturday and I'm off to the mall with the kids in
a minute or so. Just wanted to make this quick update. I have also
updated the charts too, they look rather nice, don't you think? 
Anyway, I'm down to size (euro) 38 now, from size 44 some 90 days ago. :)) 
Have thrown out a bunch of clothes from my wardrobe and
I don't want to see them ever again!! Such sad memories....
On the other hand... I have this extremely nice "Thalia" designers
dress... costed me a fortune, deep blue silk... I can't use it.
Only wore it once at a party a couple of years ago, then I grew
too fat and haven't used it again. Now it's too big, hanging losely
around the butt... Sad, but I'm happy anyway. Maybe I can give it
away to someone who can use it. 


Date: October 20, Weight 69.2/152.5
It's funny... Hubby suddenly calls me "Twiggy".
He gropes me whenever he can and he just stops and looks at me
every now and then, saying "you look just incredible".
I think it's me though... I mean, he tried before too but I wouldn't
let him touch me. Now I'm more "available" ;-) and it's surely 
different... And I'm only halfways with this diet... 
Had a weight watcher meal and a Pepsi Max for lunch. Only 210
calories. We will see if I manage some exercise this evening...

Date: October 19, Weight 69.4/153
Monday. Don't ya just hate 'em? I drove home around 11 am, kids
wanted to stay home and so did I...
Spent the day playing with them, relaxing, doing webwork and just
being a lazy slob ;-) ...well not entirely.. I actually exersised
 in the evening. 30 minutes on the bike.
  What about the weekend then?  Oh what a weekend...
Been a good girl too. Weighed below 69 kg/152 pounds (68.8) just
before the weekend and haven't gained much even though we went 
out for dinner with friends on sunday. 
Kids were invited to a birthday party sunday afternoon and after
spending a couple of hours chatting with our friends we decided 
we needed a good treat. So we went to Applebee's. 
The main discussion was my weight loss... (I'm so self-centered!)
I felt great anyway! I haven't met theese people for a while and
one of them sold me the Herbalife-crap, so she of course wanted 
to know if this is thanks to the HL.
She was a bit disappointed, I think, when she found out it wasn't.
Anyway, Kids (6 of them) rumbled around the playroom while we
enjoyed drinks and entrees.
We had Buffalo wings, jalapeño poppers and nachos for entree, and
then I had Chicken Fajitas. Not the best ones I have tried but good
enough. In the evening a neighbour came over with a video projector
equipment. We saw "The 5 th element" and "Titanic" on this huge
screen in our livingroom and it was an experience for sure.
I had seen "5'th element" before and it's a great movie. But 
I had promised myself to never see "Titanic" and I was right, it's
a horrible film. I mean... I want happy endings, and there is just
no way to make a happy ending out of that one... Well, at least I
got to hear drowning people scream in Dolby surround stereo...
 

Date: October 15, Weight 69.0/152.1
Not much to add today except I have updated the charts with new images.
Worked as usual, left before 4 and went to pick the kids up at kindy. 
I have been sticking to weight watcher meals all week but since I
still have an infection in my body I haven't been able to
exercise. I am very tired and have fallen into bed early every 
night.
Thought the lack of exercise might cause me to have problems losing 
weight, but I weighed my lowest today. Only 9 kg left to go now!
My BMI (weight/(height X height)=BMI)is now at "acceptable" 24.44.
I eat vitamins and minerals now, actually taking the Herbalife stuff
since I have payed for it, why not. But I don't follow their program 
I only eat the pills since I feel my dieting might have caused me to
drain myself...


Date: October 14, Weight 69.4/153.0
Phew... Feeling much better today. And look! best weight so far! 
I'm really pleased!
I added a new picture  too... But it's strange. I feel rather good about
myself until I see a picture. Tummy looks like I'm pregnant! I must
exercise more, or I'll always have to wear a shirt covering that bulge.
I'm at the office right now, looking out the window and it's very
depressing... It's grey and cold outside, but since it was such a
humid summer, with almost no sun, the trees are still green. Weird.
I want to take some time off. I feel stressed out because of my work
and I miss my kids every second of the day. I wish we could take a
trip to some exotic and warm place, spend our days at the beach, 
play with the kids, eat and drink... *sigh*
Ok, we are going away for christmas, true, but that's to the mountains.
You know, snow, skiing... I regret we didn't use the money for a trip 
to spain instead.
Anyway, back to work before I get my boss on my back here...

Date: October 13, Weight 69.8/153.9
Aarrrgh!
I can't seem to shake this cold. I'm taking vitamins now and I hope to
lose this tiresome cough soon. Anyway. Slacker, that's me. Haven't exercised
almost anything this month. But I do blame the cold. The weekend was a dis-
aster. Kids were at my parent's and we had planned to spend the weekend in
love ;-) but both me and hubby got a sore throat and I felt miserable due to
my cough and my cold. We had a fight and didn't do anything fun at all except
for going to this greek restaurant on friday night. I spent saturday shopping
and I don't know what you guys know about euro sizes of women's clothing, but
this summer I bought size 44. The black dress from new year was even size 46.
I knew I could get into size 42 now, and a couple of items size 40 still in my
wardrobe, actually fit nicely. So I thought to myself as I picked up the pants
and skirts size 38, that this will be a goal for me, to get into. 
I didn't have to wait. I could wear them immediately! I almost threw a fit!
The short black skirt size 40 is nice, but almost too large since it's stretch
material. The pants size 38 is absolutely great and so is the skirt... 
I got new underwear too... *grin* and they look great! I even feel I can use
the string undies again!!! Sunday was spent in bed, being lazy and miserable
due to the cold. I had to work too, so I kind of felt bad all day until I got
that over with. Had to get the september results ready for a meeting mo. morn.
Then yesterday hubby had his pals over for their weekly sauna/beer/male bonding
session.... They haven't been here since august and they just stared at 
me... "Girl, you must have lost LOTS of weight"
I felt sooooooo proud. Hubby looked very happy too.
Then today as I came home from work, he came upstairs, stopped and looked at me,
then said "I didn't recognize you at first - you look great!!"
I mean, what else does a girl need for support when she's on a diet???
I have finally went below 70 kg and it's kind of a magic number for me since I 
feel I don't ever want to pass that weight again. 

So what am I eating these days you might wonder? Ok.. 
Breakfast... hmm.. I guess I cheat... I don't eat much. I'm too tired. But I 
drink coffee with milk and have a large glass of mineral water when I get to 
the office. Around 10-11 am I have eaten 1-2 fresh fruits. Then around noon I
have my Weight Watchers frozen, microwaved meal. I like the vegetarian ones 
the most, and the pasta ones. Fish is ok too. They mostly contain appr. 280-320
calories. I sometimes skip the cooked food and have a coup-a-soup, rye bread
and a couple of fresh vegetables like tomato or avocado.
In the afternoon, coffee of course, and more water. I try to drink at least 4-5
glasses a day. I prefer low salt mineral water. Tap water is disgusting and we
don't have any ice at the office...
I sometimes have a couple of swedish crisprolls during the afternoon, and maybe
a fruit or two depending on if I'm hungry.
Then when I get home I mix myself whatever I can find. Salad, vegetables, maybe
bread and coup-a-soup or some rice with a nice sauce.
I still don't have any appetite for meat and I'm happy. 
Sometimes I have a small serving of whatever my kids are having for dinner if 
it's not very fattening.

I'm not often feeling hungry nowadays, I however feel tempted every now and 
then, but it's not as often as before. If I have a craving for anything I take
it and stash it in the fridge until the weekend, knowing weekends are the time
when I can eat what I want. However, I don't manage to eat as much as I used to.
 

Date: October 8, Weight 70.0/154.3
Slept two hours last night. For some odd reason I was very frisky in the
wee small hours of the night and didn't let hubby rest until 4.30 am...
Consequently I was like a zombie at work.
Anyway, lunch: Broccoli soup, an avocado, a tomato and two slices of crisp-
bread. Dinner: rice with soy sauce and fresh herbs, beetroot, olives etc.
It's now 6 pm and I'll have a nap. cya soon.

