July 13, 2003
Dashboard Confessional - Again I Go Unnoticed
// please send me anything but signals that are mixed _)
Well the TSL show ROCKED. The crowd was awful, awful, awful! People in Toledo SUCK! Yes, if you live in Toledo and went to that show, you probably SUCK! But as I updated both my livejournal and blurty with that information, you can read about it there! Or here.
All my Friday Fiveness about old friends made me wanna make a graphic... haha. So I did. It sucks, but oh well! ;-)
My old schedule for work ROCKED. Seriously... I was getting off at 9 and 10 all week, and I had 30 hours. But no. They had to go and change it. Now I go in everyday til Friday. EVERYDAY. I have 36 hours now, and I don't have to work until 12. So hey. It's ok! But I requested Saturday off cause of the Three Days Grace show, and they didn't give it to me! I'm pissed. So I have to tell them I can't come in. Or call off... It'll be easier to tell them I can't work though. I hate calling in sick. I always make my friends do it for me, lol. So... what else to talk about? Nothing reallly. I'm going to go start working on a new layout... this one is bugging me. Too happy.
July 11, 2003
Silverstein - Bleeds No More
// my heart bleeds no more. it's been turned to stone_)
Wow... I so haven't blogged in forever! I feel bad. I'm halfway good at updating my livejournal and blurty (copy and paste works great), but I always forget about my site. I guess I should add some more content and such. Sigh. Next week. I have... Monday and Saturday off, but Saturday is the Three Days Grace show at the Shelter. Danielle and I are planning to go early so we can stalk the band... I think...
Speaking of shows, today is the Starting Line show! Ahh! I am so excited! I haven't seen them since October! I'm kinda scared that this might be my last time seeing them before they blow up or something. They played them on the radio here as a damn "catch of the day." Usually that ammounts to nothing though... but still. IT SUCKS. Yes, I'm one of those selfish fans, I'll admit it. I don't want anyone else to know about bands I like unless they're my friends or something. So SUE ME. ;D
Friday Five!
1. Do you remember your first best friend? Who was it? haha... Yes... Stacey. We were best friends for years. Seriously... From the time I moved into our house in Rockwood in '87 til we moved up to Traverse City in 1996.
2. Are you still in touch with this person? Nope. She came up to visit me the summer of '96 and we got in a fight. Haven't talked to her since.
3. Do you have a current close friend? Yup. I'd say my closest friend right now would be Danielle. After Mandi (my sister) of course... Mandi's like my ultimte best friend... it's so cool how we get along.
4. How did you become friends with this person? I started working with Danielle. I started like a week after her... but I'd known her before then from Ana... but I didn't like her much then. I met Mandi cause were kinda in the same family...
5. Is there a friend from your past that you wish you were still in contact with? Why? Yeah... Probably Stacey... just cause we were friends for so long. It'd be fun to find out what she's up to now, but oh well!
June 27, 2003
Ani DiFranco - 32 Flavors
// i am a poster girl with no poster _)
Haha.. Friday Five!
1. How are you planning to spend the summer [winter]? Eh.. just working and hanging out, going to some shows, maybe. The usual stuff. Hopefully camping, if I can find someone to go with!
3. If you could go anywhere this summer [winter], where would you go? Mmmm... Niagara Falls again. Just cause I love it. And of course up to Sault St. Marie to visit Ash... and... Canada. Again. And... I don't know. lol. Somewhere up north.
4. What was your worst vacation ever? I don't know... I don't think I've ever had a bad vacation..
5. What was your best vacation ever? That's so hard to decide, cause... I've loved all the vacations we've taken, lol. But.. my favorite would probably be... Virginia Beach and Niagara Falls. And Mackinac Island...
Ahhhh!!! Today is the Senses Fail show... I'm so super excited about this, you have no idea. Yeah, Brand New is gonna be there, too, but... SENSES FAIL. I'm gonna watch their section on the Drive-Thru DVD before I leave, just so I can get pumped up. And I get to drive to Toledo! Woo! Sadly, I left my maps in Rose's car from when we went to Canada yesterday, but I think I may be ok. I doubt we'll need one. If we get lost... Uhh... Well... Maybe I'll call and get the maps...
Yeah! I went to Canada yesterday with Rose. It was fun. Kinda scary, going over the bridge and all, but fun. We got lost, of course, then stopped at the only party store where the guy doesn't speak English, rofl. He didn't know what the hell we were talking about. Figures. We finally made it to Rose's friend's house, though, and chilled. She had to be back in Dearborn at 8:30, so we had to leave kinda early.
