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MY RANDOM THOUGHTS
Date: o4.26.o4 (Saturday)If he's fine, then I'll tell him myself! Geez, Michelle is such a nosy bum! Snicker bars are so like.. uhh HEAVY! MY tummy hurts, I ate breakfast again =X not just that, I ate lunch! When will I ever stop eating?
Eat too much noodle... pimples.. yikes... Man, those people hideous pimples are like so pale and ugly. Jessie have pimples, but it's not that bad, plus she's pretty, unlike... hahaha.
That skirt was short.. guys stared so much =X but it didn't bother me. That's odd. Man, I'm so attractive to him.... in a naughty naughty way.. but then he's my bf, so no problem right?
I miss my hunnie <3. Is he gonna drop by? Gosh.. I'm fat... lol.
So boring! Sighs.. I hate staying home yo, but why? GOSH! Stealing is bad, isn't it? Is there be a way to stop bad things from occuring? Why are books so long? lol. Man, I'm fat. Always have. I need to slim down or something. My first "yes" to a "do-i-look-FAt-in-this" question =X very unpleasant.
OMG! I am so full! My tummy is all BIG! I feel sick. Kill Bill volumn 2 is aiighht. Bill is actually cool. Awesome dad. Hope this drink will help. Missed my hunnie <3. ALL FALLS DOWN is on! yay!
Sometime you just gotta hate the person you loves dearly. He's still his old-self. Still into Social Life, sickened me. Still not changing. I did not change neither. I follow along, so I'm the big-time sinner. I'm ashamed.
Date: o4.17.o4 (Saturday)
Time: 9:08 am
Boy oh Boy, I think I'm sick. 100 days, good song, can't find it anywhere on the net. ARGH! My hunni is as crazy as me *sighs* I went to bed early.... for a Friday's night. So proud! I'm hungry, but I don't feel like eating. It bothers me to eat. My friends say so too.
Whoa.. that was so much typing! [Ella Enchanted]. Gosh... I told Tina? Well... We're great friends. I can trust her. She tells me her problems. Now it's my turn. Dissecting is fun... yet stinky. Amy hated it... lol I know why too. I actually update this site everyday! People trust me, that is so cool. I feel like a counselor... meanwhile, I need counseling. How ironic huh?
Computer is so boring. We're searching for colleges. *sighs* I'm want to major in ♥ journalism. I miss my hunnie. I'm so sorry about yesterday. Regrets my harsh words =(.
Okay... got my physical check up for my permit. Funny thing. I have to go through all those funny procedures. Kevin was my physician. He's a student. I giggles too much when he touches my cheeks. It tickles. Plus, it was awkward, cause only my hunnie touches my face <3. Damn, that slut. ARGH! how can she make such lie! Lord, that is so freaking NASTY. I say she should burn in hell, burnt bitch, 5 guys at the same time? SHIET! a hoe! Man, her mother gonna judges other... look at her freaking daughter.. damn, I would split in her face and be like, your bbay girl is a B-I-T-C-H, old woman! Anywho....... It's funny, but Maria and I are starting to talk. We're like got a lots in common, cool. School was aiight. Dude, I'm going to get that white lady to help me with my math. Hey, it's her job. I didn't eat a lot of junks today. I am so proud of myself! I'm so full. My tummy is so big. I feel good today. Although people judged me, calling me "skinny, bony, etc" but I want to be thin. So? See, they don't get it. But I do and I'm proud. It's not like I'm bulimic. I hate it when Aiyonna & David accuses me of being Bulimic when I told them I want to throw up. Sighs. Friends these days. But I thanks them tho. They're looking out for me. They cares for me. I ♥ them. It's funny how they lectured me the last time. Man, I will never forget as long as I live.
Date: o4.14.o4 (Wednesday)
Time: 7:24 am
This woman is annoying. I hate being lectured, being bitched at. I hate staying home.. now. It's not even fun. There's like nothing to do. Argh! Where the hell is Hien? That girl. Guys always go first or what? I'm in need of her help here! God damn you people!
We're never be what we used to be. It's already a year, so... aiight, lets deal with the present. Good bye to the past. I'm cool with it now. Just stay calm and go along and enjoy <3.
