Chapter Twenty Five

"Make me your lover, I'll make your dreams come true, baby I would change my ways if I could be with you..."

The realization shocked her and she backed up a step, looking away from him. She didn't want to listen, she didn't want to hear how inadequate she was and how he didn't care what happened to her. It hurt the first time, if she had to hear it again, it'd kill her. She backed up another step.

"Alecia..."

"No...don't say anything, I just wanna leave. Let me go."

"No."

"You can't do this, you can't keep me here. Don't you get it, I don't want to hear it. I don't want to hear what you have to say." She moved over to the door, her back to him. She felt him come up behind her and she braced herself...for what she wasn't sure. She felt his hands on her shoulders and she sighed.

"Take your hands off me...now. " She whispered.

"Alecia please...would you just wait."

She shook her head and felt herself being turned around.

"You're expecting someone, please, I just want to get out before she gets here."

"She is here."

Alecia stared at him, "Ok ok, fine...fine. What? What are you dying to say? What is so important that you had to lock me in your room to tell me?"

"I'm sorry."

She stared at him, "Huh? What?"

"I'm sorry for what I said and most of all...what I did."

"Whatever, it's fine...I don't care. You don't have to explain yourself to me."

"It's not fine, and I know you do. If you didn't, you wouldn't have gotten all upset before."

"You don't know me well enough to tell me how I'm feeling so just stop ok. I've listened, now let me go."

"I'm not finished."

Alecia sighed and crossed her arms over her chest.

"I had every intention of keeping that promise. I mean it."

"Ok fine, that's great. Can I go now?"

"No."

Alecia rubbed at her forehead. "Nick..."

"I'm sorry for what I said, what you think of me matters, probably more than it should. I'm not used to caring about what people think. I didn't mean what I said about no guy wanting you either, I was angry and I wasn't thinking. I know it hurt you, I know you're gonna deny it, but I can tell. You act like it doesn't hurt behind that tough exterior of yours, but inside it's killing you. I'm sorry I said it, I can't take the words back. I wanted so much to change for you, to show you I'm not like you think I am. I failed, I could've stopped it from happening and I didn't. Don't you see what I'm saying, I would do it. I would change the way I am for you. I do anything for you to give me a second chance, to let me be your friend again."

She turned to the door, she had to get out. It was too much...too much.

"Alecia, please..." Nick reached out for her arm. She shrugged his hand off and walked into the middle of the room and whirled around.

"No! No more! I can't take it. Don't lie to me! I don't want to hear it! You don't care Nick! You don't care about the people you hurt. I won't let you do this to me anymore, I won't let you hurt me more than you have. I won't." She admitted, dangerously close to tears.

"I won't hurt you anymore...." He whispered, slowly moving towards her. "I care about you...I care so much. That's why I'm doing all this." He exclaimed, gesturing to the candles and roses around the room. "For you...only you. Alecia...babygirl please..." He whispered, coming to stand before her. She stared at him, trying to stop the tears that threatened. She blinked and stepped back, and he moved closer to her again.

"No...Nick...don't....please....please...." She whimpered.

He reached out then, and wrapped his arms around her waist, pulling her close to him. "Don't fight it Alecia, don't fight me." He murmured. The tears spilled down her cheeks and he reached up and gently wiped them away.

"I'm so sorry...I never wanted to hurt you...you've got to know that." He whispered, leaning down to kiss her cheek gently. She sighed shakily, she couldn't move if she wanted to. She lifted her arms slowly to wrap around his neck and leaned into him, holding him. He tightened his grip on her and hugged her to him fiercely.

"Give me another chance, let me make it up to you. Let me change my ways." He sighed. She closed her eyes against his words and held him tighter.

"Nick..."

He pulled back then and she looked into his eyes. Sorrow and regret filled them, but there was something else. A longing of some sort. A need...a desire. She stepped back, and Nick tightened his hold on her and pulled her back to him.

"Don't fight me...please."

"I don't want to get hurt..."

Nick shook his head. "I won't hurt you...not anymore." He whispered as he slowly lowered his mouth to hers. Alecia was sure her heart had stopped as she felt his lips cover hers softly. Everything in her mind told her this was wrong, that she should stop. But she couldn't help but bring her arms back around him and pull him closer. She'd longed for this kiss, prayed for it. His lips moved slowly, over hers. She felt his tongue trail along her lips and she parted them. Oh this was wrong, so wrong, but it felt so right.

Nick sighed and all of his thoughts of their first kiss came rushing back. He wanted her so much. He'd craved her since he first met her, but it was different now. He wanted to hold her. He wanted to taste her, knowing that one taste would never be enough.

