Ahhhh........ The Heart......Is this where Steven is located?? At times... yes. Perhaps TOO much, as I can tend to be an idealist and a romantic. I wonder if that's why I am still single at 31?!
I have loved many in my life. My first love was my best friend Aaron. I met Aaron in the 1st Grade. Our family had moved to New Haven, IN, a small suburb city of Fort Wayne, IN where I was born, January 11, 1970. Aaron and I were inseparable until the day that my father lost his job during the recession of 1981. That's FIVE years!! The longest relationship I have sustained with another man!! LOL
I often wonder what happened to Aaron..... The last time I saw him was on my 16th birthday, after our family moved back to the Fort Wayne area, and he came to my birthday dinner. Last I heard, he had joined the Navy. If anyone knows of a REALLY cute, brunette, skinny, sweet guy named Aaron that grew up in New Haven, and is 31, tell him to look me up!!
I could rattle on, going through the tragedies that were my relationships in my adult years, yet I think that would bore you, dear reader. Instead, I will share with you what I have learned of Love.
Love is:
Another thing I have realized in my 31 years on this planet is that sex does not equal love. I have certainly had TONS of fun, catting around, and certainly wouldn't change a thing because it made me the man I am today. However, I have reached the point in my life, where sex, in of itself, is just not enough. Luckily I have made it this far unscathed but for the occasional curable STD.... Thank God for RID! :P And yet, its more than the scare of HIV that motivates my self-imposed celibacy. I want the whole package, the intimacy that comes with time in getting to know that person; faults and all. I want our sex to be the physical representation of the emotions we share. I want an old-fashioned courtship.... holding hands in the theatre, crying together through the sad parts, and laughing together when its funny. Someone that knows that I'm NOT perfect, yet still wants to be with me, and can allow me my imperfections, yet support me as I continue to evolve and improve myself, while I do the same for him. A man to grow with... as we grow old together.
HOWEVER...... I am CERTAINLY not holding my breath waiting for this to happen! I'd like to think that I'm not jaded, and still am open to the possibilities, but I'm certainly not going to hold off in LIVING, thinking that life is not complete without a significant other! Hell..... I don't need anyone to complete me.... nor do I want to have to "finish" someone. As Popeye so eloquently put it, "I yam what I yam.. ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh." (okay... THAT was bad)... But that's the truth. I am a complete individual, and have all of me to offer. So I am certainly fine being alone. I have many interests I actively pursue, and hope that YOU do too!
A GREAT example of how I feel can be found here.