Date: October 7, Weight 70.4/155.2
I got a mail saying I weigh myself too often and I might agree, but
there is no overall solution when it comes to dieting. What works for 
you "Deb" might not work for me, and the other way around. I weigh 
myself every day because it's been a very good way for me to diet. I 
have lost 22 pounds (25.6 since my heaviest in july) and that's what 
counts. I don't say other people shoud weigh every day, but for me it's
been working. I have excel diagrams that I keep updating and
I find pleasure in seeing the curve change for every day.
Anyway, feel free to mail me moore suggestions, but please don't criticise 
my dieting. I instantly feel the urge to defend what I'm doing and I get
a bit sad when people obviously wants to put me down.

Anyway, been a good day. I had swedish crisp bread and coffee for break-
fast, broccoli-soup and bread for lunch, and salad with bread for dinner.
I have eaten two bananas and an apple, and also a couple of swedish crisp-
rolls. Lots of mineral water.

Exercised for the first time in weeks, 20 minutes on the bike and I had
enough, horpefully I'll manage more tomorrow.
Dyed my hair in the evening. 
 

Date: October 6, Weight 70.6/155.6
Hi all,
Quick report. 
Doing great. This weekend I didn't gain as much as I have been doing
the last couple of weeks. Back at my lowest weight again already.
I eat lots of fresh fruit and drink lots of mineral water, soup for 
lunch and mostly a weight watchers dinner.
No hunger what so ever these days, but I eat a bit between meals. 
Swedish crisprolls and coffee has become my new favourite. 
I checked my BMI today, and I'm almost at 25 now,(25.01) so within a day or so my
weight will be "acceptable" instead of "overweight" according to the
World Health Organization. When I started out my BMI was 29.58 where
30+ indicates obesity, 25-30 indicates overweight and 20-25 is acceptable.
Lower than 20 is "below your ideal weight" which means my goal weight
of 59-63 kg is about right for me. If I weigh less than 57 I am aparently
too thin, and I can agree. I have looked at pictures of me when I weighed
56 and I looked like a skeleton.

I feel very guilty though, since I haven't exercised for ages, but I 
still have this cold and cough. I just don't feel up to it. I'll be back
on the bicycle as soon as this cold has left my body.

Speaking of cold.. This country is getting very cold fast... Had to 
scrape the ice of the car windows this morning! I hate that! Gonna be a 
long winter... Lucky me, I don't have to go shopping for new skiwear tho, 
since I'll certainly get into my old outfit!! :))
Cya all soon, and keep up the good job all you dieters!


Date: October 2, Weight 70.8/156
Hi all, Friday and I still feel crappy. My cold won't let go and
I still have the ugly blister on my lip. I took a new picture today 
but it's an ugly one...
Be warned! Well, when I look at myself at photos and think of how
I must have looked when I had 12 kg / 26 pounds more on my body
I shudder... I feel almost "thin" right now, until I see a pic
of myself... I am still BIG and I understand why we have no 
big mirrors in our house... And why I have been running like hell
everytime someone brought a camera out.
Anyway, today is my lowest weight so far, yay! Going to celebrate
with going out for lunch with my workmates. (Salad of course)
70.8 kg/156 pounds means I'm actually only 5.8 kg/12.8 pounds 
away from my "first goal" 65 kg / 143.3 pounds. I hope to be there 
by christmas when we go on our skiing vacation. Then perhaps 
I'll be at my "second goal" 60 kg / 132.3 pounds by my birthday 
in march. Hopefully.
What amazes me and makes me want to kick myself for not doing 
this earlier, is that the dieting is really NOT HARD I don't
know why I have been telling myself "I'll start later" all this
time??? I still have an ace up my sleeve too, because I am still
losing weight according to plan, and I haven't really started to
exercise yet. In fact, this last month I have been very lazy and
the minute I feel it's getting harder, I'll get going with the 
exercise again. Not today though, I can't exercise when I have a 
cold. 

Date: October 1, Weight 71.2/157
Ok, so now it's thursday. I haven't been very good at dieting this
last week, had snacks and some candy, but lunch has been weight 
watcher meals and dinner has been soup. Suddenly today I dropped 
back to my lowest weight again.
I can slide my rings back onto my fingers finally, and I suppose 
this must have been some kind of water/liquid imbalance.

I have been fetching more of my old dresses from the wardrobe in the
basement and I also did an amusing thing today; I tried my "new" 
Jeans dress on. A dress with buttons in the front, made from jeans
fabric, that I bought in july and had to force myself into, causing
the buttons to almost spring, never managed to button the top button
but left it open when I wore the dress. I wore it twice, then hang 
it back into the wardrobe without washing it, causing fabric and the 
button holes to remain in the same stretched-out manner as in july...

I wore that dress today again... Hanging losely around my body, with 
lots of space everywhere, it looked terrible I realized I won't wear 
it again, and it pleased me!
I also tried the dress I wore last newyears eve... my gawd! I'll have
to give that one away too! Yay!!!



Date: September 30 Weight 72.6/160.1
*Shudder* What a horrible week it has been!
My period was terribly late...
I counted and counted and since I usually go through a 28 days cycle
I should have had my period sept 19-20. Friday sept 25'th I still 
hadn't got it so I took off to the pharmacist and got me a "Clearblue"
test.... Thank God... I'm not pregnant, but something is very wrong 
with my body balance... At first I thought it might be the diet, so
I had a good nutricious meal thursday night, but then I felt it...
The headache, the sore throat, the couhghing... Saturday I almost 
couldn't get out of bed. I had promised the kids to go to the mall.
They had 100:- (USD 12:50) each that they got from granny and another
10:- each in weekly pocket money from me and they where so excited.
I felt feverish and almost threw up as we entered the shopping 
center. My head ached and my tummy too... Yes.. I finally got my
period... Typical. Out shopping too. Well, I had decided to pick up
some clothes and I really picked them up. No trying, just
grabbed a suit and a jumper, a blouse and a dress, payed and ran out
of the shop. We had planned to have lunch at McDonalds but never 
got that far. William, my youngest, age 2½ ran off in the crowd and
I searched for 10 minutes with panic growing. Older son was the hero
as he "guarded" the spot where his kid brother was seen the last time.
Finally he was found and I bursted into tears. 
After lunch he ran off once more! I can't believe this, it has never
happened before and it must be a my fault, being so miserable and 
feeling crappy. I found him quicker this time but I completely lost
my voice from shouting his name inside the Toy Store...
Back home I yelled at my husband for no reason and then went to bed
with a hot water bottle and a couple of panadols. 
Sunday: didn't get out of bed. Slept and slept. Head hurting, no voice,
cough, bad stomach cramps. I blew up like a balloon and I couldn't 
get my rings off my fingers without using body lotion. Scales showed
a big jump and I just didn't care... As I got out of bed at noon I 
only went downstairs to cook for the kids, then went back to bed 
again...
Monday: Horrible day. The tax audit may be over, but I still had the
meeting with the tax accountants... As I sat there listening to them,
(not too bad since they actually gave me a lot of credit for my work)
I sniffled and coughed and felt a strong stinging pain on my upper
lip... When the meeting was over I went to the powder room and yes..
A huge blister was growing on my lip... I almost started to cry again.
I have had this kind of "cold sore" three or four times in my life 
before and they always turn up at very stressful situations or when
I am in a very bad shape... This week has been both.
And gawd it hurts!
Now I have an ugly yellow-reddish blister, and when I eat or smile
it cracks up and sometimes bleed... It's horrible and I feel like 
want to crawl under a rock...

So what else happened during the week?
Um, yes, we bought a trip to the mountains for christmas. One week.
We decided we really want to get away and even though it
will set us back 10.000:- (USD 1.250) we'll take a night train to
a lovely swedish resort and spend christmas there. Skiing, relaxing
caring about each other, just what we need. I'll tell you guys more
later.


Date: September 24 Weight 71.4/157.4
Quick update :)
Another best! I am truly happy. This morning I tried two of my old 
dresses on, one of them I haven't ever used since I bought it in vain,
but now it fitted perfectly!!!
Another thing... In a hurry to get to kindy in time and pick the 
kiddles up I ran across the parking lot and suddenly stopped... yes... 
two guys whistled at me!?!?! I haven't been whistled at for ages!!!
I don't have much time to write more tonight but I just had to tell this 
since it left me all uplifted and smiling.
cya soon!



