I, who possess the Darkness inside me... the Count of Darkness

k4r-kun is just an ordinary guy with an ordinary life. He is an Indonesian Chinese and he loves his family (especially his Mom and his little brother) and his friends very much. He was born on March 18th, 1981 and that makes him a Piscean. He used to be a student of Atma Jaya Catholic University of Indonesia and he is majoring in Accounting although he has no any interest on Accounting. He always considers that he is the stupidest person alive and he knows that he is right about that. He is known as a useless and worthless person but he does not care that much about that since he has decided to live as an introvert guy (that is the reason why he does not have many friends in his life -- but once he finds a good friend, he would be a loyal friend for sure). He is currently a big fan of Arisue Sei in YASHA, Ashihara Ryou in Kamen Rider Agito series, Fubuki Keisuke in Ultraman Cosmos series and Kitaoka Shuichi in Kamen Rider Ryuki series. His only obsession in his life is Ito Hideaki and he would do anything to meet this guy. He is also a proud member of IYF and ISF and he does not care that much about yaoi haters. Because of his own obsession, he used to feel confused about his own sexual preference. But he has decided that he would never care about his own sexual preference anymore. He is addicted to so many things in his life such as anime, manga, tokusatsu and of course, bishounen. That is the reason why he gave the name Bishounen no Sekai for his own weblog. At this moment, he is falling for the sexy voice of Alex Band, the vocalist of The Calling, who is also a bishounen.

Wish list
All Ito Hideaki's doramas and movies
Angel Sanctuary Postcard Book "Angelic Voice"
CLAMP no Eshigoto NORTH SIDE*
Hideakizm
Kamen Rider Ryuki: ANOTHER FACE
Kamen Rider Ryuki: NAKED SEVEN*
Ryuki Knight - Kamen Rider Ryuki VISUAL BOOK
Super Sentai Chouzenshuu
A new cell-phone, preferably Nokia 5510 or 7650
A new computer with the latest technology and Internet connection, plus a CD writer, a flat monitor, a printer and a scanner
Dreamweaver program

* = reorder (currently out of stock)

Favorite animanga characters

Aria
Arisue Sei
Cerberus (Kero-chan)
Chibi Inuki
Chii
Chikage
Dark Mousy
Himura Rikuou
Iwakura Lain
Kamina Ayato
Kasumi Karen
Kazuma
Kinomoto Sakura
Kinomoto Touya
Kokubunji Minoru
Kotoko
Kudou Kazahaya
Kurosaki Ken
Kurz Weber
Lady Une
Luna
Lune
Mibu Kyoshiro
Mireille Bouquet
Mishima Reika
Mizuki Kaho

Nagare Ryoma
Nakatsu Shuichi
Niwa Daisuke
Noin
Oni me no Kyo
Quatre Raberba Winner
Sakuma Ryuichi
Sanada Yukimura
Saotome Michiru
Sherrice Adjani
Shia
Shitou Haruka
Souma Ayame
Souma Hatori
Souma Hatsuharu
Souma Kisa
Souma Ritsu
Spinel Sun (Suppi-chan)
Sumeragi Subaru
Sumomo
Suu
Tenjou Utena
Umeda Hokuto
Yuumura Kirika
Yuzuki


Favorite seiyuu

Hisakawa Aya
Hoshi Souichirou
Inoue Kazuhiko
Inoue Kikuko
Kamiya Akira
Koyasu Takehito
Kuwashima Houko

Miki Shinichirou
Mitsuishi Kotono
Okiayu Ryutarou
Sakamoto Maaya
Sugita Tomokazu
Tanaka Rie
Yuzuki Ryouka


Favorite tokusatsu characters

Akama Kenichi
Ashihara Ryou
Fubuki Keisuke
Hikawa Makoto
Hoshikawa Gaku
Imamura Miku
Kanzaki Shirou
Kirishima Miho

Kitaoka Shuichi
Madoka Daigo
Momozono Miki
Ohgami Tsukumaro
Samezu Kai
Tezuka Miyuki
Yazumi Jun

Favorite dorama characters
Arisue Sei --- YASHA (performed by Ito Hideaki)
Hotto Kohji --- Female Announcer (performed by Ito Hideaki)
Ono Yusuke --- Antique ~ Seiyou Kotto Yogashiten (performed by Fujiki Naohito)

Favorite manga

Bishoujosenshi Sailor Moon
Cardcaptor Sakura
Chobits
Clover
Count Cain
D.N.Angel
Fruits Basket
GoHou Drug
Hanazakari no Kimitachi e

Inu Yasha
Mahou Kishi RayEarth
Meitantei Conan
Tenshi Kinryouku
Tokyo Babylon
X
Yami no Matsuei
YASHA

Favorite anime series

.hack//SIGN
Aquarian Age ~ Sign for Evolution ~
Ayashi no Ceres
Azumanga Daioh
Bishoujosenshi Sailor Moon
Captain Tsubasa
Cardcaptor Sakura
Chobits
Choudenji Machine Voltes V
Dragon Drive
Fruits Basket
fullmetal.panic!
Getter Robo
Getter Robo G
Gravitation

Inu Yasha
Jyuuni Kokki
Mahou Kishi RayEarth
Megami Kouhosei
Noir
Oudorobou Jing
Pita Ten
RahXephon
Saint Seiya
Samurai Deeper Kyo
Serial Experiments Lain
Shin Kidousenki Gundam W
Shoujo Kakumei Utena
X
Yami no Matsuei

Favorite tokusatsu series

Chikyuu Sentai Fiveman
Choriki Sentai Ohranger
Dai Sentai Goggle V
Denji Sentai Megaranger
Hyakujuu Sentai Gaoranger
Kaiketsu LionMaru
Kamen Rider Agito
Kamen Rider Black

Kamen Rider Ryuki
Kyukyu Sentai GoGo V
Megaloman
Uchuu Keiji Sharivan
Ultraman Cosmos
Ultraman Gaia
Ultraman Tiga

Favorite dorama
Antique ~ Seiyou Kotto Yogashiten
Kyuumei Byouto 24 Ji II
YASHA

Favorite movies
Bishounen no Koi
Lan Yu
Love Song (currently looking for this title)
Onmyouji (currently looking for this title)
Shurayukihime (currently looking for this title)

Favorite actors
Fujiki Naohito
Ito Hideaki
Nakamura Shunsuke
Stephen Fung

Favorite actresses
Koyuki
Matsushima Nanako

Current fave songs
Adrienne - The Calling
Aka to Kuro - ALI Project
Alive A Life - Matsumoto Rika
Annani Isshou Datta no Ni - See-Saw
Ao no Requiem - Tsubokura Yuiko
Can't Hold Us Down - Christina Aguilera feat. Lil' Kim
Canta per me - Kaida Yuriko
Canto Alla Vita - Josh Groban feat. The Corrs
Complicated - Avril Lavigne
Cui Hou Te Can Ie [Final Battle] - Jay Chou
Desert Rose - Sting
Dirrty - Christina Aguilera feat. Redman
Everlasting Love - SeYUN
eX dream - Myuji
Glaring Dream - Kotani Kinya
gravity - Luna Sea
Hemisphere - Sakamoto Maaya
Kamen Rider Agito - Ishihara Shinichi
Ki. Se. Ki - Takizawa Hideaki
Nageki no Rosario - JAM Project
Negai - Takizawa Hideaki
Obsession - See-Saw
Revolution - Kitadani Hiroshi
RHYTHM EMOTION - TWO-MIX
Sadame
Shout it loud - Scudelia Electro
Sleepless beauty - K. ITO + D.K
Sora no Screen ~ rainbow in my soul ~ - Takizawa Hideaki & Imai Tsubasa
SOUL TAKER - JAM Project
The Game of Love - Santana feat. Michelle Branch
To Where You Are - Josh Groban
TRUE - Shimokawa Mikuni
True Heart - Takizawa Hideaki & Imai Tsubasa
Wherever You Will Go - The Calling
Your Body Is A Wonderland - John Mayer

Current fave albums
Camino Palmero - The Calling
.hack//SIGN Original Soundtrack 1
Hatachi - Takizawa Hideaki & Imai Tsubasa
Josh Groban - Josh Groban
Stripped - Christina Aguilera
The Eight Dimension - Jay Chou

