1-31-02
MARILYN: 11:10pm. guess where i was?? HAWAII!!!!!!!!!! woo hoo!!! It was sooooooo much fun. The water was hot, the guys were cute, and i LOVED it. can't wait to go back with kirsten in tow. we have in all work out for after babs has a few kids. auntie marilyn and kirsten.... we get to wear muumuus. call me and i'll give you all the details. by the way, when do you get back from your fun in palm desert?? hasta. or i guess aloha...

1-25-02
MARILYN: 4:11pm. only 11 months left till christmas. haha. thats only a few shopping day left. oh no! right. so i should go pack in a sec. in fact, maybe i will go pack. i got a swim suit and pants today. i know, its very exciting. its also like 4:12 now and i haven't done a single fun thing yet. i blame society those rotten pigs. i oink at you and your christmas shopping! but i can legally drive people now, so maybe i'll forgive them at some point. ok, off to pack. and wash clothes too..... oh la la. right, later.

1-24-03
MARILYN: 9:23pm. So we dyed our hair. not alot though. sorry guys. i can tell you are ever so sad. should i explain the tradition?? the hair one?? ya i wll. or the abbreviated one i guess. so one fine finals after exams freshman year kirsten and i were with Poy after a horrendous health exam (i'd like to mention to the guys that i couldn't label your diagram at all, and i'm sorry. also, i did alot better on the bio exam the next year) and we decided that to celebrate the end of school we needed to do something wild and crazy and exciting. so we decided on dying our hair. that year we used spray in pink and black. it was gorgy and got the desired reaction. we decided it should be a tradition for after any set of exams. so the next mid terms kirst and i wanted to go semi permanent, not just wash out right away stuff. Poy decided she wasn't gonna do that, i mean she has nice long hair, it'd be a bummer if it turned out, say, permantent ugly dark brown. but we'll get to that. so we dyed it pink. it was very cool. it said it would last 5-40 washes, and was alot closer to 5. so it was cool. and the next exam is where it all went to shit. well, not really, but you know.... so right. so the next exams we wanted something a little more interesting. so we got black semi permanent dye. and it didn't wash out. it said 24 washes. its still in. and that was last june. so this time we went to blonde. kinda a retro thing. we used to be blondes after all...... so its just the tips. but they feel like straw and we used alot of bleach and they stick out a little funny but it'll be ok. i hope. i'll use alot of conditioner for a while. and i need to buy a swim suit. maybe i'll do that tomorrow, the day before i like for HAWAII!!!! woo hoo!!!!!
KIRSTEN: 7:28 AM. Marilyn has an old testes exam right now, i just escorted her there. I think this is the earliest i've ever written here but i have nothing else to do except illegally drive Marilyn's car around. I'm in the very empty library. I don't have anymore exams!! I'm already done!! And i stayed with marilyn last night cause we have to dieour hair today and i'll be shipped off to family camp in awhile while marilyn and babs are in Hawaii. We played old testes uno stacko. It's the one where you have to take a block out of the stack and put it on top. The uno ones have numbers though so i decided that if marilyn answered an old testes question right she got the points on the block she pulled out. She had like 23 points before we decided to watch friends. She was concerned there wasn't enough competition so i said if she got it wrong i got the points but that didn't really work cause she never got it wrong cause i let her have almost anything. Marilyn can legally drive me now!!! my dad said it was alright for her to drive me home yesterday because it was a day before she was legal and "technically (i told him) if some months didn't have 31 days..." Well marilyn tried to explain that but it didn't work. The gas "network was down" at the gas station yesterday, marilyn was very confused. Her dog elwood is very friendly and very good at waking people up. He looks like a sheep, he likes to get slober all over me. So anyway, speaking of old testes, I was on the bus the day before yesterday and there was this car next to us I was watching out the window and this like 40 year oldish man rolls down his window and is smiling up at me, u know kind of sneering. So I'm curiously looking down at this guy and i realize he looks suspiciously like he's not wearing pants. I look again and realize he is not, infact nothing on the lower half of his body. LIke full view!!! Then he speeds off. That was pretty funny. I got off the bus and started laughing. Wow its kinda sad that people drive around without pants on for entertainment. Snalex and I were talking and we wondered how he got out of the car, we figured he had a garage and was just driving around looking for school buses. Somebody asked how he would go in the store or something, Sneric replied that he probably wasn't going to the store. So a bunch of people are going to seaworld today but marilyn and i are going to die our hair and marilyn babs and i are going swimsuit shopping, i lost a 20. We're thinking blue or bleach blond ends. So I have an hour and 45 minutes to kill. O by the way marilyn put up the stunning singles winners, look on the home page again or click here. Byebye.

