and yet...words hold a power we can never fully grasp...

just like a lack thereof.

Don't know when I'll be back to journaling regularly (or, at least, post anything outside of "i'm alive"). I just know that I need another break to get my head right. When I journal, I think too much...which invariably leads to thoughts about her...and while I feel the most solid I've felt in months, I'm not strong enough to remember her eyes...

 
You are blue. You are somewhat innocent, in the fact that your genius only extends to the physical world. You have a false sense of contentness. You are usually the quiet one, the genius. Everyone can count on you to help when they have problems, but you only fall short of being able to solve your own. 

What inner color are you? 
 

current mood:  blank
current music: The Sheila Divine _Where have my Countrymen Gone_  

biffah 
2003-01-22 23:16 
i'm that color also.........i don't know weather to be happy or sad.
 

rainingvodka 
2003-01-23 15:30 
I'm neither happy nor sad about it. I just accept it...it's actually pretty damn accurate.

 
greeneyed_devil 
2003-01-23 06:42 
Well I hope you change your mind eventually and continue journaling... in the mean time, at least email me your mailing address. My addy is wellsheeit at hotmail. 
 

rainingvodka 
2003-01-23 15:29 
Don't worry...I'm not planning to quit journalling....just take a break for for a few weeks or so. I'm at the point now where I can't quit this journal (or a derivative at least) no matter how much I wanted to...it truly is part of who I am.

believe me...I realy like writing here...but right now it's counter productive. i still think about her enough as it is and i fucking hate it, but that's just how it is.

 
oddharmonic 
2003-01-25 00:25 
Oddly enough, I came out blue too. I don't get it. If I were a color, I'd be gray. Nondescript, mildly depressing, and crankier than anyone's grandmother! 

Even if you don't journal as often as you used to, I still look forward to your posts. 
 
 

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