Date: September 23 Weight 72.0/158.7
Hi all!
Not much to report today, I am somehow more active these days, so I
don't sit as much by the computer as I did just a month ago. I actually
forget to update this page. But I do weigh myself every day, not because
I think I have to, because I don't, in fact it's not to recommend... but 
because the diagram I make in excel looks better when I keep track of the
weight every day, and I can see the "weekend-highs" return over and over 
again. But as I have said before, I wouldn't manage to stick to this diet
if I couldn't allow myself that little extra something in the weekend.
This saturday I had chinese food and ice cream... Mother-in-law has been 
here a couple of days *sigh* but now she's off to spain. 
Um... what more... Yes, today I have been to a seminar from 8-12. The 
seminar was given by Intrum Justitia at the Scandic Infra City Hotel just
north of Stockholm. Afterwards they served a delicious lunch, I asked for
the vegetarian course and got two green paprikas, stuffed with creamed 
mushrooms, served with a basil-tomato sauce and fresh herbs. Truly yummy!
Then I went back to work, the new girl, hired this monday is doing great
and I'm very pleased! Good thing she's doing ok on her own too, since my
boss called from his trip around 3 pm, and was in panic... aparently he 
had to prepare for a board meeting and wanted me to fax old figures from
way back in 1991-1997 to his hotel, only thing was I had to climb all 
over the stock room to find them in various books... took me hours...
Picked the kids up at 5 and went home to cook them some fish with rice.
I had mixed cooked vegetables myself. Beetroot, rice and saurkraut 
(unsweetened saurkraut has only 20 calories per 100 gram!)
Did some exercise around 7. I haven't done any for ages so it was about
time... I feel great though. My clothes fit very well and I am not as
tired as before. The weight loss has slowed down a bit but I am still 
going steadily downwards on the scales.
Ok, it's 8.15 now and I have just tucked the kids in. I'll upload this
page and wish you all a great night. 

Ciao!



Date: September 19 Weight 72.0/158.7
Quick update before I take off to go shopping groceries for the baking.
It's a cold and rainy saturday here. I updated the charts today since
it's my lowest weight so far. I always gain some back during the week-
ends though... But it's really worth a celebration! :)) 



Date: September 18 Weight 72.2/159.2
Friday :-) 
What can I say, except for I love my life right now. My husband is very
happy too. I just can't understand why it took me 5 years to take this
step!!?? I went down into our deepest closet and found a rack of old dresses
I had given up... I tried them on and they all fit! :)))))
I still have some very expensive dresses from when I weighed 59 kg/130 pounds
and I glanced at them with a longing feeling. OK; so they might be out of 
fashion, but what a victory the day I can put them back on, just once more!
Forgot to bring the digital camera home from work though, so I can't take
any new picture to add to my pictures page, but I'll do it monday.
Went on IRC for a while in the afternoon and had a great chat with some of
my old friends there. Kids had a friend over, made them meatballs and 
spagetti, had some myself too, and hubby had a steak later when he came from
work. Opened a bottle of red wine in the evening. Great wine named Isla Negra,
Bonarda, Argentina. Sat by the kitchen table with the kids, playing with Play
Doh until 9.30 pm... They love it so much. Made a promise we'll bake real
cookies tomorrow. I only hope I can keep from eating all of them ;-)






Date: September 17 Weight 72.4/159.6
I know I will make it this time! :-))
Why? Because I don't think much about dieting anymore. I just do it (um, why
do I feel like a footwear commercial here?) Maybe that's why I don't rush 
home to update my page like I did the first couple of weeks of my diet.
Maybe that's why I don't keep track of what I eat anymore, like I used to.
Maybe that's why I automatically have a tiny slice of cake when we have a 
celebration at work, and leave all the whipped cream on the plate for the
dog to finish... 
Maybe that's why I don't walk around hungry and almost never think of sweets?
This is my best day so far and if I count from the day I weighed 82+ kg (it
was exactly this time of the month with my period upcoming) I have lost 10 kg
(22 pounds) and if I count from the day my real diet started, just after my
period, I have lost 8 kg (17.6 pounds) I am almost halfway already and when
I think back it hasn't been hard at all! In fact it's been lots easier to
lose weight than I remembered.
I know from now on it will not be as easy as it's been so far, but thinking
I have "only" 7 kg left to my "first" goal and 12 kg to my ultimate goal, I
feel just incredibly happy.

Yesterday at work, one of the guys came up to me saying "now it really shows
you have lost weight" then another one came into my room saying "you won't 
diet much more now, will you?" And I just laughed. It felt wonderful!

Only cloud on my sky is I haven't exercised for almost two weeks... But then
again... I have that one up my sleeve when I start to feel I'm going uphill.

I'll bring the digital camera home tomorrow and add a few more pictures, I
want to show how my old Mulberry jeans fits these days ;-)

Oh. and btw, I updated the progress charts today too.

8.30 pm update: Did some exercise.. *phew* only 20 minutes though, but it's
always something. :-)



Date: September 13  Weight 73.4/161.8
Sorry for not updating but it's been a busy weekend. I only worked mon-wed
and then took tue-fri off to travel with my family to visit friends in the
southern parts of sweden. I have been eating more then I should all weekend
and I had really expected to gain more weight, I am very pleased to see I 
am still on the track. Maybe my present head cold has caused me to eat less?
I have been suffering badly from a sore throat and I really feel lousy today.

Anyway, Thursday was the day of departure, spent most of the day in the car.
We stayed at Stora Hotellet (Grand Hotel) in Jönköping tuesday night and
I had a wonderful Toast Skagen (swedish speciality) Then finished off with
a shrimp salad and red wine with assorted cheeses.

We went to the "Caravan-98" exhibit on friday and traded our old caravan in
for a new Hobby -99. It's a great caravan with a king size bed in one end. and a 
bunk bed for the kids in the  other end.  
It has all the stuff we dreamed of and we have been 
wanting it for three years now. 

I wore this short dress all day and for the first time in years I felt a bit 
attractive. Hubby pinched my butt a couple of times to show his appreciation, 
but most of all I felt like I was flying across the floor when walking because a 
couple of guys actually flirted with me... Maybe they were drunk ;-)

After having all the paperwork settled we moved on towards the small town
Gislaved. That night we had way too much to eat and drink... Sheesh...

Saturday; Went to see the Firestation, kids had a really fun time, then 
spent the evening eating Pizza, playing cards, drinking.... eating 
again... salad this time... and finally I was so sick I had to go to bed...
I actually threw up too, woke up and felt like my stomach was burning.
Must have been the spices... and all the wine of course.

Sunday... that's today. Had a light breakfast ;-) then a lazy day with our
friends. Went out for a short walk to get some fresh air during the afternoon,
and I didn't believe my eyes as I put my jeans on. It's the same jeans I wore
aug 21 on our Kick-Off at work and they were tight then, now they were very
loose around the thighs! I even tucked my sweater inside the jeans - haven't
done that for years!
We spent a couple of hours playing cards before packing our car and driving
home (around 5.30 pm) Stopped for dinner and icecream by 8. Didn't arrive at
home until around midnight and I immediately stepped on the scales...

Ok, I know I'll have to suffer for these days of partying and enjoying food
and drinks, but I don't doubt for a second I'll soon be back on track!



Date: September 8  Weight 73.0/160.9
Shame on me! Been such a slacker!! Um.. well not really, actually I 
have been very very busy. Spent my entire day in Norway yesterday, left
home at 5 am and went on the first flight. Then spent the day in meetings,
stuffy rooms, hot cars, and all the time trying hard to concentrate on 
the language, so I could follow the convo.
The norweigan language is similar to swedish but also very very different
and I had a horrible headache at 5 in the afternoon. Then I had to run like
a maniac through the airport to catch the flight back. I hate flying too... 
Every time I close my eyes I see twisted burning wrecks and ripped off 
limbs. It seems every time I turn on the news there has been another crash.
Anyway, I got on the 6.10 pm flight back and then drove from the airport. 
I didn't arrive at my house until after 8 and I was so pooped I just fell 
straight into bed. Of course one of the kids woke up at midnight and threw
up all over the bed and himself... Poor sweetie... and poor me ;-)

So what about the diet? And what about the exercise?
Yeah... what about them... Hmmm.. I haven't thought much about food lately,
but I haven't thought about dieting either. I have just been too busy.
So, no exercise, no dieting but no excess food or any sweets either.
I had a real dive into the favourite stuff last friday though. I don't 
remember what we ate, but I had a lot of good food and it made quite an
impact on the scales. I think I had pizza.. and ice cream... and wine...
and potato chips... and beer... 
I'll try to exercise some tomorrow again though, it's been almost a week
now. Maybe I'll get to the pool one day too and swim some.. We'll see.