I ended up going to eat with Sarah, then meeting up with the Morons around 11. Well, some of the morons. Just Ronnie, Doug and Dennis. Steve was there, too! I missed him. We drove around, cramped in Sarah's car for a while. I went up to the Crackhouse and got my schedule. 30 hours! Woo. That means I get a big paycheck, woo! ;D
I feel bad for Ronnie. I guess he likes me again? Or something. He was talking to Sarah about how he didn't wanna smoke cause I didn't like it. She asked, "Do you like her or something?" And he said yes. Poor kid. Luckily she told him he had no chance with me. She didn't mean it as I'm too good for him or anything- cause it so sounds like that, but there's another reason, and he knows it. He keeps annoying me about it, and it pisses me off. So I'm mean to him. Maybe he gets the point I don't like him? I hope so... I just wish he was normal and didn't have to like anyone. Or at least anyone I know.
But I'm going now. Time to go shower and get ready for the show!
June 22, 2003
Mindless Self Indulgence - Faggot
// i've been denied, all the best ultrasex_)
Yeah. Work sucks. As usual. We got these new ugly shirts. They're beige and button up and we have to tuck them in. Haha... sorry, but no.. I don't tuck shirts in! So I safety pinned mine up to make it looked tucked in. Several people commented on it, lol. It was fun. Well... yeah.
Then I was having a crazy hair day.. but it was cute I guess? I tried putting it in braids, but only kept them in for a few hours... and when I took them out, an hour later the left side of my hair was toally flat (damn this humidity!). So I decided to take the crimper (which is left over from the early 90s, lmao) and crimped my hair... yeah.... It was crazy.... I walked out of the house when Danielle picked me up. She was like, "OH MY GOD! It's so cute! You look so retro!" lmao. So whatever. I'm doing it again today... so... yeah. Go me!
Last night was such a waste of life. I spent the night looking at MichiganGhostBusters.com cause Ashley has gotten me so into ghosts and Michigan... it's crazy. I actually want to go and look at these places. THANKS, ASH! ;D <33
But now I must go...ttyl!
June 21, 2003
Billy Talent - Try Honesty
// forgive me father, why should you bother _)
Woo! Friday Five..
1. Is your hair naturally curly, wavy, or straight? Long or short? Straight and long.
2. How has your hair changed over your lifetime? Barely at all, besides the color. It's naturally a sandy blond, but I dye it sorta reddish, I think. I don't know, I can't tell the color of my hair!
3. How do your normally wear your hair? Down, straight. I usually don't bother with it, but if I want to feel cute I curl it or put it in braids for a while to make it wavy.
4. If you could change your hair this minute, what would it look like? Mmm.. curly! woo.
5. Ever had a hair disaster? What happened? HAHA. Yeah. Cut it SUPER short. I looked WONDERFUL.. Not. It was awful, lol! Wanna see a picture?
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Haha.. yeah.. This is me.. at my first Hanson concert... I'd just gotten my hair cut... wonderful, eh? |
Now I'm going to blog, woo. I'm always late on my Friday Five, so sue me. Better late than never, neah.
Mandi's watching "Drive Me Crazy" right now behind me, and I have a hankering to listen to my Hootie and the Blowfish. Damn her! But I like "Drive Me Crazy," too, so in a way it's ok? I don't know.
I have bruises on my body. I don't know why. It's scary! And they're only on the left side... on my leg I have about 3, and on my arm I have 2 brown ones... I"d like to know how I got them...
But now I must go get ready for work... yay! NOT.
June 17, 2003
Hillary Duff - Why Not
// i could be the one for you, maybe yes, maybe no_)
Last night.. omg. Yeah. haha. I guess I freaked out? Danielle said I did. I don't know. I don't think I did. She was just being so annoying, and I already felt like shit for not eating all day. And she was the one freaking out about her windshield being all screwed up because Andy put chapstick on it and blah blah blah. Whatever.
The movie was good though. We went to the drive in (we being Danielle, Jeff and me). We were supposed to see "Bruce Almighty" and "Anger Management" but "Bruce Almighty" had just gotten done or something, so we only saw "Anger Management." Yeah. It was fun, I guess, then it started raining. And thundering. And.. the windows were fogged up and we couldn't see! Boo. Next time I go to the drive in, I want to take the Aerostar! lol. And the air mattress! And take the back seats out and yeah.. it will be fun! lol. Pop the hatch and be all cool. ;D
Anyway, I added some new away messages and pictures. Muy cute. ;D
June 17, 2003
Brand New - Play Crack the Sky
// i am the one who haunts you _)
Said I'd do something (or rather not do something) again.
Work sucks. I didn't get suspeneded. Which sucks. But oh well. Maybe next time.
Yes, I'm late. Friday Five!
1) What's one thing you've always wanted to do, but never have? Swim with dolphins.
2) When someone asks your opinion about a new haircut/outfit/etc, are you always honest? Yup. That's how I hurt people's feelings.
3) Have you ever found out something about a friend and then wished you hadn't? What happened? Yes. I confronted them. Why should I bullshit around?