IYF :: I love Sei x Moichi!
ISF :: Aragorn x Legolas

The cursed ones
Honda Tohru - Delin
Souma Ayame - Wil-kun
Souma Hatori - Leeza-chan
Souma Hatsuharu - Anne-neechan
Souma Kureno - me
Souma Ritsu - Chikage
Souma Shigure - Ephi

People who possess the Darkness
Alex // Alexia // Angga // Anggun // Anjie // Aoi Ayanami // Aoi Housen // Aoi Minami // Aoki Hikaru // Aya Mikage // Azuya // Bart // Bunga // Cherie // Chihiro // Chii // Chikage // Choti Girl // Christa // Crescent // Dechi // Delin // Devin // Diva // Ephi // Eve // Eveana // Febriani // Ferrum // Fleur // Garnet // Hana // Haruka // Hendy // Hopes // Icchan // Jenn // Jess // Jingu // Kaoru no Kanojo // Kat // Kazuma-kun // Kenchan // Kou Yagami // Kourin // Kyo // Lyn // Leeza-chan // Makoto Ken // Mama Panda // Mamoru // Mars // Miaka // Olivia // Pau // Rain // Razzly // Roger // Ryuu Nagareboshi // Sangue // Silver Wind // Slasher Bird // Sumeragi Sakura // Tyas Palar // Wil-kun // Xera // Yos-kun

Other Websites
+ CLAMP +
+ Icchan +
+ Studio Neko-Han-Ten +
+ Super Sentai Official Page +
+ TV Tokyo - Anime +

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Realm of Darkness

I, who possess the Darkness inside me...

I came from this place...

I want to give my strength to you... (darkness)

Layout is by k4r-kun. Current layout is featuring Ito Hideaki and was created using Microsoft Front Page. Picture is taken from Ito Hideaki's photo book, Morocco, published by Kodansha.

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Thursday, December 12th, 2002

Song: I Knew I Loved You - Savage Garden

I'm so confused about my future now. My Dad asked me last night about my plan for my future and I didn't say anything... I have told him that I don't want to work as an accountant although I have graduated from the faculty of economic and my majority is accounting. If I had to say the truth, I would say that I want to have a job as a journalist or translator. Being an accountant is the last thing I have in my mind. I always feel that [being] accountant isn't a 'right' job for me... I hate accounting. And I keep wondering about one thing... 'kenapa gue bisa menyelesaikan kuliah akuntansi gue dalam waktu empat tahun?'. Can't understand that... I really can't understand that. My life is just so weird... >______<;;;;

Met my Grandma from my Mom's side and my uncle yesterday. They asked me whether I would get married... -_-;;; Well, I couldn't say anything. "I don't know" was the only answer that came out from my mouth. They're talking about marriage and happiness... about both things and their relations. I just can't understand them. For me, a marriage isn't the only way for me to get my happiness. There are a lot of ways for me to get my happiness and [maybe] marriage is the last thing. How could you expect a guy like me to get married? You want to 'kill' me? I'm still enjoying my freedom as a bachelor, for God's sake. I'm still 21 years old, too young to get married. I'm still a hot-blooded guy and I don't want 'any girl' to 'interfere' my life as my wife. I'm not ready yet to 'share' my time and everything with a girl... still have no interest to do it. Beside, I'm more interested in a relationship with a guy at this moment...

Social blogging's coming soon, 'kay? I'm not in the mood to do it... ^^;;;

k4r-kun --- 03.03 PM
(who worries about his future)

Tuesday, December 10th, 2002

Song: ---

Hari ini pulang ke Jambi. Nggak tahu harus senang atau sedih deh. Dua perasaan itu campur aduk di dalam diri gue sekarang ini. Lebih banyak sedihnya kalau gue bilang... nggak bisa ketemu ama IYF-ers lagi [untuk sementara waktu] dan nggak bisa melakukan 'hal-hal' yang tak mungkin dilakukan di rumah lagi. Yah, ini namanya konsekuensi kan? Gue yang memutuskan dan gue yang harus menanggung akibatnya.

Janjian ketemu ama Ajeng di kampus gue... Ajeng mo balikin VCD Antique gue. Rencana awalnya gue bakalan ke Kinokuniya untuk ketemu ama Ajeng tapi gue harus ke kampus dulu untuk ketemu ama teman gue [yang minjam VCD anime koleksi gue tapi belum dibalikin]. Gue bilang ke Ajeng kalau gue mungkin nyampe di Kino-nya bakalan agak telat soalnya teman gue datangnya juga agak telat... trus Ajeng bilang kalau dia sekalian aja nganterin VCD Antique gue ke kampus. Jadilah Ajeng ke kampus gue dan kita berdua sempat ngobrol sebentar. ^^;;; Thanks a lot, Jeng... and I'm so sorry.

Dan seperti yang sudah diduga sebelumnya, bagasi gue lebih berat dari bobot yang diperbolehkan oleh maskapai penerbangan. Untung aja kelebihan beratnya 'cuma' 6 kilo dan gue nggak kena charge untuk kelebihan beratnya. Padahal gue sudah ngira kalau gue bakalan disuruh bayar untuk kelebihan berat itu... ^^;;; ...total berat barang bawaan gue kali ini adalah 30 kilo lebih, yang 26 kilo masuk bagasi dan sisanya gue masukkan di ransel dan kantong yang gue bawa-bawa terus jadinya nggak usah dihitung sebagai bagasi. ^^;;;

k4r-kun --- 07.23 PM
(who feels nothing except exhausted)

Monday, December 9th, 2002

Song: Northern Star - Melanie C

The gathering today was fun!!! *grins* What can I say? It's such a great event for me (especially because I was the orugu of the gathering). I went to Plaza Indonesia at 10.00 AM because I have gone to the nearest Internet cafe but the connection was down there so I decided to go to Plaza Indonesia to access the Internet... well, I also had an 'appointment' with Icchan and Izark. After I had accessed the Internet, I went to Kinokuniya, the usual meeting place. I met Izark there but there was no sign of Icchan... but there was a girl who talked in Chinese... and it was Icchan!!! Since we never met each other before, I didn't realize the girl was Icchan and she also had no idea that the guy next to her was me... ^^;;; ...silly me!!! Because I 'did not' meet Icchan till 11.00 AM, I left Kino with Izark, seme-sama and one of Izark's friend. We went outside and then I met Tyas when we were sitting on the chairs. She came to Kino with her sisters. ^^ Ohisashiburidesu, Tyas. *glomps* After that, seme-sama and Izark told me that they wanted to go downstairs to find something... and I decided that I would accompany Tyas to go to Kino again. ^^;;;

When I was looking at Kamen Rider Agito - Three Guys Cry [one of the photobooks for Kamen Rider Agito series] (just realized that Kinokuniya had the book on their displays), Lemez came and she immediately talked to the girl who has stood next to me... and finally I realized that the girl was Icchan-neechan!!! Oh my God... *is totally speechless* ...I was so dumb!!! But I finally have met oneechan!!! *hugs*

I talked to oneechan and Lemez for a while before I went out from Kino [again] to meet seme-sama and Izark. It's almost 12 o'clock and I had to go to Plaza Senayan as soon as possible [before I got protested by the IYF-ers... *gets bricked*]. I went to Plaza Senayan with seme-sama, Izark and Izark's friend... when we arrived at Plaza Senayan, I got a SMS from Blue. She told me that she's going to be late for the gathering. After receiving that SMS, we went to the 'gathering's meeting point'... there was 'no one' there... 'no one' because I still had no idea that the girls who sat on the chairs in front of Wendy's were IYF-ers. *gets slapped* Since there was 'no one' there, I tried to call Anne-nee but there wasn't any 'response'... then I remembered that futago-chan would come to the gathering so I called her. She told me that she was at the food court so the four of us decided to go to food court to meet her [never thought that I would met Anne-nee there...]. Before I moved to the food court, my cell-phone rang. It's a call from Diva and she asked me if the IYF-ers have gathered in front of Wendy's and she told me that she has arrived at Plaza Senayan with Xera.

I finally 'found' that girls and then I went to the food court by myself to meet futago-chan. And she was there with Anne-nee and Ghia... *is speechless* ...and the fun began!!! It would be a long story... males nyeritainnya. *gets slapped* I also met Aoki Hikaru, Chikage, Febby, Mama Panda, Yos-kun, Blue, Nina, Nissa, Yuki-chan, and many many more girls... can't remember their names. *gets slapped [again]* There're a lot of quotes from today's gathering [for further information, you may visit here] and you can find pics here too. ^^;;; Yang jelas, acara gathering kali ini penuh dengan tampang-tampang ecchi dan pembicaraan-pembicaraan yang rada ecchi... *looks at certain girls* ...penuh dengan kehebohan yang menyenangkan. Bicara soal pairing, animanga dan segala sesuatu yang berbau yaoi.. mwahahaha, IYF rules!!! Too bad that Ajeng and Tyas couldn't come to the gathering.

