When I was a child, my father told me I am Chinese.
But my grandad said he hated Chinese.
His brother was killed by the nationalist.
Some of his friends were also disappeared without reasons.
In order to escape from it, he joined the Nationalist.
He said: he collected anti-nationalist information to the Nationalist.
And he cried suddenly,with his hands full of the blood of his friends.

When I was in high school, although I wondered,
I was a surely Chinese.
I stared at the national flag with great respectfulness.
I knew Chiang Kai-shek was a Chinese savoir.
I also knew the nationalist would reunite China again.
We needed to save our people suffering in mainland.
I sung highly 'I am Chinese'.

In high school, my history teacher told me:
The history textbook is fake, the nationalist made up their history, and
Taiwan is a dangerous place.
In the 1996 presidencial election, the missiles launched from mainland seemed to prove his assertion.
I started to think about the future of Taiwan.
However, Taiwan and mainland seem unwilling to talk.
Mainland says, Taiwan is a part of it, and Taiwan is a rebelling province.
And, mainland won't give up to blood-washing Taiwan.
So, should I still be a Chinese?

I got scholarship, to go to the University.
By accident, I went overseas.
Since I left my homeland,
I found the Republic of China not a nation.
No country recognises it...
The more I study,
The more I feel exhausted.
Taiwan is a forgotten orphan in the world.
And I, am the orphan of the orphan.

The 9 21 earthquake threw Taiwan into turmoil,
Which also shooked me.
When every effort was being made on saving lives in Taiwan.
The blood-linked mainland, NO, I should call it China.
China blamed Taiwan for an 'earthquake diplomacy'.
Any relief parties and goods had to be sent to China first.
CNN reported my fellows were shouting and wailing,
And I also heard the damn blame.

I am no longer a Chinese.
I remember I addressed to myself: I am a Taiwanese.

Chinese, I finally got rid of the name.
Nevertheless, Taiwan can't get rid of China as easily as me.
I hate China and the reason why Taiwan is unable to decide its own future.
After all, Taiwan is the only place for me to call home.

However, I can't betray my principle as a Taiwanese.
My hatred to China, fatefully lets me to be a rootless orchid.

Shyr Tzyy