My hard drive and washing machine whirlings...

05.30.98

Hmmm...tori tickets for Arco Sept 22 (23?) go on sale today at 10AM, 9 hours from now. I won't be buying any tickets to any concert for a while however...

The drive to Antioch was uneventfull really, seemed to pass rather quickly and boredomlessly...

I got to work today for the CK, 9 hours. wahoo! income! it feels good to know I'll be able to pay bills and cut a wedge out of debts this summer. My car isn't acting flunky, the clutch is working properly...everything seems good right now.

I was so happy to be working again the day passed like a dream...over before I realized it. I should get many many days of work while I'm down here too.

Finally saw my sister's new house today. It's so gorgeous, now I can understand the fuss about it. I'm really very happy for her and ron and katrina is so adorable. She says "oh oh" and smiles and laughs and crawls and makes funny faces and and and...

Rebecca called my parent's house a few days before I came down...I lost her phone # in the move but she'd said she'd call back after I got in, so i'll see how that goes.

It feels odd like it always does, being back here at the house I spent the latter half of my childhood, in the very same room I first learned to masturbate in, even. I feel a ot more calm than the lst time I was here, however, much less jumpy. Through the past few months I've been coming to peace with myself, on my own terms, and I can truly see the difference in myself, physically I feel better--more in touch with the physical universe and my own body. Mentally I feel...rested i suppose is the best word. I don't feel torn in several different directions by choices and the future. Knowing I have just two more years of college left is invigorating...despite the constant tickle in the back of my mind screaming "wait, this isn't right, high school was over by this point, why do i still have two more years of college?"

I suppose that's it for now. I didn't really have too much to say. I just wanted to explain my joy at having work. Knowing you've put in a good long day is an exhilirating experience, that the day was spent in usefull activity (and when you're in serious debt, anything that garnishes cash is a usefull activity!) and not wasted half in bed or whatever...tommorrow Ima gonna read a lot I think.