1-22-03
MARILYN: 2:18pm. kirst has a journalism exam right now. poor dear. its not a real exam though, so i think she'll survive. i hope. ya so i'm single. its hard giving back all the shit, you know? and figuring out whats your and his. oh nm, none of you are dating, your all stalking kirsten that sexy thing with her glasses holder. i think she should get glasses. she looked alot smarter. not to say that shes not smart, but the glasses accented her gorgeous smartness look. you see? i've taken some exams. 3 i guess. none have really gone very well. history was just painful. math, well, lets just say our class didn't do circles, and since that was only like half the exam, ya. and spanish i knew exactly 6 of the 30 vocab words and 3 of 5 of the colloquialisms. woo fucking hoo. and i still have english, which will rape me. and chem, which i need an A+ on to feel good about it. and old test, and no one else has exams that day so i'll probably end up going out or something and not studying and failing and having to take the damn class again. oh fuck. i am such a shitty student. fuck fuck fuck. i'm all sad too. sniffle. oh screw it, i have better things to be doing right now. like procrastinating. woo!
KIRSTEN: 3:00 pm. Ya i just got out of my journalism final and it was kinda scary, almost 2 hours of being with journalism students in a room and discussing journalism. Fluke said something funny though. He said, "we're all so bad at math, that's why we're in journalism" That's pretty funny and probably very true, at least for me. None of us were nervous about exams either, i wonder if thats a journalism thing, people brought lots of food. I ate a cookie and got crumbs everywhere. Marilyn you'll be fine, i wonder if this entertains anyone. Glad i look so smart with glasses. I added pictures to my bio too if u would like to see, i was thinking about making a marilynandkirsten photo gallery. Hey marilyn i'm staying with u thursday night and then going to school with u friday remember?? Well now you do. I'll help you rip up some old testes, haha. Wow jokes are going downhill, journalism was kind of a nice break, no annoying relatives. Except Mr. Down decided our staff box is going to be famous people with STDs because STDs would be offensive. HE says "what if someone actually had one?" and i was thinking, "well what if someone is related to some famous person who died of an STD? eh?" O by the way marilyn?? u wanna write an article on bala?? i said either u or i would. Snack forgot his character counts and dummy layout and uniform today but he brought a cake. ick i have to take the bus again and study crap. Chem and english, marilyn we should have a study party online or something, i so wish i was living with you!! I hope ur ok although ur right about me being single and ignorant. byebye

1-21-03
KIRSTEN: 6:46 PM. I forgot to put the time yesterday. I'm done with the two hardest exams, math and history. They weren't that hard but then again everyone else was done an hour early. I thought tan was cos over sin so i had to fix that. Beeky and I were frantically studying for like 4 hours, she's so sweet. Me and Lana had another nervous break down before the test. It was kinda funny, everything was funny. My dad was being a poo about going to marilyn's house to make everyone's life a heck of a lot easier and then he started yelling at me so i hung up on him. I'm sick of everyone. My gramma keeps telling my dad what "the kids" would like and what the kids want to do and "I think we have some hungry kids" and she never listens to what i'm saying. She asks a question and then cuts me off to ask the same question. ARGH!!! I hate when people treat you like u aren't a person, just a child to be taken care of. She's the one that needs to be taken care of anyway. She keeps saying i'm grumpy too. I just don't like lasagna and when i told her that last night she was fine with it and then this morning she and my dad told me i was grumpy last night and this morning for no apparent reason. I wasn't showing how grumpy i was in the slightest, its usually much worse in the morning, whatever. Then i had to take the dumb early bus today and put up with all the dumb, loud freshmen and i really had to pee. I'm supposed to have my license now. I didn't answer the phone when my gramma called the first time cause i thought the vibrating was the bus or my stomach and then the second time cause i didn't want to. I would hate to have her as a mother even more i think. At least my mom acknowledges that i'm a human being and i think my gramma's even more neurotic than my mom. AHHHH!!! And she's here all week to drive us and yet she doesn't and i can't stay with marilyn to make everything easier. Why couldn't i have gotten the darn license. Ok i know there's a reason. I'm gonna take my puppy for a run tonight, that'll clear things up. Everything's just so icky. I just have tests and studying all day or an unreasonable dad or a nagging gramma and no soccer and i'm not allowed to stay with my friends and i don't have my license and i'm stuck in this tiny little overheated house cause my gramma turned the thermostat way up cause she gets cold and i had to ride the freaking bus!!! And i had to do like 24 hours of math in the last 48 hours, and i still suck at it. I can't just go out with my friends either, its exams and i have no license. I wish i was living with marilyn!!! At least i got some cheese bread and vanilla coke, but it was warm, o and some cookie, and babs and pee stopped chaining each other down on the quad after a while. I had a dream last night about Lizzie Maguire. She was my friend or something and it was fall and really windy and she was crying and hugging this random guy in a leaf pile and i felt bad for her, it was weird. I should stop watching that show. Haha. I think dad's home, i have to apologize for hanging up, o wait no not him. Marilyn linked a very flattering picture of me to here, thanks marilyn, well not like any are flattering. Here's an even better one. I was trying to make erin a personalized glasses holder. Byebye.

1-20-03
KIRSTEN: I'm kinda done studying, well i'm saying i am. ONe nervous breakdown is enough and more math cannot be good for my health or my brain. I decided i was done with history cause liz did less paragraphs than me and i think i have everything on the sheet in my outline. I had a dream last night about a sturgismobile. Yes it was an actual car, haha. My gramma's asleep on the fuoton behind me. Marilyn is single, now we all are. My gramma is stirring. I wish i could live with marilyn so i didn't have to wake up early for exams but no! I need sleep, which makes no sense at all. My aunt called today just to talk to me and she sent me a really nice letter, which my dad read because he "didn't look at who it was addressed to" arghh. She's the greatest aunt i love her. I've studied a lot. I watched some good martin luther king day movies about the KKK and stuff. One disney and one lifetime. The disney one was especially awesome. They even showed a guy get shot and tear gas and cross burning and stuff and it was a disney movie. o and marilyn, lizzie maguire had a boyfriend tonight so i think its a good thing that ur single now. ok sleepy time, as my cousin would say. nightynight, don't let the bed bugs bite!

1-19-03
MARILYN: 1016pm. i wrote 02 the other day. forgive me. i think i'm done. sorry.

