SATURDAY, JANUARY 03, 2004

Been feeling kinda lazy these days...havent really been doing what i promised myself to do, e x e r c i s i n g ...*bleah* HEhez.. Anyway, strangely, ive not been getting the loneliness bug although ive rotted at home for quite a few days,(im prone to tt in the past)... YEAH!!! Im CURED!!!! hehez... Ive noticed alot of my peers had already started work or school while i am one of those few who still lazes around like stupified nimcompoops...hahaz...Well, hopefully, i'll get myself a job next week. My dad, however,   protest to that cuz he wants me to concentrate on singing. I mean...??? Ive loved music all my life! At least he should've shown some confidence in me ritez? Haizzz... missed my new and old friends already...*bleah* hahaz...seriously... Maybe, i can peel my lazy butt of this computer seat one day and meet up with them...hehez... Im juz soooo lazy...yrah, thats about it... here's another story to make up for my pathetically "lazy" entry today...CiAoZ!!!

As I See It

One day a wealthy family man took his son on a trip to the country so he could have his son see how poor country people were, and could appreciate what they, themselves, had. They stayed one day and one night in the farm of a very humble farm house. At the end of the trip and back home the father asked the son: "What did you think of the trip?"

The son replied: "Very nice Dad."

Father: "Did you noticed how poor they were?"

Son: "Yes."

Father: "What did you learn?"

Son: "I learned that we have one dog in the house...and they have four. We have a fountain in the garden and they have a stream that has no end. We have imported lamps in the garden, they have the stars. Our garden goes to the edge of our property, they have the entire horizon as their back yard."

At the end of the son's reply the father was speechless and his son added: "Thank you dad for showing me how poor we really are."

~ Isn't it true that all depends on the crystal you use to see life? ~

~ 10:24 p.m. ~

THURSDAY, JANUARY 01, 2004

Wah, 2003 had finally ended and 2004 have arrived!!! Lolz... Came back around morning 7am. OOooo my aching feet, i swear i'm going to be a handicap very soon if this keeps happening...heh! Had the most ENJOYABLE TIME with Michael, his friends and family yesterday. They were the most friendly people i've ever met. (I swear i'm telling the truth...) It took only mere hours before they made me feel like i'm one of them and that definitely, was a wonderful feeling.  I think such people are really hard to come by and i'm very grateful and blessed to be able to get to know them...yea...I did the countdown thing with them at their ******. It was great. They were like one big family(i mean the whole ****** people). It was really heartwarming to see them all celebrating like that. This was my first time to a countdown and i'm glad to say that this trip wasn't worth nothing, in fact, a whole lot. I saw happiness, in tears and in laughter, i saw love, in family as well as in friends. I sat there and witnessed this whole senerio and man did it felt great...heh! Its great to know that, despite, whats happening in the world now, there are people like them, still full of love and happiness. It really touched my hearts when some came out with their own personal stories and reflections of the year 2003. i've learnt that although everybody live their lives in many different ways, somehow,  they are still the same. They possessed the same spirit, the same will, the same strength and the same courage. They were all, in more ways than one, very special, not just as a group but also as every individual.

"The options in our life are all in our minds and the answers lies within our hearts"( taken from Friday, Dec 12 entry). If we were to reflect on the yester years, there are probably many different things we can remember and learn from. We would most probably try to continue the rights, stop the wrongs, cherish the good, lose the bad, treasure the loves and forgive the hates. For this, it proves that the very essence of spirituality and humanity in us. So, do take comfort in that very fact and live all your lives happily. If we ever fall, know that we are not alone and if we ever succeed in anything, know that we should be grateful, for everything, our friends, our family...etc. : )