The fuck...? lol.. We're actually going to New York? OMG.. it is raining! All these rap songs.. dude, I'm going to be black-washed! *scurred* I'ma go take a nap..... *dream of NEW YORK* We're in New Jershey already? Are we lost? lol, I got school tommorrow. Whoooa, the Holland Tunnel, how hot! pimping! Where are we going to park? Whoaaa.. that was CREEPY! that Bus just pop up from nowhere. New Yorkers.. sighs, drives all freaking scary. Manhattan's Pretzel.. yuck, don't taste as good at Hbg's. Harrisburg food is good yo. Gotta admit it. We parked under Ludlow st. lol.. the fuck... what a freaking funny name for a street. I twisted my tongue trying to pronounce that word, shoot. It's raining... and I'm wearing flip-flops. Never wear flip-flops in April again. April's showers. This bathroom is dirty. So China's town. Reminds me of living in Vietnam all over again. But we were loved there. Here? We're like total strangers. I'm hungry, lets go eat. This curry chicken soup is aiight. I wanna go home now. I think I'm going to die due to the fact it is so freaking COLD! TAKE ME HOME! TAKE ME HOME! I have to find something to get for my hunnie. I miss him so much. For my mother too. But there is like nothing. Jessie is buying everything for me. I feel... broke with 5 bucks. Geez, I wasn't prepared to go. I was at Tony's then they dragged me to NY. *sighs*
WHY DO YOU EVEN BOTHER BITCH? ALL FUCKING NOSY! LIKE i GOT SOMETHING TO SAY. SINCE YOU'RE HERE. HERE GOES NUTHING. I FUCKING HATE NOSY PPLS. I HATE PPLS WHO FUCKING LOVE THEIR GAME SO MUCH, THEY IGNORED THEIR GF/BF. WHAT THE FUCK? THEY ARE THE LAMEST PPLS! THEY OUGHTA DIE AND BURN IN HELL. I PITY THEIR VICTIM [GF/BF], THE FUCK, SIT RIGHT THERE AND FUCKING TALKING TO THEMSELVES. STUPID MORONS. YOU OUGHTA DIE TOO. RUN AWAY BITCH. FAR FAR AWAY WHERE THEY CAN'T FIND YOU AND CALL YOU UP LIKE YOU'RE A FUCKING "REAL" BITCH, WHOM THEY CAN FUCKING USE. DAMN YOU. WHERE'S THE LOVE BITCH?
Time: 10:39 pm
Hell Boy is so cute when he's a lil baby [Red Ape lol]. Ted is funnie.... His cologne smells good. Lavor changed. NY tommorrow. I'm sleepy... a lil. I'm bored actually. Irritated cause I IMed my bf and he's not replying. Forget it.
Time: 7:03 pm
Mother love me. I am honored. Thanks mom. Going the movie soon. Where's Lavor? Tony is home.. Haloing. Oh well, I truely missed him. I'm sad. Emailed him. "I want to stay away from her." That says something there. Dawn of the Death... can't wait! I'm tired, exhausted from all these thinking. I'm lost and confused. Why do grown ups dislike me? I thought everyone love me for my sweet personalities. Where have I gone wrong? What did I did wrong?
Time: 2:49 pm
They fucking hate me. I shouldn't be seen in front of them.. no longer. I should stay away from them. I should isolate from everyone. I'm not ready. I shouldn't even put myself in this stage. I'm not ready, emotionally. I should learn how to be strong, to ignore ppls and their harsh words. I should learn to take things easily. I should learn to be myself. I should know myself. I should love myself.. before I say that three word, "i love you." I'm sorry if I let you go. I don't want to. Maybe I should just avoids them. I should learn how to be a loner first before I learn to be with someone. What to feel? How to reacts? I want to run away. Far far away. I want to sucide. I want to die. It all falls down. Why am I repeatedly listening to this song? Am I that insecure?
Shopping can be quite tiresome. I can get pissed easily when it come to "counting money." I hate money yo. People are all into it and being all bitch, but I don't blame them. That's the power of money. I don't know about being skirt material, but I'm "short" material <3. Love shorts ["Angels," "MUDD" and "YMI"]. Why ppls love X-box so much? My litto bros are like all into their "spiderman" game, which irritates me, but then I'm glad. No more naggers.... fighting over the computer. YaY!
Time: 12:44 pm
She's right.. I don't do anything around the house? so? Ain't like she's doing much [biach]. This fanfic isn't that scary, why am I lying to this lil girl? Charlene died, ARGH! I hate that captain so much yo [in the movie VIRUS]. I need to start playing X-Box. Didn't even touch it. Should I eat this loaf of bread? I took 2 bites of it... I miss my hunnie. Think he's still sleeping. I should go to the Mall today, grocery shopping or something. I should buy my own food. I got the money =X sinned again. I'm sorry, but I really need the money. I'm going to make up my bad deeds, that is for sure. Trust me.
Date: o4.o9.o4 (Friday)
Time: 8:41 pm
Today wasn't bad... Maddy is so cute. Tony is so cute. I want a boy <3. I'm feeling aiight now. Life are meant to enjoy. Just be calm, chill, and ignore your surroundings. Who give the fawk what people think/say? Forgive + Forget. Don't take work to seriously. I need to order some products in this Catalogue. I must save money. I need new sneakers + clothes. I love this song [All falls down].
Time: 2:53 am
What am I doing...? Shouldn't I be sleeping? Why didn't I speak when I had the chance? Why did I let him out without a "good-bye" nor a good-bye kiss/hug? Why am I being so stubborn? Why do I let his careless words touched me so deeply, that I ignored him? Was it because he said, "I'm here, and for what? What a waste of time?" "You're being bitchy" "You're bitch/bossy online, but now, You're afraid of me?" Is this true? Why did you let it bothered you? Why are you so sensitive? Why did you cried? Why are you so weak? Why didn't you eat when he brought it for you and sincerely asked you to eat it? Why must you out this burden upon yourself when you can enjoy the day with your bf? Did you missed him? Why are you so mad and lost when he called? Why didn't he go "muah" on the phone? Was he mad at me for the other day's incident? What should I do? How can he and I hate life now that we're dating each other? Aren't we suppose to be happy with life? Why am I so miserable? Why am I questioning myself?
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