1-18-02
MARILYN: i have studied today. that is it. i woke up at 2pm and since then have been readin this one chapter out of the history book. it is think. and i am very small, so it makes little sense. i got the civil war chapter, and we didn't do the civil war, so i'm hoping that my vague "they moved some troops around" shit is good enough. i also got the reconstruction, which i don't believe in. its evil! i do have a hot date in a few though, so i'm gonna go primp (aka wash self)(aka wash hands)(aka i have a large bladder but wash my hands about 1000000 times a day while babs pees)(aka oh god life is dull....)(please give me APUSH off a cliff)(later).
KIRSTEN: 6:52 PM. Ya i was gonna get my license but failed and almost fainted from dissapointment but once i got to school and everyone felt bad for me i realized i still had everything i had had before and therefore life is good. My grampa is so sweet. He tried so hard to cheer me up in the car and drove me to school. Too bad he's slightly racist. There was probably a reason i failed. I mean i probably would've gotten way lost on the way to parker or crashed going to school or something, i probably wasn't ready. I went over the curb with my front wheels backing up. Everyone was nice except chill kept telling me i failed. I hung out with rinz and tizbeth all day. Well except when i did english journals and went to history and turned in my english journals. I bought 3 really cheap cds. 2 garth brooks and a clint black. "You'll be my dixie chicken and i'll be your tennesse lamb and we'll walk together down in dixie land." We went to this weird swimsuit store and looked in the 5 dollar bin. SHe said they were swimsuits that didn't fit people anymore and at first we thought she meant people had worn them before but she corrected us. SO we went to mr juice, everyone was nice there. I went to the tennis shop in the morning with becca. I went to the cookie lady too. i got a sour white mocha. We skipped the healthy back store, how sad. We layed on the beach and talked about how dumb parents are, esp rinz's and how she needs to live with me right now, at least go on vacay with me. I love sun, it should be summer. Heck it should be summer before college. I swear i already have senioritis. I've lost all will. Actually i think i never had any but my mom made me care and with her gone i don't care at all. I feel kinda bad cause its my future and crap but what is it worth and how will a better college and a better job make anyone happy? Offices make me cranky and clausterphobic anyway. I scored a goal in our game yesterday but we still lost. Second half me and babs and steeny were the defense line. I went to the stupid b-ball game last night cause i have to write that dumb sports article that someone unfairly and unintelligently assigned me. I went with my dad and took notes. I'm a dork. They had funny cheerleaders and fans but the team wasn't that good. I don't know how to write a sports article. I know nothing about basketball. I kept turning to my dad and saying "did they score a goal?.....I mean basket?" I am not a sports writer!! I read the same bit as marilyn for history but i did it in my back yard while i tried to tan in my rolled up red plaid bermuda shorts and australian old man shade hat. I didn't tan as always and i smell weird. It was nice to be in the sun though, especially in the middle of january. My dog liked being outside and with company at the same time. It beats studying inside and i was much warmer and i hate being cold. Have to do an outline of why the civil war happened now. I was home alone almost all day. Then my brother came back and made noise just to piss me off. It's so annoying and then when i asked him to stop he said i should leave the room if he was annoying me because i was the one in a bad mood and i was the one complaining. I muttered "i hate you" under my breath but i can't let him of all people make me hateful. I need to work on that. If i can love him i can love anyone. Marilyn's entry a few days ago was weird, it sounded like a poem and i didn't really get it but i don't think it was to me. It sounded good though although not like her usual writing. I also got a stylish time peice for christmas and i haven't worn it except yesterday because its against my principles, but i think i'm getting over that. I just feel so businesslike and dull and trapped with a watch but u know. It's like the huffamoose hippy song where "he's never unhappy cause he never wears a watch". That's painted on my flower pot pen holder. Later in the song the guy gets boring and settles down and never lives the life he thought he would...and presumably wears a watch. That's why watches just seem so sad but i read way too much into things. long as usual, byebye.

1-17-03
MARILYN: 6:36pm. I got a stylish time piece just in time for exams. I am stoaked. Kirsten didn't pass her, well, I'll let her tell you about it. She does seemed to have followed my bike lane not a real lane advice. poor dear. so it was an optional day today. i went to history twice. and math and english. and i had a chem lab and spanish poemas due though, so i saw like everyone but mr. jerk. a fitting name. poo head. i'm at baba's. the phone just rang, but i didn't pick it up, for fear it was for sonny or someone calling for sonny. the drive here was long and arduous, but babs thought it would take like 4 hours and it only took like 1. which means i won. yay! go optimism, no matter how forced it is. babs lost her "flower" today. not really, but there was more humping than i'm comfortable with. It was with Tree. woo. me and chill were like woah, and then i was like, "hey, is this what porn is like??" there was much laughing and humping. very exciting day. and to people who consider themselves to be my friends: the bagel sandwiches at brugger's are nasty assed, not matter what kinda coupon you've got. buy the 6 and get 6 free. not shitting. they were NASTY! scooter and smith broke up the other day. neither of them seem terribly upset, though i guess scooter is sadder because smith was like WOOHOO!! in chem when she told me. its better this way. our messed up friend bertha doesn't have to play shrink. hmm. i ditched sailing yesterday. and now there are 3 weeks without pracitce. woo hoo!!!!!!! i am stoakable. well, its time to go help babs dress herself. you know how she has so much trouble matching.

1-16-03
MARILYN: 10:20pm. i am watching er. i love this show. i have too much work for it to be optional review day tomorrow. but it is. and kirst gets her, well, i let her tell you. good luck kirst!!