Also got Ito Hideaki's Cross Fire from seme-sama. Sankyuuuuuuuu... *glomps and hugs* ...me wanna write a review on it!!! Ito Hideaki-samaaaaaaaaaaaaa..............

k4r-kun --- 09.00 PM
(who feels that the gathering today was a big success --- not because he was the orugu of the gathering, though)

Sunday, December 8th, 2002

Song: ---

Indonesian mode: ON
Habis berbenah kamar... dan oh my God, barang-barang yang harus dibawa pulang banyak banget!!! -_-;;; Duh, membayangkan bawa semua barang-barang itu pulang aja sudah bikin gue keder duluan. Mungkin beberapa barang musti di'hibah'kan ke orang lain buat ngurangin beban dah... *mulai menentukan barang-barang apa yang musti dikasih ke orang*
Indonesian mode: OFF

Had a 'fight' with my friend last night because of... [here we go again, folks] Leo. Well, it was my mistake but her reaction really made me feel bad and I exploded because of that. ^^;;;

Kourin, it's no use. You can't run and you can't hide from me and imouto-chan. *evil smirks* Don't waste your energy because you should know your struggle is useless. And about D.N.Angel volume 6, it's okay. You don't have to bow down like that, ya know?

Eve-san, I know it. You won't tell me and I will end up myself with a loud scream in front of the computer. Please don't use Sadako's picture as your layout... onegai. I'm afraid or horror movies and I can never watch a horror movie even if I had someone to accompany me. *coward* And Gon as your layout. I love that idea... that would be better than Sadako or Hisoka. *gets bricked* Oh yes, glad to know that you've received my SMS. Yokatta ne... I thought you didn't receive it [since the cellular traffics were busy for almost two days].

Added links to Christa, Makoto Ken, and Miaka's blogs. Welcome, minna-san. And thanks for your compliments. Thanks a lot. I really appreciate your comments.

k4r-kun --- 02.57 PM
(who has to go to Plaza Indonesia at this moment --- but he is still in an Internet cafe, enjoying himself)

Saturday, December 7th, 2002

Song: Be The Man - Celine Dion

Indonesian mode: ON
Gawat ini. Gue nggak bisa melupakan Leo sama sekali. Sama sekali tidak bisaaaaaaaaa!!! Aduh, rasanya gue kepengen banget menghantamkan kepala gue ke tembok biar gue bisa ngelupain dia... *mikir* ...tapi kalau nanti ngehantamin kepalanya terlalu kuat, gue bisa amnesia pula. Batal aja deh. ^^;;; Tapi emang benar, gue nggak bisa melupakan tuh orang. Ternyata kepergian dia ke Amrik (nggak tahu buat berapa lama) sama sekali nggak ada efek baiknya ke gue, malah gue jadi kepikiran terus ama dia. Oh my, sebenarnya apa yang sedang terjadi dalam diri gue ini? Apakah gue emang punya perasaan 'lebih' ke dia ketimbang ke orang lain? I mean, perasaan yang gue rasakan ke dia ini jauh lebih kompleks ketimbang apa yang pernah gue rasakan ke orang-orang lain. Kompleks dalam artian gue nggak pernah mikirin orang lain sampe selama dan sedalam ini. Gue bisa merasakan kalau 'pengharapan' gue akan kehadiran Leo dalam kehidupan gue jauh lebih besar daripada 'pengharapan' gue akan kehadiran orang lain di dalam kehidupan gue. Bahkan gue tidak tahu kenapa 'pengharapan' gue akan kehadiran dia jauh lebih besar daripada 'pengharapan-pengharapan' yang ada selama ini. Apakah karena dia jauh lebih 'realistis' ketimbang orang-orang lain? Ah, masalah ini tak akan pernah habis kalau gue pikirkan... bahkan kalau gue nggak memikirkannya pun, masalah ini tetap akan meng'hantu'i gue sepanjang hidup gue. Mungkin ini yang namanya 'takdir' yah... tapi terus terang, gue nggak pernah merasa menyesal karena telah mengenal Leo dalam hidup gue. Itu satu-satunya hal yang paling 'pasti' yang ada di dalam benak gue sekarang. Yang lainnya... gue hanya bisa menunggu dan menunggu saja sampai kepastian-kepastian itu 'datang' ke dalam kehidupan gue. Life goes on... and I know someday I'll find my soul mate.
Indonesian mode: OFF

Something's wrong with my old diskette and I just can't use it to edit my entry. And now I'm blogging with a new diskette. *kicks the old one* What's wrong with you?

Oneechan, udah pasti kok. Kalau sampe berubah lagi, aku bisa digebukin anak-anak yang lainnya. Cushion itu semacam bantal kecil yah? *ngangguk-ngangguk* Harap maklum aja, otouto yang satu ini emang rada 'kuper' kalau diajak bicara soal anime stuffs. PC tablet? Emang ukurannya segede apa tuh, oneechan? *buta teknologi* Ukurannya beda jauh ama laptop nggak tuh? ^^;;;

Anjie-imouto, kenapa langsung ngelirik ke oneechan sih? ^^;;; Nggak dong, tiket ama biaya hidup di Jakarta ditanggung sendiri. Kalau aku yang nanggung mah kamu pasti langsung belanja yaoi stuffs gila-gilaan. Aku kan bisa ngebaca niat kamu tuh... XP

Aoki, your friend said that my voice is the voice of an uke? *collapses laughing*

Bart, nothing's special about that. ^^;;; I just wrote reviews on tokusatsu. That's all.

Ephi, imadoki #3? Udah dong... ^^;;; ...ceritanya tambah kocak aja. Yah, teman-temanku yang cewek memang pengennya gitu. Cowoknya disuruh ngelindungin dia kalau pacaran. Aku sih... *noleh ke arah lain* ...nggak bisa berkomentar apa-apa selain cengar-cengir sendiri aja.

Kourin, D.N.Angel 6-nya udah aku beliin. PC tablet sih aku nggak nolak kok... selama ada yang ngasih sih aku OK aja. Tapi kalau disuruh beli sendiri... he he he, itu yang aku tolak. Prinsip hidup yang simpel kan? Dan mengenai masalahku, aku rasa aku sudah 'pasrah' aja yah... lagipula nggak ada gunanya memaksakan diri untuk melupakan orang itu. Jadinya aku cuek aja kalau mikirin soal dia... aku nggak mau mengingkari perasaanku lagi. Lagipula perasaan yang aku rasakan ke dia... bisa dikatakan lebih kompleks ketimbang apa yang pernah kurasakan selama ini. Jadinya aku pikir aku justru akan merusak semuanya kalau aku sampai menghapuskan dia dari kehidupanku... I mean, meskipun aku nggak jadian ama dia (ini gilaaaa...), tetap aja aku akan mengingatnya dia. Toh dia tetap temanku kan? *grins* End of story... the final conclusion.

Leeza-chan, I want a boyfriend? Did I say that? o______O;;; *gampang lupa* But for me, having a boyfriend wouldn't be very bad. At least I would have someone to love me. *shrugs* That's what I have in my mind when I think about boyfriend / girlfriend business. Talking about memories, I just can't forget the memories I've had in my life. Although some memories are painful, I just can't forget them. Yeah, you should meet us sooner or later, ya know? And about Kureno, I think he is similar to Kyou. Oh, your personality is a bit like Shigure's? *collapses laughing* *gets bricked and slapped* Eh, he also said that he wants a boyfriend? No comment... absolutely no comment!!! XDDD

Lyn, too bad that you can't come to the gathering. T_______T

Seme-sama, ngancemnya kayak gitu nih? ^^ Tetap aja gue nggak bisa ngopiin Love Affair kalau belum pulang ke Jambi.

