I SO do not want to be awake. Today is going to just flat out suck. 

current mood:  annoyed
current music: Dashboard Confessional _The Places you have Come to Fear the Most_ 

 
7:39a 
OK...i need to throw that DC disc in amongst the other discs I can't listen to right now...red house painters, jayhawks, neil young's _harvest moon_, toadies, devlins...etc. 
 

Your Existing Situation
Pursues his objectives and his own-self-interest with stubborn determination; refuses to compromise or make concessions.
 

Your Stress Sources
Feels unappreciated and finds the existing situation threatening. Wants personal recognition and the esteem of others to compensate for the lack of like-minded people with whom to ally himself and make himself more secure. His sensual self-restraint makes it difficult for him to give himself, but the resulting isolation leads to the urge to surrender and merge with another. This disturbs him as he regards such instincts as weaknesses to be overcome; only by not succumbing to them, he feels, can he withstand the difficulties of the situation. Wants to be valued as a desirable associate and admired for his personal qualities.
 

Your Restrained Characteristics
Willing to participate and to allow himself to become involved, but tries to fend off conflict and disturbance in order to reduce tension.
Insists that his hopes and ideas are realistic, but need reassurance and encouragement. Egocentric and therefore quick to take offense.
 

Your Desired Objective
Needs a peaceful environment. Wants release from stress, and freedom from conflicts or disagreement. Takes pains to control the situation and its problems by proceeding cautiously. Has sensitivity of feeling and a fine eye for detail.
 

Your Actual Problem
Depleted vitality has created an intolerance for any further stimulation, or demands on his resources. A feeling of powerlessness subjects him to agitation and acute distress. Tries to escape from this by relinquishing the struggle, and by finding peaceful and restful conditions in which to recuperate in an atmosphere of affection and security.
 

Your Actual Problem #2
Wants to be valued and respected, and seeks this from a close and peaceful association of mutual esteem.
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The last time i did this quiz the results were wacked. This time...
much of it is dead on. I think the "current situation", however, would be better suited as "actual problem #3."
 

I just got a "friend of the troops" (i.e. any soldier...) christmas greeting from this sweet old lady living with and caring for her mother. There was a short letter attached. I really don't know what to say except thank you...but i think i should write back.

I've been avoiding christmas this year. I don't want it to be the season of holiday cheer. I just don't feel it in me...

but it's little things like this that shine a small bit of light in my soul.

I may not feel very hopeful about my future right now but that's OK...it will be there again in time. 

current mood:  touched
current music: Neil Finn _Try Whistling This_ 

I've never gotten a reply from an any soldier letter myself, but I imagine most of the folks getting them are very busy. (On the other hand, I haven't adopted a soldier through AdoptAPlatoon for nearly two years since the last one never acknowledged their packages -- while it's no big deal to not hear back on weekly letters, but AAP says you're supposed to hear within 60 days on packages and I sent mine seven - one a month plus a special Christmas package. I'll stick with semi-regular Any Soldier letters.)

I don't feel like Christmas either, but I think I'm obligated to do a little something for the family. Thank something for Harry & David to say "I didn't know what to get you but this fruit basket is nice".
 

taliana 
2002-12-22 13:18
*hugs* Know what you mean about xmas. It must be difficult, though, being away from home.

Been reading...just not commenting. 
 

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