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07.10.04 - lesson learned, sometimes in life lots of great things come, and lots of great things go. but most of the time, you cannot have what you want. so just be patient. that angel you felt as though you lost... who was the one who sent them to you? why are you sad? you know who to approach. I know you're strong, and I am strong too, and I know that you have changed, but I have changed as well. I just hope that one person sees that in me. my heart is only yours. and i'll never let you down, no matter what. |
my mind lay unsettled your inner voice calls for me but you tell me that love has past you by
so for you, my sweet angel
patience float this cloud for me
no other cloud i'd rather see
so to the one who has blessed me with love before i seek for nothing else on earth, but her |
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06.11.04 - friday night, had dinner in 'old orleans' in oxford and spent only £8.50. which is dirt cheap for a company paid meal  . i had a great visit to amsterdam and here in the uk, but i'm so glad to go home! |
| The Most Precious Things In Life Cannot Be Built Or Bought ... When asked what the Seven Wonders of the World are, a group of students, after much disagreement came up with these answers: Egypt's Great Pyramids, Taj Mahal, Grand Canyon, Panama Canal, Empire State Building, St. Peter's Basilica and China's Great Wall. While gathering the votes, the teacher noticed that one quiet student hadn't turned in her paper yet. So she asked the girl if she was having trouble with her list. The girl replied, "Yes, a little. I couldn't quite make up my mind because there were so many." The teacher said, "Well, tell us what you have, and maybe we can help." The girl hesitated, then read, "I think the 'Seven Wonders of the World' are: to see, to hear, to touch, to taste, to feel, to laugh and to love. The room was so quiet you could have heard a pin drop. This is just to say that the things we overlook as simple and ordinary and that we take for granted are truly wondrous! A gentle reminder that the most precious things in life cannot be built by hand or bought by man. Each day comes bearing its own gifts. Untie the ribbons… |
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06.08.04 - so here i am, in amsterdam, thousands of miles away from home, and yet my heart still aches for one special girl that holds my heart. the lyrics below describe the feelings of my life at this very moment. i'm sorry, i can't stop loving you. |
| Some people live for the fortune Some people live just for the fame Some people live for the power yeah Some people live just to play the game Some people think that the physical things Define what's within I've been there before But that life's a bore So full of the superficial
Some people want it all
Some people search for a fountain And in a world on a silver platter Some people want it all Some people want it all
If I ain't got you with me baby
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05.28.04 - so how you doin? me... it's friday, payday, three day weekend. it doesn't get much better than this. lots of activities planned, lots of relaxing to do. it's mandatory for me to have my time off, because at work, it's absolutely crazy. in the past 3 months, i've passed over/gone through 18 of the 24 time zones in the world  . i don't mind traveling, love to see new countries and meet new people, but it can get very tiring. it takes a toll on you. that is why, i'm making it mandatory for myself to relax as much as possible this weekend, cuz i feel i deserve it. so pass the lemonade, i'm sittin by the pool and doing absolutely nothing (okay that's a lie). for all you people who read this, call me. if you care enough to read this, you've gotta be bored  pix of my trip coming soon! i'll leave you with an conversation I had today on AIM. |
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God: Hello. Did you call me? Me: Called you? No... Who is this? God: This is GOD. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will chat. Me: I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now. I am in the midst of something... God: What are you busy at? Ants are busy too. Me: Don't know. But I can't find free time. Life has become hectic. It's rush hour all the time. God: Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it. Me: I understand. But I still can't figure out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat. God: Well I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by giving you some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the medium you are comfortable with. Me: Tell me, why has life become complicated now? God: Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated. Me: why are we then constantly unhappy? God: Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit. That's why you are not happy. Me: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty? God: Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional. Me: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty.. God: Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional. Me: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer? God: Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don't suffer with that experience their life become better not bitter. Me: You mean to say such experience is useful? God: Yes. In every term, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards. Me: But still, why should we go through such tests? Why can't we be free from problems? God: Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons to Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems. Me: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don't know where we are heading.. God: If you look outside you will not know where you are heading. Look inside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight. Me: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving in the right direction. What should I do? God: Success is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you road ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock. Me: In tough times, how do you stay motivated? God: Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing. Me: What surprises you about people? God: when they suffer they ask, "why me?" When they prosper, they never ask "Why me" Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth. Me: Sometimes I ask, who I am, why am I here. I can't get the answer. God: Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be. Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation. Me: How can I get the best out of life? God: Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear. Me: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered. God: There are no unanswered prayers. At times the answer is NO. Me: Thank you for this wonderful chat. I am so happy to start the New Year with a new sense of inspiration. God: Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don't believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve not a problem to resolve. Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live.
Talent is God Given - Be Thankful Fame is Man Given - Be Grateful Conceit is Self Given - Be Careful |
"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away."Mood of the Day: |
05.14.04 - sorry i don't get to update this very often, but then again, there are only a hand few of you that actually read this cranial rubish anyways right? well, i've been quite busy. the most i can tell you is that i've eatin the best ribs in the world and i have a nice jacuzzi in my bathtub... oh it's "lovely" |
| i know i am the worst when it comes to PDA, just because i believe everything that is private between you and your mate should be kept between the two of you correct? Well, i also believe that you should give credit to where credit is due, and sheila has a very large credit limit with me. i'm so grateful she's the person everyone can look to, and i'm thankful she's such a great friend to me through very thick and very thin. just wanted to send a quick shout out to the woman that preserves my heart. take care all, i'll be home soon |
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05.04.04 - well what's cooking? where do i begin? this is my latest entry in 400 years. i'll be surprised if anyone actually reads this, but let's give it a "go". what has "jotan" been up to? well, lots of personal development. i'm starting to settle in a new role in my career and it's definitely keeping me busy. i recently went through lots of changes in my personal life, my mind set has changed a bit, trying to get thing s back to the way it used to be, where i was girlie and actually worried about how i look, and what i wear. not too much, but tryin to get back in shape. i'm looking to lose 20 lbs by sportsfest. you think i can do it? i will. |
so let's recap my trip. while i was in PI, first and foremost, i wanted to spend time with my family. mission accomplished. i also wanted to see different places in the philippines, because all i have ever done there is hang around in the province. mission accomplished. i stayed in manila w/ my sister for the first week. we stayed about 5 min drive from central. she lives in a classy neighborhood with a night watchmen, automatic gate entry and traffic conducter all in the front enterance. all three of which is one guy, i like to call it the "Q C Ville trinity" cuz all three persons in one guy who is on stand-by next to the gate 24/7. the feeling i get when i am able to spend time with my niece and nephew is euphoric. seeing his chubby thighs and her cute smile, washes away all my worries. both my niece and nephew have that effect on me. i feel as though i'm in another world when i'm close to them. i was able to spend a lil time with gia also while i was in philly. all in all, my vacation was too good to be true. when i got home, reality hit me hard. the drama of real life set in and here i am, in the daily grind. again.
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