Nothing's changed in my life, I guess. *looks above* My problem hasn't been solved at all but I have decided that I would consider it as a part of my life. Nuff said for now... *gets slapped*

k4r-kun --- 02.00 PM
(who knows that he can't forget 'the special person' in his life)

Thursday, December 5th, 2002

Song: ---

Dreamed about Leo last night. >______<;;; And that means I still can't forget Leo. Damn, what should I do now? I feel like I'm being haunted by my past memories. Ah, I just have no idea about what should I do in this condition. Oh well, let it be... *motto orang cuek* ...I know I can forget about him sooner or later. I just want to enjoy my life now... thinking about Leo won't turn my life into a hell, right? Finally I have made up my mind... thinking about Leo is not a forbidden thing for me. It's just so... so...

Speaking about loving someone, one of my friends (whom I used to fallin' love with) celebrates her birthday today. Happy birthday, Mega!!! She was one of my senior at campus and I realized that I loved her more than I loved any other girls in my life. But both of us realized that we wouldn't be able to 'continue' our relationship as a couple. Well, we did talk about that possibility but we ended up with one decision... nggak cocok!!! She's older than me... about three years old. *grins* Oh well, at least I didn't fall in love with a girl who has the same age with my Mom.

Attention to all bloggers and IYF-ers, a gathering would be held on December 9th at Plaza Senayan. The time for gathering is lunch time!!! If you're interested, you might come and join us. *sebenarnya sih gue ngarepinnya semua pada datang dan ngeramein acaranya*

Oneechan, just kidding. You know I won't ask you to bring such a heavy book like CLAMP no Eshigoto NORTH SIDE. I'm not that cruel. Anoooo... cushion itu apa yah? *tampang bego* Never heard about that before. And about my 'problem', thanks for concerning. I'm okay now. Soal acara gathering, I'll go to Kinokuniya, Plaza Indonesia before I go to the gathering. I still have to confirm my orders there.

Anjie-imouto, buy a laptop? *gets bricked by his parents* I think that's the last thing in my mind... a laptop is just too expensive for me. Can't buy one... except someone would be so kind to me and give me a laptop. Masalah setrika, nanti aja setrikanya kalau bajunya sudah numpuk. Setrika sekarang mah males banget... masih agak takut ama yang namanya setrika. And thanks for being a nice sister... dan kalau mau, sekalian ke Jakarta buat nyetrikain bajuku dong. *langsung digaplok*

Ajeng, layout baru elo bagus banget!!! Iya, gue balik tanggal 10 Desember, sehari sesudah gathering. Kalau misalnya elo datang ke gathering-nya telat, gue tungguin kok... asal elo kasih tahu gue aja. Hari Senin itu gue bebas seharian kok. ^^;;; Mau nunggu dari pagi sampe malam juga bisa kok, asal nggak kemaleman aja... kan gue juga musti ngepak sedikit barang lagi. BTW, oleh-oleh buat gue dari Majalengka... bishounen Majalengka yah!!! *langsung digaplok* He he he, just kidding.

Eve-san, I'm afraid of your new layout... ^^;;; ...but I must admit it's better than Sadako. Please tell me if you want to use Sadako's picture as your new layout. I'd prefer not to go to your blog for a week... I'm afraid of Sadako and I was freaked out last night when I saw the screenshots of USA's version of The Ring... kowaii... kowaii...!! >.< Yeah, and Gon is very very cuteeeee... I want to see him as your layout someday. I'm so demanding, ne? C'mon, please come to the gathering. I want to meet you again... want to talk to you again... and she has also asked you to come to the gathering, right?

Kourin, that's OK. Tambah satu buku mah nggak terlalu signifikan. Apalagi kalau cuman manga... ^^ ...kalau bukunya emang ada ready stock, sekalian aku beliin aja. Nanti kamu tinggal bayar di Jambi aja kalau aku sudah pulang. Tidur cepat kalau malam... hi hi hi, itu menyenangkan lho. Kadang-kadang aku suka mimpi indah kalau tidurnya cepat... *sebenarnya sih karena dasarnya emang pemalas* Hey, kalau mau main ama aku kan bisa tunggu ujian kamu kelar. ^^;;; Don't worry about that, 'kay?

Rain-san, you also hate ironing your clothes? *toss ama Rain-san* Me too. But I always wear T-Shirts so I don't have top iron them after I have washed them. He he he, T-Shirt emang paling praktis... nggak kelihatan terlalu lecek meskipun nggak disetrika. *gets bricked by everyone because of his laziness* And you don't iron your jeans and T-Shirts either? Same hereeeeeee...*grins* ...and thanks a lot for your advice and your point of view about my problem. I use the phrase 'forbidden love' because I think [that] my feeling for that person shouldn't exist. He's one of my friends and I don't want to break my friendship with Leo just because of that... but I just can't help falling for him. Eh, masa sih TagBoard gue nggak ada tombol "Enter"-nya? ^^;;; Nanti coba gue cek lagi deh... soalnya yang bermasalah dengan TagBoard itu bukan cuma elo aja. BTW, dateng ke gathering hari Senin nanti yah.

Seme-sama, are you sure you want to watch Love Affair? It's a hardcore film lhooooo... I have to warn you about that before I give you the copy.

For those who have tagged my TagBoard, I'll reply all your messages tomorrow. ^^;;; Gomen ne.

k4r-kun --- 01.00 PM
(who wishes for someone to come in his life)

Wednesday, December 4th, 2002

Song: ---

I have started to wash my own clothes since yesterday. And I needed more time to wash my clothes today. But I love washing my own clothes... but that doesn't mean I want to be a maid. *grins* I just love it. Yeah, I love washing my own clothes but I hate the ironing session... I never like the ironing session. *gets bricked* And I'm so thankful that almost all of my clothes are T-Shirts so I don't have to iron them when I'm too lazy to do it. *gets slapped* Hey, I really hate iron... or maybe I should say, gue takut ama setrika.

About my own feeling on Leo, I think I should forget him or I'll never be able to run away from my past. But that doesn't mean that I want to run away from the reality. I just don't want to be trapped in this kind of relation[ship] anymore. I want a 'healthy' one. I just want to consider Leo as my friend, not as someone whom I have a crush on. I want a normal life with a normal relation[ship] now... am I right? But speaking is too easy for me... I know I can't forget that guy in seconds. I need time... I need time... and I need someone to accompany me so I won't have the chance to remember Leo during the time. Gosh, why should I fallin' love with a wrong person [again]? But thanks God that Leo is going to go to America today...

Anjie-imouto, karena kalau nggak dijual, tuh komputer bakalan menuh-menuhin rumah aja. Di rumah aja udah ada dua komputer. Tambah satu lagi mah rumahku yang jadi tambah sempit. ^^ Lagian komputer yang ada di kost itu juga yang biasa-biasa aja... jadinya dijual juga nggak terlalu rugi. Nanti kalau kuliah lagi, minta ganti komputer yang lebih canggih dong. *langsung digaplok* About Leo, I really like him... but I don't think that I'm good enough for him. *gets slapped* Well, I do like guys and girls. That's my explanation for now. Thanks for supporting me, imouto-chan. *hugs*

As-chan, who knows if you're a YASHA fans now? *gets bricked*

Ephi, since when I became your...? *is running away* Glad to know that you're not angry with me. You're out of credits? Hey, I like your new layout. It's very cute. A boyfriend or a girlfriend? *is confused* I can't decide about it now. But I think I'd prefer a boyfriend now... I just want to be protected by someone, I still have no idea about how to protect a girl. What are you doing in front of Meme's computer? ^^;;;

Kacoa, emang motong sungut itu pekerjaan mulia kan? *langsung kabur sebelum benar-benar disungut ama Ratu Kecoa* Kalau sudah begitu, mendingan nggak usah kirim bishounen ke kamu deh. Nanti kalau sudah masuk harem milikmu... nggak bisa balik lagi!!! *geleng-geleng kepala* Lebih baik mengamankan semua bishounen milikku aja ketimbang dikasih ke kamu. ^^ Bishounen yang disungut itu yang kayak apa? Yang uke banget? *langsung ngelirik seseorang* Chotto matte, kapan kita ketemu dan kapan kamu bakalan cerita soal itu ke aku? Heran juga ama kamu dan teman-temanmu... apa tukar-tukaran makanan itu sudah merupakan kebiasaan lama? Ke... kecoa sungguhan buat nari balet? *langsung kabur sejauh-jauhnya* Nggak mau. Biarpun judulnya "Kecoa Lake" juga aku nggak minatttttt... setidaknya kan aku masih bisa tolerir ama kostum kecoa. Ketimbang kecoa beneran mah mendingan kostum kecoa kemana-mana lah... aku yang jadi sponsor buat kamu ke Jakarta? *langsung kabur [lagi]* Bayar sendiri dong... XP ...asalkan banyak latihan, kayaknya ngomong bahasa apapun juga nggak terlalu susah kok. Kalau jarang latihan mah susah yah... kapan bisanya kalau gitu? Pasti lidahnya juga keplintir-plintir terus. Lho, kamu masih terus ngutukin asdos-asdos yang rese itu yah? Kirain udah enggak ngutuk-ngutuk lagi. Areeeeeee... traktir di kantin? Nggak mau... yang mahalan dong. XD

