We returned from on Sunday. I discovered Luke's surprise. we visited a lake and a graveyard. We found Ferdi's grave. He is dead!

I do not understand how this can be. We played together for so long before my Lord turned me. And then he was still with me. How can he be dead?

Luke and I have discussed this. Ferdi will not answer when I ask who he is. Only that he is not Ferdi and he lied. Why I have no idea. I musst begin looking into this at once. If only I could find my Lord. he could help explain this it me. I feel so confused. Ferdi betrayed me. How could he?

Luke and Andrew think they are so clever. And now, Luke has set me a babysitter. Do I look like a child? Even my father never left me for so long. I suppose the only consolation is the babysitter I have been given. Tanaka seems to enjoy his new found status. I do not. Luke is being unfair! And now he is spending all his time with Isabelle!

So her sire is strange. That is not my fault.

I can't believe Ferdi is dead. Perhaps I should have taken up my idea of resurrecting him with the help of the Sabbat? No. That is silly. They would kill me first. Perhaps that is not such a bad idea. Suddenly my unlife seems somehow unfulfilled. But I am still curious as to what "Ferdi" is? I wonder if Claudio has moved his books into the Chantry yet? Perhaps I should find out. Then I can start finding my Sire as well.