Transforming Pain

I never thought life would be painless, 
I knew to expect the worst: 
But not becoming callous 
Comes at terrific cost. 

She suffers, and so I suffer, 
And if I cannot help 
Then I will just get tougher 
And hope she does as well. 

Beautiful soul in darkness - 
How she tugs on my heart, 
How her resplendence startles, 
Even though we be apart! 

How she calls to me - how - 
How she inspires me, 
How I long for her - now 
And to - Infinity! 

Though I don't see her near me
Her soul is next to mine 
Her: gorgeous, tender, brilliant, 
And bound with awful pain! 

What can be done about this? 
What - and the anguish grows: 
Life? No, not life - injustice 
Of the kind rarely known: 

When mankind's finest creatures 
Are tossed and torn apart: 
That a bug or a feature? 
Is that just, is that smart? 

Or is it monstrous darkness 
Living through monstrous wrong? 
Inferno's horror startles 
Until it - becomes a song! 

Until man turns to laughter 
And stands wrong on its head: 
She suffers, so I suffer, 
But that is not the end: 

Agony, darkness, sorrow - 
I will embrace her pain 
And then I will transform it 
That she can live again.