1-15-03
MARILYN: 5:12pm. i feel horribly ill today. i've been sick for a couple days, but man i hope this is the worst it gets. i have so much stuff to do. all i want to do is sleep but i can't get there. this is a distraction to get me be become sleepy, very very sleepy. frnakie's bottle rocket is in a bit of trouble. it won't seal. and the thingie that gets the air from the bike pump to the rocket isn't working that well either. at least their bottle hasn't flaeen apart yet. alot of them have. and i've been almost hit by like 3. good times. i want to read. i read the liar's club again, so now i'm reading cherry again. i love these books. if i become a teacher and have a class which i can force to read books, these two are on the list. i don't know what draws me to them. they just have something almost too real about them. the author isn't holding back, or hiding. well, if i had a book of the week (haha) then this would be on it. most definately for sure. right so ya. i think i'm gonna go get away from all this light and stuff thats hurting my head.
MARILYN: 8:15pm. This feeling began so benignly. soothingly. gently. and now i feel like my heart is being ripped from my soul though they do not wish to part and scream in a rage all their own to be put back together. i wish i could help. i try to focus on my mind, my exams, nothing seems to work. i have to decide, i need to choose. i wish this could just slip by like so many of my other blips and pitfalls. does this even count?? almost 2 years, slipping through my fingers. i'm sick and dazed, unsure of what i want right now, besides the day off. and thats the last thing i'll ever get. who should i talk to? why would any one care enough to listen? my world is in turmoil, but that brings a sense of normalicy that this situation wildly cleans. it sounds backwards, but i'm being forced to clean out my garbage. i have to if i'm going to answer. you sit and wait patiently, hoping this is a phase that will soon pass. i hope it is. but i think its not. i'm too sad, to down on myslef and everything for you, the happiest thing i know. i can't deal with your banter. i wish something culd teach you when to comfort and when to let me be alone. i don't think anything can. i don't think i want to. so is this it? does that mean i'm through?? i don't have any clue what to do. screw me and screw you too. (wow that got all rhymey)

1-14-03
KIRSTEN: 9:02 PM. I wrote my outline and the freaking burgismobile is not answering her phone and no longer has an answering machine, great. I'm screwed. O well. Math test today. I had to stay like 10 minutes after to finish. He wouldn't give me a note cause it was my fault i'm slow. I was late to latin and the gracious mr. blup said that they loved me anyway and didn't care, it was great. I even didn't do my HW cause i was studying and he asked how i did on the test. I said probably not good considering how slow i was and how much i suck at math. Yesterday i encountered Mrs. Pleher and she asked how precalc was going. I said ok, kind of groaning. She said "you're not gonna major in math are you?" I laughed and said a deffinite, "no". She said "i was like that with history and then i got so old i realized i had lived through most of it". It was funny. In journalism this week we're reading one of mr. down's notorious packets about journalism. They're so pointless. I got assigned a crappy story about the girls basketball team, with the game on friday as the "narrative spine" how dumb is that. Marilyn and i were arguing about who's life was duller. I would take a poll but no one would respond and it doesn't really matter, i suppose we both have pretty dull lives but its not our fault and our real lives haven't started yet. My life starts when i am free. So yesterday i got through to the DMV at 4:59 and they close at 5. I made an appointment to get my license at 7:30 in the morning on friday. I get to miss english and drive to school (cause its an optional day) I get the minivan for like a month and my dad and i are gonna look at cars. I have to learn how to do the internet before next semester, like for real, for the tower, and so does marilyn my trusty assistant who has the notebook. The internet guy at school seemed very disgruntled when we talked to him. You know one of those people who chose a career with computers cause he hates people and the irony of it is he works at a school and in a room full of other computer people. I like marilyn's writing, don't you. Thanatopsisizing is a good word. sounds like there's a real fun party for people getting paired off with random people on the last day of exams. Chill rejected me, i don't think i'll ever recover. O and then marilyn and babs decided he was stuck with me anyway, poor guy. I think i'll ditch the orgy for blast on. I forgot about that. Marilyn and i have to die our hair before that though. Maybe i'll make an appearance just for some hair dieing action and then drive around the block in my minivan with binoculars, haha. byebye.
MARILYN: 1:57pm. Its almost time to get out of here!! yay!!! i have spanish class right now. Its very sucky. I just wanna get the fuck out of here. It is because, of course, i hate the world, as it is a cruel and unfair place. I wrote a poem about that. A thanatopsis if you care. You don't though. You are a part of the ass hole group of war hawks . You don't know what most people need. you only know what you eneed. whaat do you need? you need to feed of the poeple around you, and the people who you feed off of. you, my friend, are no better than the lords and ladies of england, feeding of the pesantry, enforcing high, cxorrupt taxes, and only proving the me and the rest of the world, nothing is fair. nothing but death
MARILYN: 8:51pm. i guess i have nothing to say. nevermind.

1-13-03
MARILYN: 11:25am. I am in Old Testament. I loath this class. I read oer the old August stuff last night. I don't know how to describe it, because its mostly me not really saying much. Well, I do at one point whine about how i got fired from my summer job. Ya, and that was back when i like added stuff to this website. Back in the good old days. But now, boring little me, i just add to the our lives part. So dull. That and I did add some really good advice recently. Go HERE and become more well rounded with my wonderful advice. You know you want to. I went out to dinner last night. To celebrate finishing my essay and the fact that the next morning was, or i suppose is, late start. Sancho and Babs came with me. We got some slow assed Pizza. It took like an hour. So i was about 20 mintues late coming home by my big 8:00 curfew. And I let my toilet in Sancho's yard in my haste. From when i dropped him off. So very very sad. It seems i shall be with out lipgloss for some time now. so sad. I wonder why the Cafe and Banger people, that is to say the kids who have Cafe and Banger for english, have so much trouble writing page long journals?? Yay MonkeyTwits!!! (P.S. on lined paper I wrote this on in class it was exactly one page, minus this part...)
MARILYN: 12:17pm. I am in Spanish class. Well, in the lab. Not doing spanish. I've already written 4 poems. I only need one more. I decided not to work out today, like i was planning to. this is because i feel sick. how rare. no i really do this time. i wrote a piece in old test. i find it relevent, and will put it here. but under it own little thingie. brb.
MARILYN: 10:04pm. My darling kirstenpoo must have work. i have been meditating on death (thanatopsizing). its hard to do in an uplifting manner, believe it or not. unfortunately, i think that i, at a mere 16, have not struck brilliance as the wonderful Bryant did with his (thank you Monkey Twits Numero Dos). I'm am depressed. Must meditate on this...

