You Begged

You don't know what I'm going though
With this situation with you
I'm entitled to make mistakes
I'm willing to do whatever it takes
To talk to you about my crush on you
But you act like this shit is through
Just tell me what I have to do
Do I have to completely impress you
Or do I have to confront you
Sing to you this or the last song
Keep saying the other girl was wrong
Or everything in you I tried to see in her
Do you just want to see me suffer
Or give you complete and utter control
Of my heart and soul

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You begged me to know
Now that they're out I can't let them go
Or try to put them back inside
Or put my feelings aside
And I don't want to put then away
Because they grow more everyday

The blame can't be just put on me
Even though that might be hard to see
You wanted to know who I had a crush on
Now I can't act like my emotions are gone
Because they were always there
But I didn't know if I dare
And pursue my inner feelings
Instead I made some bad dealings
By trying to hook up with your sister
And you tried to help me get her
But now I want to make things right
But in my mind I'm putting up a fight
About just letting this be
Or try to see if you end up with me
I don't like being like this around you
Because I'm used to being comfortable with you

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Why did I think I could compete
With guys that throw themselves at your feet
I wish I could just accept defeat
I don't even know why I even bother
I don't have a fuckin' thing to offer
You'd probably be happier with someone else
Than with someone like myself
Someone you'd like to out
Instead of someone that's always full of doubt
I'm just a tiny pebble, compared to the level
Of a guy that you can acquire
Besides you can get anyone you desire
I don't know what would make me special
Or another way to say I like you Rachel
But I really don't to quit
And not just to forget it
Because I don't want to regret it