| Tuesday, September 3rd, 2002
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 5:52p - You oughta know
I even dragged myself off to first day of the Transition Assistance Program on Kadena AB where I was happily surrounded by other people and able to *mostly* forget how much my heart was hurting. I come home and I log on to find...nothing. I'm hurt that she couldn't even bring herself to respond at ALL. She hasn't left her computer jacked in since I said what I did, like she normally does. She hasn't posted an entry. She hasn't been on IM or used any nickname that I know about at least. Now...i understand that in real life, these things can go like this. Sometimes people just can't handle other people. Today's day of connection though...what with email and LJ and IM and everything at the click of a button... Yeah the whole way we THINK has changed. Humanity is no longer satisfied with slow, gradual change. We want it now, and we want it NOW This women is part of this age. She's wired into the information revolution. I was rather certain she understood my mindset and my forthrightness. But apparently I was wrong...because she hasn't given me shit to chew on. I thought we were so compatible, so made for each other...so perfect for one another even. I said she belonged with me and I belonged with her, that I complemented her in a way that no man ever had. Now...I understand that's a bit presumptious, but god damn, there has GOT to be a point in my life when I stop being so fucking passive about my emotions! Two days pass and she says nothing. It's obvious that I wrong. We can talk a great talk together , but we can't walk no fuckin walk together. Let this be a lesson to you kiddies. Even perfection isn't perfect. current mood: disappointed
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