Date: September 3  Weight 73.2/161.4
Heya, Sun shining here and we suddenly got some kind of summer. Nights
are cold though. I have been at home with my kids, one of them has a fever
and the sniffles, so we have been cuddling up in the sofa, watching cartoons,
played with Lego, listened to "Hercules" CD etc... Quite a change from my
busy office days. I got on the exercise bike early today, by 11 am I had done
30 minutes and felt very pleased with myself. Had a shower and then we went
off to Burger King... scary huh? Well, don't fear... I had a veggie Whopper
and a diet coke. =650 calories. I'm updating this page at 4 pm already, so
before the night is over I might do some more exercise. I'll keep you guys
posted. And yes.. Thanks for all the support in my guestbook and in lovely
letters! Keep mailing me, I need it!! :)))
*hugs*



Date: September 2  Weight 73.4/161.8
I don't know what's with the scales today!?! This is the lowest weight
I've seen since 1996 when I dieted after giving birth...
I updated the charts today and I can surely see a pattern emerging...
The little bump every 7'th day is the weekend when I allow myself to
eat what I feel like, but see how lovely the curve turn downwards 
again after a couple of days. I shouldn't worry about the weekends,
that's for sure.
Lovely day indeed. Sun shining and temperature almost like a summer
day. I dared to pick out my old Mullberry Jeans from 1994, which I 
didn't manage to get my fat butt into only a couple of months ago...
And guess what! I got them on. Ok.. I admit it was hard to zip them 
up but they fit losely around the thighs and I wore them the whole
day with no discomfort! A workmate told me he could see I had lost
weight and I glowed! Had tea and a banana for breakfast, then coffee
with milk at 11 and broccoli soup for lunch. Youngest kid got a fever
so I might have to stay home from work tomorrow, I brought work with 
me home and as I arrived to the house, hubby had made dinner. I had
a couple of meatballs and salad. 
I'm not sure if I will exercise tonight, I have a PTA meeting at 7
and after that I'll probably be too tired.



Date: September 1  Weight 74.0/163.1
New month, new goals. Planning to lose 4 kg's this month. I haven't
been at 70 kg since.. dunno when, so I really look forward to
that day. But it's one day at the time right now. Been very busy at 
work. It's now confirmed I fly to Oslo monday july 7. It's good to 
be chosen to get out and do something else for a diffence. 
I had soup for lunch today again, it's kind of filling and I often
have bread with it.
Snack during the day: one apple and one banana. Drank lots of water
and coffee with milk. I haven't had any dinner yet but I'm not very
hungry so I'll go search the fridge for some veggies, or maybe have
a coup-a-soup. 



Date: Aug 31.  Weight 74.4/164.0
Monday *sigh* Last day of august. Feeling a bit sentimental. Like I 
have missed something. Maybe it's because the summer has been so cold
and rainy, and now when september comes, it's like there is no chance
for any more summer, we have to wait until next year. The whole long, 
rainy and cold autumn, and the freezing winter awaits ahead.
Well, feeling that one would think I was sad as I arrived to work and
it was raining on my face... But I wasn't. I felt a bit cosy. Like I 
wanted to cuddle up, light a candle, drink a hot beverage.. You know.
I might have to go to Norway in the end of this week, it will be fun,
one of the companies in the group needs my help to chose their new
administrative software and my boss looked kind of surprised as the big
chief wanted me to go. We will see what happens.
I had minestrone soup for lunch today, one banana, one apple and a couple
of grapes during the day. Then I had two rye wholegrain sandwiches with
cheese and vegetables after work. 
Exercised in the evening, first time for ages... If I manage to get my
butt out of bed in the morning I might go swimming before work. I'll
let you know.
 




Date: Aug 30.  Weight 74.6/164.5
Another lazy sunday, playing with the kids, doing some HTML, sleeping.
Not much else to do as the rain poured down. At 1 pm I sent my oldest
off to a birthday party, but he is so old I don't have to stay. He 
disappeared into the playroom with his friends and I went back home.
If it hadn't rained so damn much I would have walked there, but now I 
used the car instead. Not much exercise lately. I must get a grip here.
I have been sitting here trying to think positive thoughts and I just
realized I haven't bought a piece of chocolate or an ice cream for 
myself for ages! I used to sneak by 7-11 and pick up a bag of snacks
for the weekend, telling myself "it's for the kids" then I'd have a 
Mars bar in the car on my way home, then maybe some peanuts in the
evening. This have surely changed :)
I made Hungarian Langos for dinner, and I know, they are loaded with
calories! But as I have said before, the weekends are my time of allowing
myself that little extra something. The langos are like bread that are
not baked, but the dough is fried in vegetable oil, salted and then 
topped with whatever you prefer. We had them with chopped red onions, 
sour cream, black caviar and chopped shrimps. They where absolutely 
delicious and I had two of them. Afterwards I felt a bit guilty and 
burped onion burps the rest of the evening ;)



Date: Aug 29.  Weight 74.2/163.6
My youngest kid went to his first birthday party and I went with him.
I had a cup of coffee with the other parents, but stayed away from the
blueberry muffins and the cake. Two of the other mothers stuffed them-
selves with cake, cookies, ice cream and muffins and I sighed, one was
an airline stewardess, probably 175 cm tall and slim as a model, the
other one, a nurse, same height but even thinner. I can't understand 
how they do it! I mean what a life it must be to be able to eat any
thing you desire, and still keep that body. Even when I was thin I had
to think of what I ate, watch my weight and make sure I exercised a 
lot. I didn't think of it every day, but it was there all the time and
if I stuffed myself it immediately showed... At least I think so, but
maybe I was a bit obsessed. Maybe I shouldn't have stepped on the scales
the day after a huge family dinner. Maybe I should have waited a couple
of days . Anyway... Been a bit naughty today, had a slice of pizza but
ate mostly salad and bread. Then in the evening I had two glasses of 
red wine... No.. make that three... No exercise.




Date: Aug 28.  Weight 74.4/164.0
Another personal best, this is going really great and I have 
calculated that if I keep this up I'll reach my goal weight by
new year. After one month I have lost 6 kg/13.2 pounds and I'm 
really pleased.
Other diets often caused a loss of 4 kg in a short time then I
was so sick of I gave in to binge eating and gained it all in a 
couple of days. 
I don't feel hungry, I don't have any cravings for sweets, and 
I feel very pleased. Today I picked out another dress that I 
haven't been able to wear for a year or so. I never thought these
6 kg's would make such a difference. Right now I'm at the weight
I was before getting pregnant the second time, 74 kg. Ever since 
I had my second child I have been weighing around 78 and slowly 
gaining. I looked at my charts, "only" 14 kg to go now... One 
month and I have already lost more than ¼ of the 20 kg's.
Going to have some wine tonight and maybe some cheese, and I guess
I will be at 75 after the weekend, but it's ok, I have learned how
my body works now, I gain a little during the weekend and then 
return to the program during the weekdays.



Date: Aug 27.  Weight 74.6/164.5
Another personal best! I feel great! I picked out a nice dress from 
the deepest corner of my wardrobe this morning and it was such a 
wonderful feeling to be able to button it again! 
I had a rye bread sandwich with hot chocolate this morning (yeah, 
I know it's loaded with calories, but it was my bonus!) Then for
lunch I had a Weight Watchers frozen microwave thingy, I think it
was cod and spinach in some kind of sauce, and it tasted great.
The package said.... guess how many calories?.... Only 210!!!
I had to look again, 210 calories in the entire serving portion!
I think the veggie Whopper at Burger King had 650 calories in it
and that's without the fries... I thought that was lean...
Anyway, I plan to exercise tonight, we will see if I get courage
to climb the bike.
Cya soon!
PS, I updated the charts today.





