I was born a poor black child in the year 1832 on the planet Quando-Floo.  No, I'm just kidding.  The name my parents forced me to have (until I can come up with an available $1000) is Ben Leffler.  I am forced to live in a suburban nightmare called Collinsville, IL, which for all of you who care is actually a suburb of St. Louis, MO.  I will not give a birthday but I will tell you that I am a Leo so therefore I am a great friend and a great f*** (according to the book "Sexual Astrology") and I will tell you that I am above drinking age in the generation they call "Y" or "Next."  Didn't the band Cracker have a song called "I Hate My Generation."  I am refusing to put a picture of myself on this page because I have an inferiority complex due to years of depression, bi-poliarity, and a teetering towards obesity.  Just use your imagination or grab an old yearbook.

I am a musician by heart working on several projects, such as an outfit that eventually became known to locals as Mischief, a project called John Doe's Love Children, and most recently a project called the Jerry Sizzlers.  I play guitar, bass, percussion, and some woodwinds (although I never took one lesson).  My interests are purely rock and alternative but I'm going more towards a punk rock sound due to the accessibility and the D.I.Y. attitude.  See the MMM for a list of bands I get influenced from.

I got into computers around Junior year of the "Land of Conformity."  I originally wanted to be a journalist but when I realized there was no money in writing, I switched to computers.  Now, I wish I never did that.  I should have just minored.  At the university I am at, it is 124 credit hours for a Bachelor of Science degree.  Of that 124, 92 have absolutely nothing to do with computers.  I'd like to do something with my music or with web multimedia but nothing has happened yet. 

I have been stuck at a dead end job for over six years now at a certain movie theatre chain that is linked in the MMM page.  Maybe I'm lazy.  Maybe they work me so much I have not had time to find another job.  I don't know.  All I know is that if I'm still there by the time I'm 30, I won't stick around on this planet to see 31.

People have asked what the name "Perdedor18702" stands for, whether it is a legit name or if it was made put because there are 18701 other perdedors in the web world.  I am here to tell you that this is purely an original name.  Here is the meaning behind it.  "Perdedor" is Spanish for "Loser."  This word came from the chorus to Beck's song "Loser."  Soy un PERDEDOR.  I'm a loser, baby, so why don't you kill me.  I felt, in 1995, this song was written for me so I adopted the name.  The 18702 part is not random.  When I went to the "Land of Conformity," I was an editor for the yearbook.  18702 was our identification number with our printer.  Everything we submitted had the number 18702 on it.  This is my way to keep alive the simpler, yet annoying, times of that era.

This is what I mean.  This sticker was put on all pictures submitted to them.

Now you know a little bit about myself.  Makes you want to go to another website and never come back, don't it.

Written 8 October 2002, copyright Ben Leffler (perdedor18702).