I don't work for Lone Star anymore. The explanation would sound like a huge gripe, but the problem boils down to it being a textbook case study of why having seven managers does NOT improve communication. Take that concept, throw in me needing time off because my car is in the shop, sprinkle in a few managers who don't get the word, and suddenly I'm accused of blowing off shifts, not calling in, etc. If I may indulge myself in a minor vulgarity, "up theirs." I'm starting to think there may be some fundamental flaw in the way restaurants are run. That, or some fundamental flaw in the people who choose to run them.
Also, despite the fact that I've paid and registered for all my classes, only two of the four show up online. I got the call back from Chevy Chase today, but no one was here to take it, so *I* called back and left a message, and will call again early tomorrow. Because of the Rec center being closed there hasn't been Jujitsu in about three weeks, and I could really use the escape.
On the bright side, I've had a lot of fun with Jenni in the last two weeks. It's increasingly easy to remember why I was so attracted to her, and even more so now that some of the reservations I had aren't as applicable as they once were. (For much more on that, see 22AUG2001.) I just need to put together some sort of stable life for myself.
I almost, but not quite, got in an argument with Laura the other day. Well, yesterday to be precise. I saw her online, and from my perspective, was immediately beleaguered with pressure to further commit to CLF and the inference that I was part of an ongoing problem in that I'm unreliable as far as the church is concerned. So, while I probably should have just backed graciously out of the conversation at that point, I instead tried to explain some reasons why I'm reluctant to tie myself to the church. Big mistake, especially since some of the flaws I'm concerned about were taken quite personally. I didn't anticipate that conflict, and it's part of why I feel so worn out. That and the conflict I had with another friend a week or so ago involving my last journal entry. Note how that other friend wound up getting mentioned in the title. --Indirectly, at least. I encourage everyone to maintain a site like this. If someone was going to find something to be upset about anyway, at least this accelerates the process and gets it over with sooner.
So, now I've gone ahead and committed myself to a specific role at church, although after talking to Laura yesterday I didn't really want anything to do with it. I HATE, say again, HATE being cornered into things through attempted guilt trips. How many of you know how well I respond to people trying to manipulate or guilt-trip me into doing things? But everyone has off days. I'm going to wake up in about eight hours, make a phone call to the contact at Chevy Chase, and hopefully fall back asleep. Maybe everything will be different.
The dreams I had last night were nothing but buckets of foreshadowing. Some of them have already borne out, and some probably will. We'll see what I dream tonight.