1-12-03
MARILYN: 2:54pm. I have to go out to lunch in 2.5 hours. and i hav to write another 2 pages of histry, and the sad part is it has to make sense. kirst, we were so much funnier back in july, you gotta read the stuff we were saying, like i just did. procrastination. woo fucking hoo. so i tryed to live on my roof but it was too loud for the parental folk so i didn't. and now i have to write a paper. tonite its all about wok on precious stone. wooo!!
MARILYN: 9:22pm. I actually finished a long time ago. Like back at 4:30. very cool. its late start at school tomorrow so i have no real reason to go to bed. i might stay up and watch ER tonite. i think thats pretty sad. thats cause it is. my toilet is in sancho's driveway. and sneric won't tell me where he got them to begin with. so i may be lip glossless for a bit. sadly. maybe i should work on my paper. like research one due in May. its due in may. i'll do it later. ya. my theory on life. so a party after exams, whos up for it??

1-11-03
KIRSTEN: 6:43 PM. I thought it was the tenth but evidently not. We took down christmas decorations all day and had no idea where to put them, it was funny. we're kinda late, too bad. I drank lots of pineapple juice and sugarfree cherry water. I wish i was more interesting than marilyn. its kinda funny how she says i'm so much more interesting because it just shows how pathetically uninteresting i am. O well. Too bad tree broke, well not really. ok sorry i didn't really mean that. My dad and i had a hot date last night. We wanted a movie so we had to go buy a VCR and DVD player to watch it. SO we did that and i convinced him to buy the pretty one and the salesman laughed at us. Then we got Minority Report and Don't Say a Word. Minority Report was better than i thought it would be. We also got a sandwich and a salad and forgot the ice cream. I woke up this morning feeling very mundane and suburban. It was a beautiful day in suburbia, u know one of those sunny, warm, nothing special saturdays. I hate the suburbs!! Ok time to watch don't say a word. We can watch pg 13 and R movies now that my mom's not here. YAY!!byebye.
MARILYN: 7:32pm. Hey all. I had a day. And now I'm at Babs' place digesting more greek food than I've ever had in one sitting before. But before all this was kinda funny. I was studying, then my obnoxious brother decided he wanted to go get music from no where in particular so I had to drive him around, as my parents were out sampling granite. I had to use the Eurobitch because my dad had shoulder surgery and couldn't work his mini. Its a stick. Right so I had to drive him around and i bitched an awful lot about how bad muscic has gotten these days and I remember when it was just the beach Boys and the Beatles and all the clerks looked at me funny. I did buy Punk-O-Rama 8 (it reminded me of Ramen) and some random thing with Fatboy Slim. Don't mock me, i loved that song Out of My Head or whatever its called. But after he bought rocket from the cyrpt and Bad Religion (POP) (well, they haven't been forever and always but now after like 30 years they got all popular and so now I'm anti them. Like seriously ever since they opened for Blink it hasn't been the same) we went to tower and it was way expensive and had no cheap music for me (BOOHOO) but we did get to relive our 1st Rugburns concert in the parking lot there. Then, to make the trip worth it, i decicded we needed to stop at JoAnn's Crafts on the way home. I wanted to buy some cheap fabric and a purse pattern so as to make a purse. I thought that wasn't much to ask for. As it turns out i couldn't find any fabric cheap enouigh and the patterns for EVERYTHING are ever so hard to find. I'm bringing Baba back with me some day so she can find them. All this fabric store time (35min) as compared with his music time (1.5 hours) really pissed him off so he was screaming the whole way home and finally i got so pissed off i just stopped the car in the middle of the road and told him to get out. he didn't, naturaly being the assfucker he is. so i had to drive him home, but locked him out of the house (my parents were still purusing the granite) awhich pissed him off further. he can screw himslef. then i did more history (woo fucking hoo i hate you too BBB). and then out to dinna (i feel like dropping the odd H and R for some reason) with Banana and Babs. And we're going out for non fat frozen yogurt soon. when i take some advil and they're done with the large collection of guitars the genius Failys seem to have. so i'm gonna go get water and try to convince them of my yogurt cause. later.
MARILYN: 8:18pm. Banana and I are going to steal Babs' hips in the night, teehee. A picture comparing my calves to kirsten's to babs' go HERE. Ok, i do realize how random that was, but we shall see.
MARILYN: 10:07pm. The yogurt was good but i drank too much...... (water)

