Date: Thursday
Shan:
Dan broke up with me yesterday.The most ironical part is that I'd been sitting around
for two weeks in utter agony, thinking of him every
spare moment of the day, and having him tell me that
he really never thinks of me. That was cruel. Of
course it's a cruelty that must be said, but...
And another thing. So in six months or whenever, he
decides that he wants me back, *why*? I mean, what if
he just thinks he'll never do any better? Why on
earth is he doing this? When we were talking
yesterday, he mentioned something about not thinking
of me and I said, "Yeah, I get it, the spark is gone,
you've lost that lovin' feeling, whatever." But when
I look at our relationship for the past two months, it
doesn't jive. Maybe for the two weeks *before* he
told me he wanted to take a break, when I started
noticing something was wrong, but up till that point
(even beyond, actually) he still told me he loved me,
still kissed me, still did all those normal things you
do when you happen to be in love with someone whose
company you enjoy.
I'm not happy here. I'm mad. I actually argued with
Dan about it for a little while...Before, I think, I
would have just been like, "Oh, you don't want *me*?
Then I don't need you," and walked out. But this is
different.
Sorry this e-mail is so long...I'm sure you're bored
to tears. Anyway, I'll talk to you later...
Love you!
Me
From: Me
Subject: Guess what? Hmm.
To: My best friend Shannon