| I suck deeply on the tubular cigarette I take more time off my already short life I am waiting to die I see the futility of existence Yet I don’t want to die I have scars up and down my body I have scars throughout my mind I have scarred my friends I am waiting for the end Yet I don’t want to die I have a pain deep within, that doesn’t ease when I cry I have hurt those that love me That adds to the pain I want the pain to end Yet I don’t want to die I sit here looking at the words Contemplating the spelling Wondering with they live forever Will I be remembered Yet I don’t want to die I see the futility of all this I see past the façade of life I see the world as a harbinger of death I see that I want no part of life Yet I don’t want to die I have hurt so many people I wish that I hadn’t I have the power to hurt them more I don’t want to hurt them again Yet I don’t want to die I wish for someone to take the pain away To be kissed that the fairy tale frog I want to wake from this nightmare And to live again Because I don’t want to die Not yet my friends Not yet |
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