Finally, i would like to do my usual well-wishes for the new year to people that really made an impact in my life. Kay, this is going to be one long list so bear with me yea? Hehez. They are, my parents, my two brothers, Anthony and KK(Valentino?) and their respective partners(hehez) Wendy and Yit Fang Jiez, my friends, such as Zen, CY, Michael and his family, including his parents, his brothers, Billy and Tommy, Adleen, Syahirah, Usha, Yao Wei, Michelle, Ya Hui, Hui Yu, Li Qiu, Glenn, Dharni and his Brother, Devah(izzit spelled like tt?), Kenneth, Juvena,  Alex, Edwin Lee, Joel, Joy, Amanda, Corrin, Rebecca Ng, Hui Jun, Christopher, Nurhani, Miguel, Christine, Wan Ting, Seok Hui, Kelvin Yong, Kelvin Ong, Calvin Tan, Tiong Han, Rachel, Trena, Brandon, Eugene, Yihan, Angela Ang, Anishka, Wei Ying and her brother, Wei Ming, Ronald, Fadhilah, Fazilah, Hamizah, Frankie, Zi Wei, Vincent, Angeline Lee, Joyce, Jason, Nur Lydia, Winnie, Wei Guo, Liza, Cek Kwang, Kui Siang, Raehannah, Michelle Ngiam, Cynthia, Marcus, Yat Chun, Kai ling and her brother, Kai En, Ivan, Kai Yan, Isabelle, Pamela, Yvonne, Sean, Wei Ting, Shu Yi, Rui Yee, Jie Lin, Jasmine, Bee Jia, Lynn, Ivy Melissa, Jeremy Quah and his brother Kenny, Juniper, Nadirah, Mrs Ng Wei Shan, Mdm Ong, Mdm Fazilah, Miss Chong, Mrs Aziz, Ms Yap, Mrs Kang, Mrs Lee, Ms Lee, Mr Ng, Ms Lim, Mr Quek, Mrs Ang(???), Kelly, Rudy, Ronald Susanto, Monika, Reagon, Priscilla, Gunarto(ah kai), his two sisters and his brother and finally for the new friends i just made, Victor, Deborah, Angela and her sister, Lydia, Izaac(sorry if i spell tt wrong), Joey, Emmtt Wong, Jing Yang and his little cousin, Bonnie and her friend(the funny gurl, forgot the name), Vivien, the triplets, Tom, Andy and Tommy, Hui Min and her husband, and many more(sorry, juz got to know them so memory still not tt good...heh!)

To all these people, my family and my friends and more that i fail to mentioned, you all have touched my life in many different ways and i'm grateful for your love, support and encouragment through my life. You all made me who i am today and i thank you all. i wish you all a happy new year ahead and may all of you people live your lives to the fullest and your happiest! HAPPY NEW YEAR!! ( yeh yeh... i noe, dis is a particularly looooong entry today but hey... i juz luv u ppl too much to not write down as many names as i can! HEH!)

HEhz..juz a tiny laughter for the season...

~ 4:23 p.m. ~

TUESDAY, DECEMBER 30, 2003

I was reading the newspaper this morning when i came upon an article that left me in shock. Anita Mui, a popular figure across Asia had slipped into a coma as her condition worsened due to a terminal illness known as  cervical cancer. Then around afternoon as i was channel surfing, i came upon a report on Channel 5 at the left hand side of the screen that she had died this morning already, she was only 40 years old. A mere 3/4 of life expectancy and 1/4 left to go. I've watched her shows since young and she had been an inspiring figure as long as i knew her. Her funny and clever antics in her films and concerts almost always never fail to leave me in laughter. Her determination and strength had been put on test ever since she knew of her illness. However, her will and love of life pushed her to pursue even greater heights than ever before, despite her condition. Indeed, it did come as a great shock and sadness to hear of a death of such a wonderful and all-inspiring woman.

Death is something that nobody can avoid. It comes and leaves without leaving any traces and for no rhymes or reasons. Any person, for example, our love ones or even ourselves, may die suddenly before anyone can prevent it. Indeed, there maybe no remedy to such a plague but yet, to some, it comes as a great relief and happiness. Man, has always journey on an endless pursue for a cure to end all pain and suffering. Death may be the only solution, but yet, at the same time, we are not ready to let it go just yet. Hence, it is nothing short of a controversy. To any love ones that might had died, we should all be sad as well as happy. Sad, that they had left our lives and whom we may never see again except in our memories, and happy, that they are finally at peace, free of pain and suffering. We all came into this world with people smiling around us, and we obviously, would want the same thing when we leave it.

Knowing this as a fact, we should, if not now, cherish our family and friends. We may never know when they will slip from our fingers and leave only traces in the form of memories.  We may never know when their eternal good-byes will come. The same thing goes with ourselves. We may die, but not, of course, with regrets. Thus, to treasure and cherish are things we ought to do, and we may then, have no regrets at all when we or them, which ever comes first, finally walked to the end of the road of life itself. At least, we know that they had left with our love in their hearts and our marks in their minds, vice versa.

So, love your family, your friends and yourself. We may never know when it might all end. Treasure and cherish may be our only condolence to this truth......

~ 3:15 p.m. ~

MONDAY, DECEMBER 29, 2003

I had a dream last night, a strange one and I know it must have happened before. I dreamt i was crying. I breathed the air like it was a new substance in my life. I remembered the room was very bright and strange giant figures in green was crowding around me. One of them was holding me up tentatively and i cried even harder. I remembered i was been wrapped by something warm and fuzzy to feel. I felt i was been moved here and there but finally, was laid upon a person, yet another giant figure. However, the figure was crying too, and smiling. I felt hands hugging me lightly, as if they was scared that they would hurt me. At that instance however, i calmed down almost immediately and stopped crying all together. I closed my eyes. The scent of this particular giant seems to sedate me in a mist of happiness and bliss. I could not explain why but yet, i felt as if i was safe in those warm hands, i felt that nothing would possibly be able to hurt me and if anthing were to try, these hands would protect me from it, no matter what. I woke up after that, smiling to myself and suddenly, the truth sets in on me. Those warm hands, yes, those warm, conforting hands that will protect me from harm....they were my mom's...

