Smashing Pumpkins 06.30.98
07.02.98
SO the concert, well, the concert was *great*. Met Ed Davis, his girlfriend April and their friends Andy and Ben...all very cool people and I was excited and pleased to actually meet them IRL...definitely people to KIT with...April reminded me somewhat of an old neighbor from living on campus, can't remember her name...but where that girl seemed a trifle snooty, April was open and friendly. Ben snuck a video camera in...concealing it in a laundry detergent box of all things...successfully! He got caught with it taping though and missed the encore...Crista was in seventh heaven the entire day...starting with watching me sew up the pack and ending snuggled in mom and dad's other guest bed downstairs...
Had lunch at Anunda Fuara, this *fabulous* vegetarian resteraunt across the street from the Bill Graham Civic Auditorium...an awesome vege-burger was the least adventurous item on the menu for me...
Front row seats to the left of the stage provided us with two security guards ever present stares...Ed actually got caught taping, standing right next to him, I somehow escaped unscathed...as did Andy, standing on the opposite side of Ed. But they simply confiscated his tape and let him enjoy the rest of the show...I mailed him a copy of my steller tape yesterday. The levels I was getting running the core sound cardiods (alone for the first time) were low going line in...but I couldn't risk switching to the mic in plug with security right there...nonetheless the tape rocks...front row the bass was ***heavy*** but the cardiods rolled off the bass perfectly for a *great* mix on the tape...They actually played Annie-Dog (from _Adore_, my favorite song on the album and the one song I *really* wanted to hear) that night for the first time on the world tour (it was the 1st night of the United States league....raised $179,590 for the East Bay Agency for Children...)
Next show....PJ!!!!
Following show...TOOL! in Reno! planning on using my free night hotel coupon I got recently so I can stay up and gamble before and after the show...Ed is going to that show too, so I'll hook up with him there also...bitch kickin' time to be had for sure...haven't let him knwo yet that I'm goining...just got my ticket yesterday...then it's TOOL! in San Jose...followed by Tori on Sept 15th in Oakland...apparently there is supposed to be another Tori date added for San Jose, but tickets haven't gone on sale yet...
Rebecca called tonight. She wanted to apologize for what happened when I last went to see her and wanted to see me after she got off work...I can only wonder if she wanted to have sex, but I didn't want to see her tonight so I told her it was a bad night, but to call again some other day...Mom had surgery this morning, a biopsy to investigate a lump in her breast...benign thank god, but it had her frazzled nonetheless...she's on powerfull drugs right now. She wanted KFC for dinner so I got that for us all tonight after getting home from work...
Seen the last boss monster on House of the Dead now...almost seen the end game...soon I think...
Greg emailed me that he had somethign important things to discuss, but "not yet"...so now I'm wondering if it's something simple like his website or school or something more involved...
SO my trip up to Humboldt plans have changed...I'm seeing TOOL in Reno on the 19th of Aug then the 27....so a trip in late Aug is bad...maybe early August instead....
A girl emailed me the other day that she liked my poetry...was doin a Tori search and stumbled across my page. I was excited to get feedback and pleased she found the site as she did...reinforces the intertextuality of the internet and all that stuff i studied in Engl. 406/406L...sites are *meant* to be stumbled across, sites like mine, at least. That's how I want it to be anyways...that's why I don't advertise like most journalists. I guess I should call myself a "rogue-journalist" for that reason--dropped out of all the online-journalist webrings.
So it seems to be I'm accomplishing my goals in life...see many shows, spread musical joy, spread my words into the world, and live out every option I can find...how many people join the army as a 71 delta? How many people live the life I've lived so far? I take comfort in the fact that I'm trying everything out there with my choices...That desire for failure, for crash and burn is not so powerful at this time. The hopeless yearnin for the end is suppressed...although I don't see it ever completely disapearing...recent relevations reveal the fact that my life will never be fullfilling if it isn't lived on that edge...too much happiness and security will become oppressive and stagnant I think. There must always be a serious flaw for hope to remain...once all is obtained, the sprites driven away, hope is lost as well. Dreams are lost, and once hope and dreams are gone, what use if there for breath and blood and flesh?
I got paid today...$416.57...wahoo!!! get to pay some credit card companies now! Yeeha!
I'm thinking of getting an external bit mapper for my recording rig...either a Zefiro In-box or a Sony Super Bit Mapper...both are 20bit and the Zefiro is notably cheaper I believe...need to get online and check it out. Right now I've come to the conclusion that not being out of debt when I enlist will be OK if I make the most of this last civilian summer (for a few years at least) and spending another $2-300 to upgrade my rig is appealling to that ideal...particually if I can get it by PJ and TOOL and Tori!