Date: Aug 26.  Weight 75.0/165.3
Autumn is here early, after a cold summer and it's sad when I think 
of the coming long cold winter. We Swedes need the summer to charge 
our batteries and get the strength back. This summer has been the 
coldest since the early sixties... but on the other hand, last summer
was the hottest since 1794... *sigh* well, it was very cold last night
and soon we will have to scrape the ice off the car in the morning. 
This morning however was sunny, but it felt like winter. Since the 
summer has been so rainy, all the leaves are still on the trees, so
it feels weird when everything is so green, but it's cold...
Nuff said bout weather. I had a breakfast meeting at 7 am at the
software suppliers and I was early. Had a banana in the car while
waiting outside, then a black cup of coffee during the meeting. 
I skipped the cheese and paprika sandwich we were offered, but had a
rye wholegrain one when I got back to the office. Lunch: broccoli/
ham soup with bread and a carrot, three glasses of water and lots of
coffee during the day. One cup of hot choccolate in the afternoon.
Dinner: Vegetable soup and bread. A tomato.
I have no difficulties staying away from snacks anymore. I am not 
hungry and I really don't think of food during the days. I however 
get a bit peckish when I get home in the afternoon and must make sure
I have something fat-free to eat or I will start nibbling the kids
leftovers just because that's what I'm used to do.
Highlight: I finally brought myself to go and get the engagement and
wedding rings from the jewelery box and try it on.... They were perfect! 
I haven't worn them since last xmas since my fingers have been too 
swollen. It feels great to have them on again!



Date: Aug 25.  Weight 75.2/165.8
Well, almost back. After the kind of dinner I had this friday and the
lazy days with no exercise I knew it would take time to get back to 75.
I'm hoping to weigh 74 kg after one month's diet. That's only two days
to lose another kg. Not sure I can make it. Anyway. Work was good. Getting
ahead with my projects and boss is pleased. Brekkie today: coffee and a
tomato sandwich. Had chicken soup and bread for lunch and a plain sandwich 
with tea when I got home from work. I think I had two apples, one banana
and a peach during the day too. Family is having fish now, but I'm 
not really hungry. Might as well stay off it since I don't have any 
appetite. I feel energetic enough to try some exercise tonight though. 
I hope I will manage... Oh yes... I tried my jeans on today. The same
ones I could hardly button in july. They were all lose around the butt!
I feel very happy about it. 6.30 update: I exercised tonight, 30 mins 
on the bike. Now I'm going to soak in a long hot bath. Cya tomorrow!



Date: Aug 24.  Weight 75.4/166.2
Overslept some in the morning. Chased those minutes all day and almost
forgot to have lunch. Weird. I'm not hungry. I eat lots of fruit though.
The boss has a basket of mixed fresh fruits brought in every monday and
by tuesday it's empty... almost. ;-) I worked overtime and was very tired
as I got home. I had soup for dinner, then spent some time with the kids.
No exercise tonight either, gawd I'm slack ;-)
Watched tv and worked on a couple of webpages before I went to bed at
1 am. I must get to bed earlier, this is killing me.




Date: Aug 23. Weight 75.6/166.7
I guess it shows on the scales how great the dinner was on friday. 
I don't feel a bit worried though. In fact I have realized I don't even
think about food during the days now. I enjoyed a nice and lazy sunday
with a nice family dinner today. I don't plan to exercise, just rest and
charge the batteries for the coming week. It's going to be hard work at
the office and I need to stay sharp. Spent the evening waxing my legs,
tinkering with web pages and watching some aussie drama on tv.




Date: Aug 22. Weight 75.0/165.3
I can't believe this, my weight has hit another low, and that is 
after that huge dinner yesterday, and all the beer and wine! I am sooo
pleased! Only cloud on my sky is I feel terrible today, i woke up with
a terrible headache and tummy hurts too, yeah, that time of the month 
again. I can't recommend the combination of hangover and monthly cramps.
It's our wedding day today and hubby woke me up with... Champagne... I
almost threw up but managed to smile between my teeth and have one sip.
I fell back into bed and groaned. We watched the video from our wedding
in bed while the kids watched cartoons downstairs. We were invited to 
a wedding today too, a friend of hubby that I don't know that well, and
I was too sick to go. Too bad because I actually managed to get into that
new dress I mentioned (aug 19) and it looked great. Well, another time...
I stayed in bed and slept almost all day. In the evening I felt a bit 
better. I sat on the exercise bike for a while but took it really easy. 
It's not the right time for hard exercise a day like this.



Date: Aug 21. Weight 75.4/166.2
What is this? My weight is still falling. I haven't done much now, and
I haven't exercised. But I have absolutely no appetite. I don't walk 
around hungry and I don't think of food all the time. Around 2 pm our
boss closed the business for the weekend and took the crew to a secret
location for the Kick-off. It turned out to be an in-door go-cart 
track and after the monthly staff meeting we got into the overalls and
helmets. I was so nervous but it was sooooo fun!
At 8 pm we arrived to a lovely Greek Restaurant named Dionysos. 
I had a wonderful Mezedes entry (mixed greek entry-plate) and fish as 
main course. I left almost half of the fish on the plate because I was full!
As the night went on, we had lots to drink, and we went for a 
walk through Stockholm, dropping in at a couple of pubs oun our way
home. I was not entirely sober as I arrived home around 2 am. ;-) 



Date: Aug 20. Weight 76.0/167.5
Wohoooo! Best weight so far! Had a great day at work, Weight Watcher's
frozen pre-fab microwave stuff (Vegetarian moussaka) tasted great and
had only 280 calories. I had dark wholegrain bread and diet coke with
that. I wasn't really hungry when it was time for dinner, but I had 
two more slices of the whole grain bread, a carrot and a cup of tea.
We'll see if I'll exercise later, it's only 6 pm now.
Hubby came home with 8 litres of chanterelles (mushroom) they are
absolutely delicious and I stayed up until 2 am frying and filling the
freezer. Didn't eat many though. :) 
Oh yeah.. I updated the diagrams today.




Date: Aug 19. Weight 76.2/168.0
Yay! A new lowest weight since I started! I feel great now. Not 
spending my days with a growling stomach, and I enjoy having break-
fast again. Today I had rye bread & coffee and an apple for brekkie.
Lunch: Coup-a-soup (chicken & corn, 90 calories), a carrot, a pear. 
Dinner: Lean Cuisine frozen pre-fab stuff: Pasta Romana (300 
calories) two carrots, bread. I had three cups of coffee with milk, 
about 1000 ml diet coke, and two glasses of water during the day.
Oh.. almost forgot, two digestive bisquits helped me get through 
the cravings....
So what more? Well, going to a wedding this saturday. Still haven't
decided what to wear. I just can't bring myself to go shopping for
clothes right now, but I guess I have to.
I have a dress I bought this spring, it's absolutely wonderful, size
Large, I knew I had to lose at least 8 kg in order to wear it and
I guess I have to wait a while before I will. I can just about 
button it right now, but if I breath out I suppose I will shoot all
the buttons. I promise to take a snapshot and publish here the 
day I feel comfy in that dress!
An upcoming danger is the company Kick-Off/party on friday. I don't 
know where it will be or what we will do, but I'm sure there will
be lots of food and drinks. I suppose it will be hard to resist.
I'll let you know on saturday... 
Bye for now.

