Disclaimers: Joss owns them not me. I make no claims to Buffy or Faith. No harm intended.
Comments: And you all doubted me, shame on you all! Pah.
Date Stamp: Miss K, aka Kitty wrote this 09.12.01
Title: It's a line from 'I'm Taking Europe With Me' by VS. Louise Post owns it, not me. I make no claims, but just fall at her feet and kiss her boots.
 
Buffy's POV
 
Slayers Do Vegas LIX - I Think I Might Just; Change The Channel
 
Stop fiddling with your hands!
And stop talking crap, talk about things that you used to with Faith.
Oh, that was crap.
Damn it!
 
'So, is the Luxor nice inside? Oh, that's not some hint for me to come up! I was curious, well not curious, more nervous, actually more curious and nervous. Curious, like, do they have Mummies in the rooms? Nervous because... I don't want... I mean, we're getting on, and you're not hitting me, and you remember me a bit. I'm so shutting up!'
 
I glance over to see her laughing.
That's good!
Laughing's good, see, I made Faith laugh; not punch or run away or loose her memory again, just laugh.
Finally, something right.
 
'Deep down inside me I know this is what you're like, B.'
 
Deep down inside she KNOWS!
Ok, no jumping up and down.
Be calm and... what ever else goes with calm that means you don't act like an idiot.
 
'I am! I always talk loads. Well not always, just sometimes, mostly when I'm nervous. Then I can't stop, really! By the time I've figured out I'm doing it, it's too late and all the babbling's happened. Then there's no point in stopping because it's already come and gone. But I... oh, I'm doing it again, aren't I? Sorry!'
 
'It's nice. I mean, it feels sort of... what's the word?'
 
'Familiar?'
 
She flashes me a smile.
A smile!
 
'Yeah, B, familiar. Not something I've had a lot of lately, you know?'
 
I nod at that massive understatement.
I look up at the hotel in front of us.
 
'Is this your hotel then, Faith?'
 
She stops and stares at me, with this amused look on her face.
 
'Did the fact it's a massive pyramid shape, with Sphinx's everywhere give it away?'
 
I manage to stop myself from slapping my forehead as I'm such a moron!
Hello?
Pyramid, sand, statues!
Luxor, really?
God, idiot, Buffy!
 
'It is sort of obvious. I'm just so happy you remember me; a bit. Remembering me a bit's good, you know! Better than nothing, right? The nothing just made you want to hit me, and the hitting isn't so good, it means I have to use too much foundation and that's never a great thing. Don't want to start looking like Cordelia! Not that she looks horrid, she doesn't, she looks nice. Not you nice, I'm not lusting after her or anything! That's just euugh! Euugh, to lusting after... I'm doing it again! Babbling! Sorry.'
 
'I feel like I should have one of those fold away seats, B. So when you start, I can just sit down and wait for you to figure out what you're doing. I'm sorry about, you know, the hitting stuff 'n' all. I, shit, I was panicking. Like, everything felt weird, and you were this person who made everything inside me feel all messed up. I don't remember doing it though. Doesn't make it better, but... I wouldn't have... I'm sorry, B.'
 
'It's ok, you only hit me once. Ok, maybe a few more than once, but look, I'm ok!'
 
We stand and stare at each other for a minute in this horrible silence.
I don't want her to go!
How am I going to sleep if she's not with me?
I've got used to her being near me and now...
I want things to be ok again.
I want Faith to come back; my Faith, the Faith that can't say the 'L' word, the Faith who opens her mouth to show me she hasn't got any food left in her mouth, the Faith that kisses me and almost makes my legs give way.
I grit my teeth to stop myself from crying again.
 
'I should go, I guess, B.'
 
'I guess. You'll come back tomorrow to see me, so we can talk and... hang out? I mean, I've got used to us being together all the time, Faith.'
 
Her face falls, and she starts scuffing her boot around on the floor.
 
'Course I will. I just need some time to think about all this, B. Everything's so screwed in my head. It all feels jumbled. There's too much stuff going round it that I can't figure. I do know one thing though. I know I don't want to go back up there without you. That's good right? That I know that, it's good, right?'
 
I nod.
My throat feels all tight and I know if I say anything I'm going to start crying again.
All my insides are aching.
I don't want her to go!
 
'I'll come by tomorrow then. Should I call first, like, to make sure you're in?'
 
'I'll be in! All day!'
 
Right, I'll get supplies so I don't have to leave the room.
 
She goes to walk away then stops and turns back round.
She moves over to me and kisses my cheek, gently.
 
'I'll see you tomorrow then, B. Night.'
 
I stand there and watch her walk into her hotel, and then make my way back to my hotel, alone.
 
Faith's POV
 
Shit, my head's pounding.
I need to get back to the room.
I'll take a shower and get something to eat, then I'll feel better.
Hold up.
I walk into the gift shop and buy some Advil and the biggest roll of tape they have.
Woman looks at me like I'm mad.
If tape's such a weird thing to buy, then why sell it!
 
I make my way back up to the room, push the door open and start to pick up all the bits of my diary.
I sit down on the floor, with my roll of tape and look through all the bits of paper.
Shower and food can wait.
 
Ok, Faith, time to piece everything back together again.