4) If you could live in any fictional world (from a book/movie/game/etc.) which would it be and why? Oh god... Either Hogwarts (from "Harry Potter") or The Shire, Lothlorien or Gondor (from "Lord of the Rings"). Or Oz.
5) What's one talent/skill you don't have but always wanted? Singing. I SUCK at singing, and I wish I could. lol.
June 13, 2003
Kasey Chambers - Not Pretty Enough
// am i too outspoken? is my heart too broken? _)
Yay! My new layout is complete... after only a month of stalling. I just couldn't make anything I liked... and this is summery, plus the Freezepop song rocks.
Not much has been going on around here lately. Mom's been gone a lot, which has been nice and relaxing. Had my first party last night. I thought it was super fun, but hey, that's me. Nothing got broken or stolen, no one had sex. Pretty successful. Besides the fact I made Sarah mad at me, but I don't care, I'm mad at her too. As much as I want to be mad at her forever, I know we'll make up in a few days.
I've almost decided definitly on getting a tattoo. If/when I get it, I think it's going to be a nautical star... just because. I don't know. I like them, and I've always wanted a star. It will be somewhat small though, and on my shoulder. I'm excited, but nervous! I plan to get it the first of second week of July.
That's all for now... going to go do stuff.
May 12, 2003
Goldfinger - 99 Red Balloons
// this is it boys, this is war _)
So I'm working on a new layout, cause this one is just old and boring, and I hate it. I'm so over the pink! lol. ;D
The other day I went shopping. Got the Senses Fail EP for 3.17! I was so excited and happy. I spent the whole day looking this dumb cd, I went everywhere! First to Dearborn Music. Not there. Then down to Southland Mall. Sam Goody. nope. FYE. Nope. Then Mandi and I went to English Gardens to get a Lilac Bush for my mom for Mother's Day. They had those there.
Then I decided to stop at Desireable Discs, a cd store right by my house that's closing down. Just about everything is half off, and I was stunned to find "From the Depths of Dreams." It was 5.99 and used, but in perfect condition and even had all the inserts. It rung up as 3.17. That made me super happy. Yes it did.
Today I feel like crap. I just want to die! I want to curl up in a little ball and just cry and sleep. I don't want to go to work, especially. 6-12. I hate working 6-12. IT MAKES ME SO MAD! But oh well.
My poor car got taken into the shop today. :( It's going to be gone for a week. I miss it already! I miss my cool dangling thingys... the blue pine tree air freshner, the green weed leaf look a like one, my tassle from graduating last year, and my cross that keeps me from getting in accidents. :( But I get to drive my ghetto van for a week! So it's almost ok.
Well. Time to start working on the new layout. Later!
May 9, 2003
// friday five _)
1. Would you consider yourself an organized person? Why or why not? Mmm.. Nope! I'm not so organized, in the tradtional way at least. I know where everything is when I need it, but if I clean my room, nothing is in the right place and I have to disorganize myself again.
2. Do you keep some type of planner, organizer, calendar, etc. with you, and do you use it regularly? When I was in school, yes, I had a planner, and when I wrote in it, it helped me immensly. But... when I didn't, I was lost. Now, I don't use one. I use my phone for alarms, and my normal, on-the-wall calander for when I work/concerts/birthdays or other important days.
3. Would you say that your desk is organized right now? The only desk I use is one filled with makeup, and no. The computer desk doesn't count really, cause it's the family's computer, althought most of the stuff on it is mine.
4. Do you alphabetize CDs, books, and DVDs, or does it not matter? ... I used to. Not since my cds got stolen last summer have I organized them. When I want to take them for a ride so I can listen in the car, I throw them into a little case, and off we go. The rest of the time they just chill on the entertainment center in my room.
5. What's the hardest thing you've ever had to organize? My life, lol. I'm still having problems doing it!
Dudud.... So. I did my Friday Five, now I think I must blog. ;D Sarah and I are alright now, I guess. I called her last night and we talked. In my head, I knew she didn't mean to hit me, it just happened. The thing I was really mad about was her mom yelling at me, and I guess she wants to apologize now. That makes me even madder, but oh well.
My cell phone battery went crazy on Thursday. I plugged it into the new charger my mom got (we had the same phones), and a couple hours later when I came back, the phone was flashing blue and wouldn't turn on. So I freaked out and unplugged it. It didn't turn on! I was so bummed. I'd figured I'd lost all my numbers. Then I went to work and had another uneventful day. When I came home, I put my mom's battery on it and it worked! I was happy.. no lost numbers! But the phone was screwed up, so I had to turn my mom's super old one on. It sucks! The battery wears out so quickly! I'm mad, but what can I do about it? Just save up and buy a new one!