 


Date: Aug 18. Weight 76.6/168.9
I'm back :-)
Sorry for being a slacker here, but I have been very busy at work.
Aug 17 I finally fired my assistant. She's really not the person
I want to help me out at work and I have been spending too much
time fixing all the errors she make. She was sad of course, but
she said she knew it was coming. 
Weekend was a bit lazy and I actually dropped the Herbalife stuff 
on sunday. I was fed up with the pills, the horrible strawberry 
flavoured shake, and the constant hunger. I gained a bit during the
weekend, but as my husband says: "honey, you aren't gaining, it's
just the loss that's slowing down a bit" He's wise as an owl ;-)
Anyway, I was about 76,8 yesterday and 76,6 today. I went with the
kids to Burger King yesterday and thanks to my "new" diet, I was
not hungry (brekke: rye bread with tomatoes, a banana, 
lunch: chicken soup and an apple)
I didn't even feel tempted by their strips or leftover chicken 
nuggets. I enjoyed ¾ of a Veggie Whopper, and had an XL diet 
coke. 
I think I should stick with these eating habits instead. Regular
(low calorie) food three times a day. Maybe other people can 
handle the hunger better than I, but it didn't matter if I mixed 
those shakes with yogurt, milk&fruit or whatever, I got hungry 
after an hour.
Today I had a slice of dark wholegrain bread with tea for 
breakfast, two apples and a pear during the day, lunch: broccoli 
soup, and for dinner: bread, carrots, some boiled fish and water 
with apple-honey vinegar to drink. 
I have exercised too

 
first time since thursday.
Ok, that's all for now, keep going all you nice people out there,
I know I will...



Date: Aug 15. Weight 76.4/168.4
Lazy saturday. Cheated today, guess it will show on the scales
tomorrow. I allow myself to do this in the weekends and it seems
to work as long as I manage to get back on track again weekdays.
I however don't cheat much. Today I had a slice of pizza and some 
lite beer, but breakfast and dinner was Herbalife meals so I hope 
I won't gain more than ½ a kilo.
It's 7 pm now, I'll update later tonight if I have done any 
exercise.



Date: Aug 14. Weight 76.6/168.9
No time to write here today. Too tired after a busy week. I'll
add more tomorrow, hopefully.
(Kept my diet except for some hot choccolate and two glasses of
wine.) No exercise today.



Date: Aug 13. Weight 76.4/168.4
Ewwwww... rainy day. Feels like autumn already. I hate it!
Well, at least I can enjoy my weight loss. I hit a new best today,
and I'm happy after a couple of slow days.
Another great improvement is that today was the first day without
that hunger at 10:30 am. I actually almost missed my lunch since 
my tummy didn't tell me it was time.
This might be a result of me chewing down the Herbalife fiber and
vitamin pills with 400 ml water at 7.30, then having the breakfast
HL strawberry protein shake at 8.00 at the office. 
At 11.45 I took another bunch of pills and 30 minutes later I had
my minestrone soup and a large apple, coffee with skimmed milk and
a tall glass of water.
At 5.30 pm I had the last 5 HL pills and 30 minutes later:
Salad from tomatoes, leeks, cucumber, radishes, paprika, green beans.
1 piece of swedish rye crispbread with "Ajvar", cole slaw (made 
without mayo or cream, only vinegar, salt spices and a tad of olive 
oil) and ½ the crust from the kids's pizza. 
(I was hungry!) ;-)
I'll update this now, but I'm almost certain I will exercise tonight.
I'll keep you posted. 8 pm update: Yay! I exercised and did it 
without getting exhausted, In 40 minutes I did 9.5 km, compare to
the day before yesterday when I did 8.75 km in 30+10 minutes.
I think I'm actually getting a bit more fit!

Oh yes, I did some diagrams today.



Date: Aug 12. Weight 76.8/169
Not as tired today. Chewed fiber pills and drank my HL shakes as
a good girl. Lunch: Goulash soup (again.. yeah, but I love the
flavour) I ate 3 apples today. A bit too much, but they keep me
from the dangerous stuff.
Drank lots of water and Pepsi Max. I can't understand how they 
make that soda, it tastes just like regular pepsi to me, but contains
only 4 calories per 1000 ml. 
Dinner: A tiny portion of pasta with mixed vegetables. Family had 
pasta with bacon/sausage in tomato and veggies.
I still have a very hard time cooking for the family and I actually
didn't have any intention to eat, wasn't hungry for dinner, thought
I'd have a HL protein shake and some herbal tea, but the cooking 
and tasting triggers something. I must go grocery shopping for lots
of frozen pre-fab stuff. It may be boring, but the family wants me
to lose weight just as much as I do.
I'm updating this early today, so we will see if I manage to exercise
anything tonight. Right now I feel like a hot bath, and I probably
will go soak for an hour.

Love to you all, take care and cya soon.




Date: Aug 11. Weight 77.2/170.2
Sticking to my diet today. The day started with an experience that I 
just have to share before I tell you about the rest of my day:
This morning on my way to work I saw a rainbow. That's not so unusual,
but it was a sunny day and the mist was quickly leaving the ground.
When I drove closer I realised I was heading straight towards the 
end of the rainbow, and I do mean The End. Right where the 
colored band hit the ground, where you usually don't see anything, 
right there was an area of mist. All the wonderful colors of the
rainbow in what can be described as a cloud of mist, it was a strange
pink and yellow light. The cars ahead of me all slowed down, and
one by one we drove through the base of the rainbow, coming out on 
the other side. Almost everyone looked in the rearview mirror to 
see if it was really possible, and it was. The road went straight 
through the end of the rainbow.
One car stopped by the side of the road, maybe the woman who went
out was looking for that pot of gold ;-)

I came to work and had my breakfast shake there. Around 10 the tummy
went completely mad at me and had to be silenced with an apple.
By 11.30 I chewed down the Herbalife pills and half an hour later
I had a large cup of Goulash soup. (60 calories)
I drank about a 1000 ml of water during the day at work, and a cup 
of coffee with skimmed milk.
Around 2 pm I had another apple and 10-15 grapes.

When I got home I felt I wasn't really hungry. Maybe my body is 
finally learning to live on this strange diet? I drank 400 ml of
water and ate the last five HL pills for the day.
For dinner I had a moderate portion of mixed salad with feta-
cheese and a few olives. 
In the evening, kids in bed and hubby again out flying with his 
paramotor, I sat on the exercise bike, sweating for some 40 mins.
I got the tape measure out, thinking I should try and measure 
myself since I have been on a diet for two weeks, but I can't 
see any difference except for around the waist. Thighs, hips - all
the rest is the same size. Might I have been cheating when I did
the first measurements or is nothing happening here. 
Well no hurry. It's only 3 kg/7 pounds so far. It will come, I'm 
sure.



Date: Aug 10. Weight 77.4/170.6
It's hard to keep on the diet when we are having dinner guests. That's 
for sure. I have been a good girl at work today but had a bit too much 
fruit. (1 banana, 2 apples and 10-15 grapes) Then later on I fell off
completely as we sat down for dinner. I ate a huge portion of salad, 
and it contained lots of cheese and even fried mushrooms... and dressing.
I ate olives... salami... Even some chocolate...well, you name it. 
Not much but I shouldn't have done it. And as I'm writing this I'm way 
to tired to get on the exercise bike... I guess I'll just have to say
"another fresh day tomorrow".





Date: Aug 9. Weight: 77.4/170.6
Been a good day even though I haven't stuck to my diet completely.
Started out with a shake for brekkie after sleeping in. 

I have to allow myself a bit of the good things in life during the 
weekends, but earlier I have done that too much. This weekend I had
some beer, some cheese doodles and small portions of the family's 
food. All in order to keep... well.. alive.

I have found out I can cook without problems, suddenly. 
I have always been a great cook (I know, it sounds like bragging but
with my low self asteem I should be allowed to, so shoot me ;-) ) 
I know it. I can make a superb dinner out of almost anything and it's 
been a blessing and a curse... Since I can't help but enjoy the food 
I cook, and I can't stand left-overs...

Well about today's cooking. 
This is new to me. Earlier I couldn't cook for the family without
stuffing myself, exessive "tasting" and finally... sit down and 
enjoy the meal I have cooked for them. While clearing the table I
sneak the last tidbits down the hatch....

Today was different:
I made a delicious dish of fish and vegetables. Carrots, tomatoes, 
some grated horseradish and leeks stir-fried. Fish-stock, flour,
butter, spices, lemon juice and milk made a smooth sauce and I 
served it with rice after an apprx. 20 mins in the oven. 
Sprinkled fried mushrooms of the season on top. My gawd! It looked 
absolutely delicious and I could have given my right hand to sit 
down and binge eat... But somehow it was enough for me to taste 
the sauce and the fish while cooking.
The family ate until they almost dropped. My husband said it was 
one of the best meals he have had for a long time. The kids, aged
5 and 2½ aren't very fond of fish, but they stuffed themselves.
I glowed.

