| Monday, October 21st, 2002
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 6:41p - I love this girl. I do. I really really do. don't think I've ever been this happy. I honestly, completely, without a shadow of a doubt now know...she's "the one" (and not in a Jet Lee paralell universe sort of wya ;P ). She picked me up from the airport yesterday and all my dreams received validation. Yesterday was one of the most fulfilling days of in my all so loveless (until now) life. We cuddled for i don't even know HOW many hours yeterday...and it wasn't enough. We had to rouse ourselves and head to hollywood for a show and she brought me to this amazing italian resteraunt afterwards. Amazing...even if Hollywood there can be found *SOME* goodness. Not a lot...just a little... at least there's no friggin SMOG here in Orange. She was right in that
it's far enough on the outskirts...heaves to betsy for that.
Holding her in my arms, after all the long chat sessions, after all my fears of reality vs. fantasy...it was just...right. Touching her skin, smelling her hair, the pillow when she left for work today, still imbued with HER scent... Looking into her eyes, so close to mine they blend into one...i can't remember my life before her and i can't picture a future. The present is enough lifetime to satisfy this once weary soul. i love her. i love her with every drop of my being...and i can finally tell her, show her, prove to her...in person, inches from her body. How oh lord how can i gather the strength to leave her next week? no more painful anxiety. no more bittersweet longing. no more agonized wondering. no more pain, no more fear. now the only beast left to conquor is time. current mood: happy
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