The Adventures of Paisley
Blue
Things have been pretty exciting but not in the best possible way. In my building there have been some troubling things occurring, including one crazy guy who has been locked out of his room for not paying his rent -- he keeps trying to get back inside, and when he does he follows people and scares them half to death.
I feel like nearly everyday I am going to a doctor or therapist of some kind. It is a good thing that I am getting all this help, but it sorta makes me feel like I'm a 'sickie,' just not all there. Today's rain did not help matters. I just started feeling blue.
Maybe I better not write too much today -- it's all depressing. I'm in pain. I'm tired. I'm sad. blah blah blah
Sometimes I get to missing my family and daydream about returning to Arkansas, but I keep imagining that others will scorn my decision and tell me I'm nuts to think about going back to that group of people. One thing I do know is that right now is not the time to make any snap decisions. Everything must be carefully weighed and considered. I consider that one good thing that has come from all this is that I don't want to be rushed into anything.
The one good thing I have to look forward to is karaoke. Isn't that funny? Every Friday night I go to my neighborhood bar and see my friends, drink, and sing. The show is hosted by one of my best friends who is a drag queen. She used to live in this building, and I loved to watch her practice. I love to watch her perform. I have often thought how I could sit and watch her sing all day and all night long. They added a Tuesday night show, and I'm there on those nights, too. My friend moved out of the building and ever since I have missed his company so much. I remember how much I looked forward to coming home from work just to see if he was here... well, shoot, here I go wandering down memory lane. Let's just say I really look forward to Tuesday and Friday nights.
Ah, heck, have a good night folks!
~Paisley Blue |
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