I had fresh carrots and rice with just a taste of the sauce and the
fish for lunch. Yeah, and the ugly Herbalife pills of course...

Snack: two "Grissini" (bread sticks) with "Ajvar". And of course a
couple of "vinegar drinks".

What makes me feel happy is that hubby suddenly is very happy with 
me. He says he can see a difference, he claims our family life is
suddenly better and I think he is right. I am much more active now.
I do more chores around the house and I really try to be a bit more
with the kids.



Date: Aug 8. Weight: 77.4/170.6
The alcohol from yesterday shows on the scales. I know weekends are 
dangerous, I always eat more than weekdays. I tried swapping the HL
meals today in order to get some variation. Ate lunch with the kids;
some corn, carrots, potatoes and a tiny piece of schnitzel. 
Then I had a shake for dinner, and it was absolutely no hit. I'm 
really fed up with the thin shakes and the pills.
Had a couple of carrots and water crackers as a snack during the day. 
Drank lots of water and my "vinegar drink" twice.
Exercised after lunch, 30 minutes on the bike at a slow pace. 
I only wonder why I feel so depressed today, maybe because I'm so 
tired.
In the evening I cheated and ate some 10-15 cheeze doodles. I felt
very guilty afterwards but I had a terrible craving. After all it's 
saturday, right? 
Hubby and my brother went out to fly with the paramotor in the 
evening, and I got a couple of hours by myself. Since I had already 
planned to have a lite beer I did another 20 minutes on the exercise 
bike before relaxing in the sofa. I made a total of 50 mins/10 km 
today. It's strange that I don't feel anything in my legs. I had 
expected them to be sore. 
I should be happy anyway, a total of 3 kg/6.6 pounds lost in twelve
days. I had hoped for 4 kg's in two weeks, We'll see monday evening.

Oh, yes, by the way. I might start weighing mornings instead from 
tuesday. It seems most people do that, and maybe I should too.
 


Date: Aug 7. Weight: 77.0/169.75
Sticking to my diet, but I've been drinking wine tonight... *blush*
And no exercise either... I'm ashamed... Well it's 3.10 am and I should
go to bed, maybe I'll complete this entry tomorrow. 
*yawn* Well, not much to add, felt a bit down. Still hungry and
I'm getting fed up with the HL shakes so I might not keep the Herbalife
going for very long. I also checked prices on internet and it seems the
Herbalife package I bought from my friend for $210 costs $97 plus postage
and packing if I get it over the net... Maybe she should buy there too...
I did't bother to exercise today, worked with webpages and shared a bottle
of red wine with hubby. Went to bed really really late. 



Date: Aug 6. Weight: 77.2/170.2
*Yawn* Gawd I'm tired today.
All the energy during the last days has really gotten the best out of
me and I felt totally wiped out today. I had the HL shake and the pills
for brekkie, and water of course. Then off to work.
I was just as hungry today, but drank lots of mineral water. Lunch 
consisted of another bunch of fiber-mineral pills and the HL strawberry-
banana shake.
Picked the kids up early and played with them in the garden for an hour
before I made dinner. The family had spagetti bolognese and I had some
left-over salmon soup my husband made during the week. Not many vegetables
today because the fridge was rather empty. Got to go grocery shopping 
tomorrow. After dinner I had a long hot bath and almost fell asleep in 
the tub. 

Spent an hour caring for myself, my hair and such. Then put the
kids to bed. Hubby watched TV with a beer in his hand and I couldn't 
resist the temptation. I told him I'll have a lazy day today and he
smiled at me, saying "honey, you have done great the last couple of 
days, in fact I think you should take it easy today so you won't overdo
this. The (lite) beer must have been the most tasty beer in my life.
But I felt a little guilty Anyway.

We watched Startrek in bed, saw an episode of "Floyd in Scandinavia" 
where he visits sweden, then I just fell asleep early. Couldn't even
think of exercise.


Date: Aug 5. Weight: 77.6/171.07
Almost overslept this morning. I quickly drank a glass of water while
I struggled with the HL pills, the one called NRG is the toughest to 
swallow since it's larger than the others. For breakfast I had a HL
strawberry protein shake.
Work went on like usual, still very quiet since almost half of the
workmates are on holidays. Just like yesterday my tummy screamed really
early. I think I must add some more into the Herbalife shake tomorrow,
since I feel like I am starving at 11 am. I can take the feeling of 
hunger, but from experience I know I'll give in to temptation easier
if I'm constantly hungry. I drank at least half 6 dl of water before
lunch, and two cups of coffee to shut the tummy up.

Lunch: Daily dose of HL vitamins and fiber pills and another HL milk-
shake. This one was prepped with a banana, a total of 350 ml in the 
mixer, and it helped me avoid further noise from the stomach during 
the afternoon. 

Dinner: chicken soup (75 calories) and ½ a cup of corn, more 
wooden HL pills, my "drink" two large glasses of water, three crackers 
with "ajvar" vegetable mix and for dessert, 10-15 green grapes.
Even though I had made meatballs with pasta for the kids, I didn't
feel the least tempted to steal from their plates, and all the left-
overs went right into the trash. No extra tidbits went into my 
mouth. I however allowed myself three "jelly-rats" (swedish candy) 
in the evening, and they probably saved my mood.

I felt like I had lots of energy today too, my husband claims it's 
the exercise. He says he can see I feel a lot better and he is very
happy to see the change.
In the evening hubby went to the marina, my parents will be using 
the boat next week and hubby felt it would be safe to take it to
their place, since the weather forecast is good.

While he was away, I put the kids to bed and went on the exercise 
bike while watching TV. I did rather well. My muscles still aren't
aching at all from the previous exercise. But I have another 
embarrassing problem... Yesterday I did the exercise in my under-
wear since it was such a hot day, and not until this morning I
noticed the blister on the inner thigh. Geez.. Fat thighs rubbed
against the saddle... Hmm.. no more exercise without proper clothes.

I'm happy to announce I didn't get short of breath at all, not until 
I deliberately speeded up the pace the last five minutes. 
I just got very very sweaty and hot.
Maybe I should add more load tomorrow. 

Night all, and thanks for the great support!



Date: Aug 4. Weight: 78.2/172.4
Had nightmares, I wonder if the diet caused them? I sat up in bed and 
screamed at 3.30 am, hubby had to wake me up. Didn't get much rest 
after that. I thought I would be dead tired in the morning but I 
still had lots of energy. 

I carefully measured all the strange stuff provided by my Herbalife
friend. I am very sceptical, I don't believe in miraculous pills and
super-diets. As my grandmother says: "there is only one way to lose 
weight - cut down on food." After all, the fat ended up on my body 
from excess eating, and now it's time to pay for it ;-)
I won't buy any more of the Herbalife products, I feel a bit like I
bought the stuff from her to be a friend, just like I can't help 
but buy stuff on a Tupperware party... and it's always more expensive
than I had expected it to be...
Anyway, I'm supposed to exchange two meals a day with this stuff and
eat one well balanced meal a day.
I'll give it a week, tops.
I had a HL strawberry shake for breakfast, and a whole bunch of little 
pills, horrible to swallow, I almost choked. Then I was ready for work.

First problem: tummy roared at me hours before lunch and by 10.30 am
I could have stolen my workmates lunch from the fridge, only he
is a big hairy guy... wouldn't want to get hurt, so I suffered until
noon and drank two glasses of water to shut the tummy up.

Lunch consisted of another set of ugly brown and yellow pills and 
then another HL strawberry shake. At least my tummy didn't complain 
any more before I went home at 4. Strange... I found myself singing
in the car on the way home... Must have been the weather?

I tried some Instant herbal drink between meals, also from Herba-
life but it was the most godawful thing I have ever tried, bitter
yet tasteless with a smell that reminded me of shampoo, I'd very 
much prefer water if it hadn't been so darn important to stick with 
all these expensive pills and mixtures... 

Half an hour before supper I forced the last 10 pills from the little
green box with the Herbalife logo, down the hatch.
Third meal this day: Three rather large slices of wholegrain bread,
a slice of cheese, fresh tomatoes, cucumber and, to fulfill my 
need of spices, two tablespoons of "Ajvar" spreaded on the bread.
(I do miss spicy stuff)  
Hmm.. If you aren't familliar with it, it's a yugoslavian relish 
made from paprika, aubergines, garlic, vegetable oil, salt and 
vinegar. It contains 85 calories per 100 grams/3.52 oz and the 
seasoning can be mild, medium or strong. 