Kourin, abisnya kalau nggak pulang ke Jambi, pulang kemana lagi? *pouts* Kalau ada yang mau kasih kesempatan ke aku buat tinggal di Jepang sih aku nggak bakalan nolak. *digaplok* Bawa oleh-oleh yang banyak? Bawa diri aja udah repot, apalagi kalau bawa barang-barang deh. Bisa teler di airport nanti. Kecuali kalau ada orang yang sukarela ngangkatin barang sih lain lagi masalahnya. ^^ Nggak ada komputer di kamar kost juga bukan masalah gede kok... he he he, aku kan malemnya bisa tidur lebih cepat. Paling jam 10 malem udah ngantuk dan tidur. Don't worry about that. Ngebongkar-bongkar file lama nggak jadi masalah kok. Yang menguak luka lama cuman kejadian yang kemarin itu kok... ah, seandainya saja aku bisa memutarbalikkan waktu. *kicks his friend* Dia emang harus tanggung jawab karena sudah menyeret aku ke dalam masalah ini kok... mengenai masalah hubungan kamu dengan 'seseorang' itu, I can only wish the best for you. Memang suatu hubungan itu tidak bisa dipaksakan, biarkan saja 'mengalir' dengan sendirinya. Kalau memang sudah jodoh, pasti jadian kok.

Leeza-chan, you can say like that. Past love... sounds very... *is speechless* ...have no idea. You know, sometimes it's very hard for me to deal with memories... but sometimes it's just too easy to deal with memories. Well, you should meet both of us. But we never joked around, right? *is kinda confused* Yeah, emang Kureno itu rada lemot kan? Mirip banget tampangnya ama Kyou... *glomps* Yeah yeah yeah, you're not near Ha-chan anymore. ^^;;; Sekarang malah lebih mirip ama Ayame atau Shigure tuh. *langsung digaplok*

Ah, I'm sleepy... but I have to go to Kinokuniya today to confirm my orders. ^^

k4r-kun --- 01.30 PM
(who feels so lonely now)

Tuesday, December 3rd, 2002

Song: Crazy For You - Madonna

Still not in the mood to blog with English. Udah ah... pake bahasa campuran aja. ^^;;;

Masih bete ama teman gue. Semalam gue paksa dia untuk menyampaikan perasaan gue itu. Nggak boleh nolak!! *kejam* Dan teman gue dengan santainya bilang "Lho, yang suka ama dia kan kamu. Kenapa musti nyalahkan aku dan nyuruh aku nyampein perasaan kamu ke dia?"... dan langsung aja gue berserk. Yeeeee... yang salah emang gue, tapi dia kan juga ada andil dalam masalah ini. Coba kalau gue nggak dipaksa ke gereja, kejadian macam ini mah kagak bakalan terjadi.

Anne-nee, you're welcome. I like being an orugu like now. At least I still have a job to do. It's better than doing nothing. Oh yes, you have received my SMS on Sunday, right? Yokatta ne. You asked her to bring her brother to the gathering? ^^;;; I wonder what would happen next. About X PS game, one of my friends said that Aoki, Kakyou and Satsuki aren't playable characters. Jadinya emang dari sananya nggak bisa maen pake ketiga orang itu. But Karen is a hidden character for sure. Hope this information could help you. ^^ And about the keys... kok bisa yah? At least your neighbor should has the duplicate keys. And your neighbor went to your Dad's office to get the key? Oh my God... ^^

Oneechan, you're welcome. It's my pleasure to help you. Hey, if you like the illustrations on a novel, you can buy it. I just can't buy novel because I don't have enough money to buy it. ^^ If you have the money, just buy it. I also want to buy a novel (with a lot of cool illustrations) if I have the money. Okay, I'm waiting for you now. I want to meet you, oneechan... let's have a fun gathering!!!

Futago-chan, gue usahakan yah... nanti hasilnya tergantung polling juga. Tapi sampai sejauh ini, Plaza Senayan sudah unggul kok. ^^;;;

Anjie-imouto, aku hanya nggak mau mem'perpanjang' masalah aja kok. Aku masih belum niat nyerah tuh... XP ...cuman emang aku lagi nggak mood aja untuk mengacaukan hidupku sendiri.

As-chan, I love your new layout very much. It's very very cute. May I ask you for a favor? Chobits's spoilers, please. *gets bricked* BTW, the flamer on your TagBoard... benar-benar patut dikasihani. XP

Chikage, your new layout is very beautiful. But I can't find your TagBoard and your social blog section. Where are they? ^^

Dechi, that's because... ^^;;; ...I like Ito Hideaki very much!!! Now, where is your new entry? *siap-siap ngejitak Dechi*

Diva, OK. Ajak aja Xera ke gathering-nya. Siapa tahu kita bisa ngajak dia balik ke IYF lagi abis gathering ini. :)

Ephi, kemana aja dikau? Lagi bete ama aku yah? T______T

Eve-san, layout barunya... *kabur* ...kowaii!! Kenapa nggak pake gambar Gon aja? About the gathering, I think it would be a mixed gathering. *gets bricked* I wish that you would come to that gathering. I won't poison you for sure. My futago-chan has asked you to come to accompany her, right? ^^ And you might meet Icchan too. *is trying to persuade Eve-san*

Hana, thanks a lot for the information about Tsumabuki Satoshi. Sebenarnya begitu aku tahu namanya, aku langsung sibuk dengan search engine kok. *langsung dilempar* Nggak bisa lihat 'barang bagus' nganggur. Jadi pengen nonton Waterboys juga nih... dia jadi pemeran utama di sana kan?

Ira-san, you're welcome. You're such a talented translator.

Kat, manga-nya sih gue tahu, tapi gue nggak tahu pengarangnya. Emangnya tuh manga diterbitkan di Asuka Ciel-nya Kadokawa Shoten yah? ^^ Jujur aja, dari kemarin pikun gue kumat dan gue belum baca e-mail elo... lupa mulu. *digaplok*

Kazuma-kun, happy 'belated' birthday.

Kourin, komputer di kost sudah dijual karena aku udah mau pulang ke Jambi. Terpaksa blogging di Warnet. *nyengir* Aku pulang ke Jambi tanggal 10 Desember ini kok... daripada nggak ada kerjaan di Jakarta kan mendingan pulang ke Jambi aja. Di Jambi... hua ha ha ha... enjoying life!!! Doing nothing. XDDD

Leeza-chan, c'mon, you haven't met both of us, right? How could you say like that? *grins* Well, I won't tell you about the person who has said that Kureno is kinda 'lemot'... *looks at Leeza-chan's reaction* ...I have to save that person!!! Yup, I just can't believe that you're a quiet girl. *gets bricked and slapped* Although you're Hatori in the Mabudachi Trio but that doesn't mean that you're quiet when you're offline... lagian kan kamu jadi Hatori cuman kalau online aja. *gets bricked* And did you mean that I'm the right person for him because both of us are noisy? ^^;;;

Mars, thanks for the script. I would go to the website tomorrow... ^^

And Tyas is finally back!!! *hugs* How are you, dear? Hope that you're OK. Yeah, I miss your entries very very much, Tyas.

Seme-sama, are you sure about that? It's all up to me? Well, I do want to be your koi... but I don't think that we should talk about it here. Maybe I should call you or send you a private mail to talk about that. ^^;;; BTW, how about your assignments? Hope that you have finished all the assignments. Glad to know that you feel better now.

