08/23/03
Let's see... the chicken noodle soup is the nutritious thing. Yup. Anddd... OMG. The Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream... it's called Half Baked.. omg... DEATH. Just.. death, lol. It's chocolate and vanilla ice cream mixed, then there's chunks of brownie and chocolate chip cookie dough mixed in. The Lay's Chips are the Bistro Cheddar and Jalepeno kind. Yumm. Then... Mini Oreos, York Bites and Milkyway Poppers are self-explanatory.
Also self-explanatory is the stomach ache I'm feeling right now. I think I may puke. Oh man. I got ice cream on my phone! Oh well.
Now that it's 2:35 in the morning, I'm going to go masterbate and go to bed! Ok... I lied. I'm not going to bed, and I'm not going to masterbate, but hey... oh well. lmao. I NEED SLEEP.
08/22/03
I'm the kind of person who runs away from confrontation. I don't like it. If it's something that needs to be done, I'll do it, but I can't think about it before it happens. I just have to go and go for it.
At my party on Sunday (my parents were out of town) Dennis and I had problems. Sarah just had to go and tell him I didn't like him in any other way than a friend. I wouldn't have minded, but the fact she said, "Jessica wants me to tell you something, and it isn't good," just kinda pissed me off. I didn't want her to say anything! I'm sure he's not dumb, he already knows this! You know?! And like... she was the one who wanted to say something to him. I told her I didn't care if she did, but GOD. What a fucking dumbass. You don't just go and do that... I don't know. I tried talking to him and just made things worse. I don't even know. Ok, maybe I don't know what he's been through in his life, but the same goes for him to me, doesn't it? Yeah, he grew up in Detroit, blah blah blah, been shit on his whole life... but god! I don't even know. I don't know. I'm scared to called him and talk to him, cause if I were him, I'd hang up on me. I acted like a 2 year old, and it was retarded of me. I'm not good at talking to people about serious things... I like things to always be a joke,
We got two new kittens! They're so cute! Their names are Puff and Matise. We want to change the names, but we don't know to what. Matise is a male, orange striped and Puff is all black and longhaired, a girl. I'd post pictures, but I don't have any good ones yet.
Danielle and I are going to the Hot Hot Heat show! I can't wait.. it should be awesome! They seem like they would rock in concert. I also want to go to the Story of the Year show on the 3, but I don't know if I will. I also need to go to the Drive-Thru Invasion Tour... haha. DUDE. ALISTER. And Home Grown! And Senses Fail and TSL again. And E11! Ahh.. I hope I go! I also would like to go to Taking Back Sunday, and Straylight Run. That would kickass. I think I'm going to Dashboard and Brand New with Joey, but I'm not sure. Depends on if he gets tickets. *shrug*
Danielle and I aew also going to Chicago! Woo! How exciting. I just have to start saving my money like woah.. HAHA. Funny, eh? The good thing is, we don't have to get a hotel (my mom has an apartment there) so that's good.
But now I must go.. "All My Children" is coming on, and I don't want to miss it! It's Friday, yo! The best episode happens!!
08/01/03
Today sucked. Really really bad. I'm just going to x-post from my livejournal and blurty.
Before I went to bed last night, I went downstairs to find Maddie and just hold her. She'd gotten outside for a couple days and was kinda messed up. My parents just thought she was dehydrated cause she was breathing all funny, so my dad took her to the vet's yesterday... they had no idea what was wrong, but told my dad to bring her back today.
Well, I cuddled with her and everything, and took her upstairs to sleep with me. That didn't last long, she jumped off my bed around 2:30. I told her I loved her and hoped she felt better. ;D
I went to sleep, and woke up when Danielle called... turns out her mom is on a Jone's Soda bottle at Panera Breads, cause she's a big manager person, and yeah. It's diet Root Beer, so go buy some and see her mom. I asked if she wanted to go to the mall with me, and she said yes, so I got up and got ready.
My dad came upstairs as I was putting on my makeup, and sat me and my brother down... I kinda already knew what he was going to say... I could just tell.
him: "I think you guys already know what I'm going to tell you, don't you?"
me: "...Where's Maddie?"
Then I started crying. I dunno... My dad kinda made it worse, to have him there when I'm crying. I'm not super physical with my parents... at all, and I just wanted to hug someone, but not him. I don't know.
Turns out she had jumped down from a high place (this is what the vet and my dad think... I think she got hit by a car... it's more logical), and her insides were all messed up... somehow her stomach moved up into her chest or something... I don't even know... it's so awful. And I miss her so much... she was the best cat in the world. Friendly, sweet, queen of the house. It just SUCKS. This shouldn't have happened... she was only 3. We got her in August in Monroe in 2000... the year we moved here. GOD. It's not fair.
I did manage to make it to the mall with Danielle, and she made me feel better with her sarcastic obnoxiousness. I don't know how I'm going to manage work tonight... I'm afraid I'll be ringing up catfood or litter or something and just cry. It sucks.. GOD.
I also managed to get my visit from Aunt Flow today. So I had to stop at Target and get some diapers for her. Fuck man.. this sucks.
And I'm not going to Warped... Andy didn't get a ticket for me. I'm a little disappointed, but oh well. There's other shows I really want to go to. I'm going to miss out on it this year, but there's always next year. Plus I really shouldn't be spending $30 on a concert ticket right now anyway. I'm just bummed. Half the fun is hanging out with everyone. Damn. They're all meeting here in the morning though, so I'll see them before they leave I guess.