Later, kids in bed as I mounted the exercise bike I suddenly 
realised my muscles weren't sore from the exercise yesterday! I 
usually get aching muscles the day after exercise... Maybe it will 
be double the pain tomorrow then? *gasp*
Another victory: I managed 20 minutes on the bike plus an addtional
ten after a drink of water, and I was sweating but I didn't feel 
at all as exhausted as yesterday!



Date: Aug 3. Weight: 79.0/174.16
Another great day when I suddenly started feeling full of energy.
I have done loads of laundry, walked to pick the kids
up at kindy (Usually I always drive), I did a raid in the
kitchen... - cleaning! And I didn't put a single piece of
excess food in my mouth.
brekkie consisted of tea, "My water-cider-vinegar drink" and 
swedish crispbread with tomatoes. Lunch = My drink, swedish
crispbread with mixed vegetables, and when I was dying for a
snack, I had 1½ Digestive Bisquit.
Supper: 2 cups of Cup-a-soup, only about 70 calories each and
some fresh vegetables.
Tomorrow will be a great day to start replacing a meal a day
with a low calorie chocolate shake. I was stupid enough to 
let a friend sell me $200 worth of Herbalife stuff some time
ago, I haven't touched the stuff yet, but what the heck, I
could as well try it since it's already bought and payed for.

I asked my husband and brother to carry the exercise bike 
upstairs for me so I could use it before I go to bed, and
they were really smart-asses as they had removed my chair
from the desk, and placed the bike by the computer... *grrr*
I climbed the horrible thing and began to sweat for a while.
Maybe I should have taken my real bike instead, then I 
could at least have had some summer breeze in my face...
Well it was my first exercise for ages, so I guess I should
be proud of myself... After 15 minutes I was totally flat, but
after a couple of minutes rest I managed another five minutes
before hitting the shower.	



Date: Aug 2. Weight: 79.4/175.04
What a great day! Packed ourselves into the car and drove to 
town where we parked by the waterfront. We sat down on one 
of the great little restaurants by the water and had a wonderful 
lunch. Kids had pancakes with whipped cream and raspberry jam, 
I had a lovely greek salad with different kinds of lettuce, 
cucumber, tomatoes, onions, feta cheese and olives, hubby had
a large bowl of soup loaded with fish, oysters, shrimps and 
vegetables, topped with aioli. Hmm... maybe I shouldn't describe
all this mouthwatering food... sorry...
Anyway, then we walked along the marina to the amusement park 
"Gröna Lund". We had fun for hours, kids went on rides, ate 
icecream, and won a huge cuddly toy.
About 6 pm we were exhausted and walked slowly back to the 
waterfront where we found another nice restaurant.
Sitting in the afternoon sun with a glass of beer and a lovely
green salad on the table, watching the boats, hearing the kids
laugh... it was just very very nice and I knew I was ruining the
diet when I ordered another beer, but what the heck.. ;-)
I suppose the scales show too... Gained some but that's ok. I'm
happy anyway, got more exercise today than I did for ages just
from walking for hours.



Date: Aug 1. Weight: 79.2/174.6
Still haven't done much exersise. In fact I haven't done any 
ecercise... Well, maybe tomorrow... Today has been a fairly good day
since I have been a good girl all day. Stayed away from the pizza and
in the evening, cooked for the family without cheating too much.
But even though I have been sticking to my diet, no change on the scale
today and I'm sure it's because of the beer/wine. 
Going to stay away from that stuff completely for a while to see if it
makes any difference. All together I'm happy with this first week 
anyway. I have lost 1,2 kg/2,64 pounds and at least it's something.
I guess I'm on my way.
I feel tempted to count from that day when I weighed 82,something but
since it never happened... ;-) well.. Let's not overdo this...



Date: July 31. Weight: 79.2/174.6
Breakfast: tea without sugar or milk, and a cucumber/tomatoe sandwich 
minus butter but with herbal salt and my favourite pepper mix sprinkled 
on top felt like a good start of the day. I mixed my large glass of water
with two teaspoons of apple cider vinegar and slowly sipped it while the
kids finished their cereals. I really like that drink, try it, even if you
think it sounds horrible.

A day off work is always dangerous, and my dear sweet husband, who doesn't
take me very seriously these days when I say I'm on a diet, had the 
courtesy to drive by Burger King on his way home. Bringing a Salsa Whopper,
fries and onion rings to his dear wife. I tried to be strong... 
I shook my head, I tried to resist...but the minute I started unwrapping 
the burgers for the kids and smelled the fries I knew I was lost. 
*sigh* and not even Diet Coke... This meal with a  large cup of coke must 
be at least 2 billion calories? I had a diet pepsi in the fridge and felt 
a bit better as I had swapped the drinks.
After putting the kids to bed I held my breath and climbed the scales...
*phew*... I hadn't gained. So what did I do? Guess...
Celebrated with a beer, and later on hubby opened a bottle of red. I 
suppose this will show on the scales... I don't think I will weigh
myself tomorrow... ;)

Well, maybe I should just do some exercise instead. 
We'll see.



Date: July 30. Weight: 79.4/175.04
I felt very happy today. Still hard to get out of bed though, but it was
compensated by the fact that I was able to zip my white skirt again.
During the holidays, (I can admit this now that I have it behind me) I 
shot the button while taking a seat at a pub, almost killing an innocent 
bystander. I checked my weight that night and closed my eyes as the scales
passed 82 kg/180.7 pounds. I kept my eyes closed and told myself I was 
drunk. It had never happened... Ok?? 
I blamed it on the fact that it was the days before my
period. We all know one gains at least 2 kg just before menstruation, right?

Today I wore the skirt again. I zipped it up with ease and I just love 
the feeling when an item of clothing is comfortable. 
I even found myself singing a happy song at work.
For lunch I had cup-a-soup again. Two cups since I was hungry. Bread 
without butter. Then tea. 
I feel good. Hopeful. 
I even cooked for the family today without feeling peckish. Had cucumber
on rye and a tall glass of mixed vegetable juice while they had their 
pasta with ham and cream-cheese. Then I retired to my computer corner with
a diet pepsi. 



Date: july 27, 1998. Weight: 79.8/175.92
Aaargh, I swear it was still night when the radio clock started screaming 
at me. 6.45 and looking to be a hot day. I drag myself out of bed and chew
on a slice of dark bread with cucumber, no butter, while I sip my tea.
Four weeks of late habits on holidays. Never to bed before 2 am and kids
finally learning to sleep until 10 am has turned my physical clock around 
completely. 
I must have looked like a zombie when I arrived to work.
Cup-a-soup for lunch. Took the afternoon off and went with the family to
the marina for a nice trip with the boat. Made a stop at "Fjäderholmarnas
krog" (restaurant on an island in the Stockholm archipelago) and thought
I'd stick with ½ a cesar salad with chicken but ended up more hungry
after that tiny snack and glared at the kids gigantic servings of home-
made meatballs with lingonberry jam and mashed potatoes... Yeah, I cheated
and stole a couple of meatballs from their plates... Damn. I had to order 
a beer too, trying to keep the summer feeling a little bit more...


Date: july 26, 1998. Weight: 80.4/177.25 
What a horrible day to start a diet. Holidays are over and I can't stand 
the thought of going back to work since it means getting up at 7 am...
Today I have been spending time webworking and relaxing. Had a long hot
bath and tried to think of nothing. Especially not work.

Family got some nourishement from McDonalds and I chewed on a MacAroni
salad with pasta and chicken. No dressing. Bread sticks. Stole at least
five strips from each of my kids, good thing I only have two...

I don't look into the mirror much these days, but today I had to when I 
used the tape measure to determine my measurements... Not a pretty sight. 
I'm thinking of adding a couple of more pictures on this site, but I 
realized there are almost no pictures.
I have lots of photos of myself from my "pretty days". I loved getting my
picture taken, I was so vain. Nowadays I run whenever there is a camera in
the neighbourhood.






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