New record... three hours to add the entries for two days. *is dancing like a maniac* I'm stupid, right? *grins* Ah, still miss 'someone' very much and I just can't stop blaming my friend... she should tell him about my feeling or I'll kill her for sure. God, I'm helpless... and I feel like I've been drowned in a big sin because of my own feeling. Loving a guy is a big sin for me, right? But I just can't stop loving him. I just can't control everything in my life at this moment. Gosh, what should I do?

k4r-kun --- 01.47 PM
(who thinks that his love for 'someone' is a forbidden one)

Monday, December 2nd, 2002

Song: Back To You - Bryan Adams

I'm not in the mood to blog with English. Pake bahasa Indonesia aja ah... *ngelirik seseorang yang bertanggung jawab*

Well, kemarin ke Kinokuniya untuk mesan buku lagi. Penyiksaan terhadap dompet lagi nih ceritanya. Tapi karena gue sudah terlalu berniat banget buat menambah koleksi buku-buku tokusatsu gue, akhirnya gue maksain diri aja ke sana. Lagian kan gue sudah janjian untuk ketemu ama beberapa orang teman. Di sana, gue ketemu ama Ghia (yang udah janjian ama gue sehari sebelumnya untuk ketemuan di Kino), Febby (wah, yang ini accidental ketemuannya... he he he...), Shienny ama Lemez (yang ini juga accidental ketemuannya). Nggak lama kemudian, futago-chan juga datang. *hugs* Kangen banget lho, udah lama kagak ketemu ama dia. ^^;;; Setelah bosan 'mengobrak-abrik' Kino, kita turun ke Red Pepper (ada yang pengen makan siang soalnya). Abis makan siang, naik lagi ke Kino dan gue mulai dengan acara pesan-memesan gue. *nyiksa diri* Mesan Hideakizm-nya Ito-sama tersayang *langsung digaplok*, Super Sentai Chouzenshuu (bukunya bagus dan gue sudah drooling duluan waktu lihat cover-nya) dan Hyakujuu Sentai Gaoranger Chouzenshuu (yang ini dipesan karena gue ngelihat pesanan teman gue yang udah datang dan gue langsung pengen... jadi langsung main pesan aja... ^^). Alamat bangkruttttttt... XDDD

Malemnya di'paksa' teman kost untuk nemenin dia ke gereja. Pertama-tamanya gue sudah menolak habis-habisan karena gue emang lagi males buat ke gereja. Gue dengan ogah-ogahan sudah bikin 1001 alasan buat nggak ke gereja... capek, males, ngantuk dan segala macam sudah gue ucapkan, tapi tetap aja dipaksa buat mandi dan ke gereja bareng dia. Akhirnya gue nyerah dan ke gereja juga ama dia. ^^;;; Sial, padahal kan dia udah ada teman buat ke gereja tuh. Dan ternyata dia ngajak gue itu karena satu hal... takut pulang sendirian!!! Yeeeee... alasannya segitu aja. Duasarrrrr!!! Selama di gereja sih gue aman-aman aja... nggak ada orang yang droolable. *digaplok* Tapi waktu pulang, teman kost gue (cewek) ketemu ama temannya dia... dan sialnya, temannya dia itu adalah salah satu orang yang gue sukai!!! O mi God, gue langsung aja bete begitu ketemu tuh orang... matilah gue, menguak luka lama. Padahal karena gue udah lama nggak ketemu ama Leo, gue mengira gue bisa ngelupain dia dengan sukses. Tapi begitu ketemu, gue langsung sadar kalau gue nggak bisa ngelupain dia selama ini... ampun dah!!! Leo jadi tambah keren aja... *sighs* ...dan masalah hidup gue bertambah. Gue harus pulang ke Jambi dengan membawa beban perasaan ini. -_-;;; Gue bisa bicara kayak gini karena gue ngelihat ada hints pada diri Leo. Dia pernah 'dekat' banget ama temannya teman gue itu... cowok pula. Dan body language mereka waktu deketan itu sudah jelas-jelas... yah, you know lah. Dan tipenya Leo itu adalah tipe yang lovable banget. Sejujurnya aja, gue lemah terhadap cowok kayak Leo. Kulitnya putih, penampilannya rapi... what else? Hampir semua kriteria orang yang gue sukai ada pada dirinya dan gue sadar kalau gue bukanlah orang yang cocok untuk orang se'perfect' dia. Makanya waktu itu gue sudah memutuskan supaya tidak mengingat-ingat Leo lagi, hanya akan membuat gue merasa sedih dan tertekan sendiri aja. Dan kejadian yang terburuk sudah terjadi kan? Diajak ke gereja dan ketemu Leo lagi... hebat banget kalau gue nggak jadi tertekan lagi. Sebel... sebel... sebel... kenapa gue tidak bisa melupakan Leo aja dan melanjutkan hidup gue tanpa harus dibayang-bayangi seseorang? Yeah, I'm trapped in a forbidden love. *ngelirik ke temannya* Tanggung jawab!!! Sampaikan perasaanku ke Leo!!! BTW, yang tambah bikin gue tersiksa... gue nganggap Leo itu adalah teman gue juga karena gue sudah pernah dikenalin ke dia. Lengkaplah sudah masalah gue. -_-;;;

Ke Carrefour, belanja untuk persiapan Idul Fitri. ^^;;; Astaga, gue belanjanya banyak banget. *ngelirik ransum yang ada di dalam kamarnya* Bisa buat makan dua minggu tuh. Mulai dari biskuit, coklat, mie instant sampe kacang... buset dah.

k4r-kun --- 07.31 PM
(who wants to breakdown and cry because of his friend)

Sunday, December 1st, 2002

Song: Dilemma - Nelly featuring Kelly Rowland

Have an appointment with one of my friends at Kinokuniya, Plaza Indonesia today. And I want to order some books today. Let's see... Ito Hideaki's Hideakizm and Super Sentai Chouzenshuu. Oh my God, I just can't control myself everytime I see books. Now I can see a lot of books are flying in my mind. *gets bricked* I'm a maniac, thanks a lot. ^^;;;

Anne-nee, I have sent e-mails to IYF-ers to confirm about the gathering date... but too bad that I still can't decide about the place. We still have to do a polling to decide the place. I will SMS you as soon as possible after the IYF-ers have decided about the place, OK? Gosh, being an orugu is kinda difficult... but I must admit that I'm enjoying it very much. *gets bricked* Glad to know that you're OK. Please don't force yourself, aneki... *hugs*

Oneechan, I thought that you're more interested in artbooks and chara designs by famous mangakas. ^^;;; Yeah, the artworks in Asuka Ciel aren't as good as the artworks of our favorite mangakas. ^^;;; *gets bricked by Asuka Ciel's readers* Well, because I can't buy all of my favorite artbooks, I think I can only drool... drool... and drool... and about buying a Japanese novel, I can't say anything except....................... *is speechless* ...I'm out of words.

Anjie-imouto, good luck with your exams. Ganbatte ne... :)

As-chan, cerita lanjutannya YASHA itu bagus nggak? ^^

Ephi, site bishounen lover? Free hosting, please? *langsung digeplak* The one who gave the idea should give the host. XP

Eve-san, I'm looking for a girlfriend............... but still can't find one. Well, I'm very demanding so I think it would be very difficult for me to find one. But having a... *immediately closes his mouth* ...nothing. I said nothing, right? ^^;;; Yup, I'm enjoying myself now. Have nothing to do except sleeping and sleeping... well, I do spend some of my time to browse the Net. *grins* Oh yes, would you please come to IYF's gathering on December 9th? I want to meet you again... don't worry, we won't poison you anymore. And I'm telling you the truth here. Atau mendingan gatheringnya digabung ama gathering bloggers aja yah? ^^

Kacoa, motong sungut itu pekerjaan 'mulia' lagi. Siapa tahu abis dipotong, sungutnya bisa tumbuh lebih bagus lagi. *emangnya pohon* Menyumbangkan bishounen ke Ratu Kecoa? Palingan nanti bishounen-bishounen pada disungut dan diklaim jadi hak milik Ratu Kecoa semuanya. Ada jaminan bishounen-bishounen itu nggak disungut? Kalau ada, aku kasih pinjam sebentar deh... *pelit* ...he he he, musti ada jaminannya dulu. Oi, bukannya aku sudah janji nggak bakalan ngakak? Kamu kok curigaan gitu sih? *sambil ambil gunting buat ngegunting sungut* Gunting atau cerita? ^^ *ngakak* Jadi kalau sudah sakitnya rame-rame, tukar-tukaran makanannya tetap jalan terus? Yappari ne... ^^;;; ...BTW, ganbatte buat tugas kuliahnya yah. I know you can do it. Mungkin awal-awalnya emang capek banget karena kamu nggak terbiasa ngerjain tugas sebanyak itu, tapi lama-kelamaan pasti terbiasa juga kok. Kalau yang nari balet itu kecoa beneran mah aku kabur duluan... takut ama kecoa soalnya. Mendingan kamu aja deh yang nari. *maksa* Ingat, konsumen adalah raja lhooooooo... XDDD ...kenapa aku bakalan lari kalau kamu yang nari? Toh aku belum ngelihat kamu kok... kamu ke Jakarta dong buat nari balet kecoa itu. :P Yup, aku emang suka belajar bahasa kok, nggak cuman bahasa Perancis aja. Don't worry, lidahmu nggak bakalan keplintir kalau belajar bahasa Perancis kok.