1-10-03
MARILYN: 3:42pm. I wish i was as good a writer or thinker or whatever as kirsten. i swear its not fair. so i'm here at school, and the cheerleaders were stalking us so we went to the library. now donnah and coy have left me. and binky. so i am alone. oh woes me. well, after i finish this i will go for to see them. how lovely. so i have a shit load of home work to do this weekend. most of it invloves the BBB and her sadistic schedual to fit everything into one smemster. this week alone, we have had an essay test, a bibliography that had to be LONG, and a 5 page paper due on next Mnday. Thats what i'm doing this weekend. and like thats all i'm doing. seriously. well, i am giong out for arabian or something with babs, and tonite i get darling frankie. but oh, the rest will be devoted to the hateful Triple B. so this hawaii thing, my mommy made the reservations today, so i'm like going to hawaii!!! yay!! i'm sure kirsten will be having her own version of hawaii with her family. well, hawaii with out the beaches and nice weather and with out babs. so really she'll be in family hell. but i will call hger illegally on her cell phone alot so she'll be ok, i hope. it would be quite awful if she did not survive ski week. i would be all alone on the internet, sharing my life with people who don't care, but it would be so much worse because people would care less because we all know kirst is the interesting one. so sad. i'm not terribly jealous though. right so i think i'm gonna go watch some hard core Boys JV soccer now. it'll be fun, i swear....
MARILYN: 5:47pm. So i'm watching TV. Right then. So i got home successfully. Ad tree broke at the soccer game so i drove him home. his knee is hurted. i'm glad to be home where i will study history for the next 48 hours. lovely eh? right. so i'm gonna go do something thats not typing here, because i am well not a total loser. right??

1-9-03
MARILYN: 7:30pm. Well, i have alot of work and haven't really started yet. so this might be short. well, ya. its gonna be short. so, uh, i have homework. maybe i'll go do that. oh, and i hate the lizard king less. haha, ya.
KIRSTEN: 9:39 PM. My dad's being mean, my brother's always mean. Marilyn's making fun of me and saying i'm cute when i'm angry, she's making me even angrier and i suppose she thinks that's cute, at least she can't see me. Everyone seems so distant lately, i don't know what it is. I guess i'm low on energy and have HW to do all the time at school and same with everyone else. Everyone seems like they don't really want to talk to me and they want me to leave them alone and they don't connect with me at all. I miss the good old days, well not really but the days when everyone was talking and laughing with me and everything. I'm worried about some people but i won't say names. God help them. I am talking to marilyn and the lizzard king. Pepsi makes u burp more than any other soda, sunny d makes ur intestines hurt and lindt lindor truffles have 3 truffles per serving. it's a sad thursday, never any time and everyone seems sad and distant as i said. People are so beautiful and so ugly at the same time. bye.

1-8-03
MARILYN: 7:02pm. WEll, i'm watching the simpsons. school was, uh, school. i'm thinking, no really i swear. haha. like i'd do that. nothing really happened today. i mean, it was a normal wendsday. how the fuck do you spell that?? well, whatever. kirst had a soccer game today. she did good, from what i saw. i had to leave early, but she rocked, and of course babs did too. should i write a sonnet in spanish? maybe i should. but then again. that would be hard. well, maybe i'll go try.
KIRSTEN: 7:48 PM. i realized today that people really do look like their dogs, u know like in 101 dalmations. There was this woman who looked exactly like her white fluffy terrier and our coach had like the same color eyes as her dog, and its a weird color. We lost the game 3-0. Marilyn saw the good part, without her support we lost heart. It was really embarrassing cause like the entire guys JV team was watching cause it was their practice. We did sit ups and babs had fun with her abs. I put ritzbitx on her knees and made her sit up to eat them, it was really funny. Life without mom here is like when you wake up at 6:30 cause ur alarm goes off and then after groaning about waking up, you realize it's Saturday, but this is even better than that. No nagging, no fighting, no worrying about grades or being grounded or yelled at or having priviliges restricted. We ate at the mall. That is me and bro and dad. There were these annoying tourists i think that spent like 2 turns at the picture machine cause they ran out of time cause they were tryign to look good and push each other out of the way, it was funny. There was this dad telling this little girl "babies can't go in the picture thing. ONly people who are in kindergarten." little girl: "but i am in kindergarten" Dad: silence... Really sad to watch them. I just watched the tape of david westerfield's questioning. It was really awful, he's such a jerk and he's ugly, even if he didn't rape and kill a little girl he was making the world a worse place, he needs help, too late though. The police were actually really nice too. Blew off history outline, o well, no one cares, i don't have to do it anyway. As marilyn said a typical wednesday. I realized that therapy should not be helpful, it just makes people feel like their issues are worse and they are to be pitied and the more you focus on yourself the worse you feel anyway and the worse you get, they just want you to come back for more, more money for them. That was kinda random. Marilyn, i would hide the scale too, eat some more salami for crying out loud and i hope i can live with u, ur mom is nice, is that normal or a sudden thing?? I'm glad i can be your sis if my dad will snap out of his anal phase. byebye.