I might just go to Dearborn's Homecoming and get very drunk. Or just stay home and get very drunk. Either way I'm feeling the need to just drink and forget. I know I don't need it, but I don't want to feel anything for a while, and that's the best way I know how to stop feelings.
I'm off to bed now... I'll update and look for a host later... I'm just blah tonight!
08/01/03
But yes, I must go put in my 6 hours at hell, so more later!
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Woo! I'm back.. go me! They put me on the UScan all night, so I got really bored and wrote a note to all my non-existant visitors. Click here. I love you, you imaginary people!
I bought a lot of clothes today! It makes me happy... I already explained about my underwear, but I also just ordered some pants and 2 shirts from Alloy. Wee! Here's some pictures: pants tanktop longsleeve shirt
Woo. I can't wait to get them!
Warped is in 2 (well, one, since it's now officially Saturday) days! I'm so excited... I didn't think I'd be going, but I am! I'm really majorly broke, and having my money stolen last week didn't help very much. Brand New and Dashboard (and MxPx) tickets go on sale Wedneday, so I was planning on using my check to buy tickets to that then... So that would mean no Warped, cause my check was only $120... and most of it goes to my mom to pay my bills (car insurance, phone, rent). But Andy's mom is giving him money to buy a ticket for me cause she's kickass! I was looking so forward to Warped this year and all the great bands, so I was disappointed when I realized I wouldn't be going... but now I can! I have to pay back the ticket, of course, but still! It's gonna kick ass... The Ataris, I've never seen them, I can't wait, Brand New for the 3rd time, Mest for the 3rd time, Starting Line for the... 4th? time, and.. who else... YELLOWCARD for the first time... wow I got really distracted writing this... bedtime.. night!
07/31/03
I had a party at my house Friday. BIG mistake. Well... not really. Some good came out of it, I think. Or it could be bad, but who knows? Anyway, there were way too many people here, my mom's bed was de-virginized(she and my dad sleep in separate rooms), my sink and bathtub were puked in, the garbage disposal broke, and around 20 people passed a blunt around my backyard.
And those were my sister's friends.
My friends were normal, mostly. Steve went all diva on a few people... I love that kid. If he were straight it just wouldn't be the same. Sarah... she was good, surprisingly. Ronnie... managed to confuse me. Dennis was boring, Joey was interesting and Ernie didn't talk to me, as usual. He's scared of me or something,, lol.
We got caught, too. There were cigarette butts all over the lawn and all over our neighbor's backyard. My dad woke us up when he came home at 8:30 and led us out to the neighbor's, where they're having a garage sale and setting everything up. We picked up all the cigarette butts, then Danny came out and talked to us without Dad. He said, "You guys, I'm not gonna nark on you, cause I like partying too, but next time, can you keep it a little quieter. It's hard getting 2 kids under 5 asleep." We apologized, and he was so cool about it.
Then my dad had a talk with us. We told him we had just planned a little party for Andy's bday and that kids had ended up coming over that we didn't know and brought beer... haha. Yeah... he believed us, and we didn't get in trouble. So it was cool.
I guess that's all for now... I'm going to go make dinner, then go look for a host...woo!
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Wow... two blogs in one day! What a concept that I never ever will understand again! I was just mourning the loss of my sexy phone... :( A few nights ago t I had it chillin on the ground at Dennis' house, and he opened a cooler, and BOOM! the lid fell on my poor communication device. So I'm quite sad. Here's a before and after.
So how sad. I can still call people and stuff, but I can only see things at the top of the screen. So now I have to save up $150 somehow and buy a new phone... I'm kinda pissed... but at myself for having the phone on the ground.
07/21/03
Things have been actually
good late. It's surprising... lol. Yesterday rocked.
I'd made tentative plans to
hang out with Sarah after I got off work, but then
talking to Jeff we decided we wanted to go see
"Pirates of the Carribean." I figured Sarah
wouldn't care, cause she'd done that to me a few times
(cancelled plans at the last minute), but no. Her and
Steve came up to my work and stayed there. So Jeff and I
hung out with them. It was cool Jeff and Sarah got
along...
Anyway, we went to go play
pool, and there was a huge storm going on, and the power
went out. It was freaky cool. Then we left to go home.
Ana decides to call Sarah's phone crying and telling us
to come get her. Turns out she had called my phone first,
but it was going haywire cause of the storm. I don't feel
like going into it, but Bob went crazy and we called the
cops and blah blah blah.
Then we all went home. David,
my sister's boyfriend, was at my house when I got there,
so after sitting on the computer and talking to Jeff on
the phone, I decided David needed to leave. We picked up
Jeff, dropped David off, and started our way home. We
stopped at the Woodhaven truck stop and played Dance
Dance Revolution. Jeff rocks at that game, Mandi and I
suck ass. We had fun though. Then we came back to my
house.
Mandi went to bed, but Jeff
and I just chilled in the computer room. I tried looking
up some new Dashboard songs, but had no luck, cause it
seems like all he does is redo old songs endlessly. Then
I don't know what happened. I never know what happens
with Jeff. It's just like HI WHAT'S UP! I never know
what's going on in these kind of situations though, so I
guess I should be used to it...
Danielle and I are planning a
road trip to Chicago, I think. She mentioned it, and I
think it would be fun, if I can save enough money to go!
I think we should go on days that my mom is there, so we
can stay at her apartment/crashpad. That would rock. But
now I'm going to go work on content and such. so peace
out!