Wee! I bought my Brand New tickets today! They're gonna be with Senses Fail and The Beautiful Mistake, who I love, and another band called Breaking Pangea, who I've never heard of. I'm super excited. Anyway, I got an email from the way cool Senses Fail Street Team thing with a fun contest- you have to make a flier for the show closest to you and take pictures of yourself handing them out and putting them up. So wee! I made the coolest flier ever!
And you can click to see a bigger version. It actually looked better before I colored it all black, it had some red and stuff in it, but oh well. I'm going to Kinko's tomorrow to make lotsa copies. ;D Then to Wal*Mart for a disposable camera and to start handing out fliers! Haha. I am *so* cool. You know you're jealous!
May 4, 2003
Bright Eyes - If Winter Ends
// i swear that I'm dying, slowly, but it's happening _)
What give a friend the right to hit another friend? What gives anyone the right to hit anyone else? I'll never understand it. Never
Last night in a fit of drunken... something, Sarah hit me across the head. I'll never forgive her for it. How can I? She hit Ana once when she was drunk. She doesn't have a great track record. I don't know how to forgive her, mainly. Especially because she was saying the same things to me that she was saying to Ana when she hit her.
"You're my best friend, the only one I care about because we've been through so much together. If you don't forgive me, I'll kill myself."
Alright. She said she'd blame her killing herself on me, too, then wouldn't I feel bad?
No, because you said that, dumbass.
I used to be able to enjoy getting drunk. Then I puked. That ended it for me for a while. I figured, ok, I'll drink in a few months, no big deal. Just no more hard liquor.
Not anymore. Being sober around a bunch of drunk people, plus Sarah, just doesn't work. Sarah's a time bomb waiting to go off when she drinks. I've taken responsibility for her too many times to count, and I won't do it anymore. It's retarded, I'm not her mother.
Ok. No more sermon. Time to work.
May 2, 2003
Senses Fail - 187
// a gaping hole shot through my heart_)
Well. As I said in my livejournal, I did something stupid. I so regret doing it now, but oh well. There's nothing I can do about it except be normal. Which hopefully I can manage, lol.
Mandi dyed my hair! Woo! As I
get more and more used to it, I love it. It's darker than normal,
and not as red, but I love it, I think. I'm so pale though... but
it's kind of a nice contrast? Heh. ;D Speaking of Mandi, her and
Aaron broke up. *shrug* I knew it would happen sooner or later.
She was super upset right away, then she got over it. She's smart
like that.... she knows guys are dirt and aren't worth it. I
think I know that, too, but usually I chose to ignore it.
Frigging Frankie gave the Weam guy my screen name. I've never
been so mad in my life. Seriously! Ok, yeah, I did say I wanted
to have sex with him, but I was JOKING! My god... when someone is
telling you through IM that they wanna screw your brains out and
they've never met you? I think that's a little obvious that
they're not being for real. You know? Yeah. So he was sitting
there talking to me.. I was so rude to him. I feel bad, but oh
well. I told him I was a 40 year old man who lived at home with
my mom. Lol... He left me alone after that.
I'm buying my Starting Line tickets today! I'm so effing excited! Lol! Seriously... I haven't seen them since *goes through ticket stubs* October 10! That's so long ago! I can't wait to see them again. And I found out last night that when Brand New comes to Toledo, they're going to be with The Beautiful Mistake and SENSES FAIL. WOO! I'm almost counting down days to that one, too, lol.
I requested the days for St. Sabastian's fair off of work. It's just... so fun. Everyone goes there. I didn't go last year though... I was quite mad at Sarah, I think. YES! I was. lol. I remember now. It's funny. But I won't get into it. Cause.. yeah. High school stuff. Welp, I'm going to go! It's time to pick Mandi up from school, get my paycheck, deposit money for the mother, and BUY STARTING LINE TICKETS! Wee!
FRIDAY FIVE
1. Name one song you hate to admit you like: haha.... "Wannabe" by the Spice Girls. lol. And, "The Ballad of Bilbo Baggins," by... Lenoard Nimroy or something.
2. Name two songs that always make you cry: Geez... "MMMBop" by Hanson, because it just brings back so many memories of living up north, and of Hanson... Mand... I loved them! I had some major good times with my Hanson fanatic friends. And... second some... "It's Cool, We Can Still Be Friends," by Bright Eyes. Jusr cause I'm a sucker
Name three songs that turn you on: ROFL. Any song by J. Timberlake.
4. Name four songs that always make you feel
good:
1) Brand New - Failure by Design
2) New Found Glory - The Glory of Love (live)
3) The Starting Line - Three's a Charm
4) The Fags - Truly Truly
5. Name five songs you couldn't ever do
without:
1) Wakefield - Goodbye
2) Yellowcard - Avondale
3) Britney Spears - Don't Let Me Be The Last to
Know
4) Senses Fail - 187
5) The Ataris - Boys of Summer (cover)