Kat, masih banyakan reply gue yang kemarin yah? Yay, gue menang lagi? *kayak lomba aja* Okay, nanti kita lihat gue bisa balesnya seberapa panjang... tapi kayaknya musti nunggu minggu depan deh. Udah nggak ada kompi lagi di kost. ^^;;;

Kourin-san, aku sih suka lagu-lagunya Kawamura Ryuichi jadinya aku demen hampir semua lagu di CD itu. Mau pinjam CD-nya kalau aku sudah pulang ke Jambi? Atau mau aku burn aja CD-nya buat kamu? :)

Leeza-chan, aku suka kedua judul itu jadinya pasti subjektif banget kalau kamu nanya aku tentang kedua judul itu. But Kidou Senshi Gundam Seed is a really cool anime. You should watch it!!! :)

Rain-san, thanks for linking me back. ^^ Yeah, and I'm still drooling at my own layout. ^^;;; That person is just too cool. Hey, that's OK if you want to stalk me. *grins*

Tyas, where are you now? How about your exams? I hope that you'd get good marks for those exams. Ganbatte ne, Tyas.

Added some links to Mars, Bunga and Azuya. ^^ BTW, Mars, I'd love to have the code you've mentioned in my TagBoard. ^^

Gosh, I used two hours to blog today. o______O;;; Well, using Notepad to add new entries isn't a good choice for me but I have no option. Use Notepad or no blogging session... and I prefer to use Notepad. ^^

k4r-kun --- 11.40 AM
(who thinks that handblogging is the easiet way for him to blog)

Saturday, November 30th, 2002

Song: ---

Went to two gatherings today. Both gatherings were kinda fun. The first gath took place at Plaza Senayan and we conquered Wendy's as usual. ^^;;; The waiters there... *collapses laughing* ...must be annoyed with all of us. Nuff' said, same things always happen when we have a gathering there. I can say nothing except "My deepest condolences..." to the waiters there. *gets bricked* And the second gath took place at Pondok Indah Mall and I met a lof of KG-ers there, from Cakula (with her kareshi), Arufue, junta and many many more. Can't remember all of them. Also met Ghia, Angeline and their friends, Fitri (who is also an IYF-ers). ^^ Oh yes, almost forgot that I met Chikage, Yos-kun, Aya Mikage, Reni-chii, Chii-imouto, Dechi (yang belakangan ini M.I.A mulu... *jitak Dechi* ...kapan update tuh blog?), Haruka-imouto, Mamoru, and Razzly. ^^;;;

Finally I have no computer in my room now. ^^;;; Ah, repotnya blogging di Warnet....................... musti ngedit pake Notepad. Capeknya... ^^;;;

k4r-kun --- 09.00 PM
(who misses someone very much at this moment)

Friday, November 29th, 2002

Song: The Game of Love - Santana featuring Michelle Branch

This is the last day I have a computer in my room at the boarding house and that means I can't blog with this computer anymore. This computer will be carried out of my room tomorrow and I will start the days of my life without computer (at the boarding house, of course). I still can blog in an Internet cafe, though. And I've been learning how to add new entries using Notepad or WordPad. If I want to blog in an Internet cafe, I have to do it with both programs because the computers in the Internet cafe don't have Microsoft Front Page or any tools which I usually use when I'm blogging. It's kinda difficult to blog with both programs... -_-;;; ...but I think I can do it. No, I HAVE to do it with both programs!!!

Harahetta yo... I've eaten my dinner a few minutes ago and I'm still hungry at this moment. *massive sweatdrops* I'm sooooooooooooooo hungry!!! *is looking for snacks* The weather is very cold these days and it's impossible for me to pass the nights without any snacks in my room. Gosh, have to go to supermarket tomorrow to buy snacks again. Biscuit, biscuit, biscuit and biscuit... and don't forget to buy chocolates. ^^;;; God, I'm coughing now and I still want to consume chocolates. ^^;;;

Angga, I thought that you have the same birthday date with her. ^^;;;

Anjie-imouto, emang beberapa orang termakan kata-katamu itu kan? But future aniki-in-law sounds very cute for me. I'm still looking for the right person... ^^;;; ...and you want to tease me with that? C'mon, you know it's hard for you to tease me. Plushie? I want the real guy now, imouto-chan. I've had enough plushies in my room. Me want the real Ito Hideaki now. Speaking about your abnormal reaction... *steps back* ...I don't want to hear it. Can't imagine what would happen after you have shown me your abnormal reaction.

Chikage, Kureno did kiss his girlfriend after having a date? ^^;;;

Ephi, it's no use for you to hide from us now. It's too late, ya know? Now, study!!! You should study for your exams.

Eve-san, you're right. We can ask the administrator to change our login names if we want to. Maybe there would be a problem if you change your login name, though. People identify you with your login name and if you change it, other users will find difficulties to identify you. In my case, I have no problem with the new login name because people always call me k4r-kun (especially KGKA-ers) so I think changing my login name means nothing to others. *gets bricked* I'm looking forward to read your review on that series... it's such a confusing series, right? Well, the Boss won't stare at you if you've sent your review before the deadline date.

Kat, I know that. That's why I have deleted the effect on my TagBoard. Hope that it would solve the problem. ^^;;; Tell me if there still a problem, 'kay?

Kourin, that's OK. I think I should 'save' you before you've drowned in the world of BL.

Leeza-chan, that's OK. The otouto-in-law sounds very very cute for me... ^^;;; ...I wasn't mad at all about that. Both of us are cute when we are together? *turns to seme-sama* Are you sure, Leeza-chan? Are you sureeeeeeeeee? *gets bricked* Yeah, Kureno isn't stupid... but he's kinda 'lemot'. One of my friends told me about that and I instantly laughed after that. ^^;;; Ne ne ne, I can't believe that you're a silent girl anymore. You're kinda... kinda... talkative (at least that's what I think about you). Hey, are you sure you want to have such a noisy otouto-in-law like me? I have to warn you about that... ^^

Seme-sama, are you OK? *is concerned* I'm so sorry to know about your result. *hugs* It won't be a problem for me to hug you, right? If that's a problem, I'd release you now. Hey, cheer up, darling. Don't let that result ruined your day. I know you can get a higher result for your final exam. I believe that you can do it!! Trust me!! Are you sure that you want to be my koi? It's a serious matter for me, ya know? I don't want to make a wrong decision because that decision would affect whole of my life. And I won't joke about that matter, ya know?

Erika-san, thanks for your nice comment. I really love your layout. May I link to your blog, Erika-san?

For those who have SMS-ed me, I'm so sorry that I can't reply your SMSes at this moment. I have no credit left so I can't reply your SMSes. *bows down deeply* I'm so sorry for that. Haven't got the money to buy credits. BTW, Kazuma-kun, I've known about the actor who will play in the new Kamen Rider series next year. Yeah, that person has appeared in Ultraman Gaia (1998-1999) as a member of Team Lightning. If I'm not wrong, his name in Ultraman Gaia is Kitada.

k4r-kun --- 11.58 PM
(who has to go to campus early tomorrow morning)

Thursday, November 28th, 2002

Song: I love you - Kawamura Ryuichi

Nothing's special today. Went to Mall Taman Anggrek again. -_-;;; My Mom asked me to come to Mall Taman Anggrek and I just couldn't refuse her request. I went to Mall Taman Anggrek after I've had my lunch first. I ate my lunch at campus so I didn't have to eat again when I've arrived at Mall Taman Anggrek. *grins* And I bought a CD at Duta Suara Musik today. *sighs* Now I have to recalculate the money in my bank account because I used my Visa Electron card to pay the CD. ^^;;; Hope that I still have enough money to order books this weekend (yup, I'm going to order books again at Kinokuniya... Ito Hideaki's Hideakizm, Ryuki Knight - Kamen Rider Ryuki VISUAL BOOK and Super Sentai Chouzenshuu).

