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Special thanks to Cally at DOUBLE RAINBOW for the beautiful layout and graphics! Written by: daddykat email; rbenn@enter.net(my brother-in-law's account and computer) Willow/Tara Lament _I Instead of You_ Had I been the one instead of you, I know you wouldn't be where I am, Your quiet mask, your tiny frauds, Never hid that strength within. I spoke plainly, i had the friends, But the staunch, eternal heart, Was always yours, my lost one. Without your sweetness, where am I ? The gulf inside me holds, Nothing; not even darkness is left. And my need and rage sent me into that gray, Now what have I become ? Something that has no place in, Can never come to where you've gone. Had I been the one instead of you. You would have hurt, You would have been strong, You would have gone on, knowing, I was in a better place, that my pain was done, Your anger would have been human and true, Not my embracing of the death which took you away. You would have missed me and stayed true, To yourself, and lived the rest of your life, The course which I can no longer take, I can never be what I would have been, Had neither of us been taken. And the last wish I have, not to be granted, Would that I had been the one and not you. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Author's comments; My original inspiration for this was my realizing I as a viewer could have handled Willow's dying easier than I did Tara's, since my old favorite charcater wouldn't be hurting anymore. That led me to realize that Tara would have handled Willow's death better than W. handled T.'s on the show. Tara got as much from Willow as she gave, but their contributions were different. Willow provided the sociable personality while Tara provided the emotional strength. Tara would have mourned Willow and been angry at Warren, but she wouldn't have become a DarkTara, i'm sure. Yes, I enjoy feedback Back to Daddykat's Fan Fiction & Poetry... Red Gold: a Writer's Resource and Challenges for Ramadevi/Angelus or Ramadevi/Vamp Xander fan fiction | Archives | Awards | Contact | Links | Nominations | Site Stuff/Miscellaneous | What's New? |