I will never understand the rest of this court. Andy, Lysander and Luke have spent most of the evening trying to convince me that Ferdi is dead and that he is not really Ferdi. How could they? Stupid, stupid, stupid! Ferdi is not dead. I do not care what they say. If Ferdi is dead then how can he be with me? Are they suggesting I am mad?

Silly, it really is! I mean if Ferdi is dead then how can I see him? Either I am mad which I very much doubt, or something has taken the place of Ferdi. But that also cannot be true for Ferdi has been with me for as long as I can remember. Ah the games we used to play on Nanny Clara! Moving and hiding things so she could not find them!

Andy and Luke are mean. I do not think I like them any more. I refuse to think about it. I shall get on with the other things to which I must attend. Like dreams. Do a ritual, prevent anyone having any nightmares and then everyone has them! There is some serious "wibbly shit" (as Ferdi says), going on.

My dreams I do not even remember. All I can recall is the blood on my hands. Horrid!

And its not just dreams. Cecil hallucinated that he killed a child on the way ot the Elysium tonight. All I can think is that it must be another path of magic other than Morpheus. Malkavian possibly? I must research it further.

Other than that it was a quiet night for the Court (Makes a change!). Luke is our final Primogen and Lysander is now clan head or whatever it is. Claudio is still irritating in the extreme. Hopefully not for much longer if we can help it. Lysander is proving to be most useful in ways of ridding ourselves of the tiresome Tremere.

I also had an interesting proposal from Luke after we left the Elysium. Apparently he and Lysander have agreed to be blood bonded to each other. Luke wants insurance. He wanted me to be it. Sounds interesting although I am not sure how it will work. It would however give me protection if the plan to blood bond the court comes of age. I believe I shall consider this most carefully.

And Ferdi Is Not Dead!!!!