Musings
I know people find it hard to know I am a submissive. I have such a hard time giving up control. I figure it is normal for someone who has been abused to have such a fear of giving up control. I pray all of the time I will find the one Dominate that I will be able to trust completely and my longings will be filled.
Many have said because of my fear of pain that I have no business in this lifestyle, but I believe there is a place for everyone that wants it. I have all ways longed to give up control, but have never found anyone capable of taking control.
Because of the abuse I have suffered as a child I suffer from sever depression and am disabled and don't work. I have found that is more than many people can deal with, but I have to believe there is someone out there that can. I believe the people in this lifestyle to be accepting of real people and don't put them on a pedistal they will fall off of. People in this lifestyle help one grow.
I hope my words make sence to someone out there. I also hope one day I will be able to add a page to my Master, a Man I can trust completely.
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