Craving your body all through the night, Feels like I'm going through withdrawals, I wanna hold you, I want you inside of these arms, I'm dying to taste you, I can't deny, Can't get it out of my mind, Please let me hold you, Cause I need your lovin' tonight

Alecia sighed as she felt his hands slowly pull her blouse out of her skirt and start moving it up her body. She lifted her arms as he removed it. She looked at him and once again his lips covered hers hungrily. She couldn't get enough, she could feel her body shaking as his hands expertly moved to her skirt and started to remove it.

He could feel her trembling as he slowly removed her skirt. His experience with women was something he'd always prided himself on, and it was never too hard to please a woman, but he found this to be so different. All of his experience didn't seem to matter now, he was self-conscious, as if this was his first time with a woman. This was so much more important than any other time. It had to be just right. He'd try his best to please her, cause that was all that mattered to him.

Whenever I'm near you, My love just comes down, Whenever I see you, I just want you around, Cause I wanna feel you all through the day and the night, Whenever I'm near you, It feels like bedtime

She closed her eyes as his lips moved down her neck to her throat and then her chest. She gripped his arms and bit her lip. She didn't want to call out, but his lips were driving her crazy. She felt herself being guided away from the middle of the room and then lowered onto the bed. She opened her eyes to find Nick staring down at her, rose in hand.

"See, I remembered that they were your favorite flower. I intend to follow the same path as this rose..." He whispered, as he slowly trailed the rose over her lips and down her neck to her throat and then her chest and lower still, to her stomach. "Everywhere this rose goes...I will." He stopped the rose just below her navel and looked into her eyes, with his free hand he gently spread her legs apart and moved the rose again. "Everywhere..." He murmured. He watched as her eyes drift shut.

Constantly thinking of things to do, Places where we can make love, I wanna freak you, I'll freak you wherever you want, Placing my kisses all over you, Caressing you so nice and slow, Oh how I want you, Girl there's something I want you to know

She didn't want that rose on her, she wanted him. Only him, she could feel her body already start to tighten at the thoughts running through her head. She'd never wanted anyone so bad in her life. She slowly opened her eyes to find that he'd removed his shirt, she reached out to caress him and felt him shudder. She moved her hands down to his jeans and started to unbutton them and lower the zipper. She started to pull them down when he took over and pulled them off and onto the floor. He turned back and slowly lowered himself on her, kissing her gently. He started at her lips, and moved down once again to her neck and then her throat and down her chest, sliding his hands under her to unfasten her bra and pull it off before continuing his descent. He teased her aching flesh, causing her to moan his name. No one had ever effected her this way before. She ran her hands through his hair and slowly moved her body beneath him as he made his way to her stomach, his tongue dipping into her navel as he gripped her waist. She squeezed her eyes shut, it was too much, the sensations coursing through her were taking her to her limit. She felt his hands slip inside her underwear and slowly start to lower them. She gripped the comforter in anticipation. Would it happen?

His heart was pounding, he'd dreamed of this and it was happening. He didn't realize until this moment how empty his life had been, how much he needed someone. She had him out of his mind, a day without her was too much. He needed her so badly. He slowly removed the underwear from her body, he could feel his own body shaking. He looked into her eyes as he lowered his head.

I get so lonely, Thinking about you, You are the only girl I dream of or think of at all, I'm so into you, Outta my mind for you, Say you can't go a day without me, Girl I love and I want you And I need you, I need you, I need you

Feel...all she could do was feel. His lips, his tongue, his fingers. Oh god it was so right, so right. Never in her most private thoughts did she ever think it could be like this. She couldn't control her body as her head thrashed from side to side and she called out for him as the wave of heat washed over her.

He heard her call out his name and he made his way slowly back up to her body, her eyes shut, breathing labored. "Alecia..." He murmured. She slowly opened her eyes and looked at him before running her hands down to his boxers and slowly start to remove them. He shuddered as she ran her hands down his waist. The heat was raising and he wanted nothing more than to be a part of her.

Do you get lonely, Thinking about you, You are the only girl I dream of or think of at all, Outta my mind for you. Girl I can't go one day without needing you, I just love you and I want you, I just need to hold you, you know that...

She pulled him down to her, she wanted, needed him now. She couldn't wait any longer. She looked into his blue eyes as he rested between her legs. Nick pulled away, he had to make sure...he had to know if she wanted this as much as he did. "Alecia...baby...I need to know...are you sure you're ok with this...?"

"Nick please...don't make me wait any longer for you. I want...want...you...now." She moaned.

"Alecia..." He whispered, brushing a strand of hair away from her face before kissing her gently. He brought his hands down to her hips and pulled her to him as he moved.

Whenever I'm near you, My love just comes down, Whenever I see you, I just want you around, Cause I wanna feel you, All through the day and the night, Whenever I'm near you, It feels like bedtime

"Bedtime"-By Usher

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