me [negative shit relief]

"i dont believe in punishment, so you can fuck off". i just said that to my dad. he took my computer away from me for playing my guitar too loud..... and thats like taking a paintbrush away from a painter. i need to write down my thoughts all the time, and i dont mean just on my page, i mean always, i have to do it just to keep going from day to day. he doesnt realise that about me. he was just taking forever to put it all back in and i kept nagging at him to hurry up coz i had an inspiration burst, and i was all anxious and needed to get it out and i just couldnt. you have to work when the inspiration hits you, otherwise its just pointless, and what you wanted to say is lost forever.

anyways, i guess it doesnt matter too much, coz i dont like reading over my previous ideas much. i like to just leave it how it is and not have to look at it again if i dont want too. its kind of like a shit...... once its gone you dont want to get it out and look at it, you've dealt with the negativity of it and its left your body and its now out there, for somebody else to deal with. thats probably why i feel the need to post some of my ideas on my page.

i read in a thom yorke interview that as soon as kid a was finished, all final and he listened to it in full, he no longer wanted to hear it, ever again. its left him..... he's dealt with it..... he's shitted it out, and i'm one of the flies that love thom's terds and i love to roll around in it.

[spiritual] me