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Jesse allowed me to do so and he gained alot of my respect. He didn't have to let me visit, after all it was his weekend. I was confused that Jesse would start trouble using CPS in light of the how well things were going. Sara wasn't the happiest with Lexi going with her father, but they were co-operating with each other. They didn't seem to have any animosity towards each other.
     Anyway, one day I recieved a phone call that Lexi had broken her leg. It was explained to me that Lexi was jumping on the bed and fell off. (heard that one before). I also found out later that dale's sister inlaw had to take Sara and Lexi to the doctor, because when Sara got home from work dale took the van and left. Sara said that she wasn't sure how long Lexi was hurt before she arrived home from work. After waiting a couple of hours she called someone to take them to the emergency room. Sara told me that Lexi's break is what they refer to as a parachute break. That is where your leg is stiff when you hit the ground. This sounded odd to me as I just couldn't picture falling off a bed that way. Again, CPS was involved. Again, Sara and dale said that Jesse was the one who called them. I asked Sara shortly there after if some of the recent events seemed strange to her. She told me they did not.  I was trusting my daughter. After all she was there and I was not. Lexi did pretty good with her broken leg. She even learned to walk with it. After the cast was removed she had to learn to walk again. Children are so resilient. CPS were beginning to make frequent visits in regards to Lexi. Lexi was healthy, clean and well taken care of. Some of the things started to seem trivial. They came out to check the house stating that it was in total disarray. They were putting in new carpet and I am sorry, my house would have been turned upside down too. I was really ready to go talk to Jesse to find out what the deal was. I didn't get the chance.
     Shortly there after I got another phone call from Sara. I was at a friends house when Sara called. If you haven't figured it out yet Sara called me whenever something happened. Sara was at the emergency room again. She told me that she got home from work and found Lexi listless and not her self. She also told me that dale's mom had told her that Lexi had lost conciousness a couple of times during the day. This really worried me because it was the second time something major had happened to Lexi without any phone calls to Sara that something was wrong.  I asked Sara if she needed me to come and meet them and she said things were ok. She would call if she needed me. I was at a friends helping build his home. About an hour later I got another call, The doctor had decided to transport Lexi to Ft Wayne to another hospital. Now I am scared. I went home and picked up Patty and we headed down. I cried and probably shouldn't have said some of the things I said, but I was scared. I told God I was pissed off. I called him some names and begged him to mess with me and leave my Lexi alone. I was begging God to to let her be ok. Patty had never seen this side of me before and I guess she now understood my feelings more. I apologized to God later and begged for His forgivness. I just wanted no bad things to happen to Lexi and wanted Him to know that I would trade my life for Lexi. I just didn't say it quite the right way. We got to the hospital and found Lexi. She was really listless and out of it. She would not go to anyone except her mother or I. Everyone was there, both my exwives, dale, Jesse and his girlfriend. Sara told me that the doctors thought that they were going to run tests for spinal menengitis. Jana, my second wife, was getting ready to leave so Patty walked her out to her car. Jana expressed her concern abotu the things that were going on. I told her I was going to talk to Jesse. It was then that I found out it was the doctors, hospitals, and Jana who were calling CPS. She asked me not to tell anyone, however now I feel it is a mute point. I now wish that she would have confided in me earlier. I also found out that dale was not at home again when Sara arrived from work. Sara waited a couple of hours before she called Jana to take her to the hospital. Sara couldn't get ahold of me. Jana also informed me that Sara and dale had begun arguing, that it was time to quit breast feeding Lexi and that it was also time to put Lexi in her own bed. When things calmed down we decided to go home to sleep. Sara and dale stayed overnight with Lexi. I went back first thing in the morning. Lexi had gradually improved throughout the night and by morning she almost back to normal. When she awoke she was pretty restless so Sara and I walked the halls with her and spent time in the toy room. A few hours later the doctor came and informed us that they could find nothing wrong with the exception of a minor ear infection. I got Sara off to the side and point blank asked her if she really trusted these people. I told her of all my fears. I told her that I didn't trust dale's family because of the things that were happening while she was at work. I continued to ask Sara questions during the next few months. I wanted her to really think about the situations with Lexi health and well being since she met dale. Sara was adament to the fact that these people would not hurt Lexi. I was not so sure. This was in September.
     Prior to this in August my mother became ill. She lived in Kansas City and Patty, Andy and I went down to visit as she was not doing good. During the week before we left and the week we were there her health improved. When she was released from the hospital my older sister Mary (who also lives there) and us helped mom get settled back into her apartment. She had been hospitalized for a month and we took her shopping, cleaned out bad food etc. When things were in order we came back home. In late October I got another call from my sister that mom was back into the hospital and not doing well agian. I couldn't jump into the car and drive down right away. The last trip cost quit a bundle. After I came home in August I had begun working on moving mom up here to a nusing home or an assisted living home. Her health deteriated too quickly. One wednesday evening I called mom, she had been really tired but was lucid. I told her how much I loved her and cared for her. I let her know that I was still trying to get things arranged for her to come home. The next morning My sister called to inform me mom died. I went and got a loan and headed for KC. I went to help Mary make the neccesary arraingments. We used each other for support and did what was needed. Sara wanted to come to her grandmothers funeral.