1-7-03
KIRSTEN: 12:04 PM. Well i'm at school if u didn't guess. OUr center spread for the paper is sex, it'll be fun. IN the staff box we're all gonna be STDs or STIs as a certain batie corrected us on. I'm sorry i've been absent. I'm living the good life without one nagging parent, the worst one. Supposedly everyone was reading this to find out where she went. I hope they were succesful cause my mom wants me to lie about it but i can't lie and it's even worse to not be able to talk to your own friends. it's typical of her to think that friends are just for decoration and u never really talk or anything. Santa ana here still, Huge wind last night, got like a half hour of sleep. I felt like i was in an african desert with my little sarong on my ceiling blowing in the wind and the hot air and stuff. SOmeone prank called last night to tell us that they were the police and our car was wrapped around a telephone pole. it was in the garage. What dorks would think that was fun. I love this weather which is why i want to go to texas for college. I think i really do. i mean it's like this but with less disturbing wind and farer away. I want to stay at marilyn's house for finals. my dad's being a poo about it. i don't want to be social so i'm doing this alone. bye see ya later.
MARILYN: 12:57pm. Well, I didn't write last night, I had a paper that took a really fucking long time. I thought it weould be like 5 minutes, but i got a little distracted. Oops. Anyways, i still haven't. Tonight. Tonight. I'll be ok, Tonight. And dah da dah dahadaaaaaaaaaaa Tonight!!! Thats from West Side Story were the boys looked like PR chicas. It was funny. Anyways, I'm in the biblioteca. The little children in the Music room are singing the little mermaid. i am insanely jealous. a minute ago i started mouthing the words and everyone was like staring at me, like what the fuck, why does she know the words to taht song. Its the the Part of Your World one. I love that song. Its alwasy embodided, like, me. I've alwasy felt left out. So I wanna go, where the people are, I wanna sing, wanna see them dancing. And So on. I do. Ah. Too bad I already did my espanol. I'm bored stiff. Kirst is right about the wind. Its like blowing. I think sailing this afternoon might turn out fun. How bizaar. My mom, being nice for once, offered to write me a note saying that i hurt my hand or something, if i didn't want to sail for a while. i decided i'd see how today oges, and if it sucks, i'll take her up on that. i wouldn't mind not having to be with those people for a while. on another note, my parents hid the scale. i'm pissed. so i have no idea how much more to go. so far today i've only had a bagel and 2 milks. Thats not bad. If a crew this afternoon and run before i shower tonite i can eat a normalish dinner. since i mgith have to. bah. stupid parents. oh, wait, my mom did another nice thing. she said kirst could live at our house for exams. yay!!! and shes like, if kirst needs anything i'll drive her around or take her shopping or what ever she needs. she likes kirsten better than me. oh well, i might get a sis for a week!! yay!! other than all that though, my life sucks. there isn't just one reason. but i'd like to point out that A certain Lizard King is being dumb. He was my Lizard King.... haha. ya. so i'm sad that hes totally cutting me off. till feb. we were gonna have an after exams party too. fuck. fuck life. only like 5 more minutes of lunch, so i think i'm gonna go get my books. woo fucking hoo. later.
MARILYN: 1:58pm. I'm in spanish class writing poems. or, more accuratly, have writer's block and not being able to write poems. I only have to do two more though. I fixed me old ones. So now i have to sit quietly and be inspired. and i better get inspired to write something long too. all of mine a pretty short so far. i mean, he said that was ok, but i'd like to get an A or so on this project. Maybe i could write it about the little mermaid. am i stuck on that or what? how pathetic. the other day on the internet, i found this cool other language thing. Its called esperanto. its like part romance language, part germanic, and supposedly really easy to lear. i wonder if i have time?? no one speaks it as a first language, but its supposed to make learning other languages easier. which would be sweet. anyways. i'm going to actually do a little tiny bit of work. what should i fucking write abuot?? the lizard king.....

1-6-03
MARILYN: 6:02pm. Just a little something before i get around to doing some hardcore working on like ever fucking thing that seems to be to due in the next 5 days. mondays bite my ass. i developed a coping stratgy to help my coping stratgy. because the regatta sucked, and the other is too messy. You have to wait 24 hours from when the thought entered your head. then, you have to typw at least one page on why you need to do this, then you may do it. life needs rules. thats the only way i can lose weight or not do my bad habit. so its been like 24, and i still want to. but i'll write later. tonite. i have floot. i get the teacher this cute little big bird playing the floot thing that you hang on a christmas tree. its cute. Donha, Coy, and Beeky all read the website today in the library. Donha said it sounded like thos e teenager diary things that everyone reads, and i love, but kirst hates. i thought that was cool. we should write a book together. What to call it though? "Two Juniors: thoughts on capitalism" would at least be funny. people would read into it for the capitalism part. and it would be funny to read reviews of. like, no, thats not what i was going for in that section. thats what really happened. you're making things up about my meanings. all i meant was we got ramen. its not a middle eastern commentary!!! haha. wow. So going back to schol sucked. i have like a thousand things due. I didn't even do the old testicle paper. the TV is calling my name. NO!! i must work. work and watch TV. who thought that up? it really doesn't work. oh, babs is taking my dog to prom. Elwood would look cute in a tux, don't ya think?? once i figure out how use the digital camera i'll put a cute little picture of him on my page. hes fluffy. thats really his main personality trait. that and hes a flake. and a blonde. and a republican. and 1/5th polar bear according to my father. i think hes just jealous cause the dog has like more hair than he ever did. also, elwood smells better than them, even when hes not been bathed in a while.n them is my family, for the record. oh that to reminds me of something. i like pissed my pants on the way home for school. i was speeding, per usual, and then i see a silver mini cooper, that car my dad drives, pull out in front of me. i like wet myself. cause there aren't that many minis around yet, and it was the same color and style and everything as his. i like drove 25 until it turned off on some street in PB. It was scary though. i was gonna die. like fuck, my dad is going to kill me, and the court won't do a thing cause i was breaking the law. i won't even get a nice chance to say bye bye. how sad. i guess. well, i'll go fake working for a while. back later tonite, after i write my page so i have gotten rid of emotion. er, one more thing though. no, i forgot. well, later.

1-5-03
MARILYN: 8:48AM!!!!!! how could i be awake at this hour? oy. this is just a little something for the stalkers. so they feel as thugh they get their Marilyn for the day, as when i get home around 6, i will have to write a 3 to 4 page paper with out any sources because my mom threw them away. Normally, when there is a pile of xeroxes that look important, she throws them away. i guess thats what i get for using a copier. fuck her. not that this paper really matters, but i'm already like failing participation in this class. and tests. and papers. and so on. well, i must go, the thrower awayer is calling.