As I thought before, Kawamura Ryuichi's album, very best of songs ... ryuichi kawamura, is a cool album. Although his voice has changed a lot (his voice sounds very "J-Pop" for me now), I still love the songs in this album. *is drooling maniacally* And Kawamura Ryuichi is so damn good-looking. And I got a... *thinks* ...what should I say? A bonus, maybe? I got a booklet when I bought this album and the title of the booklet is The Poetical works of ryuichi kawamura and it's written in Japanese. Now I wish that I could read and understand Japanese.

k4r-kun --- 11.00 PM
(who wants to have more money at this moment so he can buy the books he want)

Wednesday, November 27th, 2002

Song: Butterfly - Mariah Carey

My Mom came to my boarding house with my Dad and my little brother tonight (after spending three days in Yogyakarta with my brothers who studies there). Both of my parents were helping me with my stuffs. Since I'm going to leave the boarding house next month, I have to pack my stuffs in boxes. They came to my boarding house to help me with those stuffs. Books, CDs, magazines and many many more... ^^;;; ...I really bought a lot of stuffs these four years. I wonder how much money I've spent on those stuffs. Must be... *gets bricked by his Mom* ...I don't know how much money I've spent on those stuffs. Although I know it, I won't open my mouth about the amount of money I've spent.

Oneechan, are you sure you won't accept my offer? ^^;;; But you have your own choice about that. Just tell me if you want me to order Asuka Ciel for you (selama orang Kinokuniya belum curiga dengan majalah yang satu itu). C'mon, I also have the same interest with you. I'm only interested in irasuto collections and tankoubons... rarely buy magazines. A short explanation about Asuka Ciel, I think it's a magazine which is published by Kadokawa Shoten and it consists a lot of BL-minded mangas. I think we can say that Asuka Ciel is a magazine for yaoi lovers. About GoHou Drug's furoku picture, I've saved it yesterday. Thanks a lot.

Chikage, I know that. I won't do such a thing like that. And thanks for worrying about that. You're such a nice friend. *hugs* But since I still have to learn about layoutting, I think I'd try harder to make a cute layout. Maybe you could teach me?

Delin, it wasn't a 'date', ya know? *gets bricked by everyone* I'm telling the truth here. And you're not the only one who have complained about my TagBoard. *kicks the TagBoard* But I still have no idea about what has happened to that TagBoard. V6's seVen? Not bad. I love almost all of the songs in this album. Kamu di S'pore kan? Seharusnya di S'pore ada kan? ^^;;; Aku yang di Jakarta aja masih dapat kok. I guarantee that all of the songs in this album are cool. But there are some songs that I don't like (it depends on your taste, right?). And you shouldn't say like that about your Mom, you know? Maybe she thinks that you're too young to 'hold' a lot of money so she decided to keep it for your sake. C'mon, have a positive thinking. She'll give your money back if you ask her politely.

Oh yes, bought new VCDs today. Anime again!!! I finally got the first volume of Kidou Senshi Gundam Seed!!! Me wanna watch it now. Also got Gravion volume 1, Oudorobou Jing volume 3 and volume 4, Pita Ten volume 6 and... Kamen Rider Ryuki Special: 13 Riders!!! Waaaaa... Kitadani Hiroshi's Revolution (Kamen Rider Ryuki 3rd ED Song) is such a cool song, better than Hatena Kinochi (sung by Kitadani Hiroshi, too) and Hatesinai Honoo no Naka de (sung by RIDER CHIPS). And Gravion's OP Song, Nageki no Rosario, is a cool song too!!! JAM Project rocks!!! I love both songs very much. Anyone has the mp3 of those songs? ^^;;; Also ordered Ghost In The Shell - Stand Alone Complex volume 1, Haibane Renmei volume 1, Naruto volume 1, Overman King Gainer volume 1 and Kamen Rider Ryuki boxset 2 (episode 17-32) today. Hope that I would get those titles by the end of this week. Oh yes, me wanna watch Get Backers too!!! Are the VCDs available now? I wanna have it too.

k4r-kun --- 10.50 PM
(who thinks that having a boyfriend / girlfriend would make him grow mature)

Tuesday, November 26th, 2002

Song: Hitomi no Chikara - Mizuki Arisa (Hikaru no Go ED Song #2)

Still have no interest to change my layout. Now I have two reasons why I still have no interest to change this layout. First reason, I'm completely in love with the guy on my layout at this moment. And the second reason, I still can't make a new layout. Not talented enough to make a cool layout (although I have bought Photoshop version 7.0 last week). -_-;;;

Ajeng, gue tetap aja nggak nemu kesalahan di TagBoard gue. Mungkin emang ada kesalahan fatal di HTML Code-nya. Yang bilang begitu ke gue nggak cuman elo kok. ^^;;; Nanti gue cek ulang deh.

Bart, you... you're not a sex maniac, ne? *is afraid of Bart now* ^^;;;

Ephi, belajar!!! Jadi kemarin itu beneran tidur yah? *is totally speechless* Tes praktikumnya sukses. Omedettou... ( ^^)//*\\(^0^ ) ...traktiran kalau nilainya bagus!!! *kabur sebelum digeplak* Objection. I don't want to be called as U-chan either. I want to be called as "koi" or whatever... *gets bricked* Yup, touching his skin must be very interesting. I just can't stop my imagination when I'm imagining this guy. And you want to 'write' a program that can 'pour' my imagination to a monitor? I'm waiting for it. XP

Kacoa, aku juga nggak tahu alasan kenapa aku terobsesi untuk memotong sungutmu. Niat 'baik' itu datang begitu saja, nggak peduli apakah kamu innocent atau tidak. ^^ Lha, masa' dapat julukan "Ratu Kecoa" itu hanya karena warna rambutmu kecoklatan aja? Pasti ada alasan lain... pasti ada alasan lain. Cerita dong. I won't laugh, I promise you. Oh, jadi kalau kena flu rame-rame, acara tukar-tukaran makanan masih jalan terus nih? Kalau yang kena flu cuman satu baru acara itu dihentikan yah? ^^;;; Emangnya tugas kuliah kamu sebanyak apa sih? Kok kedengarannya menyeramkan banget gitu. @_____@;;; Aku pemesan balet kecoa yang pertama? *is praying for his own sake* Aku nggak mesan pasukan kecoa!!! Aku mau kamu aja yang nari balet sendirian... at least kamu masih tolerable ketimbang kecoa beneran!!! Aku kira kamu belajar bahasa Perancis tuh... tahunya pake penerjemah online yah? ^^;;; Okay, thanks for the link. ^^v

Kazuma-kun, never thought that it would be so difficult for you to find anime and tokusatsu in Medan. But I do have the same difficulty to find anime and tokusatsu in Jambi so I have decided that I would do online shopping after I go home to Jambi. Yup, Ryuki Knight - Kamen Rider Ryuki VISUAL BOOK is one of the newest books. My friend said that Shogakukan would release Kamen Rider Ryuki Chouzenshuu: Gekkan (the 2nd book) on this December and I have prepared myself to be bankrupt by the end of this year.

Leeza-chan, fu... future otouto-in-law? *is fainted* Oh my God, why would thing turn out like this? *turns to someone* Look what you have done. ^^;;; The bloggers would think that I'm going to marry... my seme or something like that. @_____@;;; *turns to Leeza-chan* Don't tell me that Mabudachi Trio are always gossiping each other. ^^;;; Thanks God that I'm not the member of Mabudachi Trio. I'm the stupid Kureno and that's enough for me. About the 'date' last Saturday, I know he would refuse to call it as a 'date'... but yes, we did meet each other that day. ^^;;; Just as I thought before, he's the one who has SMS-ed you till 3 AM. You love being gossiped by your friends because you think they're your fans if they're gossiping you? ^^;;; Have no comment... absolutely no comment. Yappari, you're not a shy girl, right? I have been thinking about that and I think you were lying about being a shy girl. ^^;;; About future otouto-in-law business, just ask him... don't ask me. ^^;;;

I think it's enough for today. I want to watch anime now!!! ^^;;; Haven't touched my collections for months and now I want to watch some old titles.

k4r-kun --- 09.10 PM
(who wants to have a lover at this moment --- a guy or a girl won't make any difference)