Mood of the Day: 09.09.04 - why the heck is everyone's bday in september? what's up with all these virgii? i mean really?
if you'd give me another shot, i know i could make you melt on my lips. if we could start over from the beginning, i would start slowly and savor every moment you are upon me. but until next time, we'll only know as much as our imagination remembers of our most intimate moments. i love you jaf. i do
Mood of the Day: 09.07.04 - so back in the office, back to reality. parents are gone, work is back and now settling into my comfortable routine. this weekend was definitely a one to remember. i know it's tuesday and i know i'm a loser, but we had so much fun! pinoy club 7 is the bomb, and i'm their biggest fan. in the company of friends, there is no such thing as 'waste of life', even lilo & stitch was entertaining all over again. i feel bad for not keeping in contact with these cool people. i'll come visit you just you watch
i'm through. i've tried. i've cried. i've been patient. i've loved and i've lost. i'm over it. you're no longer worth it. if this doesn't effect you and if you don't love me like you say you don't, then why do you still read my page? why do you still talk to me? why do you still harbor ill feelings? if you are really trying to be a friend, then act like one. i don't need your drama, and you don't need mine. i don't want no trouble. this is my closure
Mood of the Day: 09.04.04 - long time no update... so what the heck have i been up to??? *big breathe*... well i've been in the carribean for two weeks completing a pilot project for work. i left town after a hurricane and come back just in time for another! family is in town for labor day weekend and we're all having a blast waiting for this hurricane to hit. next week i'm home *wow* then the following week i'm off to san diego for more training. so i'm all over the place for the rest of the year.
it was really nice hangin with the TO peepz today. mad props to them for hangin out. i havn't had so much fun just chillen out, rain drops keep fallin on my head, pusoy dos and C H C F. proves yet again, it doesn't matter where you at or what your doing, it's who you wit
Mood of the Day: 08.09.04 - so in a world that was once colorful and bright, how do you look towards the future? dull and mundane a place without your presence. but how? how was such a simple person able to create such a beautiful world and paint our perfect picture with ease? how do you did you paint such an elaborate scene with just two colors? instead of a broad palette, yours was short and simple. yet from all this, you created this image i could never ever conjure on my own.
it's the same as the revalations. describe me the place where i'd want to stay, illustrate my peace away from the crazy world, show me where my faith/hope and love will pay off. then try to take this hope from me now? expect me to forget that world of peace, because of some mistakes that happened? would you like me to live on faithless prayers? the reason why this happens to us all is because God is love. we suffer for this little while, we are in pain for just a short time, we pray on our own just for this moment. God is merciful. he expects us to be the same. be upset, be angry, be bitter, but don't take my hope from me. at least leave me with that...
Mood of the Day: 08.05.04 - the struggle is only difficult alone. the wound is only left open when you hold onto what was painful and pick at it. the pain is only present through pride. all of these are a part of love. it's always a bit easier to breathe when you have someone to vent to. but through all of these, love will always see through the uneasiness. untill the end. He said so. ask anyone who is/has been married, ask anyone who is/has been in a HEALTHY relationship, ie your parents, your grandparents, and ask them if it's easy to be in love. ask them if they have never felt any pain. ask them if love is supposed to work itself out. ask them if love requires no effort. i'm curious what they would have to say. i know when i'm in love, i won't ever give up.
Darlin' I can't explain
Where did we lose our way
Girl it's drivin' me insane
And I know I just need one more chance
To prove my love to you
If you come back to me
I'll guarantee
That I'll never let you go

Can we go back to the days our love was strong
Can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong
Can somebody tell me how you get things back
The way they use to be
Oh God give me a reason
I'm down on bended knee
I'll never walk again until you come back to me
I'm down on bended knee

So many nights I dream of you
Holding my pillow tight
I know I don't need to be alone
When I open up my eyes
To face reality
Every moment without you
It seems like eternity
I'm begging you, begging you come back to me

Gonna swallow my pride
Say I'm sorry
Stop pointing fingers the blame is on me
I want a new life
And I want it with you
If you feel the same
Don't ever let it go
You gotta believe in the spirit of love
It can heal all things
We won't hurt any more
No I don't believe our love's terminal
I'm down on my knees begging you please
Come home

Can we go back to the days our love was strong
Can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong
Can somebody tell me how you get things back
The way they use to be
Oh God give me a reason
I'm down on bended knee
I'll never walk again until you come back to me
I'm down on bended knee
Mood of the Day: 08.01.04 - To love is to risk rejection..to live is to risk dying.. to hope is to risk failure...But risk must must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing!..To reach for another is to risk involvement, to expose your feelings is to expose true self...to love is to risk not to be loved in return.. How to define love fall but do not stumble...be constant but not too persistent..share and never be unfair.. understand and try not to demand..hurt but never keep the pain...
why is it so hard to find happiness?....the world is turning and life is changing,...yet there is no love....days pass by and your still stuck trying to find this world of paradise..when all you really want is to find that one special someone to wake up every morining with...but you are blinded by what your mess up mind is wanting...and so you hurt others..and others hurt you....you are selfish and yet so ignorant....you forget about the people closes to you...andopen up yourheart to those that will break it....and tend to close it to the one who truly cares for you.... goodness i love you
Mood of the Day: 07.27.04 - funny how life can take you by surprise. nothing in life is certain. if you were to ask me in january what i'd be doing in july, i woulda told you something 100% different than what is going on now in my life. times are tough. it will only make me tougher
no wonder why people who get severely depressed commit suicide. my goodness. if i didn't believe in a God of mercy, i would probably end up in the same situation. in life, there is no such thing as 'coincidence'. that word was made up by none-God fearing people. remember this... God is every where.
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