The heart aches
Everything may try to twist me
Instead of closing my eyes
You wanted me to fly once upon a time
It will be beautiful
© November 17, 2007 Keri S.
For a release not in sight
The mind wanders
Trying to piece together the breaks
The body yearns
For just a touch and a taste of belonging
Yet the soul believes
Faith weaving a gentle cocoon around me
But it's this spinning that convinces me
I watch pieces of me shift and transform
Painful in their departure and beautiful in their return
Fear tries to engulf me in this darkness
But I know... this is a holy dark
And I will not be afraid
I soak in the piercing black with a will to dive in
I refuse to run when God is asking me to stay
I will not betray You this time
By ripping open this cocoon a moment too soon
I will wait for this transformation You so long for me
And unlike before, I'm ready to embrace my wings
My weakness becomes Your strength
My impatience disappears into excitement
Each piece begins and ends with this motion inside
It will be worth waiting for
And I will rise with abandon
When this butterfly emerges and spreads her wings.