I'm going along
and doing just fine
then dreams of you enter my
mind
Are they signs from above
from
heaven on high
or only reminders
from the back of my mind
where you still reside
I know that I can let go
but
I don't
not
all the way
Love in all it's wonder
and all
love's splendor
Stays back there
I know I can let go
until the dreams of you return
I don't know if I should let
go
Memories
Remains of the day
and
messages from God
Reside in dreams
Looking for a sign
and I wonder
should I just remember
or keep holding on to you
© Wildheart
It's always so terrible when
you come back
and
you always do
I'm so glad to see you
and
my heart races
at
the mere glimpse
Elation
but then I think
it won't last
you will be gone
before my breath can catch
the beat of my heart
you would rather live on chances
So much keeps you coming back
to me
the
ties between us are always there
never
gone forever
a
promise that will never break
but each time you come back
I want to cut those threads
Seeing you once more reminds
me
how
unhappy I will be
when
you are gone
the distance pulls on me
cutting
me
Would you tear me apart?
Are you happy in your world
so
far away?
Not feeling strain of the ties
that bind us
so
safe in your distance
where
you know they'll never break
After awhile the strain lessens
I don't notice those threads
pulling
on me
You will be back some day
I will remember once more
Feel every inch between us
pulling
on me
wishing
that they would just break
© Wildheart 1998
Fall forever
My forever falling star
I wait to catch you
You're gonna twinkle
and
sparkle
and
shine
forever in the sky
you'll never fall
you'll never fade
you'll never fail
if
you just keep falling
and
never touch the ground
I should have gone
followed
that mighty
shimmering star stream
Now I just look at you go
whenever I look into the night
see something so bright
see wonderful you
All I can do
is watch as you fall forever
fast as the speed of light
Out of the grasp of this Earth
bound girl
© Wildheart 1998
Don't tell me the time
I don't want to know
how
long you've been gone
Every sunset reminds me
that
the light years
between
us
only grow
So helpless
Thoughts of you
fill
my mind
with
impossibilities
of
things that can never be
And things that are too far
away from me
So senseless
No amount of logic can explain
to me
why
falling in love
means
staying apart
and
that you can't have everything
that
you hold in your heart
© Wildheart 1998
In the grand scheme of things
we
are all very small
The world revolves around no
one
we create our own spheres
I don't expect you to spend
your life
spinning around me
nor will I spend mine
spinning around you
But, one minute we're together
and in the next
you
leave me behind
I begin to wonder
I
am not blind
I
see what you do
and
hear what you say
and in your grand scheme of
things
I
know
that I am the last thing on
your mind
and I will not waste my life
chasing you
while you waste yours
spinning around something else
© Wildheart 1989
So this is my sign
been
waiting so long
here at the crossroads
of life's indecisions
Waiting for a guide to show
me the way
Expecting something subtle
a
feather floating in the air
a
certain kind of breeze
that flows softly through my hair
Not a flashing red light
A brick between the eyes
Something so obvious
that
it just can't miss
But I don't want to see
I don't want to change my course
Watching all my roads fade
in the distance
Looking for a sign that says
don't move
But all the cards say
you've
reached the end of this line
Everything you're doing is
wasting time
Eternity is a very long time
to wait
for
something that will never happen
© Wildheart 1998
What will we do with all my
anger?
So uncomfortable and out of
place
in
a world of glass houses and starving trees
It's been buried
only
to rise from the grave
and
live a new life
Reincarnated, reborn
looking
different
but
the roots remain
the feeling is the same
and more powerful
Somethings only grow stronger
when tamed
they
turn on you, like wild animals
seem
to simmer, then boil out of control
try
to keep it shut, then it opens new wounds
too easy to destroy such fragile people
my anger could devour them whole
The anger of being forced to
control anger
Only makes me angrier
at
you and you and you
You that do not want to feel
You that do not want to face
You that want to forget
all
the pain
all
the sadness
and
all the love
denied in the land of pretence
where everything is breakable and rotting
Go ahead and live your little
lives
Filled with little lies
you
are too important
But my memories are too clear
I'll never forget
You can pretend to be comfortable
But you can't rest for one
moment
Because I can't promise that
my anger
Won't one day reach you
those
trails of hidden tears and fears
always
have fresh scents
© Wildheart 1998
He never listened to me
and now it doesn't matter
I'm remembering the dream
trapped
in your little world
trying
to talk to me
I was desperate to know
but I couldn't hear
and I wanted to help
but I couldn't reach
not
in that place of yours
with
all it's barriers
You wanted me near you
You wanted me there
but your words never came through
to me
He never said it loud enough
treasured
my words
hidden in a special place
treasured
my love, trapped in his world
but
he never told me
even though I asked
and now, it's too late
The dream was about you
but now it doesn't matter
who it really was
© Wildheart 1998
The message has been received
He is returning
from
his secret moon
on
the far side of the sun
Or maybe he was only across
the street
He talks the same
He acts the same
but
he's different
but
no one else notices
This is no soap opera
no
mushy love story
This is real and unreal
It's science fiction, baby
with
an alien force
that
haunts me
rips
open my heart
because it can and it must
and because I happen to be
in love with the right man at the wrong time
His world fell, he had to flee
Left his love for me in some
black hole
Lost me on his way to finding
a new existance
Traded his brain for a new
life, without me
I remember you
You don't remember me
but
I'm familiar, sort of, atleast
We've got some place to start
If only he knew where to find
me
If only I knew how I arrived
in
a deep dark space dilemma
where
no one hears my cries
or
understands the force
that keeps me beside him
I contemplate the lack of logic
concerning
this situation
Where reality could come crashing
at
any moment destroy
this
altered state
Where I cling to paradoxes
hoping
I won't get hurt
knowing
I can only get hurt
I'd prefer a simple melodrama
Because I know, despite all
the hype
that
there are so few good movies
in
the sci-fi/horror genre
© Wildheart 1998