Dear mum,

          when you were delivering me, i know you must had been in a terrible pain, yet, your will and your strength had pushed you to bring me to this world, a world of hopes and woes but nevertheless, a world that is to be abated. Your determination had gave me the chance to see, to smell, to hear, to feel and to taste.  I know when i came into this world, i had cried, but yet, people around me were smiling, for happiness and relief. You must had been the happiest one of them all, your smile, the widest and by my heart, the fondest.

          As i grew up on my the path to adulthood. You have tentatively and carefully brought me up, tending to whatever needs that may come and every love that may be required. For this i am grateful. I know i may not be the most perfect kid in the world, i do have my tantrums and i do have my stubbornness. I may have made you sad, disappointed, stressed, angry and even brought those god-forsaken tears into your eyes, but i would never have meant it. If i could relive my life, i would have amended all those mistakes that had hit your heart like stone, but since i can't, i can only look towards to future and forget the past. I would love you even more, cherish you even more. To make it an everyday mission to put a smile on your face. i would bring tears to your eyes, not of sadness, but of happiness and hopefully, it may thus be blessed upon me as pure and sacred dews of love and joy.

         Mom? I love you. I love you like no words can describe, I love you more than anything that could be compared. I love you more than my life... I love you mom, for making all these possible from the start at all, i love you. Happy birthday and may all goodness in life be with you always...

Your beloved son,

Jared  

~ 12:56 p.m. ~

SUNDAY, DECEMBER 28, 2003

Oooo, i went for my singing lesson today(I missed last week's lesson becuz of my bro's wedding). It was pretty unnerving for me because i was one of the youngest there(the other one was a girl, also 16 yrs old) and the rest were adults. I got those strange "Is he really taking this lesson, but he's so young!" stares from most of them but in the end, they were all pretty nice to me. The lesson went pretty well, the teacher's name was Philex or something, can't really spell it...Lolz....anyway, he's a nice guy and his personality really made me relax a while later...

Went to Whitesand after that to buy a present for me beloved mama. Can't find anything suitable but since her birthday's tomorrow and today would be the last opportunity to buy her a present, i managed to narrow down my choices to a cup with the word "MUMMY", printed in large red and bold letters. Another side of the cup shows the anology of mother, like how benevolence a mom is, yada yad....hopes she'll like it...

I added this new tune on my website, courtesy of Ms Joy Tan(although i haven seek her consent yet...hehe), hope you people will like it, it's a pretty hardwarming tune for me, so...yar....thats about it for today. Since my entry's so short today, i figure i'll put up a story, so people! Enjoy!!!!

Bricks of Life

About ten years ago, a young and very successful executive named Josh was traveling down a Chicago neighborhood street. He was going a bit too fast in his sleek, black, 12 cylinder Jaguar XKE, which was only two months old. He was watching for kids darting out from between the cars and slowed down when he thought he saw something. As his car passed, no child darted out, but a brick sailed out and -WHUMP! smashed into the Jag's shiny black side door!

SCREECH...!!! Brakes slammed! Gears ground into reverse, and tires madly spun the Jaguar back to the spot from where the brick had been thrown. Josh jumped out of the car, grabbed the kid and pushed him up against a parked car.

He shouted at the kid, "What was that all about! Just what the heck are you doing?!" Building up a head of steam, he went on. "That's my new Jag, that brick you threw is gonna cost a lot of money! What were you thinking?!!!"

"Please, mister, please...I'm sorry! I didn't know what else to do!", pleaded the youngster. "I threw the brick because no one else would stop!" Tears were dripping down the boy's chin as he pointed around the parked car. "It's my brother, mister," he said. "He rolled off the curb and fell out of his wheelchair and I can't lift him up."

Sobbing, the boy asked the executive, "Would you please help me get him back into his wheelchair? He's hurt and he's too heavy for me."

Moved beyond words, the young executive tried desperately to swallow the rapidly swelling lump in his throat. Straining, he lifted the young man back into the wheelchair and took out his handkerchief and wiped the scrapes and cuts, checking to see that everything was going to be OK. He then watched the younger brother push him down the sidewalk toward their home.

It was a long walk back to the sleek, black, shining, 12 cylinder Jaguar XKE - a long and slow walk. Josh never did fix the side door of the Jaguar. He kept the dent to remind him not to live his life in a way that someone has to throw a brick at him to get his attention...

Some bricks are softer than others. Feel for the bricks of life coming to you.

~ 9:42 p.m. ~

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