1-4-03
MARILYN: 10:09pm. duh. right so i just realized that we should move theold stuff over to a new month, but babs is over and we're doing christmas cards. yes i know its jan, we just went over that. so we go sushi and babs and kirst but had like 4 bites. make me feel like a pig. all i did today was bitch and eat. that was truely all. the funniest thing happened at the regatta, thats in the ghetto of long beach for all you stalker types. Anyhow, i came home for the night and mrs. tinkle (franks mommy) decided that was a horrible thing for us to do and we were pulling the team apart. its already broken. hick wasn't even staying in her damn hotel. fuck her. and there was good that happened today too. Pillory was, as usualy, a cocky little bad sailor. and being thus, she got ready to go out first, because the good teams sail first, the the bad, then the good, then the bad, and so on. Right so she was being cocky and getting ready before the coach told us who was sailing what. That wouldn't normally be funny, but frank had previously asked to sail with Quinn, because of various reasons i won't list here. anyhow, the coach talked for like an hour and then at the end he was all like casual, Pillory, you're 2nd with Hick, and Quinn, you go out first with Frank. Aan Pillory stood up all of he sudden and like screamed in a really pisssed off voice, "WHAT????". fucking hilarious. and she spent the rest of the day telling us about how hard it was not startin first (me and buggy didn't sail at all) and how fat she was. needless to say we took a really long lunch and carried all of Mrs. tinkle's shit to her car when she decided that it wasn't cool for us to be on her team and poor. so as buggy drove me home, we bitched and moaned alot and her little brother was odd, but it was alright because he always is. so i guess thats it, as babs wants the computer. gah i say!!

1-3-03
MARILYN: 7:42pm. So here i am. woo hoo. i've been out all day. having fun you know. Now, you'll all have to e-mail me to tell me what you think, but should we, me and babs, get the tea set. the play set, or the things that get bigger in water. well?? i'm a loser baby, so why don't kill me?? later...
KIRSTEN: 10:01 PM. Well i'm back, we drove back today. I'm not getting the bronco cause it needs a new fuel system and the mechanic even told me to give up, well he told my dad. i don't really care, i could tell it wasn't really the right car anyway, i was just denying it. O i sound pathetic but i was serious. My mom's gonna be gone for 4 to 6 weeks and she doesn't want me to say y and i had to take some stuff out of previous entries cause she likes her privacy on certain subjects. I had fun up by tahoe, it was kinda sad i didn't see marilyn. The workers jackets where i was had the name of where she was on them too, kinda weird. I don't like the snow. I especially didn't at first but kinda got over it. I had fun with my cousin and last night my gramma did this huge fart we will never let her live down. BY the way marilyn, she wants us to come live with her anytime. She wants us to come up some weekend too for a practice run, whenever. SHe said not august though cause she's gonna be here at her timeshare. I thought july would be good. o my cousin said he wants to come live with her too. My gramma said u wouldn't like him, he thought taht was funny, well it was funny. well i did have fun on vacay but i genuinely missed everyone so much. I'm kinda glad my mom's gonna be somewhere else for a long time. I mean its good for everyone. She's learning stuff and its good for everyone to have a little seperation, life seems so much brighter now. well sounds like a party's happening tomorrow, i want to see everyone so bad and i want to actually go back to school. i lost taht book we have to read for english somewhere, o well, i can wing it like the other one, haha. i just finished that one though. I met this english teacher that was going back to school at chico state on the lift. He knew what book it was and was talking about puritan undertones or something like that. He also asked my psat scores, my dad told him cause i forgot and he said the world was my oyster and i could get in anywhere with above a 1250 on the SATs. Someonw's been lying to us. They tell us we have to get like 1500s. don't listen, he made me feel so much better. well life is pretty peachy now. U know what else is sad, i missed my soccer team. I really did, my dad laughed when i told him that. My dad loves cake, the band u know, its his only CD. ok gonna look at colleges some more, the prospect of near freedom always makes me happy. I randomly yelled "1 and a half years!!!" like 10 times this week. i agree that lord of the rings 2 was kinda crap, especially compared to the 1st one, whoeevr said it was better is screwed up, in other words, my brother. U know what i did new years eve? we saw a torchlight skiers parade and fireworks at 5, the stars were a lot prettier and cooler anyway. then we watched home alone 3 through midnight. I went outside and watched some cracklers and listened to some yelling and foghorns. did u know frango mints have liquor in em?? haha. o for marilyn and babs. There's an accapella group at the U of chicago called Ramen at the PArk. byebye adoring fans, or in other words, marilyn, luv ya.

1-1-03
MARILYN: 5:53pm. I just got back. In case you've been wondering about kirst, shes in tahoe right now. We were like 20 miles away from eachother. Pretty said. Anyhow, she'll be back friday which wil be nice since i go off to rose bowl sat morning. lovely eh?? yes well i thought so. i have some school work to do, and i don't really have much to say about the past week yet, other than that lord of the rings wasn't that great, i mean okish, but whatver. certain sanchos might kill me now. oh bother. well, the best part, or so thought i, was the part with the 2 hobbits and the tree thingie, where the tree is like you're not making any sense, but then again you are small. i was like cracking up. and its not really that funny. but itwas. why does smallness make someone less sensical. i must be very small. anyways, i got a very little bit better at skiing, and had a good time, and i am now home. tomorrow i get contacts!! yay vision!!!!